Simon Constable of Chesham's Diary: Police Framing

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Conditioning, sensitising, manipulation, automatic attention grabbing by subliminal spatial cues, framing.

IPCC Reference 2016/064327.

Contents

Index

2012

November

December

2013

January

February

March

April

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July

August

September

October

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2014

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2015

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Last updated: Thu Feb 2 01:07:32 GMT 2017

The date format used throughout this document is MMM D YYYY with a couple of examples being "Feb 27 2013" and "May 5 2013".

Index

2012

November

Nov 23 2012

I went out around 18:45. A small dark car was sitting outside my house with a young man at the wheel with the window down and I think there were other people inside. As I crossed the road, the car started and drove up the hill whilst I navigated across Pheasant Rise towards Chessmount Rise. I was expecting the car to reach the top of Pheasant Rise and travel down Chessmount Rise but it didn't, and I saw a car parked at the top of Pheasant Rise with the lights on.

I walked through a path that brought me out behind some flats and the car had turned its lights off and I could see that the driver's window was open and the driver was very clearly there. I continued to walk towards the entrance to the public footpath that goes to the farm and I looked around and the cars lights were now on. The car didn't move and as I went into the field I thought that that was very strange because it's as though somebody knows where I live, what time I leave and where I'm going.


Notes:

The following was written on Sep 11 2015:

I'd say that these people were local, they'd heard something about me (a lot it appears) and thought they'd come and check me out.


Nov 29 2012

I went out around 18:40. I took the same route as I often do, into the public footpath at the end of Larks Rise at the top of Chessmount Rise. Half way across the field I heard a car horn, looked around and a bright light was shining at me from somewhere around the bottom of The Larks and the end of Shepherds Way. The light went off very shortly after.

I'm wondering if it is related to the car that apparently followed me last Friday Nov 23 2012.

Nov 30 2012

I went out around 18:40. I went out the usual time but walked behind the houses at the top of Pheasant Rise. There was a group of at least 3 people at the entrance to Larks Rise so I walked into the field via an entrance near the garages. Whilst walking up the field I heard a dog barking, looked to my left and saw 2 people in the distance walking down. Quite busy I thought.


Notes:

The following was written on Sep 11 2015:

Something that I wasn't so knowledgeable of at the time was nudging so when I read this now it could be that these people were nudging me onto another route.


December

Dec 3 2012

Went out the usual time but walked past the triangulation pillar towards the 3-way junction and saw two cars with their rear lights showing and a light on in the barn. I decided not to go where I normally do and instead smoked a cigarette at the junction. I left there the same way I arrived and as I entered the field, a strong light shone on me from the barn which I didn't notice before and the lights went off and the cars left. That could've happened while I was smoking but it had to happen when I entered the field which is a coincidence I don't like.

Dec 6 2012

I went out around 18:30. Walked across Chessmount and entered the field. Saw two cars in the corner of the field behind the houses and one parked in the lane facing down and they all had their lights on. One guy in the field got out of his car and he had a light on his head. This I have seen on a CID guy at the railway bridge at the end of Woodleigh Hill. I pretty much knew then that they were monitoring me and probably wanted me to know about it by being obvious.

I did intend to take a wider route so I started jogging and then walked along the bottom into the field near the barn. I then took an unofficial route up to the metal gate and jumped over it into the lane and then again into the field behind the sewage farm. Why? Because otherwise I'd have to walk along the main road which is not pleasurable. I then continued along into the bottom of Frith Wood and took the unofficial track through it to the top.

I was starting to enjoy the peace and then bright lights started flashing through the wood and I thought oh my god, I'm being monitored by those guys I saw in the field earlier. It wasn't a nice experience, something I can only describe as like being hunted. I walked the official path to Blackwell Hall Lane and it was very busy on the roads, cars going around the edge of the field. It went quiet as I walked across the field and I worked my way around the big house to the Brick Yard lane and there was a car going down the lane which I'd never seen before. It then went quiet, I sat at the bench as usual but I didn't see anything else after that. It was pretty obvious though that they were doing their best to monitor my movements and knew where I was going.


Notes:

The following was written on Sep 11 2015:

I don't remember exactly when I experienced CID guys (and a woman) at the railway bridge at the end of Woodleigh Hill but it could've been over the darker months of 2011 or 2010. I've used that route many many times and it's great, it takes you on a track through a wood which comes out just short of Amersham-on-the-Hill so it's a really useful and pleasant route that gave me a good walk up to Tesco's Express Amersham in the evenings. I remember this encounter with them clearly: as I approached the railway bridge I saw a car parked with a woman sitting in the front passenger seat whom I recognised as a CID lady that had interviewed me up Amersham regarding a couple of incidents I'd experienced with an intimidating Pakistani looking guy along The Backs (he was dealing in stolen items from hooded white youths and had been involved in a vehicle theft or theft from a vehicle) and she wanted me to place him so I gave a statement. I smiled at the woman as I walked past her vehicle but she gave me a really bad look in return! When I went under the railway bridge there were a group of young males possibly in their twenties and they had lights on their heads and I said "Evening" to them and one or two of them replied and as I walked past there was a flash like a camera flash going off.


Dec 8 2012

I went out around 18:35. Went to the supermarket first and then turned back towards home but took an alternative route up over the hills. There were no lights anywhere bleeding across the countryside and there was nothing to report until I made my way back down to the town. I used the public footpaths but there is an alternate unofficial route that runs parallel to the path which is preferable because it's grassy and I can clean up my boots before going shopping. I noticed that there was a bright light shining at me all the way down the field and as I approached the fence to cock my leg over I stopped looking at the light until I got over it and then saw that the light had gone out. I thought about this whilst walking home and came to the conclusion that I was being watched and perhaps it was me taking an unofficial route that they were looking for.


Notes:

The following was written on Sep 11 2015:

I started to experience this a lot, having bright lights shine on me from a distance too and this one was coming from possibly the yard above the bowling green in Lowndes Park (I think that a council or utility yard is there). I think that they were making me aware that I was being watched and once they'd detected that I'd realised that then they'd switch the light off.


Dec 9 2012

I went out around 18:30. Walked up Bois Moor Hill to Amersham and to Tesco's Express Amersham, then walked down behind the football meadow. I walked down the official path and it was very very muddy which made my feet feel very heavy. As I got towards the corner of the football club, a light came on and a guy came out and got in a car. The light I have noticed many times before and it puzzled me what somebody was doing there at that time in the evening. I never really gave it much thought before but it could be somebody monitoring me and it will have been happening for some time.

Dec 11 2012

I went out around 19:10. Went out later, across Chessmount into the field as usual and across the farm. Walked up to the junction, had a cigarette, then walked across the field to the corner where the water is near the triangulation pillar, then kept walking i.e. I didn't stop and sit on the bench. Walked back the usual route and saw what I thought was a green firework coming down nearby but there was no noise. It was very frozen and foggy out. I'm wondering if it was a flare but there wasn't any obvious light cast. Kept walking the usual route down the field to the White Hill Centre and only noticed the very bright lights up at Lowndes School. Actually the lights at the Leisure Centre were very bright too. Anyway, I kept to the paths and kept my cigarette butts so I wasn't doing anything wrong in the slightest.

Dec 12 2012

I went out around 18:40. Left my house and went along my street. About six houses along there is a new street lamp -- very tall and very bright -- with barricades around it and it was functioning. I then continued along the Backs and whilst I stubbed out and deposited my cigarette into the bin at the top of Hospital Hill I saw a car sitting there lower down facing me with its side lights on.

I continued on past the train station and a hooded guy walked past me at speed very very closely near the station which was odd, I went to the supermarket and bought a lottery ticket and then caught the next train to Chalfont. I walked to Bell Lane and then along the side of the valley on the public footpath. I stopped by the cow trough and had a cigarette and the valley looked beautiful from there because it was frozen and thick with mist, not quite as high up as me but not much below me either. I saw a light in the sky above Chesham pointing towards me. It wasn't moving around much and even though I was looking at the front of it I presume, I could see that it was flickering with some coloured lights too. I walked through the small wood which takes me to the bridge over the railway in the next field and I saw that the light in the sky was still there pointing towards me. I worked my way through to Quill Hall Lane and then I'd forgotten about it by then.

The cigarettes I smoked I kept and deposited in bins. The official path near the cow trough is thick with bramble and very difficult to navigate through and you can walk up the side of the field to the trough. The farmer has plowed the field but left a little edge that people have been walking on I presume because it's flat and trampled. Normally this wouldn't concern me since it's what people do, but knowing that I'm being watched and documented it makes me feel uncomfortable. The problem is that that path especially becomes impassable over the warmer months and so people walk along the edge of the field, and then that becomes the new route because the official path just gets worse and worse. I walked along it a while back when it was muddy (it's frozen up along there now) and it was very difficult and dangerous to navigate through. I was all over the place in the mud and the brambles kept tangling around my feet and catching on my clothing. The path does occasionally get cleared but its very rare.

Dec 13 2012

I noticed that the Backs have been cleaned. It hardly gets cleaned anymore so this I found interesting. I'm wondering if an attempt is being made to accumulate recordings of me dropping cigarette ends so that's why I am now making sure that they go into bins.


Notes:

The following was written on Sep 11 2015:

Oh how amusing this reads now. If only it was all about littering!


Dec 16 2012

I went out around 19:15. Walked down Chessmount. Passed a 40-50 couple at the end of Fryer Close, passed two 40-50 guys walking up the hill and saw one 50-60 guy standing at the bottom.

Walked across the gravel pit and up through Bois Wood and across Chesham Bois CC where I eventually noticed a man standing staring at me near the southern end of the fence around the pitch.

Two big guys were walking dogs down the road by Guidos, South Road I think.

I walked back the same way and it was quiet.

Dec 17 2012

I went out around 19:05. Walked along the Backs, saw a couple of individual guys, nothing odd.

Walked up Germain St., saw two big guys going west and then they turned back towards me. I crossed the road and followed the river to the Queens Head, then into the park and across Pednor. It was fine until coming back along Herberts Hole where the light was in the sky again above the town pointing my way. I'm guessing it was a helicopter as it did turn around and I could see its flashing lights.

I'm pretty certain that a helicopter is monitoring the area from high enough not to be obvious until like me you look at the town from afar.

I've gotta walk somewhere! I kept to the proper routes and binned my cigarette ends.

Dec 23 2012

I went out around 18:30. Took my usual route tonight, across to Larks Rise, into the field and up to the junction and had a cigarette. I then walked across to the bench and everything was fine until a bright light came on where they'd been before, in the field behind the houses atop Rose Drive. I moved behind the tree to block it out and a couple of minutes later I got up and walked off and the light wasn't on. I'm guessing it's CID letting me know that they are still monitoring me although I'm not doing anything wrong. I had a really nice peaceful walk up until they shone a light on me, and I kept my cigarette ends and deposited them in the bin near the White Hill Centre.

23:01 There was a weird scratching sound on my window ledge. I've heard this twice recently and the first time I saw that it was a pidgeon but the second time I just assumed that it was. Probably it was the same pidgeon again.

Dec 24 2012

I went out around 19:00. Went along Bois Moor Road and saw a car slowly coming down Woodleigh Hill. Walked up to Amersham across the cricket meadow. Walked up Hervines Road and saw a car sitting with its lights on up Devonshire Avenue. Made my way through Weedon Lane and saw a 4x4 go past at the end which drove into the next road along, Woodfield Park. Went along Deep Acres and into the wood and was going to walk down past Mayhall Farm but I saw a guy in the field with a torch and a 4x4 was parked up the side of the field, so I walked down behind the houses and through the wood. As I walked across the muddy field at the back of the football meadow, I heard a whistle coming from the wood that people walk through but you're not supposed to.

I think that I was being monitored and the land owner was called out by CID to catch me using unofficial routes, but I didn't take any although it's very tempting because the muddy field is terrible. Anyway, I had a nice walk and didn't do anything that could be considered wrong by somebody.


Notes:

The following was written on Sep 11 2015:

I think it's likely that it was just agents/detectives.


Dec 26 2012

I went out around 18:40. Walked up to Amersham through the railway bridge at the end of Woodleigh Hill. Bought some sweets in Tesco's Express Amersham and then walked past the police station, through Green Lane and into the end of Stubbs Wood Road.

I decided to take a route I haven't used for a while, down the public footpath towards Blackwell Hall Lane. Well, as I walked down towards the main road, a bright light came on on the farmhouse at the bottom although I think they're just residential properties now. I had my torch on and I was on the public footpath so I wasn't doing anything wrong so I kept walking. Then I saw a car approach very slowly along the main road and it was going to manoeuvre into the track towards the properties. At this point I was at the style so I climbed over it to walk across the track towards another style and somebody ran past me very fast as I climbed over the second style. I heard a lady say "Is everything alright?" and I just kept walking towards the main road.

I didn't know what was going on there but it wasn't any of my business and being in a little tree covered route I couldn't see anything anyway. I walked across the main road, up Blackwell Hall Lane and then took the Chess Valley Walk home. So what was that all about? Who would even know I was was walking down there unless somebody was monitoring me and preparing some sort of welcoming. I'm wondering if CID are attempting to cause unnecessary panic by alerting people somewhere along my route that I'm coming! Bizarre. All of the routes I'm using I've walked, jogged, cycled for decades. It was going to be a peaceful walk which is the whole point of doing it but that part of it was uncomfortable.

I'm wondering if I should discuss this with somebody although who?

2013

January

Jan 3 2013

I went out around 18:30. Went out speedily tonight because I wanted to have a look at a new route. I went up the field to the crossroads and there was a noise in the lane as I turned up the hill. I know what deer sound like when startled and badgers too but this sounded like a person who heard me and stopped. As I walked up the hill there was some movement on the gravelly lane but I don't know what it was -- I just continued onwards. I saw a man walking a dog there a while back without a torch who popped out of the lane as I approached so it could've been the same person.

I took the footpath that goes behind the old Five Bells to Cowcroft Wood and I saw a car go up Tyler's Hill and disappeared near Cowcroft Farm. I walked through Cowcroft Wood and took a right and there was a very bright light coming in from somewhere around the top of Kiln Lane. It was very bright and irritating having that shining into the side of your face when trying to navigate through there. I don't know what it was, from where it was coming from I didn't think there was anything there except possibly an outdoor pursuits camp or something buried in evergreen trees.

I walked across the field into the brickyard lane and then down to the road. I couldn't see where the entrance was to the footpath that I was interested in and so I left it because I know where the other end is and I'll try it from the other end tomorrow. I had a brief walk across the common and through the little paths near the golf course and then went back up the brickyard lane. I walked through Cowcroft and I saw a light out the corner of my left eye and I looked around and it was going down. I stood there wondering what it was and then I heard a big bang. It was like the bang was related to the light but it was delayed as though it was from a distance -- very strange.

I made my way to the bench where I normally enjoy a cigarette, finished it, put the end in pocket as I do and then started to walk back down the field to the crossroads at the lane. I had the old Five Bells behind me and there was a flash of light coming from that direction so I looked around and I caught a bright light arcing up into the sky. There was a lot of moisture in the air so you could see the thick column of light going up a distance, and then it went out. I continued on and turned down the hill and I saw a car going down Tylers Hill past where I saw the light going up. I then saw a lot of light shining up through the air from where the car was but that could've been its lights bouncing off of something. I don't know what to make of that. Did somebody shine a bright light at me and then point it up into the sky?

I walked back the usual route, down the field near Dungrove Farm that towards the White Hill Centre and I didn't notice anything else weird. There is at least one very bright light at the top of Lowndes Park that shine on the side of the valley that I'm walking down which is very odd but that's about it.

Too many strange things! It's supposed to be peaceful out there, and dark.


Notes:

The following was written on Sep 11 2015:

I did eventually discover that there was a complex with some big security lights at the top of Lowndes Park. As for the rest, it's some agents/detectives with a very bright focused flood light shining it at me. I guess the intention is to dissuade me from walking those routes.


Jan 4 2013

I went out around 18:30. Went for a walk.


Notes:

The following was written on Jul 23 2013:

I was going to enter something here but never did although I do remember some of it: I went across to Codmore Wood / Frith Wood to again locate the entrance to a new route I was interested in but I didn't have a lot of time to mess about and when I got there there were one or two cars at the entrance to the wood shining their lights through the wood so I simply walked back. I walked along the footpath that runs near to White End Park Farm and a bright light was shone on me but I didn't look at it.


Jan 6 2013

I went out around 19:15. Went along Bois Moor Road and up underneath the railway bridge at the end of Woodleigh Hill. A nice quiet pleasant evening up to Tesco's Express Amersham to buy some sweets. I walked back the way I came but went down through Hodds Wood because I didn't have a lot of time left and it brings me out near the open air swimming pool. When I entered the wood at the top there was about as much light as you could expect, but then it got very bright with lots of bright lights shining in. There were a couple that appeared to be coming from near the railway bridge which I thought was strange because it's normally just moon lit and peaceful.

I kept walking and the strength of the light coming in was very noticeable. It got to the point where it was as though strong light was being shone in and moving around which is silly because it's normally just peaceful with enough ambient light to see, especially since it was a bit foggy which scatters light all around. I focused on a point of light coming from my intended route and it was moving, and then as I made my way down it went quiet like people on the periphery again buzzing me and then disappearing off.

I made my way down to the lane that goes past a property set back into a field and that was all lit up too. As I walked past quietly I thought I could hear people mumbling.

Whatever this activity is it's ruining my walks. Today I released a new Linux application and updated an existing one that is used on Puppy Linux, a Linux distribution in the the top 10 and just wanted to take a peaceful walk out and think about what I've done today. I don't want to be buzzed by people.

I think I'm going to have to talk to somebody about whatever is going on here. It's not doing me any good. I need a good energetic peaceful walk and I'm just getting stressed out.

Jan 7 2013

I went out around 19:20. Went across Larks Rise and past the farm and then walked around the big field. I then stopped at the bench and had a cigarette and it was nice and quiet and normal. No big lights bleeding everywhere or shining into my face, just peaceful like how it used to be.

I really enjoyed the walk, it was hard work because of the mud but that's what makes me feel so good. I hope this normality is going to stay now. I go out to get some exercise and some peace, being buzzed all the time is not therapeutic.

Jan 10 2013

Personal information originally recorded here has been moved to my Personal Diary.

Jan 12 2013

I went out around 19:00. Took an often used route across the farm and then up to the bench and had a cigarette. Walked back and was really enjoying the walk and then passed the farm at the top of White Hill. I stopped in the field near a bush and had a wee as I always drink 500ml of water on my walks. I noticed a bright light shining from the farm above the field behind the football meadow and that particular location has a good view across the side of the valley I walk on. I looked at it for a while and rolled a cigarette to have on my way down the field (amazing views of the town) and then the light went out.

I'm not doing anything wrong, but I feel like I need to mention this because it would appear as though people are being told about my walking and I'm not being confronted about it. This same somebody that is monitoring me (having a wee too) can probably say whatever they think about me -- propagating their opinion as fact -- so being monitored/videoed having a wee concerns me because what are they going to do with that? What is it that they are going to say about me next?

The best thing I can do is simply record everything and then I've got something that I can refer back to. I've been thinking that maybe I should mailshot the houses in my area and invite people to email me anything they've been told so that I can check it out. Having the community being told things about me and not having anything to confront is insidious. As I said above, it's propagating opinion as fact, changing people's opinion of me but not giving me the opportunity to defend myself.

Jan 17 2013

I went out around 18:15.


Notes:

The following was written on Jul 23 2013:

I was going to enter something here but never did and I can't remember what it was now.


Jan 21 2013

I went out around 18:45. Initially waked across the road to take my usual route but then realised I needed to visit the supermarket first so I returned towards my house and then kept walking along to the town.

After crossing Hospital Hill I was passed by a jogger -- a tall and thin man with black side-striped tracksuit bottoms, a yellow top and a black wooly balaclava. As I approached the bridge he was doing up his shoelaces at the bottom but then got up and carried on along the Backs. I reached the top of Jacobs Ladder and he was coming back towards me so he couldn't have even reached the train station, he must've given up somewhere along that stretch and turned back. I looked at him in the face when he passed me and I could see that he was white through the round hole in his balaclava.

I mention this because it was odd. I've never seen this guy before and this is quite a common experience for me to see one-off people jogging, his route was odd, I was walking and I couldn't wear a balaclava because I'd boil so that was overkill in my opinion, his jogging lacked effort and he kept staring at me whilst I looked at him and he didn't look away. I'm familiar with this type of person, one-off people with strange movements, looking at me with an authoratative intensity.

I eventually walked through Cowcroft wood and then sat on the bench for a cigarette. I then walked around and down the field and up to the farm. I noticed that a bright light was shining at me from the top of Bois Moor Hill near the electricity station so I stared at it for a period and then walked off. Immediately afterwards I noticed that it had gone out. I kept walking and when I reached the second field up towards the farm -- I could again see that part of the opposite hillside -- I noticed that the light was on again. I walked forward but not far before the light became obscured by the woodland there.

I forgot to mention that when I was walking out I noticed that there was somebody near the top of the field above Trapps Lane/Broomstick Lane but when I go up there I couldn't see anybody. There was definitely somebody there because the ground is covered completely in snow and there was a long dark line like a figure on the hillside before the treeline. I'm wondering if that was related to the mystery jogger along the Backs.


Notes:

The following was written on Sep 11 2015:

The bright light coming from the other side of the valley at the top of Bois Moor Hill I'd noticed for a long time and I must've spent many many evenings smoking a cigarette and just staring at it and wondering what it was. It was likely agents/detectives sitting up there with a focused flood light.


Jan 26 2013

I went out around 18:35. I went along the Backs first to Sainsbury's Chesham to get a lottery ticket and then went up through Brushwood Road and took the path through the fields towards Brockhurst Farm. I took the path running down the side of the farm and a short while later a bright light illuminated me from behind. The reason I noticed was that my shadow was cast in front of me. I looked around and I saw car headlights and then it drove off as though it had come to a junction to the road behind me and then turned into the road towards Chesham. I was reminded of a similar experience a while back up the near the old Five Bells when I was shone upon from behind and when I looked around I saw a bright light shining up into the sky and a car was involved with that too. I had an idea that I had been buzzed by the people monitoring me but it could've just been headlights so it didn't occupy my thoughts.

I carried on along the footpath towards Botley Road and a light came on near the barn at the end of the track and a chap with a red jacket on went towards the barn, and then the light went out. I carried on towards the barn and it was dark when I got there, I walked out onto Botley Road and then down Broomstick Lane into Cowcroft Wood. I got the feeling that somebody was notified of my presence and that somebody was hiding in the barn watching me walk past.

The light illuminating me from behind made more sense when I got home and wrote this up referencing the OS map: there are no roads leading off of the road behind me, just the lane up the side of a house which I walked down earlier which was around the same place where I noticed the headlights of a car, so either somebody drove out of that house or somebody came along the road and reversed into it and then went back the way they came.

There's definitely a theme going on here: I walk somewhere and then there's activity at the other end when I get there. I'm still undecided what to do. I have a right to walk these routes and I don't do anything wrong so warning people about me is defamatory. I need to think about what I should do if anything.

Jan 27 2013

11:12 I think I've discovered why a light is shone on me from behind when I go out: it could be a method to get me to turn around so that they have my face on film, and possibly they are using facial recognition software.

February

Feb 22 2013

I went out around 18:50. Went out about that time and walked up Trapps Lane to the end which has been filled in with gravel and sand which is quite amazing since it's been pot holes and rocks for, well, forever! I'm wondering why money would be spent doing that. Who needs a flat driving surface up there?

I reached the end of Trapps Lane and was about to walk across Tylers Hill when a car's lights came on which was weird so I went up the side of the field instead intending to walk to the top of Tylers Hill. When I got to the gate a/the car came up the hill and slowed so I stood and watched it slowly continue. Hmm, two weird things there I thought so I went back down the field and then across the road and up Broomstick Lane. I then went into Cowcroft Wood. Whilst in there I was going to walk through it to the track that goes towards the bench but I saw the rear lights of a car at the top of Kiln Lane and a very bright light was shining at me so I walked towards Cowcroft Farm and walked to the bench via the path past the old Five Bells.

It just feels to me as though I was being monitored again.

Feb 26 2013

I went out around 18:45. Went across Larks Rise into the farm and up to the usual corner of the field and had a cigarette. Then went across the field past the house to the bench in the edge of the wood. I had a cigarette and walked off out of the wood into the field and saw a light coming along and some talking. I wanted to go down and up to Hill Farm and down to the moor so I walked on and looked behind me and the person or people came out of the wood cutting off the corner so they had rapidly moved since I last saw their light.

I walked past the old Five Bells and across the field and looked for their light and everytime I looked their way it looked as though their light was shining in my direction rather than in front of them. I kept going down the field and they reached the top of the field by the sign post and their light was flashing in my direction. It was pitch black up there and I was nowhere near them so it would've been difficult for them to see me. And why was their light flashing?

I walked up Pump Lane and looked back once I'd got some height and they were coming my way. I kept hearing chatter which made them sound near but I know that people can be heard for a big distance out in the countryside. I walked towards Hill Farm and although I never saw their light, I heard chatting which sounded like it was coming from somewhere in the fields there. I heard it again as I walked down the lane.

Possibly those people were attempting to scare me off and the voices I was hearing were other people in the field where I'd previously seen the cars. Strange. I was walking quite fast because it felt like they were following me with haste. I walked over the river Chess and cleaned my boots, across the moor, up the town and then home along the Backs.

Feb 27 2013

I went out around 18:25. This was an interesting evening. I initially walked across to Chessmount Rise intending to go over to the farm although I hadn't quite decided on a route. When I walked out onto the hill I looked up and saw one or more policemen getting into a van which drove down the hill, and there was a car and a van parked at the top corner of Pheasant Rise. It didn't take me very long to decide on another route. What were they doing? I didn't really want to walk past them into the field so I turned around and walked down to Sainsbury's Chesham to buy some mints. I also noticed that there was a bright yellowish light in the sky which could've been a helicopter. Earlier there were two occasions where noisy helicopters flew over my house, noisy enough for me to want to look out of the window but I didn't see them.

After Sainsbury's Chesham I walked down to the route under the bridge at the end of Woodleigh Hill and up to Amersham. I got some milk and biscuits in Tesco's Express Amersham and then walked down to Cresswell Road. I didn't see any police activity until I'd walked across the moor where a police van drove by as I walked past the swimmming pool. Then whilst walking by the river Chess a police car drove through the moor road. I crossed the main road and took the path through the water meadow and a police van drove down Red Lion Street. I went to Sainsbury's Chesham and bought some muesli, walked back down the town and I saw one more police car but I can't remember where now.

I got the impression that a helicopter was about because I could see the same bright yellowish light hovering above Chesham when I was on the moor, and when I was walking up to Amersham there was a well lit plane flying low banking over me. Why? What was it doing banking low over the edge of Hodds Wood at 19:30? Very strange. When something is low and noisy, bright and obvious and it gets my attention then it should be noted.

Because I went out a little earlier than usual, I noticed that there was light remaining and soon I'm going to be very adventurous with my walks so if somebody is attempting to dissuade me from taking certain routes then are they going to be doing this throughout the warmer lighter evenings? It doesn't make a lot of sense does it. Actually neither do a police car, two vans and a helicopter at the top of Chessmount. Maybe I should just assume that it couldn't possibly be anything to do with me walking along rural routes in the evenings. I've seen dog walkers, cyclists, kids who'd been out in the snow, parties of people possibly scouts or guides.


Notes:

The following was written on Sep 11 2015:

Reading this now it's possible that my attackers (I referred to them as my monitors back then until I realised that they were framing me) were simply upping their numbers, being more obvious and intimidating possibly because their flood lights weren't being as effective as they'd expected.


March

Mar 2 2013

I went out around 18:45. Went across Larks Rise, past the farm and around the main field. I stopped at the bench on the edge of the wood and then walked down and back up to the farm. There was a plane flying around which flew over me low as I walked up the lane towards the farm and I looked up and it was lit similarly to the one that flew over me last Wednesday. The white lights on the ends of the wings are bright and bulbous. It did the same type of manoeuvre as the other night, a low approach and then a tight bank before it got to me - a strange thing that should be noted.

Mar 5 2013

I went out around 19:10. Went across Larks Rise, past the farm and down and up the field towards the bench. As I was walking up the main field there was a very bright light shining from the field/houses at the top of Rose Drive closest to the farm but I didn't look round. I could see it in the corner of my eye but so what, I'm going for a pleasant walk around the field that is strenuous enough to make me feel as though I've achieved something and then down to Sainsbury's Chesham as usual to get some supplies. By the time I reached the bench, there were no bright lights.

Later at about 23:30 a police helicopter encircled my group of houses twice. I couldn't see that it was a police helicopter because it was dark but I know the sound they make. I'm just recording it, it doesn't necessarily involve me but you need to write these things down if you want to detect patterns otherwise they get forgotten.

Mar 20 2013

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Mar 21 2013

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Mar 22 2013

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April

Apr 4 2013

19:30 Now that the evenings are lighter (but still freezing cold) I've been walking up Pednor and it's been nice, very quiet, and I often see at least one person walking or with a dog.

Yesterday Wednesday Apr 3 2013 I walked back into the field before heading up to Lowndes Park and a I saw a couple of black dogs but I couldn't see the owner because the light was going. Eventually I saw him and he was standing still, watching me approach. He was pleasant enough, happy, smiley. He said "Where did you come from then? You just appeared out of the gloom" and I said that I'd been out that way and was walking back. I then told him the difficulty I had seeing him because of his camouflaged jacket but that stopped him talking. There was nothing wrong about our interaction, I just thought that that was amusing, me pointing out that he was the one who was camouflaged and difficult to spot. Sometimes people don't see the obvious and I think that I made him think about it.

Tonight I was walking back in the same place, the field with the horses by the bottom road, and a very bright light was shining from the woods up Chartridge Lane. It caught my eye because it was so bright and because of its remoteness and then it went off! I'm going to guess that that was the people who are monitoring me -- I've experienced that so many times before. It doesn't surprise me at all as I now expect it to be happening, but I wonder why it is that they feel the need to buzz me with their flood lights. All that would really do is persuade me to visit even remoter places. I should get a new torch which is easier to use for morse code and send them a fun message :)


Notes:

The following was written on Sep 11 2015:

I'm being humouress here with the morse code torch but it's nice to read because these people get extremely evil later on and you can see that I had no idea what was really going on here.


Apr 5 2013

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Apr 10 2013

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Apr 21 2013

23:12 I went out earlier and I just want to record something because I've experienced it before and it's odd.

I was walking back through the little wood above the football meadow about 20:15 and I'd had half a bottle of water which now needed to be relieved so I took a leak behind a tree away from the path. When I reached the gate at the field's edge there was a bright light shining from the football meadow near the stand/wall at the field's edge which then went off as I walked into the field.

Very odd. It wasn't even necessary to have lights on although there were a few on near the clubhouse.

I'm wondering if I'm being set-up for something by the people who've been monitoring me. It would be easy to do wouldn't it if you really wanted to do that sort of thing. Maybe I should stop drinking water when I'm out to minimise me having to take a leak so I won't have to worry about it, but I drink water because I need it when I'm exercising.

The main thing is I've got my concerns written down.

Apr 23 2013

22:57 I went out earlier and a dog bit me up the lanes around 18:50 near the 3-way junction next to the wood. There was a smart looking couple with a young daughter and a dog on a lead and the wife was pulling it but it jumped and sank its teeth into the top of my right leg through my shorts. I have two puncture marks and the top one hit my bone.

The guy's name is Chester King phone number [private].

I saw an ambulance in the town on the way home and the guys looked at it for me but they couldn't do much else. I can't go to A&E in Stoke Mandeville as I don't have a car and getting back is a nightmare. They recommended I ring 111 or tell my GP in the morning.

I spat on the wound a couple of times after the incident and when I got home I put some Savlon on it, but I've noticed that my throat has now swollen up which could be a sign that I have an infection. I'll have to deal with it in the morning.

23:13 My ears are now swollen. Is it something to do with my lymph glands?


Notes:

The following was written on Sep 12 2015:

This was the first of three bitey/nippy dog incidents across the countryside above my house during this period but there were some other incidents that were uncomfortable and one in fact developed into something quite amusing. I've not experienced dog bites/nips before in my life and in 2013 that would've been 46 years so what with the all the agents/detectives hovering around me dissuading me from exercising in the countryside and the nudging, the manipulation of my free will to place me where my attackers want me to be, well, you do the maths, the probability of them all being suspect is very high but I have to be careful with this one because the people involved were Chester King and his wife Tessa who live just along the public footpath from where the incident took place and they are members of the King family who own Stoke Park Country Club (I simply searched for his name using an Internet search engine) so I think I'll just leave the details of it in my mind.

Tessa King did send me a card containing £40 in Waitrose vouchers and wrote me a nice letter so I was very thankful for that and I bought some very nice foods. They also paid for my prescription that my doctor gave me.

Their house sits on a junction of public footpaths and I couldn't tell you how many times I've walked that route and in fact I watched their house being built so I've had decades more aquaintance of that location than they have. During this period I experienced many occasions whereby their house was completly lit up and I'd even noticed curtain twitching and being illuminated by a floodlight from adjoining farm buildings so it makes me feel as though they were being told that I was walking past and that they'd had some dealings with my attackers (agents/detectives) and I do wonder if I was being dissuaded from walking around there because of the Kings.

I did have an incident with their dog before when I pushed my bicycle past their house and their dog was on the road/track barking at me and being very intimidating and I shouted out for somebody to come and take it back onto their property and Tessa got Chester to come out and do it.


Apr 24 2013

10:16 Made an appointment to see my doctor today about my dog bite injury and I got 16:40! Amazing.

Apr 25 2013

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May

May 3 2013

22:17 I went out about 19:30 for a walk and I jogged across Larks Rise into the field past the farm. I then walked down the field and I noticed that a big pudding stone that's normally half buried near a tree had been pulled out and deposited in the field where you walk -- very strange. When the weather warms up and the evenings are sunnier I have often sat on that stone and had a cigarette whilst looking at the view. That's what's odd about it, as though somebody knows that and is playing with me. It's a big stone -- what business would anybody have pulling it out from there! Puzzling indeed.

Whilst I'm recording stuff I want to note that a couple of evenings over the last week or two I've seen a yellow haired woman walking her dog and on the first occasion I said "Evening" and she just told her dog forcefully to "come along". The next time I saw her I was entering through a swing gate and I let her dog through before walking through and holding the gate for her. I said "cheers" because she waited for me but she didn't say anything at all even after I handed her the gate. I have seen her before and she's a regular, it's just that she's either blanking me out or she's a bit odd. She does look a bit odd. It doesn't bother me because I'm being nice which is all that matters. If people want to be rude then it's their soul they're tainting.

May 5 2013

18:07 Just a note to say that the rock that had been moved out into the field that I reported on the May 3 2013 looks as though it could've been done by a tractor because something has been up and down the field which can be seen by the grass direction and also there are numerous other rocks yanked/scraped out from the edge.

May 16 2013

11:24 I just want to note that even though it seems quiet out and about jogging in the evenings, I'm seeing single fit younger-than-me males jogging and they are new faces and one-offs. That's one thing you can't hide if you're an agent/detective, the fact that you aren't a regular face doing the same thing over and over out of habit.

May 18 2013

23:37 Normally I have a cigarette along the Backs and finish it by the litter bin (which I deposit it in) at the top of Springfield Road but tonight I had half remaining so I continued to smoke it going up the steps and path. When I got to Whichcote Gardens there was just a very small paper end left and I crumpled it up to nothing and flicked it into the tree near the street lamp. As I did this there was a rustling noise coming down the lane and a man coming up the lane which I thought was odd. I regret dropping that insignificant piece of paper now because I feel as though I need to be extra careful about protecting myself from games playing. It could just be me being extra sensitive.

May 19 2013

21:18 Went out for a nice big walk/jog and walked along the top of Amersham Hill when a car went past, somebody shouted something and threw an empty 10 cigarette packet at me but it didn't hit me. The car registration was R980 ULK, a small dark blue hatchback. I recognise this car but I don't know where from. I'll have a jog around and see if I can locate it.

May 22 2013

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May 26 2013

23:10 Went across Larks Rise into the field and three guys were laying in the grass and a dog appeared on the path. It was barking at me and was moving back and not going away so I stood still whilst the owner came over and attempted to restrain it but it came towards me and I bent over to wave it away with my hand so it didn't go anywhere near my bare legs and it jumped up and bit my wrist.

The guy -- 18 maybe, spotty, dark short hair, black Harrington like jacket with tartan lining -- wouldn't give me his name and contact details so I said I'd get the police and I used the phone of a nearby lady. A group of people then gathered around me and somebody said the guys had gone into a neighbouring field and the police said they were on their way so I told the people to tell the police I'd gone off after them. I jogged around the whole area and I couldn't see them so I guess they'd gone down the hill and run off.

The police visited my home and left a card with the crime reference number on it -- 1206.

That's twice now I've been bitten since Apr 23 2013, one month ago -- very strange. I've never been bitten before that in 46 years.


Notes:

The following was written on Sep 14 2015:

Dog bite/nip incident number two, a month following the first one, my second such experience of my entire life of 46 years at that time.

At the time I didn't suspect that these people could've been put there by my attackers but now I know that they are capable of assembling a group of people of any age.


May 28 2013

00:15 This is an observation about the May 26 2013 when I jogged around looking for the guys with the dog that bit me as I've been thinking about some joggers I came across and they were both strange situations which I initially missed but should record:

I jogged down the lane and at the bottom crossroads I saw two male joggers coming towards me. I said "have you seen 3 guys with a dog down there?" and what was strange was that I felt they were reluctant to talk to me and the older guy who I asked eventually quietly said "no" but wouldn't look at me. The other strange thing about them was that they'd jogged past the path up another hill which I took and then they followed. I jogged up there slowly whilst looking around and they stayed behind me which I thought was odd because I wasn't putting much effort into it. I slowed down and walked and they went past, I then went back. It feels now like they were looking for me as observers, didn't really want to engage with me and then attempted to follow me.

I jogged about a bit and then returned to the field where I thought the police might be waiting to talk with me about the dog bite incident but nobody was there. I continued out and down the road to the bottom and jogged along the path. A stocky male jogger then overtook me when I slowed down or was walking and I didn't think anything of that until he stopped and stood on the edge of a forecourt of a car dealership and waited whilst I walked past. I thought that it was such an odd place to stop and I looked at him but there was no acknowledgement or anything.

So, both of these are strange and I nearly didn't think anymore about them.

00:56 Another thought: the first two joggers and the stocky guy didn't want to look at me because they didn't want me to get too good a look at them. The reason I was thinking about this was because all these one-offs I keep seeing, somebody must be getting through a lot of agents/detectives whoever they are but then I thought maybe they're using techniques to prevent me from recognising them and that rang a bell. I'm now thinking back when I've appeared on a lane and seen joggers coming and they've gone off at 90 degree angles and I thought it was odd. I should keep and eye out for this from now on.

16:03 Just made a doctor's appointment for tomorrow Wednesday May 29 2013 at 09:10.

21:38 Went round Pednor for a jog as it'd been raining. Jogged up the road and came back along Herberts Hole and I saw one car on my way out, a learner. When along Herberts Hole I heard a voice coming from the lane that comes down from the top and when I got to the bottom I saw a single jogger with a red top going towards Chesham. Was he talking to himself? Maybe he was on his phone. Who knows, but worth noting.

May 29 2013

15:47 Went to the doctors this morning for a 09:10 appointment except after 09:40 I got bored watching the clock -- who'd have thought that such a big delay could develop so early in the morning!

Dr Barnett said that my dog bite wound was fine and that my immune system has dealt with any infection so there was no need for antibiotics which is good.

That's it.

June

Jun 1 2013

22:16 I went out for a nice long jog/walk up through the town and along the vale a little and up through the park/woods to the top of Nashleigh. I then went along the road and into the field opposite the old car dealer. I went across the field, up an overgrown lane towards the electricity station and had to take a leak behind a tree because I was bursting. Nobody was behind me and neither in front and I was behind a big tree. I'm recording this so that if anyone confronts me about urinating in the countryside then I can refer to this diary entry.

Other than that it was quiet, no male joggers acting suspiciously or people on the periphery which made a pleasant change. I don't carry a phone but I had my wallet with my bank card inside it.


Notes:

The following was written on Sep 16 2015:

The mention about not carrying a phone is because they are tracking devices.


Jun 2 2013

23:29 Had a nice long jog/walk today. I went across Larks Rise as usual and across the farm and into the field with the cows. I was in there recently and they are young and show a great deal of interest in me which is scary because they come over and follow me quite closely. The other day they got close and I clapped my hands and waved my arms about and there was a bull at the front of them so I was happy to reach the style at the bottom. Today they were all down the side of the field where the path is and I wasn't going to go out into the field to navigate around them so I jumped the metal gate and walked down the hedge of the neighbouring field. At the bottom is an old rusty metal gate propped up against the barbed wire fence and I guess this is there for people to climb over so I climbed it back into the field with the footpath. I didn't want to do that but I had to and I'd say that the rusty metal gate has been put there for people to use an alternative route if required.

I walked across to the top of Frith Wood and someone was flying a micro-light around so I stopped and had a look and waved. I walked through the top of the wood, across the road and down a couple of fields and the micro-light was flying around the route I was taking. I got into a field where it's nice to lay in the long grass and get some sunshine so I did that for a short while and had a cigarette. Behind me were some trees and the micro-light was flying around and eventually it made its way over the field I was in and flew around for a bit. I then got up and walked off and the micro-light disappeared possibly northwards and I never saw it again.

I jogged down and up Maples Hill and eventually found a nice track I was looking for. An older male cyclist came down it and I moved aside and he said thanks. I've never been down there before and I can imagine that area is nice for cycling. It could be the remnants of an old track or road that's not used anymore.

In the end I went out quite some distance and I didn't leave until around 18:20.


Notes:

The following was written on Sep 16 2015:

Actually after that micro-light a white light aircraft came over and I was buzzed a lot by those later on.


Jun 3 2013

23:37 Went for a nice jog/walk out Hyde Heath way today which I haven't visited for a long time. I went up the top of Amersham Hill, through Chiltern Road and Oakway, Deep Acres, across Copperkins Lane and into the field towards Weedonhill Wood. When I got to the exit to the field I had to urinate because I was really bursting and it was only about 19:00. There was nobody about and the area is depressed slightly and very overgrown so nobody could've seen. I then jogged through Hyde Heath, across the common and up the footpath to ultimately Chesham Road. After crossing fields and going through the wood with the earthworks I ended up in Herberts Hole and strolled back to Chesham through Lowndes Park. I saw a guy on a bike in Weedonhill Wood who said hello and a young chap jogging through the wood with the earthworks who I said hello to and he replied. There was nothing odd about them to note.

I met somebody I know in the park but I can't remember his name! It's really annoying, and he remembers mine. We had a good catch-up chat about life and it was nice to see him again.

So all in all it was a pleasant evening and long may they continue. I shall find some more routes I haven't used for a while to keep my observers on the move.

Jun 5 2013

21:34 Had a nice jog/walk up Trapps Lane, across Leyhill and out towards the old layby on the main Chesham to Whelpley Hill Road, then back down Jason's Hill, across a field to near Botley Stores and then back through Cowcroft.

I had a different slightly bigger rucksack with me tonight because my other black one is getting worn. This bigger one is nice and comfy and doesn't move about because it has a chest strap, but it is a bit too big for carrying just a jacket and my wallet and keys.

When I walked back down to the end part of Trapps Lane a female jogger ran past me with black sunglasses on. When I got down to the lane I heard somebody in the lane. I thought the sound was strange because it wasn't a continual sound, more like somebody stopping on gravel. I got out into the lane and into the field that goes up and another female jogger ran past me. She ran up the hill and I heard some noises behind me so I thought maybe another jogger was coming but it took a while. Eventually the woman with the jet black sunglasses ran past me. I looked as she ran past but she didn't say anything and neither did the first one. I felt like the second one was hanging about behind me for far too long and the whole event was odd. I did get a pretty good look at them but I've never seen them before.

When I got to the top of the hill, both of them were muttering something and they went left which is a silly direction to go because it takes them back down a little and all you can really do is exit through a steep unofficial gap back down to Trapps Lane or run around the edge of the field which is not a proper footpath. They would've been better off staying on Trapps Lane because it goes up the left side of the field and there's a good sized entrance further up they could've used.

So, what were they doing? Were they checking out my rucksack? It feels that way to me.

00:54 It's the early hours of Jun 6 2013 now but I should record what was in my rucksack because the more I think about those two suspicious female joggers the more it feels as though they were "scanning" my rucksack however they might be doing it: I had a jacket, two empty tins of value processed peas and soup, a piece of cardboard in a plastic envelope that I have used to sit on when it's wet, my wallet, keys, cigarettes, pen, spork and a letter from Tessa King appologising for her dog biting me. It was in my old rucksack because my mother rifles through my stuff and she would've been looking for that so I simply placed it in my bag. It doesn't really need to be in there anymore.


Notes:

The following was written on Sep 18 2015:


Jun 10 2013

13:41 I had a really nice day out yesterday Sunday Jun 9 2013 that I was going to write about but I was too tired last night.

I caught the Chesham to Watford train at 14:30 for £1.50 and had a look through the shops. Poundland was my first stop as I like the Toblerone's from there, and then I looked through the shopping centre for outdoor and sports stores. Millett's has gone but a cheaper store called Trespass is in there although a fleece for £18! I'm in no rush to replace my aging Berghaus fleece. Then I went to Sports Direct Waterfields but the stuff in there is trashy. I still don't understand why they put clothes on the walls right up to the ceiling which you can't possibly reach unless they're just duplicates of what's on the racks. There's stuff on the floor people have trodden on, everything seems to be mixed together, the Adidas black Sambas which are normally £30 are £45!

I started to walk back along the Ebury Way about 16:30. I got to where the electricity pylons reach the footpath and then walked across a moor up to Croxley Green station. I then worked my way through to The Green and took a footpath off of the Loudwater road. I walked through a dense tree covered track and I had to urinate at this point because I was bursting. There's nothing nearby, nobody behind me, nobody in front so I went. This is annoying me that my diary has now become a journal of urination but I have to record it in case my monitors attempt to play games with me.

I reached Chesham's sewage farm about 19:30 so I could've got home by 20:00 but it's too early [personal] so I always fill the walk to get back after 21:00. I went up the lane and up to the top field and then walked back through Chesham town. [personal]. I then spent up until midnight on my computer [personal].

Personal information originally recorded here has been moved to my Personal Diary.

I'll try and visit different places at the weekend from now on.

22:45 Went out a little later than usual about 19:00 but jogged more so I covered quite an area. I went up through the town to the end of Severalls Avenue and a police car came around the corner. Nothing wrong with that -- I haven't actually seen one for a long while. Then up the vale through the fields and woods to a farm and then up Pressmore Farm where Salty Dog snacks are (they were recruiting a while back). I've never been there before and the view was lovely. I crossed the Ashley Green road and went across to the electricity station and then took a left behind the houses along Lycrome Road. Again, I've not taken that route before and there's a fantastic view across the fields. I came out on Two Dells Lane which I crossed and then went behind Torrington Farm and exited onto the road at Little Grove. Then down Grove Lane, through the fields to Brockhurst Farm and then back to Chesham along Lye Green Road. As I was jogging down White Hill another (or the same) police car drove past slowly -- interesting. It was going at a speed that would enable the occupants to have a good look at pedestrians like me.

Jun 16 2013

21:36 Interesting. I went out just after 18:00 up Pednor, across Hyde Heath and down to Half Way House on the Chesham Road. I had lots of time left so I went along Church Street, through Lowndes Park and up White Hill and over the farm. I then walked up Trapps Lane, back to the farm and took a route I haven't used for ages towards the top of Hospital Hill. I had to fight through the nettles and then stopped, rubbed my legs because they were stung and then sat on a log and rolled a cigarette for the journey home. It was overgrown there, and I couldn't see much, but after I'd rolled my cigarette I saw behind me a security light on at the farm house! It wasn't dark and I didn't notice the light before that. I'm wondering if it was my monitors attempting to buzz me, to get me to move along. I was on the footpath and I nearly decided to take an alternate route because of the nettles but I didn't because I'd rather get stung than leave myself open to manipulation and abuse. I'm going to use that route some more now and see if the light comes on again.

Jun 20 2013

00:30 I want to note a few things that have happended recently that have been playing on my mind.

I went to Watford Sunday Jun 9 2013 on the train. I popped into Poundland and bought two Toblerones and two women behind me in the queue said "He's got chocolate -- looks like he could do with eating that" or something thereabouts. I didn't think much about it, it was just noise behind me and I don't really care if people mutter stuff about me anyway. I've got an idea it was about me as I've lost quite a bit of weight through jogging and budgeting and I haven't used my weights or done press-ups for a long time now and my arms could do with pumping up. After walking through the shopping centre and back out to the street, an African guy outside a shop said "Are you training? You look so thin." and I said "I do a lot of jogging" and kept walking. Weird I thought, somebody just saying that to me in the street! What I did notice at that moment was a slight Asian/Pakistani guy coming out of a shop door behind this African guy and I looked at him, I don't know why, he just sort of rushed out at the same time as the African guy asked me his question and the Pakistani guy was looking downwards and kept looking down. I've been meaning to use my weights recently before these comments about my size, and I have started over the last two days from Tuesday attempting to pump myself up a bit but I feel like I've been manipulated into doing it. That's what I really want to get across here, that those comments from people have motivated me into using my weights again.

I went across Pednor recently and I think it was last Sunday Jun 16 2013 and a guy wearing dark glasses was walking his dog across the field back towards the main road and I said "Evening" and he said in a gruff wary way "How you doing". I thought it was a strange way to socially interact but a lot of people are like that, or maybe it's just me they're like that to.

Yesterday Wednesday Jun 19 2013 evening when out for my walk I first walked along the Backs and there were some really drunk older guys at the top of Jacobs Ladder. One grabbed a plastic bag presumably containing his cans and then staggered out wildly into my path and I said "Oop" and he said "Sorry". I'm guessing they've been up the field or the derelict Hospital and spent the afternoon drinking. Later on I walked across some fields and out towards Jasons Hill Leyhill and an African/Jamaican guy in a dark grey tracksuit was the other side of a footpath behind some big black gates on his mobile but there was nothing else around except some farm buildings further back. He heard me and I saw his afro haircut bobbing about over the gate as I looked back behind me. What on earth was he doing there? How did he get in there? Very odd.

I have a suspicion that I'm the target of what's called Problem-Reaction-Solution. It's 01:20 now so I'm not going to go much further with this now. I'll write some more later.

12:49 I rang DVLA and spoke to somebody at 12:43 about getting a replacement licence because mine was lost in the post years ago when I sent it in to have some points put on it. The chap said that I need to get a D1 application form from a post office, I need to mark on it that my licence was lost and that it was revoked, I need a colour photo, someone to verify my identity, my birth certificate, a document with my NI number on it such as a P45 or P60 (I was sent something recently like that which is good), £20 and then send it recorded and it should take up to 3 weeks.

14:43 I've just got back from the Post Office in Chesham next to the Misty Moon pub. I first walked into WH Smith and asked where it was because I didn't know! When I got in there it was empty apart from a guy standing at the counter who looked round at me as I walked in, and a young guy who was at the side counter doing something. I couldn't see where the forms were so I stood behind the guy at the counter and he said without looking at me "What can we do for you sir?" or "What are you looking for sir?" and I said "A D1" and he said to the girl behind the counter "Can you get this gentleman a D1 please" and she gave it to me. It was all very polite. The guy at the counter I thought was a customer but he must've been the manager. All he was doing was tapping up and down paperwork on the counter just like newsreaders do on the TV. Initially I didn't think anything of it but as I walked home it seemed to me as though my visit there was expected. Let's say for the moment that it was, so how would anybody know that I was heading there? I used the landline to phone DVLA earlier and I recorded in my online Jobseeker Activity History at 13:02 that I needed to get a D1 from a post office. Of course it could've just been nothing but I need to record weird and strange things as they could well make more sense at a later date.

Jun 30 2013

23:31 Went out for a nice walk/jog this evening over the other side of Leyhill and into Lye Green. When I got back to Chesham at the bottom of White Hill near Waitrose, a police car came slowly to the end of the road. I crossed the road and then jogged down the side of Waitrose and into Sainsbury's Chesham car park to make my way over to the recycling centre. I deposited tuna and grapefruit tins in the skip and then walked through the council building and another police car came out of the George car park. I then jogged through the town a little and walked as I got to the main road opposite the Red Lion and a police car (the one from the George I think) came past with the passenger looking up the town in my direction. Strange, and therefore worth noting. I hardly saw anybody out, very quiet, very warm and sunny and beautiful.

July

Jul 8 2013

21:54 I went out across Larks Rise into the field and a German Shepherd type dog came in behind me, barked at me, ran rings around me and kept jumping at my hands. I just kept walking and eventually it got bored of that and decided it liked me and followed me to Hill Farm. Then it basically went in front and waited for me to choose routes at junctions and came along for the ride. When I got down to the main road at the sewage works it went out into the road so I thought it might be best to take it back. I got back to the field near Larks Rise and two girls suitably dressed for jogging were there calling the dog and I told them what had happened and they thanked me.

Later around 20:20 I walked into the field at Dungrove Farm and the farmer came in near the farm with his four black labrador type dogs. These dogs followed me agressively a couple of weeks back when they heard the metal gate close I'd walked through and it was a bit scary -- I didn't record it, I'd actually forgotten about it. The farmer stood looking at me a couple of times as I walked across the field and I have not seen him walk those dogs before. I go through that field regularly as it takes me down to White Hill and I'm always there around the same time and I feel that it's worth noting. I don't like those dogs and I had an issue with them following me in the Winter maybe a couple of years ago now. I'm just walking on public footpaths, I shouldn't have to have a few angry dogs come out after me.

What is it with all of these dog incidents this year!? I can't remember having incidents with dogs and I've been out exercising for decades.

Incidently, those two girls with the dog I first talked about -- I've not seen them before. One of them had a Mini car waiting half way up the track towards the farm. They were pleasant to talk to and I can't say that there was anything suspicious about them at this time.

00:13 It's now Jul 9 2013 but I want to record this here: when I got to the field at Dungrove Farm, a man and a woman came through the gate with a small dog who I've seen a few times before. When I got into the field I saw the farmer and his black dogs enter the field the other side near the farm entrance. I walked through the field and noticed a couple of times that the farmer was just standing watching me. His dogs ran around his side of the field, ahead of me and then they came from behind me closely and ran back over towards him. I exited the field and then walked the footpath through another field with the alpacas. When I exited that field, after closing the gate behind me I looked back towards the farm and the farmer had entered the field I'd just left with his dogs. The more I think about this the more it feels like he was there because I was there. It might be nothing but it's good to write it down. I might need this in the future, who knows.

Jul 14 2013

00:56 I just want to note something about yesterday Saturday Jul 13 2013 that's just passed: I jogged through Hyde Heath and took the path down through White Wood to the Missenden Road and on entering White Wood where the path branches off to Hawthorn Farm there were two old ladies walking a dog and I said "Evening" and the first lady looked at me cautiously but eventually managed a smile but the second just looked down and neither of them said a word. It was weird which is why I'm recording it. You meet all-sorts when you're out and some people simply don't want to interact but I made the effort to be nice which is all that matters. It's just that the look that I got and the delayed smile from the first old lady was very odd.

Jul 15 2013

00:09 I just want to note something about yesterday Sunday Jul 14 2013 that's just passed: I went to Watford on the train, walked through the town and shopping centre and down to Argos Waterfields to buy a USB flash drive. I then walked back to the shopping centre and looked at the shop guide to find Game as the shops have moved around. After finding Game on the map, I turned around and a 20 something tallish white guy looked me in the eye and I didn't think anything of it at the time but it was a look of authority, a look that I am becoming accustomed to experiencing. I found Game, had a look around and then played with the demonstration Nintendo 3DS which looked more amazing that I thought it would be. I then left the store and noticed out the corner of my eye that three mall staff members wearing white shirts were across the other side of the walkway but I didn't look at them. So, was I peered at by a person of authority and were those staff keeping an eye on me, or was it nothing at all. Who knows, it's recorded anyway so it might mean something in the future.

I walked back through Cassiobury Park and had a pint at Sarrat which was lovely considering how hot it was. That's the first pint I've had since Jan 2012 -- it was £3.50 though!

Jul 16 2013

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Notes:

The following was written on Jul 21 2015:

Whilst I was in the town sitting opposite Sainsbury's Chesham getting Andy to sign my driving licence application a police car drove slowly down the High Street. Also a tall African young woman approached us and asked us to buy her some cigarettes from the supermarket and I declined.


Jul 17 2013

21:29 Just got back from a hot walk around Pednor.

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Jul 18 2013

21:50 There was something odd tonight right towards the end of my walk. I went to Botley and across the fields to the road that goes to Ashley Green and then across the fields behind Lyecrome Road, across Nashleigh Hill and down the fields to the park at the bottom. When I got to the park, a man with two dogs was walking down to the gate entrance and a woman in chino shorts was walking towards the park edge inline with Severalls Avenue. I thought great, if she knows a shortcut then I'll use that so that I don't need to keep walking back up the road. Both of those people were walking in an inverted V as though they'd been together at the top of the park.

I got to the gap through the field edge and there were some steps, so as far as I'm concerned, if somebody was using it then I'll use it too. There was some traffic going up and down the road so it took a while to get across to Severalls Avenue and I walked along it and the only other person at that point was the woman who was now quite some distance ahead. As I walked along, I must've seen somebody out the corner of my eye and I looked over and saw a young man looking at me and quickly looked away. I kept walking and I noticed the woman cross the road around where Annes fish bar is and then there was just me. When I reached the fish bar, I heard a car locking on the other side of the road but I didn't look.

There just seems something odd about that whole situation, two people apparently branching off from the top of the park in two different directions, the woman walking all the way along Severalls Avenue to (I'm assuming) get in a car and that young guy looking at me. It's playing over in my head and all I can really say is that it doesn't feel natural, it feels fake, orchestrated maybe.


Notes:

The following was written on Jul 21 2015:

The Ordnance Survey map I have for Chesham I created from their website by piecing together bits of images of an acceptable resolution and I couldn't see the gap through the field edge and if I'd of known it was there then I would've already been using it. I had a look on my map when I returned home and I found a few red dashes indicating a route but it's barely noticeable. Even though the woman was some distance ahead she looked as though she was walking in an exagerated catwalk style. It's clear now that I was nudged into taking the same route through the field edge as the woman using the man with two dogs (wearing a white top and shorts which is a common colour they've been using presumably because of its high visibility) and my weariness of going near dogs from my experiences during this period of being bitten and chased by them. Following this event it went quiet and I'm familiar with this now -- it's a signal to let me know that they've set me up in some way.


Jul 21 2013

12:50 Had a nice day out yesterday Saturday Jul 20 2013 in London for a change. The underground system wasn't working from Harrow-on-the-Hill to Aldgate so I used the diesel into Marylebone which was fine going in but very busy coming out. On arrival at Marylebone, I walked across to the Globe and had a shandy which was very nice indeed. I then walked down towards the Plaza and bought Retro Gamer magazine which I enjoy reading. Usually if possible I'll have a pint at the Blue Post which is just east of the Plaza but it was closed and the tables and chairs were gone -- on a Saturday! I thought that that was strange but I have seen it in that state before but on a Sunday. I then walked up towards the Post office Tower because there's a nice pub with tables outside at its base (Tower Tavern Clipstone Street) but I could see that the table was not outside which again was odd so I walked back down to the King and Queen on Foley Street to read my magazine with a shandy.

I walked across Oxford Street and into Carnaby Street and was going to use the public toilets but it was 50p so I walked straight back out as it wasn't urgent. I walked through Piccadilly Circus, past an Angus Steak House I used to eat in after buying big fat programming books from Foyles back in the early 90s, through Leicester Square, up Charing Cross Road, Greek Street, Soho Square, along Oxford Street to the very clean and civilised free public toilets in James Street in amongst the restaurants. Then I made my way back to Marylebone Station and caught the 18:42 Aylesbury train from platform 4 which was very busy but I was watching the board so I got on there pretty quickly and secured a seat.

I reached Amersham and walked back to Chesham via the fields above the football meadow. I went to Sainsbury's Chesham to get some milk and chocolate and then got home about 20:50. It was a nice day out but expensive -- £7.90 for the train, £7.30 for two shandies, £4.99 for a magazine, we're talking 10 days of normal expenses in one day. When the underground is working properly I can use St. John's Wood Station for £5.20 but I don't think I'll be doing this as often as I used to, I prefer to save the money for something else.

The last pint (a larger-top) I had was last Sunday and before that it was in London Feb 2012! A spontaneous pint I enjoy.


Notes:

The following was written on Jun 18 2015 17:18:

I remember as I made my way from Marylebone towards the eastern end of Oxford Street travelling down, left, down, left etc. at one point I turned left into a road that may have had a Sainsbury's Local at the end of it and a police car was sitting there with policemen inside and it made me feel uncomfortable so there could've been some intimidation going on there but that was it for the entire London trip but there could've been more going on than I was aware of so I'll leave it here as opposed to moving it to my personal diary


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21:23 Had a nice easy walk up to Tesco's Express Amersham and then down to Chesham via the field above the football meadow. Everything was fine, a police car went past the Chesham swimming pool towards Lords Mill, another or maybe the same car was parked near Dees of Amersham as I walked past and Hodds Wood was unusually busy with people out walking but my spider-sense didn't go off so it was a safe and enjoyable evening exercise.

Jul 22 2013

21:46 Something very obvious at the moment is the lack of light aircraft noise that is normally constantly following me around however far out and remote I go when exercising in the evenings. I was thinking about it over the last few days and again tonight when a white light aircraft came directly towards me as I navigated a small woodland near Whelpley Hill, so I ran through quickly and out the other side and watched it bank sharply to the right and I didn't see it again. It had a blue tail which I noticed on a plane within the last week. Last Thursday Jul 18 2013 -- the dodgy day with the highly suspicious man with dogs and woman in the Nashleigh Hill park / recreation ground -- a white light aircraft was buzzing around as I walked up to Ley Hill and it eventually came directly at me as I popped out from Broomstick Lane at Botley. It happens so regularly that I accept it's just somebody joyriding but it's very suspicious when it stops. When I recently walked down Halfway House Lane, a white light aircraft came towards me, I looked up and it banked sharply so that I could see the right-hand side of the cockpit. A white light aircraft came past me low over near Codmore Wood / Knotts Spring a while back, it's a very regular occurence. I should make a point now of recording if a light aircraft is buzzing over my head in the evenings.

Jul 23 2013

15:07 I've just this moment emailed the Chief Constable of Thames Valley Police. I've decided that now is the time to upload my diary to my website because there are some really questionable things going on in my life. It feels as though somebody is determined to prevent me from continuing to remain a free citizen. I'm a software developer, I've got exemplary problem finding skills and I believe that I've detected the following things:

This is the first time that I've listed everything and it looks scary doesn't it. There could be other stuff but it looks like a good reason to make a decision to publish my diary.

I'm going to guess that I've been under surveillance since the middle of the 2000s although it could be longer than that. The amount of resources that have been expended upon me must be staggering, especially since November 2012. It feels like somebody was alerted to the fact that I was experiencing difficulties within my life and seized the opportunity to finish me off but I'm not quite going down as quickly as they'd wished.

I couldn't be a more law abiding citizen, that's what really irritates me about all this rubbish. I can make sure that I never drop a piece of litter and also pick other people's litter up, use official rural routes as much as possible, not urinate in the countryside, report vehicles that I witness dumping, report people dealing in stolen property along the Backs and it makes no difference to the way that I'm treated although it's good for my soul (not so good for my bladder).

I suspect the real reason why I'm experiencing those things I've listed above, the primary motive, is because Mensa tested my IQ to be within the category of "very superior intelligence", I don't find the increasingly authoritarian nature of the western world acceptable which I have discussed and debated about on an internet forum and some fortune teller has made a prediction that I could be a political threat.

I'll leave it there as it's now 17:47 and I'm off out jogging soon.

21:25 Went out around 18:45 over to Codmore Wood, Knotts Spring and it was so peaceful, very pleasant. One light aircraft went overhead at that point, I saw two people walking near the Five Bells and nothing else.

Jul 26 2013

10:53 I went around Pednor yesterday Thursday Jul 25 2013 evening. A microlight appeared from the East as I started out, flew around a bit and then disappeared off. I can imagine that it's very nice flying around Pednor, the Lee, up to the Ridgeway and over to Ivinghoe. There's a big area there that I'm very familiar with walking and cycling, stunningly beautiful it is.

I walked and jogged all the way around Pednor which I haven't done for a while and I did very well for time. I saw a couple of guys cycling and a lone guy jogging at the start who all said "hi", a car went past along Pednor Bottom and then that was it until near the end when one guy rode past on a bike -- very peaceful.

13:35 I've just looked at my emails and I've got a reply from Mr Nigel Welham (Nigel.Welham@thamesvalley.pnn.police.uk), Executive Support Manager, Chief Constable's Office, Thames Valley Police HQ -- this is what he says:

Dear Mr Constable

Thank you for your email to the Chief Constable concerning the issues you have raised and your online diary. I have passed your email to the Local Police Area for their information and I would like to reassure you that the events you describe are not related to any actions of Thames Valley Police. Yours Sincerely

How intriguing :D

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22:54 I went out around 19:00 to Pednor again. Initially near the tennis courts there was the sound of a microlight or more like an autogyro which I couldn't see because of the trees but it quickly disappeared. I went up the road and saw a couple walking a dog and the guy said "good evening" and something inaudible that sounded like "lovely isn't it" and I replied "evening". Walked up Herbert's Hole to near the end, up across the field and then back along the road which offers an amazing view on the way back as it slowly drops in height. Along there a white light aircraft appeared from behind and flew over me, then flew off some distance, back up the edge of Pednor and then flew over the top of me again. It then disappeared to the north east.

It was a very beautiful walk with a little bit of jogging and a comfortable temperature -- I thoroughly enjoyed it. I like it when it's like that because it's therapeutic, it makes you feel good mentally and physically and it's free, well, until you have to buy another pair of cheaply made Taiwanese Adidas trainers for £44! The pair I'm wearing at the moment I only bought a year ago and I need to get a new pair already.

Jul 28 2013

22:27 Rode the train to Watford, walked around BHS and M&S and eventually bought some socks in Primark and then walked to Rickmansworth along the Ebury Way. Caught the train to Chalfont and then walked to Tesco's Express Amersham to get some bread and then down behind the football meadow into Chesham.

I walked through Lowndes Park and then into Sainsbury's Chesham car park and finally I found R980 ULK, the dark green Proton Compact that ejected a cigarette packet my way on May 19 2013. This is the first time I've seen it since and it just caught my eye as I walked through. I'm guessing the owner works in Sainsbury's Chesham because the car is parked up against the main windows -- amusing.

Along the Ebury Way I was preoccupied with my thoughts and then a lady said "Hi!" and I looked up and there were three cyclists. I said "Hi" to the happy smiley lady at the front. I think partly she was trying to get me to acknowledge their presence because I had no idea they were approaching.

Overall it was an easy going warm, sunny and breezy Sunday afternoon and evening. The only irritation was a guy wearing dark glasses talking to a young woman on the path through the field behind the football meadow: their little dog wearing a harness started running around and jumping up with its dirty paws as I walked through and just as I thought I'd got far enough away for it to find something else to do, it started to run up behind me again and the owner shouted "Watch out!" -- tragically comical. You can't blame the dog because it's simply being territorial, it's the guy who hasn't got control of himself. Anyway, it was only mildly irritating and amplified by the fact that I was tired by then, but I should note it.


Notes:

The following was written on Jul 21 2015:

It wouldn't surprise me at all if the guy wearing dark glasses with his annoying dog was an agent/detective. He was sitting down and remained so and I feel as though he shouted "Watch out!" just to make it look as though he did something rather than nothing.


Jul 31 2013

00:14 I just want to note a few things about the last two evenings: Monday it rained so I went around Pednor. At the start I saw a guy jogging ahead who came from the right and went left up the hill. I then heard somebody jogging behind me so I started jogging and we went along the bottom a short distance before a big tractor came towards us. I stood on the verge but the guy kept going past me, then I started jogging again and the guy went off into the distance. Later a guy jogged towards me along the far bottom near the footpath up and he said "Hi". It was busy.

The evening just passed I went across to Hill Farm, down to the bottom and up and I saw a chap walking two dogs who I've seen before and we said "Hi". I walked through Cowcroft and across to the brickyard lane and a couple came towards me a short way down with a big Afghan hound type dog which ran towards me and then ran back. The guy said "Evening" and I said "Hiya". I went out as far as Frith Wood, got back to the main field next to Cowcroft and I saw the couple again sitting in the gap to the wood and the guy said "Hello again, it's nice sitting here" and I said "Yeah, it's a nice little spot, I sit there quite often" and we smiled. I've not seen these people before or the dog. I walked down the field and up the other side and a little dog was at the top and the owner was shouting "Max, Max, Max". It's a nice little dog and I recognise it and the owner. I got to the top and there was a guy walking away just along the right with a dog. Again, very busy and very sociable.

I recognise now that the people monitoring me since at least the mid-2000s must have been MI5 because they will be the next authority up from the local police force. I haven't asked them if it was them, I don't know if I'll bother at this time but I would be interested to discover what they've propagated about me. It might be easier simply to ask them rather than organising something else. I do realise that they will be reading this as they would've seen me ftp it to my web space even before Thames Valley Police got to look at it. I had a look at their website earlier and they've got a downloadable challenge for potential Digital Intelligence Specialists and I found it to be simply a tcpdump file containing a plain text email with a Hell0W0rld! password, an HTML email containing a Microsoft URL and a MIME encoded rar file -- I only briefly looked at it with mc.

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21:55 I went out about 18:50 and went across Botley and Ley Hill to Jason's Hill and walked back along the track to Ley Hill Common, through Cowcroft and back to Chesham past Dungrove Farm. I saw a guy walking his dog up Trapps Lane but then he disappeared and that was it until I got to Dungrove Farm where I recognised a little dog coming towards me attached to his owner. I said "I recognise that dog as Max" and the owner said "Yes you do" and we chuckled and I said "Hello Max!".

I got some shopping in Sainsbury's Chesham and chatted to Andy whom I met inside. I walked down the town and there were two police cars facing one another next to the clock tower and one policeman was leaning into the first car that was facing away from me. A couple of people walked past them towards me and the policeman continued to chat away to whoever was in the car. I was looking at the situation as I approached just out of interest -- I was simply wondering what was happening there -- and then the policeman leaning into the car looked around at me as though he'd been told that I was approaching. He then looked straight back into the car but his head kept twitching my way as though he was desperate to steal a look but he couldn't because it would've been too obvious. I thought that it was quite amusing but I also thought wow, am I really that [in]famous. I realise I've just spent an hour writing this because I'm thinking more than I'm writing. I was just wondering what happened after I sent a link to this diary to the Chief Constable, what might've happened within the three days that it took for a reply.

August

Aug 1 2013

15:10 There is something else to note about yesterday Wednesday Jul 31 2013 which I nearly missed: I visited the town around 13:15 and I went along the Backs, through Townfield and into the High Street via the alleyway down the side of the office bureau shop and I noticed a white slim guy slightly taller than me standing on the path in the High Street at the end of the alleyway facing in my direction and I felt as though he was watching me. I think his head turned up the town and then back on me at one point -- I didn't look at him. This location was exactly the same spot that the police cars were parked last night. It could be nothing but I should note it.

Aug 2 2013

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23:12 I went out around 18:45. I walked down Trapps Lane and across Waterside towards the Moor and a police car went through. Went up through Hodds Wood, Chiltern Road, Oakway, Deep Acres, Weedonhill Wood, Hyde Heath and came down Halfway House Lane (I know who lives in the bottom house) and I was occupied with my thoughts whilst enjoying the peace and quiet when I got a "WOOF WOOF" and a black labrador popped out of the hedge right next to my legs. It really made me jump and I saw the lady owner possibly fiddling with a gate and I said "Bloody hell! It made me jump" and she chuckled and then said "Good dog Barney". I didn't see anyone up until that point other than a couple of people outside the pub in Hyde Heath and a half dozen cars driving along the road. It rained a little bit coming down that lane but it was cooling and refreshing and I was rewarded with a rainbow as I walked along Missenden Road.

Aug 6 2013

21:46 Went out around 18:45 and as I walked across Springfield Road I noticed a small silver car right at the top above the commercial properties with the driver sitting inside with the window open. I walked along the path past the litter bin, looked around and saw the car come down the hill. I then continued along and saw the car go up Waterside as I traversed Hospital Hill. Shortly afterwards a jogger wearing a grey sweatshirt who I've seen before ran towards me as I walked along the Backs. I looked at him but he just kept looking downwards. I got some money from the Nationwide cashpoint and the jogger ran past me up the street.

I went through Nashleigh Hill recreation ground and a lady dog walker came towards me and we smiled and nodded at one another. I then passed a male dog walker who was just looking ahead and I saw somebody else behind me as I walked up through the wood towards Pressmore Farm. Later I saw a guy walking a dog near the electricity station along Lycrome Road and we said "Hi" to one another. An older guy with glasses who I've seen a few times before jogging on routes I use approached me near Dungrove Farm. The guy always looks down and I once said "Hi" to him and he reluctantly responded and I got the impression that social interaction is a difficult thing for him to deal with. A very busy and interesting evening.

Aug 20 2013

23:09 I went out around 18:35 and jogged across to the farm and up towards the triangulation pillar. As I walked down the brickyard lane I noticed a white light aircraft flying around and one flew across my path a few times as I walked along the covered footpath towards Whelpley Hill. I then took another covered bridlepath back towards Pudds's Cross and then jogged halfway down Shantock Hall Lane to pick-up a footpath where two cars were parked, one with a guy leaning on the rear wing smoking a cigarette wearing a white shirt with black fabric badges on the shoulders. I said "Evening" and he replied and I tried to see what the badges were but I couldn't. I thought that it was a strange place to hang out especially since I didn't see anyone else around, not even down the footpath. I saw a white light aircraft one more time along this footpath but it wasn't near me.

I jogged past Game Farm, down and up Maples Hill and into Ley Hill across the common and then into Cowcroft Wood. I got to the field near the old Five Bells around the usual time of 20:10 and the local lady with the yellow hair came towards me whilst talking to another local lady I see regularly who always wears a waxed jacket and wellington boots. This lady I very often make small talk to and sometimes she tells me about the wildplants she picks for medicinal purposes so as expected she said "Good evening" and I responded -- the yellow haired lady as usual said nothing. When I reached the footpath that runs behind the leisure centre, I saw the older gentleman with glasses wearing his shorts who doesn't normally look up but I had to make way for him to pass so I said "Evening" and he replied. I saw this guy at nearly the exact same spot on the Aug 6 2013.

I walked past Dungrove Farm and in the back field where the alpacas are I passed an Asian guy with a black rucksack and a Sainsbury's bag and I passed him in the exact same spot last night. He's new and we both said "Evening" to one another again.

In Sainsbury's Chesham I walked towards the newspapers to have a quick browse of the front pages and a woman wearing shorts walked from that area over towards the salad shelves. I only noticed because she crossed my line of sight and she had nice legs which looked very long for her height. I read the papers and then walked up the fruit isle and then over to the meat shelves in the corner where the bargains normally are and the woman with the legs was there who walked off before I got there. There weren't any reduced items that interested me and so I walked off to get some cartons of tomatoes and she appeared behind me as I was picking up the cartons from the bottom shelf. I then looked at the cakes and got some bread and was whistling something (Queen probably) and then she was there whistling too. I then walked towards the checkouts and that was my last experience of her. It was weird in that I was just focused on my shopping and yet I was aware at times that she was mirroring my behaviour which is why I'm noting it.

So, there was plenty to write about tonight which makes a change as it's been very quiet for the last fortnight. There are actually two things that have been playing on my mind recently but it's now 01:00 so I'll document them later.


Notes:

The following was written on Jul 21 2015:

This is why it's important to record things in detail however insignificant: the woman wearing shorts in Sainsbury's Chesham I would say now was an agent/detective hovering around me and the locations within the isles that I was likely to visit. This is actually quite interesting because I'm replaying this experience over in my mind and I think that my attackers were attemtping to make it look as though I was following that woman. At the time I didn't realise that this was going on but I'm really glad now that I bothered to document it in such detail! It was a set-up designed for the security guards and the cameras.


Aug 22 2013

16:41 Yesterday Wednesday Aug 21 2013 evening I went out about 18:15 as I wanted to explore some new routes. I jogged up to the top of Pheasant Rise, walked across Chessmount into Larks Rise and there was a guy on a mountain bike near the phone box facing uphill with jet black glasses on, the same type that I've seen plenty of people wearing although being a cyclist myself I wouldn't choose those for wearing in dimly lit lanes at 18:15 in late August, in fact I wouldn't wear glasses like that ever on a bike. I was walking just a little way down the hill from him and I kept looking at him as I disappeared into Larks Rise and right at the last moment he span-up his rear wheel, got off, bent down to look at it and looked at me. I'm glad I kept my eye on him otherwise I would've missed that.

I went out across Ley Hill and then made my way towards Shantock Hall Lane to locate a path that should take me to Bovingdon Green and I saw a nicely cut path up the side of Bell Farm but I couldn't see a sign. There was a guy sitting in a silver Golf opposite the farm at the gates to what look like utilities, and then three black cars came out of the farm, navigated around the guy in the Golf and then came towards me. I was a bit concerned that the driver of the middle car didn't see me and I jumped slightly but he eventually corrected his steering to accommodate me. I then jogged all the way around the roads to Bovingdon Green and found some new routes to explore.

I had a really nice jog and walk around a few places I hadn't been for a while and found some new ones. The weather was very warm and I felt as though I'd really accomplished something by the time I'd returned to Chesham as it's quite a distance, in another county even and the boundary runs along the footpath at the bottom of Maple Hill.


Notes:

The following was written on Jul 21 2015:

The guy on a mountain bike wearing jet black glasses taking an interest in me could well have been an agent/detective.


Aug 29 2013

23:29 When I got to Sainsbury's Chesham tonight I firstly went to the toilet to urinate as I really needed to go and a big guy came in as I washed my hands followed very shortly by another big guy, neither of whom I looked at. When I exited back into the store, the security guard was back at his desk by the door and he left there and came towards me and dropped a couple of items which ended up by my feet and I said "Oops" but he only grunted. This is just an observation.


Notes:

The following was written on Jul 21 2015:

The two big guys who followed me into the toilet could well have been agents/detectives.


September

Sep 6 2013

23:59 Went out around 18:45 up Trapps Lane and up towards the triangulation pillar. Along the edge of Cowcroft Wood I passed a guy wearing a white top and possibly shorts too with two little dogs on leads and we said "Hi" to one another. I jogged past him and sat near the opening to Cowcroft which was just around the corner and had a cigarette whilst enjoying the remainder of the sunshine and I saw a person wearing white way over to the sign post atop the track that goes down the field to Trapps Lane and I thought wow, if that's the same guy then he got there quick. He then disappeared and I thought he'd gone down the track but then a person wearing white appeared to the left near some bushes who stood there all the while whilst I smoked my cigarette! It made me feel uncomfortable because I felt as though he was watching me for several minutes.

I left that spot and jogged along and a guy with combed back blond hair, a light blue shirt and dark jeans was coming towards me with a dark grey dog and he was playing with his phone so I coughed to get his attention in case he needed to control his dog but he just kept walking looking down at his phone. I then cautiously approached slowing down and the dog came towards me barking and he said "Don't worry about him, he's harmless" and then the dog stuck its tooth into the top of my thigh. At that point he was at my side and I said "He's not harmless, he just bit my bum" and I lifted my shorts to look, he looked momentarily but kept walking facing forward and said "I'm sorry about that" and I was left there looking at the damage whilst he walked off playing with his phone! After several steps he looked around and I was still looking at my wound and looking at him and thinking how much contempt he just showed me and he said "Do you want a sticking plaster? Are you alright?" and I said "Yeah". Again he said that whilst walking and looking forward. I noticed at that point that the guy wearing white had gone and if he'd gone left down the field he could be seen but he wasn't there so where did he go? Not only that there were now two people standing along the edge of Cowcroft facing one another standing still and looking our way. A very strange situation. The guy was incredibly rude and mocking me with his sticking plaster question. Does he walk around with a medical kit in his pocket! I don't think so. And what was that guy wearing white doing?

I jogged off up the top of Blackwell Hall Lane and onto the common and jogged back towards the two pubs. I slowed down as I approached the tee-off and I saw a guy with a light blue shirt and blond hair with his back to me and I thought is that the same guy again? He turned around and I looked at him whilst walking past and he looked at me and I thought that he may ask me how I am and if my wound is ok but he said nothing, just stared at me like he cared nothing. He then said "Come on Oscar" and his dog appeared from behind a tree and I carefully kept walking past. I got to the end of the common and went over to the corner so that I could sneak a look back and I saw him standing on the common looking my way.

That's the third dog bite incident this Summer and in fact during my entire life. Something about that incident tonight tells me that it was a set-up, like it was all planned out and intentional. I really wish I had this guy on film because his behaviour was appalling. It was so bad that it makes me feel as though it was intentionally bad to illicit a response, another game. I was thinking a while back about getting a small camera that can be worn discretely to protect myself and I'm going to order one now from eBay and when I'm out jogging in the evenings I'll enable it when I feel it's necessary to do so, when I sense a dangerous situation.

It's now 1:15 Saturday morning and I'm still writing this. My leg is burning where the dog bite is.

I did want to mention a couple of things recently and one of them is that I bought a new pair of trainers in Watford on Sunday Aug 11 2013 and Tuesday Aug 13 2013 my old pair were put out in a bag on top of the bins for the dustmen. The person who put them out went out again 15 minutes later to add some socks to the bag but the bag had gone and they said that it was odd because there's normally a sound of a lorry before the rubbish goes and there wasn't any. So what happended there? Did somebody walk off with my old trainers within 15 minutes of them being put out?

I'm getting tired now but I should note that the other thing was possibly three or now four Fridays ago I went across to Hill Farm and as I entered the field there was a couple with a dog who were in the middle of the field approaching the style and I quite often jog across that field and enjoy a cigarette down the next because the view is beautiful and I find it a good moment to think about things, so I walked hoping that they would disappear ahead but they were dawdling and then they looked around before going over the style. At this point I was approaching the middle of the field so I thought I'll have my cigarette later and started jogging. When I got to the style I saw the man looking through the gap in the hedge where the style is and he looked at me and both of them were going to the right. He couldn't have seen me approaching because the hedge goes all the way around that field so he was looking at the style expecting me to appear. I jumped the style and walked into the field and they were coming back over to my side so what they did effectively was manoeuvre out of my way. It felt uncomfortable when I went past them. They were both looking forwards and downwards and there was no way I felt like saying evening to them. This has something to do with what's been said about me by my mystery observers and I've been thinking that I'm going to have to do some leafleting this Winter. I'm going to have to try and find out exactly what's been said and by whom. I just need to record this stuff in my diary.


Notes:

The following was written on Jul 21 2015:

When my old smelly trainers disappeared from our rubbish on Tuesday Aug 13 2013 I suspected then that they would be quite useful to agents/detectives for their scent value! I wouldn't be surprised at all if indeed it was agents/detectives who walked off with them. Why wouldn't they? They have our house under total surveillance, they have me under total surveillance, they would know that I bought new trainers in Watford on Sunday Aug 11 2013 and they would know when my old ones were going to be thrown out. It could well be that the dog in the above incident had a good sniff of my old trainers.

I don't know what to make of the couple with the dog near Hill Farm who behaved so weirdly when I approached them -- I don't even know if they were genuine civilian citizens. I have often said that when I go out it's as though I'm walking out onto a stage and it could well be that they were agents/detectives acting. Look at it this way: if I was as terrifying as they were implying with their reaction then why were they even there? I've not seen them before.


Sep 11 2013

00:19 I just want to record my thoughts about last Friday Sep 6 2013 up Cowcroft. I need to add some more detail and I have a conclusion.

As I was walking from Trapps Lane up the field with the sign post at the top I saw a police helicopter going over high and a short distance away travelling westwards. As I jogged between the sign post and the old Five Bells I passed an elderly couple who stood aside for me and I said "Hi" and the lady said "Hello, goodbye" and we all chuckled. Between the old Five Bells and Cowcroft I passed the guy wearing white with two dogs on leads (reminds me of the guy in Nashleigh Recreation Ground on Jul 18 2013) and we said "Hi". I then jogged along to near the opening in Cowcroft, sat down, started to smoke a cigarette and then a tanned male jogger ran past me wearing a black top and maybe similarly coloured shorts -- the rest I've recorded.

I think possibly the only part of that which was genuine were the old couple. The remainder I'm going to guess was another set-up including the guy in white, the jogger and the dog walker whom intentionally didn't control his dog because he knew it was going to be territorial and confront me although I don't think the dogs tooth dragging across my flesh and piercing it was anticipated. Then the people appeared at the edge of Cowcroft who stood and watched and there's a possibility that they were part of it as well.

I don't see those people when I go out there and I exercise all around there a lot. Also very often I won't see anybody, that's the norm for all of the areas that I reach -- I cover a massive area. To see all of those people with the odd events just stands out to me as staged.

So, my conclusion is that somebody is attempting to dissuade me from sitting in that spot, enjoying the view, having a cigarette, and thinking and drawing inspiration. I've sat in that spot for so many years, decades even, and in the Spring the bluebells carpet that woodland and if you peek in-between the trees where I sit it's like you've entered a fantasy novel with the moss, the leaves and the dead wood. It's a magical inspirational spot for folk who have the ability to find wonder in it.

On a lighter note there's a possibility I'm going to have a job -- it depends on how the phone interview goes today. That'll keep me occupied and out of trouble for a while, possibly.

Sep 17 2013

22:58 I went out around 19:15 tonight and I haven't been particularly adventurous recently because the weather has been so miserable but a walk up to Hilltop and down Nashleigh always suffices. It's a good route because you can vary it a little bit and you can work off enough steam if you haven't got a lot of time.

There was something odd tonight but not on its own, in combination with something else I've gradually become aware of -- it might be something, it might be nothing but as always it's worth recording: I walked along the Backs and I could hear somebody behind me a little way back but I'm just noting it, there was nothing odd. A male jogger came towards me near the bridge and again nothing odd although I'm well aware that there have been many suspicious joggers hanging around me in the past, a favourite disguise. I went up White Hill, along Lye Green Road, through Hilltop, down Nashleigh, along Severalls Avenue and back into the town to Sainsbury's Chesham where outside was a burgundy coloured 4x4 with a large lady sitting at the wheel with big hair. I have been aware recently that that vehicle is always in the same spot when I go in and when I come out with somebody at the wheel but it's not something I've bothered to remember so this is the first time that I've recorded it.

I went into Sainsbury's Chesham and it wasn't very busy at the front, a few people at the cigarette counter and there was a petite female jogger standing with her back to me away from the counter wearing jet black tracksuit bottoms (she was visually prominent) who was talking to her friend I imagine, a tall African female jogger. I grabbed a basket as always and read the front of the newspapers nearby. I then walked up the fruit isle, said hello to Samantha who's in there occasionally and she replied "Oh, hello" and then I grabbed a few items and came out at the front up the other end. I then headed for the self-checkout area and was looking towards where I'm heading maybe three isles away from my destination and the person on the end self-checkout machine (I think, it could've been the adjacent conveyor belt) looked up at me and stared momentarily as though she recognised or knew me. Because she was basically standing where I'm heading, her look stood out and I caught her eye and then looked away thinking that she looks like the petite jogger who was at the front when I arrived. I don't know who she is, maybe she's seen me before possibly jogging somewhere.

When I got outside I noticed that the burgundy 4x4 was still there and I looked at the driver and she was looking downwards. Again, I'd forgotten about that vehicle whilst I was shopping -- I'm not thinking about it, it's just that it's in such a prominent place that it gets my attention but this time because all of these other things happened, I didn't forget about it.

It's been nice and quiet out actually for a while now. I've spent a lot of time over the last week talking with an agency and a potential employer that I'd got behind with my job searching and I've been really stressed out struggling to keep up with everything. And then on top of that I received a choice of dates and locations for my RH200 course which I had to research before I could phone and confirm with the training company. I really could have done without that being thrown at me with only 6 days before it starts but I managed to get on top of it all at just after midnight so I'm now starting to wind down. I do still have to meet up with this potential employer tomorrow (hopefully) and I definitely need to study for this course so there's still some pressure.

Well, it's now 02:00 so I'd better get some sleep.

Sep 23 2013


Notes:

The following was written on Jun 8 2016:

On Monday Sep 23 2013 I had a RHCSA (Red Hat [Linux] Certified System Administrator) course booked for the week in Birmingham which was paid for by the government through the Jobcentre which I was very grateful for -- thank you very much (£2000!). Basically it was a dream opportunity that I didn't think that I'd get so this was my week to advance myself, to achieve something that would assist in making me more employable so it was a very important week for me.

I caught the Chesham Underground train to Watford and arrived at Watford at 5:42 (train times recorded on May 18 2014) and walked to Watford Junction Rail Station. Once at Birmingham (New Street I think) I made my way to the course location and signed in. I remember in the lobby at the desk that one of the female assistants nonchalantly pointed me to a white page on a clipboard and I was nervous and didn't really know what I was doing and I did try to get some assistance but I didn't get anything other than nonchalant pointing. Once I was upstairs I sat at a table and got talking with some sysadmins who were also taking the course and I did mention the reluctance of the staff in the lobby to assist me with signing-in but I didn't get any reports from them that they were unhelpful. With me being nervous, the staff behaving as though they've been in the job for so long that they expect everyone to know what they're doing and are more interested in standing around looking pretty and important, it's not much in itself but I'm noting this because I do feel as though it was part of something that ran through the entire week of this course.

Eventually we all went into our room and chose our seats that we kept for the rest of the week and not long after that there was a fire drill so the entire block exited down the stairs to somewhere outside and it took a very long time before we got back in which caused the instructor to rush through the course for much of the week in an attempt to catch-up with what we missed on the first day. We had regular breaks and lunch which was supplied by caterers exclusively for our group and it was really nice and during the afternoon break of the first day I experienced something quite strange: the training company had offices there so their staff would walk through the dining and kitchen area to leave the building and to return to their offices and I was making a hot drink with the sugar and teabags and cutlery which I'd already used and didn't require training to do so and an African woman started to tell me how to make a hot drink and where the sugar was and there were other people from the offices with her and I felt as though she was forcing a social interaction and that I was being watched and judged. It puzzled me because nobody else had received that special treatment but also because she was basically telling me which sugar I can use when I'd just put it in the cup and that made it feel uncomfortably unnecessary and forced. Again it's just an odd experience on its own but I did think at this point that my attackers had said something to the training company about me of a political nature.

On Thursday Sep 26 2013 I was getting a hot drink in the kitchen (I think it was the afternoon) and I was aware that a male member of the training company staff was standing outside his open office door and was what I would describe as studying me. I remember that I was the only one at the kitchen top and I think that I noticed him when I turned around whilst waiting for my hot drink to brew and my eyes just scanned across him but it was enough to get a feeling that he seemed to be interested in me, that I was a curiosity.

During the evening of Thursday Sep 26 2013 after the course had finished for the day I decided to visit the train station to make sure that I was familiar with it and from where I was going to catch the train back to Watford the following day and I was studying the arrivals and departures board and I looked around to see where the platform signs were pointing and I noticed that a guy was standing behind me with a walkie-talkie and that he was communicating with it using a language that I would describe as coded and he was looking at me and I felt as though I was the reason why he was there.

Friday Sep 27 2013 was the day of the exam and at the end of every day that week I'd gone through the day's work again in my hotel room so I was as prepared as I could possibly be. We waited in the dining and kitchen area and I could see that a few more people had joined us for the exam since you can take it seperately and we eventually went to the same room we'd used all week and when I got in there an African guy who'd arrived for the exam only was sitting in the spot that I'd occupied all week and another African guy who'd arrived for the exam only was sitting in another previously occupied position in the middle of the room against the wall. I'm pointing out the fact that they were African because one of them behaved suspiciously later on and I don't know which one it was but it was one of the two people that I've just described. It didn't actually matter where everybody sat but each computer was identified individually so when setting it up and communicating with the server it just required using different values/strings/identifiers and since we were all using the same computers all week we all got used to the ones we were initially given.

I didn't get off to a good start in the exam. I made an initial mistake that I couldn't resolve which stopped me from progressing and I kept trying to fix it and the time on the clock was advancing very fast and eventually there wasn't any point in continuing so I just sat there and waited for it to end. I was annoyed by this mistake as I'd put so much work into this during the week and I was very lucky to get the government to fund it and I messed it up -- well, I'm assuming that it was my error. I did ask the intructor during the exam if there was any chance that the machine wasn't set-up properly but he said that the setting-up is automated and he couldn't help me with it. I can retake the exam in the future if I want to (it was £400 on its own) but realistically I was already too old for software development and within a year of this I had a casual chat with an employer who was kind and honest enough to explain to me that I was past it so if I did retake it it would be just for me.

After the exam we all went to the dining and kitchen area and I chatted with some of the guys that I'd befriended over the week and we discussed how we did in the exam and I talked about the problems I had which caused me to completely mess everything up and there was a big laugh from nearby and it made us all stop and look around and it came from one of the African guys who was sitting at a table behind me with a netbook computer perched on top of his rucksack. We carried on with our conversation and eventually I turned around and walked over to the kitchen area to make a drink and I looked out of interest at the netbook computer that the African guy was looking at because I thought that he was watching something amusing which caused him to laugh out loud but the screen was blank and I noticed this again on another occasion not long after (I think I made a hot drink and let it brew and then went back to the kitchen again to collect it). I think that the African guy was filming me on his netbook computer which was perched on his rucksack to get a good angle for the camera on the lid and his loud schadenfrued laugh was directed at my misfortune and the reason that his screen was blank was because he was blanking it so that I couldn't see what he was doing.

So I'd say that my attackers said something to the training company about me (probably the entire office block which would make sense of the nonchalant response from the lobby desk staff at course sign-in) and especially African people which would explain the strange events that I'd experienced throughout the week. Also there was the guy with the walkie-talkie keeping an eye on me in the train station which further expands the area covered. I do wonder if my computer there was deliberately saboutaged during the exam so that I would fail and be denied of a personal success but it's just a concern, a thought. Maybe my attackers don't want me to be going upwards, just down.


October

Oct 11 2013

Personal information originally recorded here has been moved to my Personal Diary.

December

Dec 16 2013

00:22 It's now the early hours of Monday but I want to note something very important about Sunday Dec 15 2013 evening just passed:

I went out about 20:15 to take my rubbish to the recycle centre and ultimately to get some chocolate at one of the garages. On my way out I reached Hospital Hill and I saw a guy wearing a white top with a dog either running or walking very fast towards me and then he started walking as he saw me and I heard him say what sounded like "Perfect". We walked past one another and I didn't think much more about it until I walked into town and in a shop doorway just past Circle Seven on the right I heard somebody on a mobile phone but I didn't look. As I walked past the betting shop I could hear loud footsteps behind me which I assumed was the same person as there wasn't anyone else about. I don't know if the person followed me any further but the footsteps stopped so I'm guessing not. These things always make more sense when I've had more time to think about them but my initial thoughts are that these people were looking for me and knew what route I was taking and the time that I'd be taking it. I don't know what the guy was doing behind me but it sounded like he rushed out from the shop doorway as I walked past and he had a mobile phone in his hand so make your own mind up.

I do have some other things to write about but it's been quiet and I've been engrossed in GTA V and Red Dead Redemption (both substantial and highly addictive games). I have been walking out around 19:30 to the other end of town and then back to Sainsbury's Chesham as usual but it is so boring walking the same few urban routes that I've been gradually going out later and later until all I do now is walk to Sainsbury's Chesham and back. I can't wait until the Spring returns and I can get some proper cross-country exercise. I need to get some exercise otherwise it affects my sleep and I'm not really getting enough at the moment. Still, I do have plenty of top quality video games to keep me occupied that I bought cheap on eBay.

Worth noting especially over the last week is the fact that the Backs footpath has been mostly empty. I can't remember passing anyone along there until tonight with the dodgy guy in white and I'm talking about between Springfield Road and the Underground station. That is odd and very unusual. When I reach the town there are people walking up and down it, and commuters at least normally walk the section between the Underground and Jacob's Ladder so where is everybody?

I'll write some more when I feel like it.

Dec 18 2013

00:43 Some more thoughts on the guy along the Backs last Sunday Dec 15 2013 evening:

He was obviously rushing to intercept me along there so he knew that I'd left my house -- I'm going to have to be careful aren't I.

About a month ago there was a period whereby I'd leave the house and reach Springfield Road and a car would come up the hill and turn around where I walk down the steps and it was a regular occurence. I didn't really think much about it because it had gone quiet and I was simply getting on with my life but it now seems suspicious because I haven't particularly been going out at the same time.

Over the last two days I've been varying the short journey to Sainsbury's Chesham and back and wearing different clothes to protect myself from whatever could possibly happen.

I think when the Spring comes around I should put even more effort into finding employment so that I can get on with my life and do something other than walking/jogging/cycling. Actually Amazon have been in the news recently regarding the 15 miles a day their employees work. Well, I could cope with that easily. There's even an Amazon in Hemel Hempstead which I've just found.

I've still got some more things to write but this will do for now.

Dec 19 2013

00:05 Even more thoughts on the guy along the Backs last Sunday Dec 15 2013 evening:

I had my rucksack full of recyclable materials which I've been accumulating over possibly the last two weeks so I haven't worn it in all that time. I think it's really suspicious that the one day I wear it somebody rushes along the Backs to intercept me and recognises me in the dark with minimal light at a distance.

I just want to note that I've got a backlog of updates to do on the gtkdialog open source project which is used by Puppy Linux developers and I can't get into the required state of mind to write code. I did say to some application developers that I would be working on it but all this pressure I'm under is affecting my creativity. I have been thinking about developing a new project and possibly making it pay but it would have to be an open source project and I'd make money from support and donations.

Dec 20 2013

01:02 Went along the Backs to almost Jacob's Ladder Thursday Dec 19 2013 evening just passed, walked up through the town to Sainsbury's Chesham and then returned home along Waterside. It may have been about 20:15 when I went out and as I approached Hospital Hill a car came up and as I walked across it the car came down. I thought that it was suspicious so I looked down the hill as I walked across. The Backs were empty still but I did see somebody hanging about at the top of Jacob's Ladder.

I'm currently not using the lamp in my room but instead making the most of my monitors and the hall light to avoid signalling when I'm going out and returning. I started doing this on Tuesday (I didn't go out Wednesday) and I did it Thursday too and I'll continue to do it for the moment for peace of mind. I do this anyway when there are insects about as I like to have some fresh air coming in.

Dec 21 2013

00:18 Friday Dec 20 2013 evening just passed I walked to Sainsbury's Chesham about 20:10 down Trapps Lane and along Waterside. I came back along Waterside but cut across to the top of Springfield Road and a car came down after I'd crossed and gone up the steps -- just noting it. Very windy out but plenty of people about.

Dec 23 2013

00:13 I didn't go out the Sunday Dec 22 2013 evening just passed -- I've got everything I need including a bar of chocolate I've retained for the majority of the last week.

I was having fun playing through the various races in GTA Online since there's quite a few things I haven't done yet. A lot of players just drive around shooting one another in free roam which is easy and amusing but there's plenty more to the game than that. I think the fact that people have to wait in a lobby for others to join and there's some loading involved can all be a bit tiresome.

I noticed about 22:00 two police cars flew up my hill with lights flashing so something was going on.

My dad's having an operation on his blocked vein in his neck today because he's been having a few micro-strokes. A doctor who scanned his brain was amazed that he could still do so much because there's quite a lot of brain damage. They're concerned that he could become paralysed if he suffers any more so they're going to remove the blockage.

Dec 28 2013

00:16 I went out about 19:30 Friday Dec 27 2013 night just passed. I walked along Waterside and there were quite a few people about, but Sainsbury's Chesham was quiet. I only bought a couple of items and simply enjoyed the exercise and smoked a couple of cigarettes which I still like too. This was the first time I'd ventured out since Dec 23 2013 and it's not normal for me to stay in like this but it's the sensible thing to do for the moment.

I still don't know what's been said about me. Is somebody going to confront me about something at some point or am I going to be indirectly expired. I still have some things to document which are still fresh in my mind.

To protect myself I'm currently keeping my room lamp off, I'm disabling the security light outside the front door when I leave, I'm wearing different clothes, I'm going out at random times to Sainsbury's Chesham only and I'm not using the Backs.

Dec 29 2013

00:24 I went out about 19:15 Saturday Dec 28 2013 night just passed. I walked along Waterside and saw a couple of people on the way to the High Street and there were a few in the town. It was in fact very quiet but then again the pubs won't start filling up until after I've returned home if they fill up at all. The town is very different to when I was a young man -- there were probably a half dozen more pubs and hundreds more drinkers back then and we'd pub crawl as a big group.

Dec 30 2013

23:59 I went out at 20:00 this evening and there were a few people about but it's very quiet, even on the roads. I've got enough supplies now to last me over the New Year so I won't need to go out over the next two days.

I've been playing Elder Scrolls IV: Oblivion and it's a really nice role playing game -- it'll keep me occupied for some time as it's massive.

I've had a really cheap month living on 2 pounds a day which is amazing.

2014

January

Jan 1 2014

10:35 Happy New Year! I just want to record a few things that I've been thinking about:

Monday Dec 30 2013 I walked down the steps to Springfield Road on my way up to Sainsbury's Chesham which I haven't done for a while. At the same time a car came up Springfield Road and turned around near the bottom of the steps so that its lights were illuminating the path up towards me. I then saw a person coming towards me but all I could see was a black shape because of the darkness and the car's headlights. The person passed me on the left and was short but big. The car stopped in front of the flats and I walked down Springfield Road.

Friday Dec 27 2013 and Saturday Dec 28 2013 I walked down behind my house and came out at the garages before walking down Trapps Lane. On both of these occasions a car came along Five Acres from Pheasant Rise and into the area of the garages. The Friday car drove speedily around the corner and really close to me, the Saturday car was a little later so that I'd already walked through the area.

On Saturday I passed a man along Waterside where Rina's hairdressers used to be on my way up to Sainsbury's Chesham. I have been intentionally keeping myself to myself over the last couple of weeks i.e. maintain a big personal space and look down, but when this guy got close I instinctively looked up at him in the face and we made brief eye contact before we both looked away. I think that he had to wait for me to pass because there wasn't enough room but he was staring at me which I felt.

22:06 I've had a nice day with Welsh lamb, Champagne and Christmas pudding with Cointreau cream. Played GTA Online much of the day but I'm having a break now and if I had a TV I'd be watching Black Adder on Dave but my set-top-box blew-up a year ago. My dad made it out of bed to sit at the table as he's recovering from an operation which has gone extremely well.

Jan 9 2014

00:09 Wednesday Jan 8 2014 evening just passed I went down Trapps Lane and along Waterside around 19:45. I crossed to the opposite path somewhere near the bottom of Hospital Hill. There were a few people about and it has been getting busier since the holidays have passed. I heard a couple of female joggers on the other side of the road chatting to one another whilst heading south -- I've passed them before at the exact same place (the corner near Sundance) and I think they're just Wednesday regulars.

I continued to walk along the same side of the path to the top of Waterside and then I crossed over and went up through the town to Sainsbury's Chesham. I'm just trying to randomise my route although it's rather difficult when all that's left is Waterside.

On my way back I crossed East Street and looked up just enough to check that the route in front of me was clear and I ended up looking at the legs of a young woman who was walking towards me so I quickly looked down again. I've been attempting to keep my gaze downwards but it's quite difficult to do because if you're not constantly reminding yourself to keep looking down you end up looking at what's ahead of you and that's not a good thing to be doing at this time. Something has been said about me and I don't want to be looking at people at all if I can help it. I'm aiming to simply walk to Sainsbury's Chesham and back whilst maintaining a large personal space and keeping my gaze downwards to protect myself.

I don't want the people who've been monitoring me to have the opportunity to set me up and I believe that I've made a mistake in the past assuming that when it goes quiet it's because they've gone away. I don't think that they will leave me alone until they've ended my citizenship.

Last Tuesday Jan 7 2014 and Sunday Jan 5 2014 I didn't go out but the other days I did. The times were between 19:30 and 20:30.

Jan 10 2014

00:42 Went out about 19:30 Thursday Jan 9 2014 evening just passed. A guy came down the alley at the end of Whichcote and asked if he could pass me as he needed to run somewhere to meet somebody so I let him pass and then I walked along the Backs for a change -- still nobody about although I assumed the guy ran along there.

Jan 16 2014

00:44 I've been going out at different times still and I've started to use the Backs a little although I'll either go up it or return down it -- it's still empty.

Wednesday Jan 15 2014 just passed there was a knock on the door around 13:00 and I went down to look through the spy hole and a guy knocked louder and said "Hello!". I thought that it was odd that somebody would do that. Normally I wouldn't open the door but it sounded like he was expected so I opended it. He was selling dusters and things from a black bag and told me he was in the army and now he's doing this and who knows if any of that's true. I told him as quickly as I could that I don't need anything and he thanked me for being polite and left. We've got a sticker on the door stating that we don't deal with sellers etc. and it has been a long time since the last one knocked.

Jan 21 2014

02:01 I went out at 19:15 Monday Jan 20 2014 evening and I actually passed three people along the Backs which is amazing although I've only used the path a half dozen times since mid December.

I've been playing GTA Online quite a lot recently and I tend to run Solo Sessions earlier in the day to make it easier to make money and then play with other people later on. Last evening a player hid behind Los Santos Customs in Harmony whilst I was finding a car to sell but I don't kill everyone I meet like some players and there's some initial uncertainty when you're in the vicinity of others. I just ignored the female skinned player and eventually found a suitable car to sell and then bought a drink outside the clothes shop. The player went into the shop and bought/changed outfits and left as I went in and changed into a hoodie. I drove to the Sandy Shores airfield and did the gang attack and the player arrived and took off in a jet and flew over Mount Chiliad. I eventually took a big boat trip and returned to the Alamo Sea and the player was approaching the edge so I gave her a ride to the package drop that I was heading for. After she'd got out she sent me a message saying "thanks for the ride" and I replied "you're welcome". I hope that that was just a random innocent player having fun like me and not some game that somebody is attempting to play on me. These people monitoring me do not stop with their games. My guard should be up all of the time and it's not an easy thing to do. Just because I'm relaxed and playing an online 18 rated PS3 video game doesn't mean I'm safe.


Notes:

The following was written on Jul 22 2015:

I was very paranoid by this point and likely excessively so here, but there's no reason why my attackers wouldn't attempt to set me up through an online computer game -- it's not difficult to get my PS3 user id. In fact it's an ideal environment for a set-up because the user could well mistakenly think that they are safe and not have their guard up.

What this shows as does the note about where my view was falling on Jan 9 2014 is how increasingly concerned I was becoming about what was happening to me.


Jan 22 2014

00:13 I went out about 19:30 Tuesday Jan 21 2014 and down Trapps lane to Waterside. As I got there a huge group of joggers were about to cross over the river Chess from the Moor and shortly afterwards they came up behind me along the path and I was engulfed in people. I had no personal space and I wanted to make sure that my gaze remained downwards but they were so close around me that I was looking at my toes -- it was ridiculous. At one point I had to lift my gaze to check the route ahead and I ended up looking at somebody's backside, a woman I think but it was dark so I'm not certain. That's just the sort of situation the people monitoring me are capable of setting up and I realised this from the start. The joggers were assembled outside the Waggon at the top of the town and they are a regular group. It's important to record things like this even if they are nothing.


Notes:

The following was written on Jul 22 2015:

These people were agents/detectives and were sensitising/programming me to push me back up to using the Backs footpath.

This was part of an operation to manipulate me into walking past children's groups accessible from the Backs footpath -- see Tuesday Mar 11 2014 for an explanation.


Jan 24 2014

00:27 I went out around 19:30 Thurday Jan 23 2014 just gone, down Trapps Lane and along Waterside.

I needed some bread in Sainsbury's Chesham and I bought a couple of other items. One of the security guards came around the corner of the isle I was in and fiddled with tins on the shelf, then walked between the soup shelf and myself whilst I was looking at the items. When I left, both security guards were at the CCTV desk near the exit. Just noting it.

All my diary entries between Dec 19 2013 and today have been sitting on my computer waiting to be published on my website: I have now uploaded them. I still have some things to record but they're still fresh in my mind and I'll do it when I can be bothered.

I've got a heart murmur and I've been experiencing some fluctuations in my heartbeat. Thursday just gone I had some weird irregular thumping and a pain in my left arm and side. I've experienced this before and it could just be stress related. Under normal conditions my health is great.

09:38 I was really hot last night and had trouble getting to sleep. I want to add some more detail about my journey Thurday Jan 23 2014 evening just passed: near the church at the bottom of Trapps Lane, a woman with a dog was approaching where the path is very narrow, lined with cars with quite a few puddles present. I did move aside to let her through but she chose to navigate around me through the parked cars. In Red Lion Street an African young woman asked me for directions to the football club so I stopped and assisted her. Immediately following that I looked away from the woman towards the path in front of me to continue my journey and a female jogger crossed my vision, jogging in from the road moving in the same direction as me. As I have mentioned in previous posts, I am intentionally keeping a big personal space and looking down to keep myself to myself and safe but I did notice in my peripheral vision that there were several single joggers jogging past me in both directions during the evening. I'm just adding detail -- It may or may not be useful later on.

20:09 I went out tonight at 19:20 and decided to walk along the Backs as it was raining. I got towards Hospital Hill and a vehicle was coming up and I said to myself "Surprise surprise, a car's coming up" but it was in fact a police van which drove slowly past me. There were plenty of people about and Sainsbury's Chesham was busy but the Backs were empty.

My heart has really been hurting today. I did have some fun earlier racing online in GTA with a few people and it eased up then presumably because it's a stress thing.

Jan 26 2014

00:29 I went out at 20:05 Saturday Jan 25 2014 just passed. I walked through Springfield Road to Waterside and up to Sainsbury's Chesham and I returned via the Backs.

There were a few people walking along Waterside, a few in the town and not many in Sainsbury's Chesham possibly because the weather was bad. I saw Andy and had a brief chat. A straightforward and easy evening.

My heart's still thumping away irregularly but it's not so bad now.

Jan 27 2014

09:00 Last night (Sunday Jan 26 2014) somewhere between 19:00 and 19:30 I made two cigarettes in my room -- one for me and one potentially for my mother -- and we smoked them outside the front door. I only do this on Sunday evenings as I've stopped going out at this time since Sainsbury's Chesham isn't open and I'm currently finding being out a somewhat displeasurable experience due to it being a potential minefield of set-up situations and intimidating suspect people and vehicles hovering around me. I did notice whilst outside the front door a parked car engine noise and lights but I couldn't see anything because of the neighbour's big bush blocking out most of the view from our front garden. Eventually the vehicle slowly drove off down the hill and I could see through a gap in the bush that it was a small silver car which I have seen being used by the police and driving near me on numerous occasions which I have reported in this diary.

Jan 29 2014

00:08 I went out at 20:30 Tuesday Jan 28 2014 evening just passed, down Springfield Road and along Waterside. When I walked past the bottom of Hospital Hill a police van came down Waterside, then span around and went back up and I think that it was parked near the industrial units but I didn't look. A big group of joggers then came down Waterside and passed me on both sides of the footpath but this time there was plenty of space for all of us to fit on the same path comfortably as opposed to last Tuesday Jan 21 2014.

The police van was suspicious obviously and I'm starting to wonder about the joggers too. Last Tuesday Jan 21 2014 when they engulfed me going up Waterside I'd gone from having the path to myself to a situation similar to being transported to the front of a crowd at a music concert. The narrow path there would struggle with two pedestrians using it so I do wonder why they didn't use the thin path on the other side of the road or in fact use the road. I remember that one woman quietly said sorry as she passed but nobody else said anything. In the past I've heard the shouts of a group leader who'll say something to the group to prepare them to accommodate pedestrians as they pass, which of course warns pedestrians too so that the situation is safe. There was nothing like that.

I'm wondering if this is the start of some kind of psychological profiling operation or maybe another attempt to limit my freedom of movement even further. In the past I've used the rural routes all year round so I've managed to thankfully bypass the town, but I suspect I'll be illuminated by floodlights again if I did that and then there was the incident on Sunday Dec 16 2013 with the suspicious guy along the Backs and another in the town which persuaded me to not use the Backs which has resulted in me being funnelled down Waterside: very interesting. That was the last Sunday I went out too. I was going along to the garage at the bottom of Nashleigh Hill for a decent walk, smoke a couple of cigarettes and to get some chocolate and that incident persuaded (or manipulated) me into not using the Backs and not going out on a Sunday. I have suspected in the past that certain people who've reacted in certain ways and who I've assumed were regular civilians were in fact agents/detectives manipulating me.

I'm very concerned about my safety now on a Tuesday evening because both Tuesday Jan 28 2014 just gone and last Tuesday Jan 21 2014 have contained suspicious events so I need to navigate around this group, location and time period to prevent myself from unwittingly walking into some scripted situation that's been set-up. I feel like somebody is trying to destroy me and it's causing me some anxiety. Worth noting is the fact that I can't remember the last time a big group of joggers were out in the town. Maybe they were out but were on my periphery and I didn't notice them. Since I have recorded the times I've left the house over the last two Tuesdays (19:30 and 20:30) I shall move my trip to Sainsbury's Chesham outside of this time period and not use Waterside. Hopefully then I will feel safe and comfortable.

I've just compiled this text for my online Diary and I'm thinking wow, look at all of this information, this is becoming quite substantial. I thought a long time ago that somebody has my name on a cell somewhere and is manipulating me into it. I'm really happy that I'm recording as much of this as I can because you can't dig this quantity of material out of your head over a period of years.

It's 03:05 now so I'll upload it and get some sleep.


Notes:

The following was written on Jul 22 2015:

The police van and joggers (likely agents/detectives) were sensitising/programming me to push me back up to using the Backs footpath.

This was part of an operation to manipulate me into walking past children's groups accessible from the Backs footpath -- see Tuesday Mar 11 2014 for an explanation.

Thames Valley Police did have access to my diary via my website and I obviously chose to do what they wanted me to do because it went quiet after this.


Jan 30 2014

00:14 I went out at 19:40 Wednesday Jan 29 2014 evening just passed and walked along the Backs both ways which was quiet and pleasant -- no suspicious vehicles and no police vans hanging around. There were maybe a dozen people around the town and Sainsbury's Chesham wasn't particularly busy but it was raining.

Jan 31 2014

00:58 I went out around 19:50 Thursday Jan 30 2014 evening just passed and walked along the Backs and returned along Waterside.

I crossed Springfield Road and what sounded like a van came up behind me and turned around at the top but I don't know what it was.

I passed a woman I think along the Backs which makes a change because it's been very quiet.

A woman was gradually walking across my path in the town so I sped-up leftwards to maintain space and eventually overtook her.

Several people were in the town and Sainsbury's Chesham wasn't busy -- it was quite normal for a change and quite different to what I recorded for last Thursday.


Notes:

The following was written on Jul 22 2015:

That woman walking across my path felt very odd. It happened on the way up the High Street just past the clock tower.


February

Feb 1 2014

00:14 I went out around 20:10 Friday Jan 31 2014 evening just passed and walked along Waterside and returned along the Backs. It was raining so it was quiet but there were a few people in the town.

There was a man/late teen standing on the path next to a garden fence at the end of Whichcote which was an odd place to be standing in the dark and the rain but I looped around my house and I didn't see him again.

I nearly forgot this actually because I had a lot of fun playing GTA Online tonight -- Rockstar really need to add some more content though otherwise people will lose interest.

Feb 2 2014

10:46 I went out at 19:25 Saturday Feb 1 2014 evening just passed and walked along the Backs in both directions. I saw one guy who I think had parked his pickup outside the motorcycle workshop on Hospital Hill who just appeared around the corner as I reached it, I looked up at him out of surprise but he kept looking down into his mobile phone. I just wondered why I didn't catch him by surprise too so that he'd look up. Maybe he'd already seen me coming along whilst driving up and parking so he knew I was there.

There were plenty of people in the town and Sainsbury's Chesham was just the same as it normally is in the evenings, not busy.

It looks like I'm experiencing another quiet period and the irregular heartbeats and pains that I get from my heart murmur under stress have significantly reduced which is good.

Feb 4 2014

00:11 I went out at 19:25 Monday Feb 3 2014 evening just passed and walked along the Backs in both directions. I saw four well spoken people using the Backs between Hospital Hill and Springfield Road. Going up the town to Sainsbury's Chesham was quiet but coming back was busy. I passed a guy along the Backs on the return journey who waited for me to pass a narrow part with my shopping and I said "Cheers", so it was another normal evening.

Feb 5 2014

02:03 I went out at 19:00 Tuesday Feb 4 2014 evening just passed and walked along the Backs in both directions. On the way out I crossed the railway bridge and noticed in the distance was a woman I think walking towards the town. I probably got halfway along that section before it drops down to Red Lion Street and a woman jogger followed by a man jogger with a dog passed me heading away from the town. I dropped down to Red Lion Street and a man came up appearing from behind the house on the corner. There were a few people in the town, Sainsbury's Chesham was busier than I normally find it but then I did go out quite early which could account for why the Backs was busier too.

It's very different from what I recorded for last Tuesday Jan 28 2014.


Notes:

The following was written on Jul 23 2015:

The man who appeared from behind the house on the cobbled lane between the Backs and Red Lion Street (it runs down the side of the church) could well have been an agent/detective creating/developing the set-up (building the story) that's to follow -- see Tuesday Mar 11 2014 for an explanation.


Feb 6 2014

00:52 I went out at 19:30 Wednesday Feb 5 2014 evening just passed. I walked down Hospital Hill, I think somebody was sitting in a parked car near the bottom, then one or more people got out of the car behind it lower down and a woman jogger and dog then crossed the bottom along Waterside going south. I passed an old lady and somebody else coming down Waterside and there were quite a few people in the town. I went to Sainsbury's Chesham as usual and it wasn't particularly busy. I returned along the Backs and didn't see anyone other than a small green car coming up Springfield Road and turning around and going back down as I reached it.

Feb 7 2014

00:35 I didn't go out Thursday Feb 6 2014 evening just passed although I've run out of bread. Somebody was going to come and help move some furniture but they couldn't make it.

Feb 8 2014

00:36 I went out at 19:20 Friday Feb 7 2014 evening just passed. I walked down Hospital Hill and a small Vigor (?) van was sitting there and drove down as I reached the hill. I walked along the northbound side of Waterside and I think I saw one person on the southbound side. There were quite a few people in the town and Sainsbury's Chesham wasn't busy. I returned along Waterside and up Springfield Road but I don't think I saw anybody, I can't remember now to be honest. I passed one person with a torch -- a young man I think -- coming down the path from Whichcote to Springfield Road and that was it. It's quiet although I'm still maintaining a big personal space, looking down and keeping my guard up but I'm getting used to doing it now, it's becoming automatic which is a good thing.

Feb 11 2014

00:16 I went out around 19:45 Monday Feb 10 2014 evening just passed. I walked down Springfield Road and along Waterside on the northbound footpath. I think there were one or two people on the other side but it was quiet on mine. There were quite a few people in the town and Sainsbury's Chesham was reasonably busy. I returned along the Backs and I think I passed three people heading towards the town.

I didn't record anything for Saturday Feb 8 2014 evening but it was uneventful and the evenings currently appear to be free from suspicious people and situations, therefore I'm much more relaxed and can occupy myself with my own thoughts.

Feb 12 2014

01:10 I went out at 19:20 Tuesday Feb 11 2014 evening just passed. I walked along the Backs and passed a couple of people coming up the bridge with a torch. There were a few people in the town and Sainsbury's Chesham was the same as usual. I left Sainsbury's Chesham and saw some joggers going down the town. I walked up Station Road and returned along the full length of the Backs and passed a hoodie just south of the train station.


Notes:

The following was written on Jul 23 2015:

Whilst walking up Station Road I did intend to continue along East Street but I saw another lone female jogger approaching Station Road from East Street (she was below the steep car park) so I went along the Backs from the top of Station Road by the Underground station which runs past the Guides hut and I noticed a hoodie standing outside. I think that the lone female jogger was there to push/nudge me up the Backs so that I would be seen walking past the Guides hut.

This was part of an operation to manipulate me into walking past children's groups accessible from the Backs footpath -- see Tuesday Mar 11 2014 for an explanation.


Feb 14 2014

00:15 I went out at 19:40 Thursday Feb 13 2014 evening just passed. I walked down the steps to Springfield Road and down Hospital Hill and passed four people in total between these points. Waterside was quiet and there were a few people in the town but I was thinking about GTA Online so I wasn't really concerned about what was going on around me. Sainsbury's Chesham wasn't busy and my return trip along the Backs was quiet. Actually there was a car turning around up Springfield Road as I came down the steps whilst two people were coming up but it hasn't happened much recently whereas in the past it was most nights at any time. It needs recording anyway.

I did go out Wednesday Feb 12 2014 evening but I didn't record anything. Again, I think there was some vehicle activity around Springfield Road but I can't really remember. I'll make a point now of looking out for it seeing as it's got my attention.

My last upload of this diary to my website was Feb 6 2014 so I'm going to do it again now.

Feb 17 2014

00:02 As usual for the moment, I didn't go out Sunday Feb 16 2014 evening just gone.

Saturday I went out at 19:55, walked along the Backs and passed two people coming towards me, the town and Sainsbury's Chesham were normal and I think I returned along the Backs too.

Friday Feb 14 2014 I didn't go out because it was very windy and raining and I didn't need anything so there really wasn't any point.

It's very quiet, uneventful and forgetable.

Feb 19 2014

00:06 I went out just before 19:20 Tuesday Feb 18 2014 evening just passed. I walked along the Backs and it was quiet. To be honest, I can't remember now if I passed anyone but I think not. As I walked into the town from Red Lion Street I think there was a police van parked near the pub up against the old building but I'm not certain because last week there was a works van in that area which looked like a police van. I walked past the clock tower and one male jogger ran past me close enough for me to see even though I'm still looking down as I walk about. I think there were a few more people about as I walked up to Sainsbury's Chesham but it was mostly quiet.

Sainsbury's Chesham was quiet and I walked out expecting there to be lots of joggers going up and down like last Tuesday Feb 11 2014 but there was nobody. I walked up the side of Waitrose which was pitch black, passed a couple of people coming down and then walked along the Backs and saw nobody else.

Monday Feb 17 2014 evening I can't remember much about at all. It's quietened down now to the point where I'm not really concerning myself with what's going on around me -- I'm lost in my own thoughts. At the moment I'm playing GTA Online and participating in the community forums so I'm thinking about those things. In the past I've been developing open source software and I've designed and coded it in my head as I've walked/jogged/ridden along and then written it up once I'd got home. I'm not yet at the stage where I can be creative again, perhaps if it remains quiet then it'll return.

I sensed Spring today with the sunshine and some bird song.

My last upload of this diary to my website was Feb 14 2014 so I'm going to do it again now.


Notes:

The following was written on Jul 23 2015:

Where was the big group of joggers (agents/detectives)? Possibly the jogging group weren't needed anymore and that's why they weren't around. Who was the lone single male jogger getting in my personal space close enough so that I'd notice him even though I was looking down? Was he an agent/detective?


Feb 21 2014

01:16 I went out at 19:35 Thursday Feb 20 2014 evening just passed. I walked along the Backs and didn't see anyone. As I walked into the town near Circle Seven a single male jogger passed me quite close heading south. There were a few other people about but it was quiet as was Sainsbury's Chesham. I returned along the Backs and didn't see anyone all the way home.

Wednesday Feb 19 2014 evening I went out at 19:45 and it was uneventful. The van parked near the Red Lion is a works van.

It's getting lighter in the evenings now so it won't be long before I can venture out and get some proper exercise. Another mountain bike would be nice so I can start riding the Ridgeway again before I go to Sainsbury's Chesham.


Notes:

The following was written on Jul 23 2015:

Another lone single male jogger passing me closely in the same spot.


Feb 23 2014

00:08 I went out at 19:45 Saturday Feb 22 2014 evening just passed. I walked down the steps to Springfield Road and passed a couple of people coming up, walked along the Backs which was quiet and there were a few people in the town here and there. Sainsbury's Chesham wasn't too busy, I walked back through the town and then up the Backs as it's easy. There was what sounded like a police helicopter hovering over the train station and the hillside so something was happening there. I passed one person on my way home and that was it.

The weather is getting better now and it was noticeable today and this evening. I even wore my trainers for the first time since the end of last year. It's only a month now till the equinox.

I didn't go out Friday Feb 21 2014 as I didn't need anything and I really couldn't be bothered. I was having a lot of fun gaming with GTA Online and I had an irritation at the back of my nose and throat as though I was catching something but it hasn't amounted to anything. That GTA Online is amazing but it's full of terrible bugs. I would say that they don't test what they release and the gamers end up flooding the support forums with bug reports. I don't think they'll ever fix it properly, they seem to be adding more bugs than they're fixing.


Notes:

The following was written on Jul 24 2015:

This helicopter that sounded like a police helicopter hovering about I found interesting because a few days later on Wednesday Feb 26 2014 I almost bumped into a police car parked at the top of the cobbled lane between the Backs and Red Lion Street that runs down the side of the church. It could well be that this helicopter was creating/developing the set-up (building the story) that's to follow -- see Tuesday Mar 11 2014 for an explanation.


Feb 26 2014

01:03 I went out at 19:25 Tuesday Feb 25 2014 evening just passed. I walked (actually jogged a short distance) along the Backs and saw a couple just before Springfield Road and the remainder was quiet. There were plenty of people walking through the town and Sainsbury's Chesham was normal. I came out again expecting to see the new jogging group going up and down the High Street but they weren't there so they didn't last long! I returned home through the High Street and then along the Backs and didn't see anyone else.

Monday Feb 24 2014 evening I went out but I can't remember what time or anything about it at all -- it was simply uneventful.


Notes:

The following was written on Jul 24 2015:

Where was the big group of joggers (agents/detectives)? Possibly the jogging group weren't needed anymore and that's why they weren't around.


Feb 27 2014

00:15 I went out just before 19:50 Wednesday Feb 26 2014 evening just passed. I walked down the steps to Springfield Road and there was a smart couple talking to one another and they were standing across the path to the Backs so I had to navigate around the man as they didn't move for me. I've seen them there before not long ago and I'm pretty sure it was Thursday Feb 13 2014 at almost the same time.

I continued along the Backs and as I approached the drop down to Red Lion Street (I don't know the name of it but it's just before Jacob's Ladder) a Spaniel dog appeared followed by its owner. I then turned the corner and almost bumped into a parked police car with no lights on. It was parked right up to the Backs and it blocked off the path so I had to walk on the grass and mud by the tree and it was dark. I think I saw some movement in the front passenger seat but I didn't look at it directly -- I was almost touching it.

The High Street wasn't busy but there were a few people walking up and down. I did pass a guy standing outside a shop possibly opposite Darvell's looking at his phone which seemed a bit familiar but who knows. Sainsbury's Chesham wasn't busy, I walked back through the town and then up to the Backs the same way I came down and the police car had gone. I passed a couple along the Backs almost at Hospital Hill who were heading north and not far behind them was a man with a torch.

Other things I did today: I got up and had a shower, washed a pair of trousers that probably should've been dry cleaned but I've had them years and this is the first time that I've worn them so it's not important, washed my thermals and haven't put on another pair which I'd say is premature because it's not mild enough yet to stop using them, I played GTA Online for most of the day and wrote a couple of things to the Rockstar community forum.

My last upload of this diary to my website was Feb 19 2014 so I'm going to do it again now.


Notes:

The following was written on Oct 24 2014 16:31:

This was the last upload that Thames Valley Police got to read.

The following was written on Jul 24 2015:

It could well be that this police car parked at the top of the cobbled lane between the Backs and Red Lion Street that runs down the side of the church was creating/developing the set-up (building the story) that's to follow -- see Tuesday Mar 11 2014 for an explanation.


Feb 28 2014

01:03 I went out at 19:55 Thursday Feb 27 2014 evening just passed. I walked along the Backs and passed a smart gentleman coming towards me who likely just got off the train. The town wasn't busy but Sainsbury's Chesham was as I had to queue for the tills which I don't normally have to do in the evenings. The walk back was quiet, I passed one guy on a bike along the Backs heading towards the town who thanked me for giving him room to pass and another late teen male walking along Whichcote.

Other things I did today: I put my thermals back on because it's too cold still. I played GTA Online quite a bit and again contributed a few things to the community forum. I do have to look at my mother's laptop and I might have a quick look tomorrow although I have a feeling it's going to be a long task. It's got Windows 7 and Norton protecting it and it's slow but one of her friends with an Apple temporarily swapped its hard disk with an Apple one to view a home video and it's now painfully slow and unusable.

March

Mar 11 2014


Notes:

The following was written on Jul 24 2015:

Tuesday Mar 11 2014:
If you search this diary for "Mar 11 2014" then you will find that I couldn't write the event that happened on this day because I realised I'd been set-up in the most evil manner possible and it made me very ill. Even now I'm struggling to write this and I have all the data that I need to document it but I find it so disturbing and shocking that somebody in authority would subject me to something like this that the prospect of recalling and reliving it I'm finding repugnant and repelling. The event that happened on this day in itself was nothing and in the past it would've meant absolutely nothing to me but at the time it made me feel uncomfortable because of the attack that I was under (and still am) but nothing more, just an uncomfortable situation under the circumstances.

I can't remember the exact time that I went out and during that period I was going out at random times for protection but I think it was somewhere between 20:15 and 20:30. I walked along the Backs as far as the church near the top of the cobbled lane that drops down to Red Lion Street and as I turned the corner onto the cobbled lane there was quite a bit of activity and a car was across the lane facing the church car park as though it was attempting to enter it and it was preventing me from joining the path so I stood there and waited for whatever the driver was going to do and eventually it pulled back enough for me to reach the path. It was very dark there and I couldn't see anything and I'd just spent a while with a car's headlights ruining my night vision and as I walked past the church towards Red Lion Street quite a few people came out and I had to walk on the side of the path slightly sideways so that we all had enough space. I don't know who the people were and as I said it was very dark so I couldn't see anything of them but judging by their shapes I'd say that it was one or more adults followed by children so there was some sort of childrens group exiting the church at the same time that I walked past.

What happened on this day was the finale of an operation to manipulate me into walking past children's groups accessible from the Backs footpath. I was sensitised to joggers who were then used to affect the choices I made about routes that I was taking. I was manipulated/pushed/nudged into positions/locations that they wanted me to be in.

The creation and development of this set-up (the story building) I'd documented when it happened and I've recently added notes to help explain it and if necessary add some more detail so I don't need to duplicate it again here, but I will summarise it:

Now, as you can see during this period I started to record in my diary when I have a shower (I've got eczema and showering strips my skin of oils and I have to be careful how often I do it so Tuesday is normally the day and it's been like this for years) and I started to record this because I thought my attackers were attempting to create/engineer sexual links.

Very personal information originally recorded here has been moved to my Very Personal Diary.

I would say now that my attackers were attempting to create/engineer a link between my personal grooming/body maintenance day and me walking along the Backs past children's groups.


Mar 14 2014

01:00 Went out at 19:05 Thursday Mar 13 2014 evening just passed wearing my jogging gear and rucksack. I jogged:

and then to Sainsbury's Chesham. I walked home through the town, along Waterside and up Springfield Road.


Notes:

The following was written on Aug 10 2015:

I changed my routine here because I was uncomfortable about what happened on Tuesday Mar 11 2014 and I wanted to distance myself from that.


Mar 15 2014

00:16 Went out at 19:25 Friday evening just passed wearing my jogging gear and rucksack. I jogged:

and then to Sainsbury's Chesham. I walked home through the town and then along the Backs.

Mar 16 2014

00:34 Went out at 20:10 Saturday Mar 15 2014 evening just passed.

Walked along the Backs to Jacob's Ladder and went down there instead of the cobbled lane past the church -- the reason for that I'll explain later as I'm bored with writing this rubbish now and I'm currently doing something worthwhile on Rockstar's community forum.

As I got to the bottom of Jacob's Ladder a guy with a phone in his hand walked up and another person must've been around the left corner because somebody followed me although I went past Bulldog's newsagent and the person cut through the alleyway by the stationers. I could hear the person following me up the High Street but I don't think it was much beyond the George pub. Again, I'll explain it later because it all makes sense.


Notes:

The following was written on Aug 10 2015:

I didn't think these guys were normal citizens, I thought that they were agents/detectives.


Mar 17 2014

20:06 Went out at 19:20 this evening wearing my jogging gear and rucksack. I jogged:

and then to Sainsbury's Chesham. I jogged back:

and got in just after 20:00.

23:44 It's been very quiet so far this month but I've noted a few things that need recording.

Showered Wednesday Mar 5 2014, Monday Mar 10 2014.

Tuesday Mar 4 2014 a lone male jogger passed me from behind at the bottom of the cobbled lane by the church leading up to the Backs. I was going to walk along Waterside but I thought that there might be dozens of joggers using it so I went up the Backs instead.


Notes:

The following was written on Aug 10 2015:

This lone male jogger was an agent/detective nudging me up the cobbled lane past the church towards the Backs because there's a children's group there on a tuesday evening.


Wednesday Mar 5 2014 a lone female jogger passed me from behind approaching Sainsbury's Chesham possibly around 20:00 who was close enough for me to see her in my peripheral vision. I was walking close to the buildings on the left.

Thursday Mar 6 2014 around 19:40 I saw the couple that I keep seeing on the footpath to the Backs at the top of Springfield Road. Again they stand at the same spot chatting, he at the top, she at the bottom and they don't move out of the way. This time I navigated around the woman.

Mar 18 2014

13:58 Now I'm going to explain something about last Tuesday Mar 11 2014:

18:02 I've attempted to write this up and I've been looking at the IPCC website too but I can't commit to writing it because I feel very sick which has been increasing in severity since last Wednesday Mar 12 2014 evening. I'm sitting in my bed with my laptop and I've half-slept for a couple of hours with my stomach all tied up and I've only eaten toast at breakfast. I currently feel very drained from this experience and I was managing to deal with it quite well I thought but it's getting too sinister and hopeless.

18:38 I've just got up and got a coffee and I'm going to play a little GTA V on my PS3 for a break and then I'll try and start this tonight. I won't be going out, I'm only out for half an hour a day now and it's a minefield of set-ups and it's making my nerves bad.

Mar 20 2014

01:08 I didn't go out Wednesday Mar 19 2014 evening just passed because I still feel sick and nervous about leaving the house although I've run out of bread and cereal. I'm going to start going out at midday just to Sainsbury's Chesham still and I shall always jog.

Personal information originally recorded here has been moved to my Personal Diary.

Mar 21 2014

00:27 I didn't go out Thursday Mar 20 2014 just passed. I had a shave and did some washing and I still feel sick in my stomach but it's not so bad. I did eat rice and chicken curry about 14:30 which is an improvement and I think it's the first lunchtime meal I've eaten which wasn't more toast in over a week.

I had a cigarette on my own outside the front door about 20:15 but I smoked it quickly because there were quite a few people and vehicles around and some sinister laughing which made me feel uncomfortable. Yeah, I realise I'm likely a bit sensitive at the moment but I need to record things. It was the same out there last night (laughter too) but I was chatting with my mother so I wasn't paying much attention to it. There were some people going backwards and forwards along the street which again was happening last night and I looked out of the bathroom window and saw a big lorry so maybe somebody is moving house.

I think it would be a good idea to have a long stay inside for the time being because I don't want to experience any more set-ups otherwise they could become too numerous to explain away and I'll lose my liberty which concerns me. There's a possibility that they just want to break me but who knows.

Mar 23 2014

00:12 I still haven't been out and I still feel sick. My mother got me some shopping on Friday Mar 21 2014 and I've already got a big food stash so I'm well stocked for now.

Showered Saturday Mar 22 2014 just gone, did some washing, helped my dad with a few things because my mother went to Brighton for the day with a friend.

I've still yet to explain about Tuesday Mar 11 2014.

Mar 24 2014

00:04 I'm using a space/emergency blanket over my blind to block out the sunshine so that I can see my computer screens and it mostly covers the entire window but earlier today I folded it in half because I wanted some sunlight in whilst resting. About 22:30 a police vehicle with flashing blue lights came up the hill whilst I was on my PS3 which I haven't seen for a while likely because the light has mostly been blocked. It's amazing how big it folds out to considering how small it was in the packet and it looks quite cool since it's aluminium sprayed plastic.

Mar 31 2014

00:37 I can't remember the day exactly but I think it was last Tuesday Mar 25 2014 because I was the only one in, a man knocked on the door in the early afternoon with a case so I opened it and he asked me if he could leave me something for number 7 Whichcote Gardens so I accepted it. I didn't have to ask what it was as he told me "It's a record player" so I put my hand out to take it and he said "It's heavy!" by which time I'd touched the handle and then I let go and I told him to put it down in the hallway just inside the the door which he did. I asked him what the guy at number 7's name was and he said "Hang on, I'll have a look on my phone, I'm just the delivery driver" or something close to that and then he said "Pascal" -- I didn't know this myself but I didn't let him know that either.

I touched the top edges when I tried to move it to see what the weight was like and then I lifted it by the handle and it was quite a weight so I guess it was a professional DJ type record player as it was in an aluminium case with black panels. It wasn't that long afterward that Pascal knocked on the door, I shook his hand and said "Pascal, I'm Simon" and I placed the case on the front door step for him to take. He said "I think our paths cross occasionally" or something similar and I have accepted something for him before but I took it round myself. He was wearing a Royal Mail jacket and arrives home in the afternoon so I imagine that he was expecting to be home to take delivery of the record player himself but he wasn't so he arranged for it to be dropped off with me possibly because he knows I'll be in.

I haven't been out at all and when I do I'll most definitely say so here. I bought a new Freeview set-top-box for my CRT TV for £21 which my mother bought for me as a birthday present and I ordered it on Thursday Mar 27 2014 and it arrived on Saturday Mar 29 2014 with free delivery! It's pretty basic but the picture is good and I can entertain myself with a few TV programs now.

Personal information originally recorded here has been moved to my Personal Diary.

I'm still not eating a proper meal during the day, sometimes having more toast or nothing until my muesli and fruit at 21:00. I don't have the sick feeling in my stomach all the time but I still get it quite regularly which I think is likely to do with the uncertainty of what's going to happen next since my monitors don't stop their attack, they just appear to pause. I'm not getting any exercise which really is very bad for me but I have plenty of things to entertain me and fill my time. I have one cigarette in the back garden mostly accompanied by my mother between 19:00 and 20:00 so I'm smoking less and it's costing less which is good I guess.

April

Apr 1 2014

00:21 Showered Monday just passed. I was going to wash my bedding but I didn't think about it quickly enough so I'll do it today and hopefully dry it on the line in the back garden.

I'm been thinking some more about that professional record player that I accepted for Pascal at 7 Whichcote Gardens last week: it's very suspicious. I'm wondering what's going to happen next and if I haven't already stated it here directly, I am very aware that everything I do is being monitored at all times, so that could just be the next stage, the next set-up. These people haven't stopped yet so I should expect there to be a next stage. They've done some really insideous things to me some of which I've yet to record here, and have cut down my exercising to nothing therefore they could now be attacking me here in my house. It could be that they are making it look as though I'm taking delivery of suspicious packages possibly as an excuse for something. Maybe they just need to create a few more things before they've manufactured enough for a reason to extract me.

Apr 2 2014

00:12 I washed my bedding today and dried it on the washing line in the back garden.

It was really sunny and I had the space blanket covering most of the blind to block it out but later in the evening I pegged it back to half way and then sat and watched a little TV. I then noticed that a helicopter was flying around for quite a while although I couldn't see it, it did sound like a police helicopter as they have a distinctive engine noise.

Apr 21 2014

00:01 A helicopter encircled our group of houses around 19:00 Sunday Apr 20 2014 evening for a period of time that could've been longer than 15 minutes. I saw a neighbour in her back garden looking up and I heard my mother in the back garden so I went down and investigated and it was low and going round and around. I came back in and my mother continued to go in and out of the front and back doors and smoked a cigarette or two by the smell of it and she said there wasn't any other activity such as police cars nearby.

My mother gave me some money on Saturday Apr 19 2014 to last me a month but I didn't exactly spend much of the last lot she gave me. I have been eating a proper meal every day for at least the last week but prior to that I was gradually building up an appetite again.

Very personal information originally recorded here has been moved to my Very Personal Diary.

23:38

Very personal information originally recorded here has been moved to my Very Personal Diary.

I played GTA Online today and played a Solo Session with just me as usual but then I got into bed to watch a little TV and got very feverish and felt quite ill so I didn't join the public session in the evening. I'm getting bored of it now to be honest and I'm just trying to squeeze a little more entertainment out of it. The game hasn't been updated since the beginning of March and I'm not sure that there'll be any content added to it that will interest me in the near future.

Apr 22 2014

20:28 My heart hurts. My meal today was peanut butter on toast because my appetite has declined although I'll get my usual bowl of muesli at 21:00.

Apr 25 2014

01:52 I'm not eating properly again because of the helicopter over my house on Sunday Apr 20 2014. I'm just eating toast during the day instead of a proper meal.

I feel like I'm imprisoned and under complete surveillance and it's making me ill. Also this just goes on and on and on and on and on ad infinitum.

The fact that it's making me ill is tempting me to write a report and to publish it onto the Internet because it'll get harder to write, my heart could give up or I could be plucked from here and nobody will ever get to know the truth.

I was thinking about getting another bicycle which would make it more difficult for them to set me up but they won't stop attacking me and I think it would be sensible to publish this onto the Internet first or at least to make it publically visible whilst I'm out and then hide it again on return.

Apr 28 2014

02:01 Saturday Apr 26 2014 and Sunday Apr 27 2014 just gone I ate proper meals during the day: mushy peas with pasta and sweetcorn with rice.

May

May 1 2014

00:19

Very personal information originally recorded here has been moved to my Very Personal Diary.

Other things I did Wednesday Apr 30 2014 just gone: I constructed the IKEA shelving for my father that I ordered and which arrived a couple of days ago and rearranged some furniture. I played GTA Online today and played a Solo Session exclusively.

I want to record that I'm feeling really good at the moment and I've been eating properly over the last few days.

15:53 I bought a new bicycle today from Halfords -- Apollo Feud Mens Mountain Bike 17". My mother said that she could give me up to £200 but I don't have enough to make it up to the amount a Specialized would cost so I asked her for £50 and she said she'd pay the whole £99!

Personal information originally recorded here has been moved to my Personal Diary.

I moved the big 42" TV from downstairs into my father's bedroom today since he spends most of his time in bed now. The small TV that was already in there I took downstairs and I cleaned both TVs so I'm sure my parents are grateful for that.

May 3 2014

21:20 My bike arrived yesterday Friday May 2 2014 morning around 10:30 which was amazing because I'd only ordered it Thursday May 1 2014 afternoon! I assembled it yesterday and rode it for the first time today at 14:00. In fact this was the first day I've been out since Monday Mar 17 2014. The brakes were really squeaky but I've attended to that and the gears need tweaking which I'll do tomorrow.

I rode:

and then to Boots to buy some clotrimazole for my eczema. I rode back:

and arrived home at 15:30.

I did see a police van near the top of Stony Lane. I was sitting there resting after ascending the hill and the van came up and drove past.

May 5 2014

00:48 Yesterday Sunday May 4 2014 I went for a bike ride around 17:35 after the snooker session had finished. I rode:

and then to Tesco's Express Amersham to get some chocolate. I rode back:

and arrived home around 18:40.

It was quiet.

May 7 2014

00:11 I went out on my bicycle around 12:50 Tuesday May 6 2014 just gone. I rode:

and walked and pushed my bike up the High Street and locked it against a lampost outside a charity shop next door to Costa Coffee. I went into the charity shop to look at the sunglasses because previously I'd bought some from there that were excellent for cycling.

The sunglasses were up next to the counter and the male staff member was talking to a customer. I looked through the selection and the guy looked to see what I was doing and acknowledged me and then continued to talk to the customer. A very short time later he shuffled about on his stool and looked at me and I'd finished looking as I didn't find what I wanted so I looked at him and smiled and said "Thanks" and noticed that he had a rather startled expression. There were only half a dozen sunglasses on display so all of this happened in less than a minute and possibly only 30 seconds so who knows what was going on there. I do need to record these experiences as I haven't recorded them all in the past.

I unlocked my bike from the lampost outside, walked and pushed it up to Sainsbury's Chesham and bought some bread and biscuits (the receipt says 13:09) and rode back:


Notes:

The following was written on Aug 10 2015:

I'm guessing but I'm certain that the shop had been alerted to my visit. I can't remember exactly now but I think that this was a spontaneous visit, I don't recall discussing this with anyone in our household so somebody must've phoned the shop after I'd entered it.


May 8 2014

00:56

Very personal information originally recorded here has been moved to my Very Personal Diary.

Other things I did Wednesday May 7 2014 just gone: I ordered a TV online for my mother from Tesco. I played GTA Online today and played a Solo Session for maybe just an hour. I played the single player story mode for a bit longer as I'm getting a bit bored with it now and story mode is richer and more fluid. New DLC has finally been announced for next Tuesday so that'll inject a bit more life into it.

May 12 2014

20:01 I went out on my bicycle around 12:50 today. I rode:

and walked and pushed my bike up the High Street and locked it against a post near the war memorial. I then went into Nationwide and deposited a small amount of money that my mother gave me into my account because I'm going to buy some cycling sunglasses on eBay and possibly a USB SD Card reader for my mother's new TV.

I unlocked my bike from the post, walked and pushed it up to Sainsbury's Chesham and bought some headache tablets, bananas, mushy peas and baked beans (the receipt says 13:09, the same as last Wednesday which is funny) and I rode back:

Just for the record there were a couple of tall women in Sainsbury's Chesham wearing jogging trousers. One was hanging about at the end of the pasta/rice isle which I mistakenly momentarily walked down because I always confuse it with the tinned vegetable isle, and the other joined the self service queue just as I was going to so I went and looked at the computer magazines for a while. They could simply be normal citizens but I have to assume that they're suspect because there's no way I'm being left alone.

20:53 I forgot to mention that a security guard whom I didn't recognise was standing by the internal entrance of Sainsbury's Chesham when I entered and walked off as I picked up a basket. There is a security post nearby with monitors that they normally stand in but this guy was standing on the opposite side of the entrance so it did feel odd.

00:10 It's now Tuesday May 13 2014 morning but I want to record this here: I think it was obvious today that the Sainsbury's Chesham security guard was expecting me and those female joggers were agents/detectives. I'm just wondering what exactly my monitors want from me. This massive advance on me has been going on for nearly two years now -- I'm sure it would've killed some people by now because the pressure is enormous. It's like having bullies at school waiting for you when the school day ends every single day. I am never going to do anything that anyone is ever going to need warning about. When I go out I go out for me, I'm not interested in anyone else. What do they think I'm going to do? I know I'm under surveillance at all times. I've thought that maybe they are trying to make me explode or pressure me into committing suicide or simply to just die from the stress and alienation.


Notes:

The following was written on Aug 10 2015:

What I didn't realise then that I do now is that people are being placed around me for the benefit of security staff and cameras i.e. the security staff are alerted to my impending arrival and told to monitor me, I walk in to do some shopping and agents/detectives posing as normal citizens hover around me and it fools the security staff. I'm really glad that I recorded this trip out in such detail because I can see it now, I'm replaying and reliving it in my mind.


May 16 2014

01:31

Very personal information originally recorded here has been moved to my Very Personal Diary.

Other things I did Thursday May 15 2014 just gone: I removed GTA V from my PS3 Wednesday May 14 2014 evening because I've tired of it now so I went through several PS3 games and installed them to try them out.

May 18 2014

01:21 I went out on my bicycle around 12:30 last Friday May 16 2014. I rode:

and locked my bicycle against the railings outside Waitrose and then went down to Sainsbury's Chesham and bought bananas, milk, chocolate and nuts (the receipt says 12:48) and I rode back:

and returned home around 13:05.

A police car passed me outside the Red Lion pub as I approached the traffic lights to cross the road on foot before riding up East Street.

13:47 I forgot to mention that on Friday May 16 2014 I popped into the Underground station to record my history. Initially I wrote a few things and then a foreign (Italian I think) couple asked for assistance with topping-up an Oyster card and I showed them how to add £5. After I'd done this I continued to record my history on the other ticket machine and a member of staff came out, went outside very briefly and then came back in.

Sep 27 2013 17:44 Watford to Chesham Sep 23 2013 05:42 Chesham to Watford Sep 08 2013 17:14 Watford to Chesham Sep 08 2013 14:34 Chesham to Watford Sep 01 2013 19:22 Finchley Road to Amersham Sep 01 2013 17:18 Chesham to Willesden Green Aug 18 2013 19:17 Rickmansworth to Amersham

May 19 2014

00:14 I went out on my bicycle at 14:35 Sunday May 18 2014 just passed. I rode:

and locked my bicycle against the bike rack opposite Primark and then went into Primark and bought some underpants for £7 and a pair of excellent sunglasses for £1.50 suitable for cycling (the receipt says 15:46). I rode back:

and returned home around 17:20.

Not only was it my longest and furthest journey outside of the house since September 2013 but it's been arguably the best weather so far this year. I can tell you how much I enjoyed my escape -- I sat in traffic at the bottom of Box Lane near some nice trees and old houses and I was mesmorised by a beautiful flowering tree because it's been so long since I've had the pleasure to experience the countryside that I enjoy so much. I road past some flowers and hedges near Flaunden and I had a similar experience, it just made me feel so contented and complete like it's such an important and necessary part of my existence. Also refreshingly I didn't see any police vehicles or notice any odd behaviour from anyone around me! An awesome day.

May 23 2014

01:14 A few things have accumulated that require recording:

Tuesday May 20 2014:
Very personal information originally recorded here has been moved to my Very Personal Diary.

Wednesday May 21 2014:
I went to Sainsbury's Chesham on my bicycle around 14:00. I rode:

and into Sainsbury's Chesham car park. I rode back:

and returned home around 14:30.

Thursday May 22 2014:
Very personal information originally recorded here has been moved to my Very Personal Diary.

Since I removed GTA V from my PS3 on Thursday May 15 2014 I've been playing Gran Turismo Prologue and mostly Mercenaries 2 which is a fantastic game (they're both single player games).

May 24 2014

01:24 Friday May 23 2014 just passed my mother gave me some more money which has been around the 19th for the last couple of months. She gave it to me after she'd mentioned that she was going to employ Mark (a gardener) to help her re-pot three trees and I said that I could do it with her assistance. I'm guessing that I got my money for that reason but I do realise that she offered to give me money so that I didnt have to endure the nightmare of signing on and that I should do something for it.

May 26 2014

00:14

Saturday May 24 2014:
Very personal information originally recorded here has been moved to my Very Personal Diary.

May 29 2014

16:01 I went out on my bicycle today at 12:10. I rode:

and into the recycling centre next to Darvell's. I then pushed my bike up the town, locked it against a lampost opposite Superdrug and then went into Superdrug to buy some lip salve. I first did the usual walk around the isles and not finding it so I eventually asked an Indian woman at the till where the lip salve was and she pointed me towards it which was nearby on the end of the rack behind me. I made my way towards it whilst the woman kept pointing and I said "What, there?" and when I got there another member of staff said "Can I help you?" and I said "Lip salve" but by this time I'd found it so she said "Ah" and walked off. I studied the different types for a while, chose one and walked back to the till but it was now empty so I looked around and eventually the Indian girl returned and served me. During this time the other member of staff stood behind me with something in her hand and the Indian girl wasn't completely focusing on serving me, she looked uncomfortable and I saw her look to my side in the direction of the staff member behind me. I received my 5p change and receipt which was placed into my hand with the minimum of touching and then I left.


Notes:

The following was written on Aug 10 2015:

I'm guessing but I'm certain that the shop had been alerted to my visit. I can't remember exactly now but I think that this was a spontaneous visit, I don't recall discussing this with anyone in our household so somebody must've phoned the shop after I'd entered it.


I then walked up to Sainsbury's Chesham and bought a few items, returned to my bike and rode back:

and got home about 12:50.

[Edit Jun 3 2014 12:32] I forgot to mention that I passed a police van along St Mary's Way going south as I approached the roundabout at the bottom of Park Road.

June

Jun 3 2014

11:33 A few things have accumulated that require recording:

Sunday Jun 1 2014:
Very personal information originally recorded here has been moved to my Very Personal Diary.

Monday Jun 2 2014:
I went out on my bicycle around 10:40. I rode:

and caught the 10:57 train to Watford, the first train experience since Sep 27 2013! Whilst on the train I read my book "Mathematics: The New Golden Age - New Edition" by Keith Devlin. Once I'd reached Watford I rode:

and into PC World to buy a keyboard. Once I'd chosen one I turned around and at the end of the isle behind me was a security guard standing facing away from me and further across into the next isle was another security guard walking away from me. It was so quiet in there that I was simply concentrating on getting the right keyboard for my system and price range so when I turned around and saw these security guards I wasn't looking out for them, they were just there directly ahead in my view. I took my Advent keyboard at £5.99 to the till, paid the female staff member and rode back:

and caught the train back to Chesham. On arrival at Chesham I went to Sainsbury's Chesham to buy milk and bread (the receipt says 12:51) and rode back:

and returned home around 13:10.

I bought the USB keyboard so that I could attach a keyboard, mouse and HD monitor to my aging laptop which now has a broken screen hinge. My PS3 I've moved to the TV which although inferior to my HD monitor is much more fun as I can use the built-in web browser in bed and watch films I've legally downloaded from YouTube. In fact some games such as GTA IV look worse on an HD monitor than a PAL CRT because they were developed at odd resolutions that have scaling applied by the PS3 and possibly by the monitor/TV too which can make the image look a blurry mess.

Doctor Barnett visited my dad today because he's weak, sleeps much of the time and isn't eating a great deal. He said that they're going to X-ray him at some point.

On Thursday May 29 2014 I forgot to mention that I passed a police van along St Mary's Way going south as I approached the roundabout at the bottom of Park Road.

Jun 7 2014

12:17 A few things have accumulated that require recording:

Thursday Jun 5 2014:
I went out on my bicycle around 13:50. I rode:

and then pushed my bicycle up the High Street to Sainsbury's Chesham which I found to be closed, so I rode my bike up the side of Waitrose, locked it against the railing outside and then went in. It was very busy in there likely because Sainsbury's Chesham is currently being refurbished. I only grabbed some Jelly Babies for my dad, eggs, baked beans and onions for myself and the receipt says 14:07. I rode back:

The only thing I noticed in Waitrose was a tall male member of staff striding along the line of tills a couple of times and he actually came towards me at one point and entered a door which I imagine goes to the warehouse but I was looking down at my shopping list in my hand so I don't know if he was interested in me at all. I did look up at him when he was entering the door just to check him out but I think he was just being a busy bee coping with his extra workload. I didn't notice anything odd about the lady at the till so the experience seemed pretty normal.

Friday Jun 6 2014:
Very personal information originally recorded here has been moved to my Very Personal Diary.

Jun 11 2014

15:23 A few things have accumulated that require recording:

Sunday Jun 8 2014:
I went out about 13:30 for a ride to Watford to buy a few things. I rode:

and stopped in a field high up overlooking the valley to have a cigarette but I only had half of it because I didn't feel comfortable.

and then through the High Street to Sainsbury's Watford (receipt says 15:06) to buy nuts and raisins and toffees. I then went down to Poundland (receipt says 15:17) and bought some toothpaste and a Toblerone. I then locked my bike in the ground floor split of the Mall and watched a fun amusing South American band playing as I walked in and my gaze was pulled to a man standing outside who looked like a security guard and we looked at one another in the eyes. His look was very intense which I guess is why I automatically looked at him. I went to Primark but they didn't have small vests and then exited to Game a few shops along and bought PS3 L.A. Noire for a fiver (receipt says 15:38) which is comparable to what it would cost on eBay delivered. I then returned to my bicycle and rode back up the High Street and momentarily stopped to appreciate and applaude a band playing at the top end. I then looked at a huge red American car from the 50s and an Asian guy who was snapping his friends by the car said "It's nice isn't it?" and I replied "Yeah" and smiled. I rode back:

and I noticed it was 17:25 on the kitchen clock when I was getting a drink of squash. I really enjoyed the day and it could almost be described as perfect if it wasn't for the intense look from the Mall security guard. I got a little sunburnt because I went out so early but I couldn't use the Underground system as they were working on my end of the Metropolitan Line.

Monday Jun 9 2014:
Very personal information originally recorded here has been moved to my Very Personal Diary.

Today I rode:

and into Sainsbury's Chesham to buy some milk and tinned goods (receipt says 13:48). I left there and walked down through the market in the High Street to Boots and bought some Clotrimazole anti-fungal cream for my eczema (receipt says 14:03). I rode back:

and I didn't look at the time when I got in but it would've been approaching 14:20. There was just one thing I want to note in Boots and that was a woman who left her friend and whilst not looking walked in-between me and the prescription counter I was waiting at, stopped momentarily and then returned to her friend. I'm sure it was perfectly innocent but somebody could make something out of that if they were so inclined which is why I'm recording it.


Notes:

The following was written on Aug 10 2015:

The woman who stood in front of me very closely in Boots was very strange. They could well have been agents/detectives engineering something there.


Jun 12 2014

19:41 I went out today just before 14:00. I rode:

and rode into the High Street, locked my bike against a sign post outside Boots and went in and bought some eye drops (receipt says 14:09). I then pushed my bike up to Sainsbury's Chesham and locked it outside the front and bought several items to restock since I've been slowly running out as Sainsbury's Chesham has been closed for a week. I paid at the self service machines and there was one female staff member where you walk in and one was standing by the exit where I was scanning my items. When I left (receipt says 14:16) there was a cleaning member of staff holding a broom by the security desk who I walked very closely past and his head followed me as I left.


Notes:

The following was written on Aug 10 2015:

I've detected lots of situations like this throughout the remainder of this diary whereby I think I've detected being monitored and many of them are subtle. If something is a bit more obvious and requires more detail then I'll add notes. For all I know there could've been agents/detectives hovering around me and setting me up again that I didn't detect and the shop staff were responding to that, who knows.


I rode back:

and I didn't look at the time when I got in but it would've been approaching 14:30.

I had a shave before I went out and I took the opportunity to shave my chest too because I apply Savlon to my face after shaving and I rubbed a big amount into the eczemous skin in my chest at the same time. When I shave I use a beard trimmer without the extension so that I'm dragging it across my skin and leaving stubble but it also removes the build-up of dead skin which really helps. The eczema on my chest has now almost cleared-up.

I'm having terrible trouble with my eyes at the moment. They are so dry and hot and applying a cold wet flannel to them really helps but it doesn't last long. I'm having to be really careful about using monitors, TVs and consoles with fans because these things cause big red patches and streaks to appear. I just had to dab them again with the flannel whilst writing this and I don't know what's causing it other than the dry air and I think there's eczema in my eyelids as well.

I think I'm going to have to start riding my bike again in the evenings because this is great for my skin and eyes.

Jun 13 2014

11:42

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Personal information originally recorded here has been moved to my Personal Diary.

Jun 14 2014

18:17

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Around 15:30 I went to get my dad a Father's Day card and I decided to go up Trapps Lane and across the top of the valley and drop down into Sainsbury's Chesham. It was very muddy up there and I thought I'll go down to Broomstick Lane and enjoy a cigarette as I ride along. Before I got there I saw two 20 something males with white tops walking dogs and they followed me into the lane. I rode along the lane and it was too muddy so I walked some of it and I noticed the guys were behind me and they could've walked through the little wood there but they chose the same muddy track as me. I got to the bottom of the lane and started along Broomstick Lane and smoked my cigarette and saw a guy ahead with a jacket hanging over his shoulder. I just wanted to ride peacefully along there and smoke my cigarette because people look at you funny when you smoke nowadays so seeing as my bike was caked in mud and going any further would require a fast ride along Botley where I'd get covered in muck I decided to turn around and go back over near the farm at the top of White Hill. Along the bottom of Broomstick Lane I again saw the guys with the dogs and they hadn't got very far to be honest. I made my way up to the farm and saw an older guy with a dog and then went slowly down White Hill being careful not to flick mud up all over my back, chest and face. When I got into the town I realised that the Carnival must've been on today because there were lots of people with balloons and I do know that Carnival day normally happens at the same time as the [Trooping the Colour] aircraft come over but I thought it was too early so I wasn't expecting it.

I went into Sainsbury's Chesham and a woman staff member was standing inside facing the doors and the male security guard was at the doors facing into the store. I looked at the woman as I walked in and she was looking down. I got my card, paid for it and walked out (receipt says 15:45) and somebody said to the male security guard "What are you standing there for?". I pushed my bike up the bottom of White Hill and then rode it up the covered path, then rode the farm track and came home down Trapps Lane and I didn't see anybody on my return trip.

My dad went out in the early afternoon and I prepared his scooter for him so that he goes off safely, he returned in the late afternoon early evening and we shared his donner kebab but I had about three quarters of it and he left much of what he had. My mother returned about 19:30.

So, quite a lot went on today I think and it does amaze me considering my life really is quite basic.


Notes:

The following was written on Aug 10 2015:

It's likely that the male dog walkers hovering around me across the top of the valley were agents/detectives and it could well be that the guy along Broomstick Lane was another one. I'm certain that Sainsbury's Chesham was alerted to my visit. I can still picture that female member of staff standing inside facing the doors looking intensely downwards. Her and the security guard were in position waiting for me to come in.


Jun 16 2014

21:36 I went out today somewhere approaching 14:00 on my bicycle. I rode:

and then into Sainsbury's Chesham car park. The security guard was standing looking over the self service tills and I approached his left to grab a basket from over the railing and he started to move off at that point. I turned around and he was moving away and we were close but we didn't bump into one another. Maybe he wasn't warned of my impending arrival today. I bought some bananas, milk and bread and the receipt says 14:10.

I rode back:

When I left the house I said hello to and briefly spoke to our neighbours across the back and everything was pleasant and civil. Her name was Mrs Storey and maybe still is but she has another partner now, not Mr Storey who fathered the two girls that once lived there. My dad went out today and when he returned I parked his scooter and put the rain cover on it and another neighbour Diane Walker French joked about my new form of transport amd I replied "Vroom vroom!" and we laughed. So it was a nice day I think. I was awoken about 08:30 by a young couple out the back, she said "[something] true!" and he said "[something] pickaxe [something]" and they were loud. I thought it sounded like "[something] take a pickaxe to his head" but I'm probably just sensitive considering Jackie Gettings shouted my name to get me to go outside and watch the planes go over on Saturday and I am a little concerned that maybe my monitors will make something out of me bravely venturing cross-country along the valley to Sainsbury's Chesham. I've decided not to go up there anymore, I'll go cross-country over Watford and Hemel Hempstead way i.e. West Herts and I'll just use Sainsbury's and use other the shops I need elsewhere. I think that they will say something about me at every opportunity so it makes sense to limit my business in this town. I expect that they would like people from the community to form a mob and turn up at my door with flaming torches and pitchforks.

Jun 17 2014

15:01 There was something else I wanted to mention about my cross-country trip to Sainsbury's Chesham on Saturday Jun 14 2014: on the following day Sunday Jun 15 2014 (Father's Day) my mother said it was very quiet out and about and down the town although England did lose their match against Italy the previous evening and possibly Father's Day had something to do with it as well because the weather was very nice and suitable for garden parties and barbeques. I do know from previous experience over the Winter that it was unusually quiet for possibly all of the evenings I ventured out which felt unnatural and I did record this. It's like something has been said about me and everyone clears the areas I visit which is why I said yesterday that I should do my business elsewhere because outside of Chesham I'm currently enjoying a peaceful unhindered experience of life.

22:35 I've just had another thought: yesterday Monday Jun 16 2014 when I went to Sainsbury's Chesham I rode in through the car park and was about to approach the front doors when I noticed a young woman squatting outside the front oddly gazing blankly straight across the road. I can't say I know exactly why I looked at her, possibly because when you're about to ride past the front doors and pedestrian crossing you need to pay attention to what people are doing there otherwise you can have an accident and you can tell if people are paying attention by looking at their gaze, or maybe it was simply her oddness or a combination of both, who knows. I should make it clear that she was a way ahead of me and I only momentarily looked at her head and gaze and then continued to focus on the route directly in front of me. I completely forgot about that until now and I've been wondering today why it's been so quiet outside! I did suspect when I was in Sainsbury's Chesham that the schools are on holiday this week and I have noticed that the early evening bus that drops school kids off just a short distance down the hill from me has been quiet so it is odd that it's so quiet. I'm going to guess that that young woman was an attempted set-up on a school holiday. It has all the hallmarks of a set-up and I thought it was odd and I remembered it and I've had these experiences before so I am happy that I've potentially discovered it but I've also had a mild sick feeling in my stomach that whatever happened it's already been used against me.

Jun 19 2014

13:00 I started writing up my diaries from 2010 because I'm going to complain to the IPCC which is laughable considering it'll have to go to Thames Valley Police first and they might choose not to pass it onto the IPCC! What else can I do? Right at this moment I've transcribed 20 pages so it's a summer project and I'm going to have to stop going into Chesham otherwise I could get set-up with more things which I don't want. I'm concerned that the young woman outside Sainsbury's Chesham last Monday Jun 16 2014 was an attempted set-up and last Saturday Jun 14 2014 the two guys walking dogs wearing white T-shirts up Trapps Lane were agents/detectives since they looked as though they were therefore these people are not going away, they are employed to get me so I should expect to be plucked from here at some point, who knows when.

Jun 20 2014

11:36

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Jun 22 2014

21:42 I went for a bicycle ride to Watford and back today at 15:15. I rode:

and then the main road to Rickmansworth and I popped into Waitrose to buy some apples and eggs. I then rode:

and then the main road back to Chenies and:

I had a nice ride and it was uneventful.

A few things have accumulated that require recording:

Friday Jun 20 2014:
Very personal information originally recorded here has been moved to my Very Personal Diary.

I forgot to mention that on Thursday Jun 12 2014 on my way down to Sainsbury's Chesham I went to the recycle centre in the car park behind Darvell's. Nothing important, just a location I visited that I didn't record.

Jun 25 2014

22:11 Just to record that for the last two days I've been downstairs from around midday to the early evening playing GTA Online on the big TV because it's cooler down there and my PS3 and me too are getting cooked in my room. I've got eczema and my face is drying out terribly and in the past I would've been out every evening jogging or cycling which is great for my skin especially with the salty sweat this time of year. I've been experimenting with hanging up wet towels and placing wet cloths over the fans on my computers and consoles and dabbing my eyes with a wet flannel but the effect it has is minor compared to sitting in the front room out of the sun.

It's still very quiet outside this house which I now get to see since downstairs I'm facing the living room window. In my room I can't see through the blind and I've fixed it down to stop the wind from banging it about although I can push it aside if I need to look in the back garden.

Jun 26 2014

20:03 I went downstairs a short time after midday and set-up my PS3 and played a GTA Online public session until 13:20 although I didn't interact with anybody -- I'm located in the desert part of the map that few people venture into.

Very personal information originally recorded here has been moved to my Very Personal Diary.

About 13:50 after my shower I returned to the living room, opened the window a little and closed the curtains almost completely but left a 6 inch gap in the middle to let the air in to help cool my PS3 because it's running hot now (I couldn't see anything through the gap and I adjusted it intentionally so that I couldn't and a bush blocks the view in the gap that I left). I played a GTA Online solo session and around 14:45 a police helicopter hovered over Fryer Close for a short while and I watched it from the back garden before it flew past my house and up the town. I don't know what was going on there but when I went back inside I fully closed the living room curtains just in case it was a message for me from my monitors. I know that they are constantly watching me and jumping at the opportunity to make something out of nothing so I thought it was a good idea.

I continued to play a GTA Online solo session for the rest of the day up until I started writing this because I'm now in my room and the PS3's fan is drying out my eyes so I've turned it off.

I don't know for sure that the helicopter was meant for me but it makes sense that it was. How long exactly am I going to have to endure this attention and pressure? Are they trying to make me crack or what? I did actually find this amusing today because I was one step ahead of them by shutting out the view after I'd had a shower.

Jun 28 2014

23:30 Went for a bicycle ride today about 15:35 to get some supplies and after checking the store locators for a few supermarkets I chose to visit Tesco's Rickmansworth. I rode:

and then the main road into Rickmansworth. I bought several items (receipt says 16:40), left the store and went right to see where the road went but it appeared to be going out of the town (Frogmoor?) so I turned around and went back and cycled through the High Street. Then it was simply going back the way I came except I rode up Chessmount Rise.

I wasn't sure if I was going to go out because it rained a few times but about 15:30 it looked OK so I went for it. The ride was excellent and there was minimal road spray. Again it was almost perfect because I passed a police van along Latimer Road on my way back but other than that it was fantastic.

I've had terrible trouble with dry eyes and as I already know my skin and eyes benefit hugely from a good workout outside and my eyes have been brilliant white since I returned about 17:40. I'm playing my PS3 in my room and normally I have to constantly dab my eyes with a wet flannel but I haven't needed to do it this evening.

If the weather's good tomorrow then I'll be going out of Bucks again and I'll do this every weekend now. It's quite fortunate that I am separated from Herts by a fast country lane.

Jun 30 2014

21:26 I didn't go out yesterday Sunday Jun 29 2014 although I wanted to. I had a trip to Primark Hemel Hempstead planned and then I was going to get some eggs in Sainsbury's Apsley but it started raining when I intended to go out at 14:30 and it just got worse after that so I was disappointed because I don't go out in the week anymore.

Very personal information originally recorded here has been moved to my Very Personal Diary.

Things I did today: washed several coloured items of clothing and played GTA Online downstairs until 18:00.

July

Jul 3 2014

14:02 My mother went out about 12:15 and I set-up my PS3 in the living room and made sure that the curtains were adjusted so that people walking past wouldn't be a distraction (I'm battling for control of my view for sure and I don't want to leave myself open to manipulation). I know that for the last two days the curtains have been pulled across enough so that you just can't see people walking past although we've still got gas workmen hanging about in the top right corner and I can see them if they're on the garden, and possibly the curtains were in the same position Monday although I can't remember. I've also been sitting in the chair so that I'm across it looking away from the front of the house which means you just can't turn your head anymore no matter how distracting something might be. I have to go into detail about this because I might need to recall it. It's very easy to sit there looking at a game loading screen and then be distracted and have your gaze drawn to somebody walking across the front of the house so I have to protect myself from anything that could be worked into that.

About 12:30 I looked on my computer to see if there were any replies to comments I'd left on the GTA Online support forums regarding the new properties in Blaine County and then I turned it off and went to the toilet. As I sat down a helicopter flew very low over our group of houses and hovered about a little bit but by the time I got downstairs to see what was going on it had gone. Again about 13:05 a helicopter was hovering around in the valley so I went out into the back garden and my neighbour Maurice was looking at it through his binoculars and he told me it was an air ambulance. He said his wife Jackie had been down in the valley and she said the ambulance was for a child at the nursery on Bois Moor Road. Maurice said that he was looking through his binoculars to see if it was the police helicopter returning from earlier on therefore it was a police helicopter hovering over our houses at 12:30.

I was thinking yesterday about the police van on Saturday Jun 28 2014 I saw coming towards me along the Latimer Road on my return trip from Tesco's Rickmansworth and I was wondering if it was maybe linked to something else I hadn't noticed or perhaps didn't register and then I think I found it: on my trip out on Saturday I passed a group of people with dogs at the bottom of Hill Farm Road (opposite the path to the waterfall) but I was putting some effort into riding my bicycle as I always do and my head is down quite a lot so I didn't really see much of them. I just thought that it was simply a group of dog walkers waiting to cross the road after I'd passed. Of course, I realise that riding along a country lane into the next county is a lot safer for me than walking down the town and I have wondered how my monitors will attempt to block that route off for me and maybe that's what that was. Maybe those people were warned I was approaching and they were out as a neighbourhood watch group or something, and the police van later on was meant to be a message to get me thinking.

This is making me feel sick in my stomach quite a lot at the moment. I am eating OK but I have been waking up early with a tight stomach so it's having an effect on my health. I feel like I'm being attacked at every opportunity with maximum force and it doesn't matter what I do, it's still coming anyway.

Jul 5 2014

18:56 Just a note to record that yesterday Friday Jul 4 2014 Lee-Anne from number 1 came over and asked to use the washing machine about 14:00 because hers wasn't working and the engineer is waiting for the parts. She then loaded up the machine and I showed her how to work it and told her I'd pop over when it finishes so I went over there shortly after 15:00 and she wasn't there but her daughter said she'd come over in a while and collect it so I returned home and continued playing GTA Online on the big TV in the front room.

When the daughter came over I answered the door and she had a phone stuck to her ear which she pointed at as soon as I started talking so I just pointed her towards the kitchen and she got on with unloading the washing machine and I sat down again in the front room. Briefly afterwards I got up and recommended to her to spin the drum around by hand and make sure it's empty because things stick to the drum and she said thanks and I think she still had the phone in her hand and I returned to the front room. She then finished and walked through the hallway to the front door and said thanks and I got up and said to tell her mum that if she needed any help with anything then I'm here and she still had her phone up to her ear.

Lee-Anne came over again later on with another bag and she said she'd already spent a week without a washing machine and her son had just returned from university so I guess by now she was desperate. Thinking about it now I wonder why she waited this long because she's friends with Dianne at number 7 but perhaps she was expecting it to be fixed by now and couldn't wait any longer and knew I'd be in at 14:00. I don't know how old her son is but her daughter could be late teens early 20s I guess and it looked like she was wearing chef's or catering trousers with a white top which I am familiar with because I used to be a baker, pastry chef and confectioner.


Notes:

The following was written on Aug 11 2015:

Something was very strange about Lee-Anne and her washing. Even my mother thought it was odd but I detected a lot more than my mother did. When I questioned Lee-Anne in the kitchen about her washing machine she looked down at the floor in a way that would suggest that she's feeling really guilty because she's lying. Why did she even come to our house? Two houses further along the path is her friend Dianne. Lee-Anne said that she'd already spent a week without a washing machine so why did she not go along to Dianne's in that week? And her daughter was very strange as well with her phone permanently held up and I didn't hear her speak to anybody on it although she pointed at it as though somebody was on the other end. We're not actually at that level in our friendship where we ask to borrow one anothers washing machines!


Jul 7 2014

13:03 Yesterday Sunday Jul 6 2014 I took a trip out to Watford on the train (with my bike) about 14:15. Saturday Jun 28 2014 I went along Latimer Road and saw a group of people on my way out and a police van on my way back so this influenced me in choosing a different day and a different route for my trip to buy some supplies and to get some exercise and fresh air. I rode:

and a police van approached the roundabout on my right at the bottom of Amersham Hill as I rode around it. Then:

and I noticed mostly from the sound that there was something like a concert or band playing in Lowndes Park which there quite often is during the Summer. Then:

and into the Underground station to catch the 14:27 train. I think I had about three minutes before the train left but it waited for longer than that and then the driver drove at speed to Chalfont and Latimer to make up the time which I noticed because I was reading my mathematics book and holding my bike and I was all over the place.

At Watford I rode not through Cassiobury Park but up the road from the station (Cassiobury Park Avenue) and then picked up the cycle route into town. I went to Tesco's Waterfields which is huge and very busy and I bought some sweets, eggs, pasta and biscuits (receipt says 15:41) and then rode the Ebury Way to Rickmansworth where I took the train back to Amersham and rode:

and returned home around 17:00.

I really enjoyed the trip out although as usual at my end there was a police van which this time I saw outbound. I can't remember seeing any police in Watford and I was just one in thousands of people of all types enjoying the day out. I did forget to get some nuts and raisins but my mother is getting me some today from Chesham. I was actually quite happy not to go into Chesham again and to use Latimer Road to ride to Herts and London but the group of people and police van I saw along there on Saturday Jun 28 2014 concerns me enough to want to find an alternate route which I can mix together. I feel like they're intimidating me and nudging me (influencing my choice) so that I don't exit the area along Latimer Road but have to go into Chesham which is perhaps because they were hoping to record me being in Chesham when an event was on or maybe they were hoping I'd buy my shopping in Sainsbury's Chesham in which case they could attempt to set me up with something, I don't know. Maybe they only have a certain area that they can operate within and are trying to contain me to make it easier to set me up.

13:48 I just want to record that although I'm currently on my computer in my room writing this, I do have my PS3 set-up downstairs on the big TV and I have adjusted the curtain so that I can't see people walking past and won't be distracted by anybody. It's still quiet here and possibly quieter now than it's ever been.

Jul 8 2014

12:21 This morning about 09:50 I got up and had a wash in the bathroom.

Very personal information originally recorded here has been moved to my Very Personal Diary.

Then there was a knock on the door. I said to my mother who had returned to bed after vacuuming and various other things "There's somebody at the door" and she went downstairs and I looked out of the bathroom window and I saw Lee-Anne from number 1 going back up the steps -- she gave my mother 20 cigarettes for using her washing machine which at £7.05 I thought was a very nice gift.

Lee-Anne was here yesterday Monday Jul 7 2014 about 16:15 I think with a bag of washing and I knocked on her door about 17:30 and told her it was ready to collect.

Very personal information originally recorded here has been moved to my Very Personal Diary.

12:45 The window cleaner knocked on the door and is now cleaning the windows. I'm just about to go down now and set-up my PS3 for the day.

Jul 13 2014

11:27 Wow, yesterday Saturday Jul 12 2014 was interesting and pretty familiar too. I can't be certain that all of what I'm about to describe is related but I've spent last evening thinking it through and I'm pretty sure it was part of the same thing.

About 14:45 yesterday I rode my bicycle down Pheasant Rise, Latimer Road and onto Rickmansworth to get some exercise, fresh air and some supplies that I'll need for the week. When I got to Rickmansworth I went past it and down the hill and turned right into the High Street at the roundabout at the bottom which heads towards the town centre. I'd just turned into that road and was peddling hard and my view alternates between down to concentrate on pushing hard and resisting the wind and up to check the route ahead and I looked up and directly ahead of me right in my view some distance away was I'm guessing a tall young woman with long legs and a very short puffed out red skirt which I looked at for a fraction of a second before realising that that's not what I want to be looking at nor was is what I was looking up for so I looked down again and continued onwards and didn't look up until I'd ridden past. The road in fact bends to the right as you travel along there so when riding a bicycle close to the curb and looking up you're not going to be looking directly at the road ahead so it would be an ideal location to position a very visual and prominent person if you wanted to get that person into somebody's view as they traversed the road.

I continued from the High Street into Church Street, across the canal and onto Tesco's Rickmansworth along The Byeway and locked my bicycle against the cycle rack. When I walked in I headed for the newspapers and did notice out of my peripheral vision a large man sportily dressed (possibly in shorts) standing over to the left of the entrance who's head I thought followed me in which I guess is why it registered. I looked at the newspaper covers and I wasn't thinking at all about the young woman I saw earlier or the guy in Tesco's Rickmansworth entrance because at that time they were just nothings, random events I thought, and then walked around and bought a few things such as Chocolate Limes, tinned potatoes, sweetcorn, nuts and raisins and butter whilst either looking down in front of me, at the shopping list in my hand, at the products on the shelves or up at the signs along the isles as normal.

Over in the far corner near the refrigerators I closely passed a couple who could be in their 40s and 50s and the guy said something to the woman who's head then followed me as I slowly walked past but I was still wearing my cycling gloves so either they recognised me or they were simply looking at something about me that they thought was odd.

As I walked about there were a lot of announcements on the tannoy about getting staff to go to customer services etc. and something about the "Amber team" and whilst heading along the checkouts to the self-service ones at the end I passed a group of staff but I didn't notice them looking at me or their heads following me as I walked past. It was quite busy in there and when I reached the self-service checkout I briefly scanned around me at the other checkouts to see of there was anything less busy but there wasn't so I looked down and awaited my turn at the machines. When I left the store (receipt says 15:44) a security guard who I had seen crossing my path earlier walked from the security desk near the entrance back into the store across my path but I was looking down at the shopping list within my hand and he was looking down too.

My return trip was back through the High Street, up to the Underground station to check the state of the Metropolitan Line and then I rode to Croxley Green, Sarrat, Flaunden, Latimer and out to Latimer Road all via roads, no cross-country. As I pulled out of Latimer to head along Latimer Road I saw a male mountain bike cyclist coming along the road slowly heading towards Chesham and I thought that it would be fun to power along there and see if he either attempted to match my effort or was simply out for a slow Sunday ride, so off I went with my head bobbing down occasionally looking up to check the road ahead and I looked behind me a few times and sometimes he was catching me up and sometimes he was falling behind but eventually due to the fact that I needed a rest he caught me up just past Chesham Dump and overtook me. I said "Hi" to him in a happy way and he replied "Hi" in a manner that would suggest he didn't really want to talk to me and I didn't think any more of my experience with him until later in the evening.

So, what was going on? Have they attempted to set me up again by placing somebody into my view? Are they trying to ostracise me in Rickmansworth too? Was I being monitored in Tesco's Rickmansworth? Was that an agent/detective following me along Latimer Road?

Do I need to keep mentioning this: I'm very much aware that everything I do is being monitored right down to my gaze and all I want to do at the weekend is get some exercise and buy some much needed supplies, that's all. I'm putting a lot of effort into attempting to control my view but somebody (agents/detectives) is covertly positioning people within it for their own ends. It's really sickening to even think that this is what they're doing. My stomach was tied up last night and this morning when I woke up and I don't want it in my life.

18:41 I went out again today about 14:15 to Watford on the train. I rode:

and into the Underground Station with several minutes to spare. At Watford I rode along Cassiobury Park Avenue and then into the High Street, first to Poundland to buy some Savlon for my eczema but I couldn't find it and I bought a Toblerone and some Liquorice Allsorts (receipt says 15:23). I then parked my bike between the lower levels of the shopping centre and bought some vests in Primark (receipt says 15:41) and when I exited into the shopping centre a big security guard was at the exit who moved a short distance back inside towards me as I approached the exit. I don't why he did that but I did have a rucksack on my shoulder and I know what they're like with those. I then had a quick look in Game at the PS3 games and then returned to my bike, rode back the way I'd came, caught the train to Chalfont and Latimer and rode:

and home at about 17:20 or thereabouts.

I felt really good going out today despite what may have happened yesterday. I wanted to reassert my right to freedom and I feel really good at the moment because I've got it all written down.

Jul 14 2014

10:15 Something that I'd like to add about Saturday just gone: I didn't see a police van when I went out! Also I specifically intended to visit Tesco's but I hadn't decided which one and I discussed this with my mother in the kitchen and back garden as she requested that I buy her some cooking butter in a bottle and you can only find it in Tesco's, so are they monitoring our household at the level that they can hear our conversations in or outside the house? Amazing.

I felt really sick last night and this morning when I woke up at 05:40.

16:51 I still feel sick now but I have eaten some peanut butter on toast and a few sweets. I didn't feel up to eating a full meal today.

I've been developing a Linux shell script to extract the text from this Osmo Personal Organizer XML and it's been nice to get back to coding. Pulling this text out by hand and inserting it into another document is laborious so I'm automating it so that I can send it to the IPCC and whoever else I think might help. I have some more material to add and I can annotate much of it so I intend to store that in another document and then automate the merging. I'm actually being motivated by this development and I feel as though now is the right time to get my complaint in and also to get other people to read this rather than just me suffering it on my own. It's difficult to know where this constant setting-up is leading but they certainly know what they're doing because my health is being affected and maybe they're hoping that I'll commit suicide or explode or something so that nobody will ever know what pressure I've been under.

Jul 15 2014

13:50

Very personal information originally recorded here has been moved to my Very Personal Diary.

Last night I felt really ill and watched TV in bed burning-up like my nervous system was taking a battering. I felt sick as well and my stomach was still screwed-up when I got up this morning but I'm fine at the moment although I think I'll just eat egg on toast for lunch in a moment.

I've washed my bedding today which is drying nicely in the sunshine in the back garden.

I'm staying in my room today because I'm working on my computer writing some scripts.

Jul 16 2014

16:05 My mother has gone on a coach trip on her own to Weymouth today so I took my dad's breakfast and pills up to him about 10:20. About 12:30 I took out his mobility scooter for him ready for his trip into town and I put it back when he returned about 15:30. He's back in bed now with his gala pie and beers so he'll probably be asleep until my mother returns later this evening.

Jul 19 2014

12:13 Well, here we are again. I've just prepared my bicycle with some chain oil and the tyres are already sufficiently inflated so I'll be off out in a couple of hours. There's a problem with the trains today and it'll likely be the same tomorrow: no service between Northwood and Wembley park although I haven't yet ventured out further than Moor park, I was intending to start going back into London at some point.

Jul 21 2014

13:42 Last Saturday Jul 19 2014 I went out around 14:30 and rode:

and on to Rickmansworth and I pushed my bicycle through the town but not the High Street, the road running parallel with it. I did actually see a police car when pushing my bicycle under the bridge near the Underground station but I initially thought it was a medical vehicle because of the colourful graphics. A few minutes later I passed the police station and saw the cars in there and realised that I did see a police car which reminded me that the same thing happened on Saturday Jul 12 2014 which I again mistakingly dismissed as a medical vehicle.

I then rode up through Moor Park Golf Course, through Moor Park and up to Northwood and bought mushy peas, sweetcorn, baked beans and water in Waitrose (receipt says 16:18). In Waitrose I walked in and saw a huge security guard who looked as though he was rubbing one of his fists when I saw him standing against a shelf at the end of my initial route rightwards but it doesn't have to mean anything, I'm just recording it.

I took the Underground train back to Amersham and at Amersham by the exit there was a large male staff member who's head followed me as I passed him and went through the gate. I rode back:

I'm reading a new book now on the train -- The Agricola and The Germania by Tacitus.

Yesterday Sunday Jul 20 2014 I was thinking about going out but then couldn't be bothered so I played GTA Online on the big TV in the living room and took my PS3 back upstairs when my mother later returned somewhere around 17:30.

14:08 Today I've been on my PS3 and my computer in my room but now I'm about to take my PS3 downstairs to play GTA Online and I'll also make some pasta and beans for lunch.

Jul 23 2014

22:43 Another interesting day!

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My mother was getting my dad ready for a visit to the doctors and she was making some noise which is what woke me. The space blanket that I hang over the blind across my window to block out the sun was covering half of the window behind my bed because I have been playing some GameCube games on my TV which is at the end of my bed. I don't know how effective the space blanket is in preventing my monitors from looking in but I just assume that they know everything I'm doing.

I then drifted off again and about 08:30 I heard a group of people (children's voices) going along the path at the back of the house which is quite something because at the moment you can mostly hear nothing as though the entire area has been evacuated so I was quite amazed to hear that. I fell asleep and then woke about 10:00 and got up about 10:30 I think.

I got some breakfast and then played GTA Online on my PS3 which is on the right-hand side of my room attached to my computer monitor at my desk.

Very personal information originally recorded here has been moved to my Very Personal Diary.

I decided to continue playing GTA Online in my room for the day even though it can get unbearably hot. About 13:30 I got a migraine I'm guessing from the sun coming in and shining in my face so I moved the space blanket over to the right-hand side of the window so that I could see the image on my monitor properly and then at 16:13 a helicopter went slowly and low over my house northwards I think. The rotor blades were causing the air to pound the house which is what I/we get when police helicopters hover above and it did sound like a police helicopter. I did mute my speakers to hear the helicopter momentarily but other than that I took no notice. It did amuse me though after my cautious decision.

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Jul 24 2014

16:17

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I've spent the day again in my room and I've been playing GTA Online on my PS3 and I'm currently working on my diary.

Jul 26 2014

11:45 I wonder what they've got in store for me today.

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August

Aug 2 2014

10:18 I have some things to record about the last week and last weekend:

Saturday Jul 26 2014:

I went out on my bicycle but I can't remember which train I caught but I think it was the 14:10. I rode:

and caught the train to Northwood where it currently terminates. I then rode a route I've used many times before which uses a mixture of main roads and residential roads to follow the Metropolitan Line and I reached Harrow on the Hill and went to Tesco's Harrow on the Hill and bought oranges, tomato soup, beans and sausages, nuts and raisins, chocolate limes, toothpaste and Ibuprofen tablets (receipt says 15:46). I then rode back to Northwood and bought a bottle of water in Waitrose Northwood (receipt says 16:52). I decided to ride to Rickmansworth along the main road and caught the train back to Amersham, then rode:

and there was nothing odd to report about this trip.

Sunday Jul 27 2014:

I went out on my bicycle but I can't remember which train I caught but I think it was the 14:40. I rode:

and caught the train to Watford which it currently speedily reaches before Moor Park due to track maintenance. I took Cassiobury Park Avenue from the station and rode down the High Street to the 99p Store where I bought some tropical fruit mix and nuts and raisins (receipt say 15:23). My next stop was Boots at the bottom end of the shopping mall where I bought some clotrimazole cream for my eczemous skin (receipt says 15:30). Next door to Boots I bought Retro Gamer magazine issue 131 in WH Smith (receipt says 15:35). I then rode down to Tesco's Waterfields and bought sausage rolls and crisps -- a rare treat -- (receipt says 15:56) and rode the Ebury Way back to Rickmansworth.

There is something to report about the end of the Ebury Way journey only because I am now familiar with this game that I can detect it, but it could've been a normal unstaged situation: where the route reaches Rickmansworth you get squeezed through a tight twisting footpath and then you come out just before the main road where you get a choice of going straight ahead on the path, going left on a car park road adjacent to the path or taking a shortcut right on the path through some flats. Whilst riding through the tight twisting footpath I could see ahead a couple of cyclists and then I couldn't see them and then I saw a guy with the cyclists ahead of them and I thought where the hell did he come from. The footpath is very narrow and you're not really supposed to ride through there so if I approached a pedestrian then I'd ride very slowly behind them until the path opened up, pass them if they realise I'm there and they've moved aside for me or disembark and push my bike through that section so I did feel that the guy had just popped out of somewhere. When I reached the end of this section the guy took the right path through the flats and directly ahead of me on the path was a group of people (maybe a family or two) and normally I would take either of those two routes so I was forced to take the left car park road which the cyclists took and I remember thinking at the time that I wanted to take the route that the guy was taking, I don't want to be on this road. It was a combination of that guy appearing and me being forced to take a route I wouldn't have normally taken which set alarm bells off in my head. I rode the car park road with the cycling couple waiting at the far end where it meets the main road and I looked right at the bushes all the way so that I had control of my view. I do feel that if you're going to set-up a stage for somebody to walk out onto then you couldn't choose a better spot so either something was going on here or it was nothing.


Notes:

The following was written on Aug 11 2015:

One of the cyclists was a woman wearing black jogging trousers so I'm pretty certain that I was nudged into riding behind them.


I took the train from Rickmansworth to Chesham. I rode:

and I had a very adventurous weekend for a change although my fitness level is way down on what it used to be.

Thursday Jul 31 2014:
Very personal information originally recorded here has been moved to my Very Personal Diary.

Friday Aug 1 2014:
Just before midnight a couple of police cars flew up the hill with the lights on but no sirens. Midnight is when I end my day and get into bed after having visited the bathroom.

12:05 I'm not sure yet what I'm going to do today. The weather is pretty overcast although nice and cool and I only need eye drops and tropical granola so I might leave this until tomorrow.

12:16 It's now raining.

Aug 5 2014

14:16

Very personal information originally recorded here has been moved to my Very Personal Diary.

We ran out of Internet bandwidth yesterday with ten days remaining before our next billing period so I topped it up with 5GB for £5 which'll give us up to 500MB per day but I can use that playing GTA Online public sessions 12 hours a day and my mother watches web cams and YouTube videos so I'm mostly going to play GameCube games and GTA Online solo sessions until Aug 15 2014. I'm not really doing much else with the Internet other than an occasional quick browse of BBC News and Slashdot so I'll try and leave the bandwidth for my mother since she's paying for it.

I'm off to make some rice and sweetcorn now.

Aug 7 2014

19:57 Yesterday Wednesday Aug 6 2014 I had a shower about 11:45 I think.

I need to record something about last Sunday Aug 3 2014 that I've been thinking about since then: I went out at 14:00 and rode:

and stopped to look at several Ferraris in Chenies parked outside the hotel and on the bank. When I started off again I saw in the distance somebody wearing black trousers bending over outside the pub and standing next to them was a person looking in my direction who then looked at the person bending over next to them. That's all I noticed because I rode along there with effort hunched over the handlebars as I normally do focusing on cycling.

I then rode on to Rickmansworth, bought some eye drops in Boots (receipt says 14:43) and then up through Moor Park Golf Course, through Northwood to Tesco's Pinner and bought rice, granola, oranges, liquid cooking butter and chocolate limes (receipt says 15:30) and returned to Moor Park Underground station and caught the train back to Amersham. I came back through Amersham, Chesham Bois, Bois Moor Hill and rode up Pheasant Rise.

Later in the evening about 22:52 I think a helicopter came over my group of houses which was noisy enough to notice but I was playing GTA Online and I just looked at the clock as it went over, I don't know what type of helicopter it was. That then got me thinking about the people outside the pub in Chenies -- was it a jogger wearing black jogging trousers bending right over and was that person next to them checking to see if I'm approaching? Did I mess up their timing by stopping to look at the Ferraris? Was that helicopter flying over my house to give me a message? Who knows, but it should be noted because the previous Sunday Jul 27 2014 I noted something involving a couple of cyclists at the Rickmansworth end of the Ebury Way and one of them was wearing black jogging type trousers.

Aug 15 2014

14:11 I didn't get to sleep until approaching 05:00 because the neighbours were having a party and the music didn't stop until 04:00! At one point I looked out of the window possibly around 02:00 because I was annoyed that it was still ongoing but I couldn't see anything out there. My mother told me this morning that she went round and asked them to reduce the bass but I couldn't tell you if it made any difference or not. The parents there are Derek and Beverley and they've gone to Cornwall for a long weekend so they've left their house under the control of Derek's eldest son from a previous marriage and his most recent daughter.

Our internet bandwidth ran out last Tuesday Aug 12 2014 but it does allow a trickle of data which enables me to at least play a GTA Online solo session which I have been doing since then. Today is the first day of our billing period and it's back up now so I played about 75 minutes in a public session from about 10:30 but I'm not using it at the moment, I'm currently playing Tony Hawk's Underground on my GameCube attached to the TV at the end of my bed.

I'm washing my bedding today.

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19:15 I've got a terrible bladder pain and I've drunk six mugs of squash and two of water to try and flush my system through. I didn't get much sleep last night and I've been in bed for much of the day playing my GameCube and watching the TV and I feel a bit weak at the moment. My parents have just returned from the town and my mother spoke to Jackie next door and she had a problem sleeping last night too. Personally I don't understand why nobody called the police!

A few things have accumulated over the last week which I need to record:

Thursday Aug 14 2014:
I had a shower about 12:50. Early in the morning at 00:26 a helicopter was hovering around which sounded like a police helicopter.

Wednesday Aug 13 2014:
Very personal information originally recorded here has been moved to my Very Personal Diary.

Tuesday Aug 12 2014:
I felt very ill about the events on Saturday.

Monday Aug 11 2014:
I started to feel ill about the events on Saturday.

Saturday Aug 9 2014:
Another set-up day.


Notes:

The following was written on Jun 3 2015 12:10:

Saturday Aug 9 2014:
I rode my bicycle to Berkhamsted up White Hill, Lye Green Road, Grove Lane and through a farm on a bridlepath that eventually brings you out at the top of Swing Gate Lane and something interesting happened as I reached the end of the bridlepath: there's a gravelled section of road and a country house which could be a farmhouse but I don't know and I could hear a vehicle engine running in the backyard but I was only aware of it, it meant nothing to me at that point. I rode up the gravelled section and then onto a tarmac lane and I didn't get very far and I realised that the vehicle had driven up behind me very quietly -- I saw it out of the corner of my eye because I had a little glance behind me. The property there leads into the bridlepath and the gravelled section would be the front of the house so there's nowhere else a vehicle could come from and I got the feeling that my arrival there was expected and they followed me for a short distance and I remember they stopped near a gate into a field about where the tarmac lane started.

I visited Tesco's Berkhamsted and bought oranges, sweetcorn, mint humbugs and lemon sherberts and the receipt says 15:57.

I rode towards Hemel Hempstead and I joined the canal path but I can't remember at which point I joined it but it may have been Boxmoor. I kept to the canal path as I passed through Hemel Hempstead and I didn't have a particular destination in mind but it was going to be at least Watford because then I could take the Underground train back to Chesham and at some point along that route there was an odd incident and I think it was the section of the canal path between Hemel Hempstead and Watford after Apsley. I was riding my bicycle and came around a slight bend and up ahead were a couple of people, a woman standing in the middle of the path with her back to me and a man standing next to a barge. Especially at that time I was very aware that people were being strategically inserted into my view so I was doing as much as I could to protect myself from that which involves looking down and sensing if it's safe to look ahead through my peripheral vision but these people were around a slight bend so when I traversed the bend the first thing that I saw were the legs of the woman in the middle of the path and these people weren't close and neither were they far away and I thought that she had some sort of elaborate black tatoos on the bottom half of her legs and I initially thought that both of them were those sort of barge people. I think I looked at her as a whole after that and then looked at the man and he had a mobile phone in his hand which he was looking at and it just looked really odd because the woman was standing with her back to me but slightly to the side in the opposite direction to the man and I could sense something wasn't natural about it. What I remember about the man was that he was wearing blue jeans and possibly a white top and the woman was wearing a white top and her hair was long and perfectly straight and I felt as though it was a wig because there was just something about it that didn't feel right. I think she was wearing shorts but I don't know but I can't picture a skirt and I don't remember a strong colour either. When I got close neither of them moved and I navigated around the woman on her right and these people were giving me a really uncomfortable feeling and I knew there was something strange about them.

Later in the journey the other side of Watford my bicycle received a puncture so I had to push my bicycle to Croxley Green Underground station and there was a police car sitting outside the front when I got there with two policemen in it. There was something odd going on and I don't know what they were trying to achieve. Were they trying to scare me into not going along there, to make it uncomfortable for me, who knows. I passed plenty of people along that route and everyone was normal except these two.


Aug 16 2014

15:45 Wow, look at this story from http://www.getbucks.co.uk/news/local-news/men-try-drag-13-year-old-car-7614420

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Men try to drag 13-year-old into car in Chesham

At about 7pm on Monday (Aug 11) a 13-year-old girl was walking along Pheasant Rise between Garret Close and Five Acres when a black Ford Focus drew up alongside her.

The car stopped and, while the driver stayed in his seat, the other occupant, a rear seat passenger, got out of the car and tried to pull the girl into the vehicle.

She was able to escape and then the car drove off up Pheasant Rise.

The driver is described as mixed race, aged about 25, with short black shaved hair. He was wearing a blue hooded top with a zip up the front and black trousers and wore a white watch on his right hand.

The man in the back seat is described as mixed race, aged about 25, with short black shaved hair. He was wearing a red hooded top with a zip up the front.

Anyone with information can call Det Con Robert Gibson via the Thames Valley Police Enquiry Centre on 101 or Crimestoppers anonymously on 0800 555 111.

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That's just down the road from me! Isn't that what you'd normally use police helicopters for? I didn't hear anything going on! My mother found this story, I haven't visited this site before.


Notes:

The following was written on Aug 11 2015:

I think this story is bizarre, I've never heard anything like it for this area. I've just found another article that follows it up - http://www.getbucks.co.uk/news/local-news/police-reassure-public-after-attempted-7630527


I want to note that I've had several mugs of water and squash this morning and my bladder is fine although I still have a slight restriction when passing water. I've been sitting here today playing in a GTA Online public session and having loads of fun and I've had no problems at all with my waterworks or prostate. I got my bicycle out and prepared it for a ride but the weather is a bit overcast, windy and chilly so in the end I didn't go anywhere.

Aug 17 2014


Notes:

The following was written on Jun 2 2015 14:35:

Sunday Aug 17 2014:
I rode my bicycle to Sainsbury's Apsley and I rode up through Flaunden and across Chipperfield Road into Flaunden Lane and along there was a group of people standing around possibly in an entrance to a farm but also on the lane so as I approached I rang my bell to get their attention but I didn't get a reaction and I felt as though they knew I was coming and that's why they didn't look around. A man there was holding up a camera or a mobile phone as though he was taking a picture and I looked across the road to see what he was so interested in and there was nothing there of note. This was something that I had already experienced at that point which was people holding up a mobile phone as though they were taking a picture of me and I took that group of people to be agents/detectives attempting to dissuade me from using that route. The Sainsbury's Apsley receipt says 15:28 and it was 14 items and I had my bigger old rucksack specifically for that reason and I remember it gave me backache because it was so heavy.


September

Sep 30 2014

13:22 I went out today around 12:45 and returned home around 13:20. The clock in the kitchen I think is out, my computer is three minutes behind my wristwatch so they need synchronising to be more accurate.

I rode:

and recorded the most recent times I've traveled on the Underground system because something insidious happened last Sunday and I need the exact times. I then rode along to Waitrose, pushed my bike down the side alley and went to Sainsbury's Chesham (receipt says 13:04) and bought granola, soup, potatoes and headache tablets and then rode:

which I rode up to keep fit because I'm not getting enough exercise.

Last night I slept from around 03:30 to 07:00, I was burning hot, I felt sick and my heart felt like somebody was standing on it and it was irregularly beating -- all due to what was going through my mind regarding last Sunday.

I've got all of September to record and I'll do that later today.

October

Oct 1 2014

13:37 I slept from about 01:30 to 05:40 last night and I couldn't get to sleep again after that. I know I've still got to record the events from September but at the moment I'm having a problem starting because it's so hideous.

I took a shower at 13:00 and it was almost 13:30 after I'd finished in the bathroom applying Savlon to my eczema.

I had some bread dough mixing in the bread machine earlier and I've just made it into a loaf and it's currently proving in the oven with a jug of boiling water.

Oct 2 2014

09:51 I slept from about 01:30 to 05:53 and then tossed and turned for ages and then nodded off again for a little while. From the moment I wake up I'm thinking about what my monitors/attackers are doing to me and it's been like this for some time but it's particularly consuming right now. That's why I'm having trouble writing this stuff up because when I play GTA Online on my PS3 it removes me from this hideous reality that they're making me suffer and the game stops me thinking about it.

These are the dates and times that I wrote down from Chesham Underground station on Tuesday:

Oct 3 2014

10:06 I slept from about 01:30 after watching a program on BBC4 about the Human League up until 05:53 I think. I didn't toss and turn for long and slept again until just after 09:00.

Oct 5 2014

10:35 I slept from around 01:30 until 08:00 today so I did well. I watched a wonderful program about Newton, Wren, Hooke and Halley this morning which has actually made me feel rather positive about my impending expectedly nightmarish trip out today.

13:40 I'm just about to go out.

Very personal information originally recorded here has been moved to my Very Personal Diary.

Oct 6 2014

09:39 I've just finished washing in the bathroom.

Very personal information originally recorded here has been moved to my Very Personal Diary.

Sunday Oct 5 2014:
I left the house around 14:10 on my bicycle for Watford. I rode:

and I was behind what I can describe as a modern version of the old Aston Martin DB5 that James Bond drove and it was amazing (I've just found it on the internet: it's a David Brown Speedback GT worth £495,000!). I then mounted the footpath outside the Jobcentre and a mountain bike cyclist with a head-cam rode past so he must've been right behind me. I rode along from the bottom of Amersham Hill (Chesham Hill I think it's officially called) at speed and I didn't see any cyclists so the guy has ridden in behind me from somewhere which I'm currently finding rather puzzling. Whilst on the footpath I half dismounted my bicycle approaching the Red Lion pub and I saw a police car go past which I nearly missed because I was paying so much attention to the David Brown Speedback GT.

As usual I travel into Watford along Cassiobury Avenue and the first shop I visited was Tesco's Waterfields and I bought luncheon meat, pineapple chunks, onions and chedder cheese (receipt says 15:22). I then rode back up to Watford High Street and bought sweets and tropical mix from the 99p shop (receipt says 15:36). Finally I visited Poundland and bought liquorice allsorts (receipt says 15:47) and then made my way back to the Underground station using the same route.

Very personal information originally recorded here has been moved to my Very Personal Diary.

Other than the cyclist and the police car on Red Lion street Chesham, I didn't experience anything odd anywhere else and I actually felt quite comfortable which is likely because I was in control testing them. When I got off the train at Watford I saw somebody pushing a bicycle past me out of the corner of my eye on my left maybe 3 metres away and I looked out of interest and I saw a woman in black cycling/jogging trousers so I immediately looked straight ahead and then increased my speed to remain in front but I'm not suggesting anything was suspicious here, I'm just recording it because it could be useful in the future.

It's now 10:57 so that you can see that I'm wasting a lot of my life having to write this up.


Notes:

The following was written on Aug 11 2015:

My attackers use attention grabbing techniques to get me to look at what they want me to be looking at and I've documented many instances of this later in this diary when I started to understand it more. They have me under surveillance and they identify ways to inject people into my view and they've seen that I take an interest in bicycles and they get a woman in black jogging trousers to push a bicycle past me from behind. Knowing what I do now I'd say that this could've been for the Underground security cameras and the operators to get them to witness me looking at a woman in black jogging trousers.


Oct 7 2014

12:58 Right, I desperately need to fill in some gaps from the last few weeks because I had a good think last night and I'm guessing that there won't be many more set-ups before they come and rob me of my liberty.

Sunday Sep 28 2014:
These are the times I wrote down when I went out specifically to do this last Tuesday Sep 30 2014:

As you can see I went to Watford as usual and the times above are in fact journey completion times. I rode:

and caught the 14:27 train with the intention to wait at Moor Park for the Watford train as I usually do. It's what happened next that really disturbs me: I waited on the platform with my bicycle for the Watford train and the Chesham train arrived first which is normal, and then an announcement was made on the PA system stating that "The Watford train is at Harrow-on-the-Hill and will be 12 minutes" but there was no explanation as to why that announcement was made which is not the norm and I have experienced this before on another horrible day (this will be written-up later). In the past I've ridden through Moor Park on many occasions and I've wanted to explore the route to Watford but I've never done it and this announcement influenced me into leaving Moor Park station and riding to Watford which was not what I was planning on doing. When I got outside the station at 14:51 I saw a sign saying "Runners" on a post by the road pointing runners/joggers to the right (westerly). I went left (easterly) and not far along that bottom road I passed a woman wearing possibly beige jeans walking in the same direction on my side of the road so I went very wide around her and looked very obviously to my right and this is what I've been doing when I feel like something isn't right so already I was thinking that something's going on here. Further along I looked up from my bicycle and saw an Indian looking woman wearing a white top running across my view (the road sort of kinked a little bit left there so she was on the other side of the road running in my direction which makes it look like she was running across my view) and immediately I looked left and saw a guy wearing a flourescent jacket sitting in a car facing me on my side of the road. I just looked down and continued riding and that's when everything sort of fell into place.

I was manipulated into exiting Moor Park station and I was expected there. Who knows if there really was a running event on that day as I only saw one jogger. Moor Park has its own security with cameras everywhere and number plate recognition so the guy in the car could well have been one of the security guards who'd been told that I was coming. Why I think this is because of what I did Sunday morning -- I got up around 10:00 probably and put clean underpants and vest on and strip washed in the bathroom sink i.e. washed my groin area as I only shower once a week because of my eczema and that was Tuesday Sep 23 2014 and I wanted to freshen myself up before riding my bicycle on a hot sunny day which I have done several times before now and recorded in my diary. I think that my monitors/attackers are attempting to link my strip washing to something external and they wanted to make it appear as though I'd intentionally gone to a running event and were placing women into my view hoping that I'd look at them in a sexual way or even just look at them since that's all they really seem to need judging by what they've been doing to me in the past.

The ride to Watford was very nice actually because after a minor climb I went downhill for some distance and ended up at the entrance I normally take to the Ebury Way near PC World so I enjoyed that part. In Watford I bought oranges, soup, pineapple chunks, chedder cheese and onions in Tesco's Waterfields (receipt says 15:34). Then I visited the 99p shop and bought tropical mix, liquorice for my dad and savlon (receipt says 15:47) and then caught the train back to Chesham where I arrived at 16:44. I rode the usual route home of:

and I'm glad I've finally managed to write this up. I've just made a pizza with my own dough and I'm going to have a break now (it's 14:54!).

Oct 8 2014

10:26 I slept from around 02:12 until 10:05 today. Last evening I watched the Simpsons in bed at 18:00 and then fell asleep until 19:15 but it's easy to do especially when it's cold out. I'll write-up some more recent events today but now I'm going get some breakfast.

Oct 9 2014

08:56 I slept from around 02:00 until 08:00 I think today and I'm up early because a guy's coming to clean some areas of the carpet in my dad's bedroom and downstairs where people walk.

I've been thinking about last Sunday Oct 5 2014 with the woman wearing black jogging trousers pushing the bicycle past me on the platform at Watford Underground station: my monitors/attackers know that I'll take interest in the bicycle because I'm a cyclist and I like them so they get their favourite woman-in-black-jogging-trousers that they've been bombarding my view with and get her to push a bicycle past me to get me to look. I very rarely see cyclists on the train on that trip at the time that I use venture out which is important to note.

Yesterday Wednesday Oct 8 2014 a single male engineer visited from Paradigm Housing mid afternoon to fix the taps in the kitchen and he's replaced them with some very nice taps, much easier to grip especially for older people like my parents. He was a nice chap and I thanked him for the great work he did.

Oct 10 2014

09:47 I slept from around 01:30 until 09:00 today which is fantastic.

I was going to shower yesterday but the bathroom was full of furniture from my dad's bedroom as a guy came and cleaned his carpet so I'm looking to have one today.

The new kitchen taps that Paradigm fitted on Wednesday Oct 8 2014 have been problematic and the cold water pressure has significantly dropped so they're going to send somebody out this morning to have a look. I did have a look at them myself and found that the chrome neck that covers the threaded post that goes into the valve is too deep and prevents the tap top from being fully tightened which causes play in the tap top and then it fails to fully grip the post. I left the chrome necks off and fully tightened the tap tops and it's been safe and reliable to use in the mean time.

13:15 I've just got out of the shower and made a cup of tea and my pizza dough is proving in the oven with a jug of boiling water.

After I'd showered as usual I apply Savlon to my groin, centre chest, shoulders and centre back because especially my groin and chest get a bit raw because of my eczema.

Oct 12 2014

14:06 I'm still watching the first ever Russian Grand Prix, I don't really need any supplies this week and my heart has been really hurting yesterday and today especially so, and I won't be able to make it to any shops now except Chesham which I don't particularly want to venture into so I'm going to stay at home today.

There's no doubt that the pressure I'm under is responsible for my current heart issues but if I wanted to go out then I would've done so because you have to push where possible, it's important to keep pushing although it's certainly very unpleasant not knowing where you're going to be manipulated/nudged to or what's going to be forced into your view or what you're going to be manipulated/conditioned into looking within the vicinity of.

15:50 I want to note that at 14:00 when I normally prepare to go out there was a very loud helicopter going over my house and I had both my PS3 and TV on at the time. I wanted to wait to record this to see what other traffic is about but it's very quiet outside so there's a possibility that that helicopter was meant for me to intimidate/bully/condition me into staying at home.

Oct 13 2014

09:45 I struggled to get to sleep last night and it was about 03:40 when I last looked at the clock and then I awoke about 07:30. My heart was really hurting yesterday evening and throughout the night.

I've got to be careful with my remaining Internet bandwidth for the next two days otherwise it gets severely throttled so I think now is the time to write-up the few remaining things I have left to record in my diary and then get somebody to look at it.

12:40 I've just played a little GTA Online and I've got some bread dough mixing and it's time to write-up a few more recent things:

On Tuesday Oct 7 2014 I wrote-up events for Sunday Sep 28 2014 so I'm going to work my way back from there armed with my receipts and train journey times.

Tuesday Sep 23 2014:
Very personal information originally recorded here has been moved to my Very Personal Diary.

Sunday Sep 21 2014:
These are the times I wrote down when I went out specifically to do this on Tuesday Sep 30 2014:

I went to Watford on the train using the usual route and I went to Boots in the shopping centre and bought some Clotrimazole anti-fungal cream for my eczema (receipt says 14:17), then to Poundland to buy soft eating liquorice for my father and liquorice allsorts and toothpaste for myself (receipt says 14:31), then to the 99p shop to buy dark mints for my mother and fruit and nut mix for myself (receipt says 14:37) and finally to Sainsbury's Watford to buy pineapple chunks, tomato and red pepper soup, mature cheddar and onions (receipt says 14:53). I took the train to Chalfont and Latimer and then rode home and I think I went along White Lion Road and down Bell Lane which is the route I would normally take. This was the trip that was almost completely uneventful which is very unusual and possibly the only one I've had in a year. I think it was the security guard at Sainsbury's Watford who hovered around the exit and walked towards me as I left but I've experienced this a lot in the past because I use a rucksack and I'm not exactly a regular to that strore so I realise that it might happen.

Tuesday Sep 16 2014 to Thursday Sep 18 2014:
Very personal information originally recorded here has been moved to my Very Personal Diary.

Sunday Sep 14 2014:
I don't have train times or receipts for this date therefore I must've stayed at home.

Tuesday Sep 9 2014 to Friday Sep 12 2014:
Very personal information originally recorded here has been moved to my Very Personal Diary.

On Friday Sep 12 2014 early in the morning the Stanner Stairlift engineer visited to inspect the stairlift.

I can't remember whether it was on Wednesday Sep 10 2014 or Thursday Sep 11 2014 that a guy visited to replace the front tyres on my dad's mobility scooter.

On Tuesday Sep 9 2014 two Paradigm engineers arrived to replace the screws holding the bathroom toilet to the floor because they'd rusted. I remember the second guy at the front door said "Don't worry about me, I'm just following him around today" which I thought was very strange because why would I be worrying about him? He drew attention to himself by saying that and I thought he was suspect after that. I did tell my mother what he said. Possibly he wanted to see what I looked like because of my notoriety.

13:55 I'm going to have a break for a moment. My dough is now proving in the oven and I'm going to play some GTA Online.

Oct 15 2014

13:09 I'm just going to take a shower now.

13:54 I've just got out of the shower. I first shaved my face and there were some sore red flaky patches under my stubble which I guessed existed because it was itchy last night and I applied lots of Clotrimazole before I went to bed. The middle of my chest was pretty decent for a change and my groin wasn't bad. As usual I've applied lots of Savlon to these areas.

Very personal information originally recorded here has been moved to my Very Personal Diary.

Oct 16 2014

10:24 I slept from around 02:30 until 07:32 before nodding off and waking at 09:30.

I was thinking about what my monitors/attackers have in store for me, what'll happen after they've forced me to stay in my home. The theme that runs through this diary is manipulation, conditioning and framing and I have wondered if they're just doing it to scare me into staying at home or they're actually going to use this in a court of law. Would they do that? They've already been saying things about me to the public based upon their manipulation/conditioning/framing and a jury are members of the public so why wouldn't they. I don't know much about courts and jurys but where are the jury members called from? Will these people already know who I am from having been told things about me based upon manipulation/conditioning/framing?

Oct 20 2014

12:47 Yesterday Sunday Oct 19 2014 I went out on my bicycle. I rode:

and caught the 12:23 train. I wasn't going to go to Watford because I thought the woman in black cycling/jogging trousers on the Watford Underground platform on Sunday Oct 5 2014 was suspicious as was the helicopter that flew over my house at 14:00 on Sunday Oct 12 2014 so I decided on the train to go to Northwick Park and then cycle the short distance up the road to Sainsbury's Kenton where I bought beans and sausages, mushy peas, pineapple chunks, soup, cheddar cheese, pork luncheon meat, nuts and raisins, easy eating liquorice for my dad and fruit sherberts for myself (receipt says 14:01). It's a big Sainsbury's but I didn't see any security guards about so I wasn't getting lunged at on exit with my rucksack so the shopping was great but when I exited the store the security gates beeped although I was in amongst a group of people and there was no beeping when I entered the store and I didn't purchase any goods that were tagged so it must've been the people in front of me I guess. Even afer that I didn't see any security guards!

I rode back to Pinner and caught the train back to Chesham. Not far before the Pinner Underground station I saw in my peripheral vision what looked like a police van or it could've been an ambulance, I wasn't really paying attention because I was concentrating on my cycling. In Pinner Underground station I saw in my peripheral vision a member of staff standing up and completely filling the window of their booth which I've noticed many times before in other stations. I mention it because not long after I'd entered the station and was waiting on the platform an elderly woman was shouting repeatedly into the booth asking if there was anybody there which of course contrasted with my experience of having somebody very prominently there.

I can't remember the exact time I returned to Chesham but I think it was about 15:45 because I did look at the clock on exit from the station. I then rode:

13:57 I've think I've discovered what they're doing but I need to check back through this diary to find out. I'm currently making some pizza dough and a small loaf.

Oct 22 2014

13:40 I got out of the shower at 13:23 today and as usual afterwards I rub in plenty of Savlon to my chest, back, groin and face because of my eczema. My chest was quite bad which I already realised as yesterday I was scratching it but it's been worse and it'll get better now.

I've just been down in the kitchen making a pasta bake with onion, pineapple, pork luncheon meat and mature cheddar which I already know is awesome. I'm not sure if I've mentioned this before in here but my eczema becomes inflamed if I eat things with lots of preservatives and MSG in them so I make my own meals and they are quite basic for a reason. Normally I wouldn't eat cooked meats because that's one of the worse things but I tried this pork luncheon meat a few weeks back on my own pizzas and I was fine with it and it's inexpensive so I bought some more for a change.

Oct 23 2014

19:48 I would say that now's the time to create a new online version of this diary and bring it up to date so I've being doing exactly that today. I've still got a few things to record from August and a few things from last year so my intention is to go through it and add notes and links where necessary.

Oct 24 2014

15:30 I've been busy working on my updated online diary today (I'm not uploading it until it's finished) and I've just eaten a pizza that I made myself and it was amazing.

There's a quote I saw recently which I want to record: "The eyes of fear see danger everywhere".

16:18 I feel quite good today which I put down to updating my diary and listening to some music (Flock of Seagulls) on my PC. I'm writing my online diary in Creole compliant markup and I'm using my pwikip wikitext parser which is so much fun to use. Jun 7 2013 was the last update I made to that project and I haven't been able to do anything that creative since because of this operation that I appear to be the target of.

My heart hurts daily now but I've just become used to it struggling under the pressure.

16:37 I'm going to get a coffee now and play some GTA Online.

Oct 25 2014

17:44 I went to Watford today to get some shopping. I looked at the weather first on the BBC Red Button service and today was shown as sunny and tomorrow cloudy so I decided to go today although the sunshine was limited and it was quite overcast when I returned home at 17:30. I managed to get most of the things I needed and I still have the option of going out tomorrow if the weather's not too bad to stock-up on a few more things such as pasta which takes up a lot of room in my rucksack.

I rode:

and caught the 14:57 train (or maybe 14:53), changed at Moor Park and then onto Watford. When I got on the train at Chesham I sat down on a quiet section and then it filled up around me with two groups of student aged people so it was a lot busier than a Sunday trip.

I rode into Watford and I saw out of my peripheral vision (I look down most of the time and don't look at people directly if I can help it) what looked like a couple of police or community officers standing at the entrance to the High Street but Sainsbury's Watford was to the left of them and that's where I went. I bought beans and sausages, pineapple chunks, soup, onions, cheddar cheese, pork luncheon meat and oranges (receipt says 16:00). I then rode back to where the community officers were and they'd gone and then rode down to the 99p shop which was very busy and stood in a queue that was incredibly slow moving. A single Asian (Indian or similar) guy was behind me but moved to my right as the queue moved forward and I spent the entire time looking at the various things on display. At one point I heard somebody near me or behind me say "Join that queue, there are two people on the tills" or something similar to that and I thought it was the same guy who said it. When I eventually reached the till he said something to the girl behind the counter and then moved a basket trolley from the front of the counter past me and to where the baskets were accumulating on my right so at that point I got the impression that he worked there. I also didn't notice that he had any goods so I'm guessing that the shop was notified of my arrival and he was there to watch me. I bought some sweets, Savlon and tropical mix (receipt says 16:19).

I dress to the left if you know what that means and tuck my vest into my underpants for comfort but for some reason (cycling probably did it) I was slightly out of place and it was rather uncomfortable and I wanted to adjust myself and even contemplated doing it in the queue but I didn't and I'm glad now that I didn't. I waited until I got home and adjusted myself in my bedroom.

I left the 99p shop and at the top of the road going slowly to the left was a police car. I then rode the normal route back to the Underground station along Cassiobury Avenue although I did initially start riding through Cassiobury Park but I don't do that anymore so I quickly changed my route.

There was or were light aircraft flying around above me today. There was one at Chesham I noticed on my way out when I was waiting on the platform reading my book but I really wasn't watching out for them so I didn't notice any more after that until I got home and had a cigarette in the back garden when one flew over my house. It really wasn't the sort of day you'd want to joyride in a plane, there was some sunchine when I went out but after that it was cloudy and getting dark on my return to Chesham. I'm just noting this because little things like this could have more meaning later on.

When I got back to Chesham I rode:

and got in my back door at 17:30.

It's now 18:25 so you can see how long it takes me to record these things and how laborious it is. I just want to play some GTA Online on my PS3.


Notes:

The following was written on Aug 12 2015:

Again, this is why it's important to record as much as possible even if it means nothing at the time. It could well be that the group of student aged people who sat around me on the Underground train at Chesham were put there by my attackers (I've detected this on another occasion further down the diary) and then eveyone was warned about me everywhere I went. So I'm just going out shopping and there's all this weirdness going on around me and it's nothing to do with anything I'm doing. I would say now that this was a set-up. It's my attackers creating the reality that they want. There was something else about the 99p Shop: when I was standing in the queue looking at the items on display and the rack in front of me I noticed that a young girl whom I'd say was with her dad in front of me turned around and looked up at me but I just kept staring at the items on the rack. Knowing now what I do about the attention grabbing I've been subjected to it does make me wonder if that was an agent/detective in front of me attempting to get me to look at a young girl whilst I was being intensely watched by the male staff member on my right.


Oct 28 2014

14:28 I've just got out of the shower. I can't exactly remember when I went in to the bathroom but I shaved my face in there first, then showered and then applied plenty of Savlon to various parts of my body so I've probably spent the best part of an hour grooming myself. The eczema on my chest is quite bad but it'll get better now that I've blasted and scrubbed it and applied antiseptic cream.

I made some bread and pizza dough earlier and I'm just going down to make my pizza.

Oct 29 2014

18:45 The Rockstar game services are undergoing maintenance at the moment so no PS3 GTA Online for several hours apparently.

I went out for a cigarette around 17:30 and for some reason I was thinking again about something that happened on the train during my Kenton trip Sunday Oct 19 2014. I was going to mention it but I thought it was just an amusing innocent thing that I didn't see that there was any point but now I think I've possibly detected a set-up:

I was on the train coming back from Pinner and the train stopped at Harrow-on-the-Hill where a young woman entered my carriage and sat opposite me. At the time I didn't have my book open because it was buried in my rucksack with shopping so I was looking at the Metropolitan route map above the door which was opposite me and to the right. Then two young men walked past and one of them looked into the carriage where I was sitting and I looked at him and saw him looking at the girl sitting opposite me. I guessed that they had seen her and found her attractive which I thought was a nice innocent thing and it amused me and brought a slight smile to my face. The guy then looked at me and then they both went up the stairs and I returned to looking at the Metropolitan route map above the door at which point I felt the young woman was looking directly at me.

I now think that there's a possibility that I was being manipulated into looking at the young woman. I think that he was trying to get me to look at what he was looking at out of interest and she was primed ready to look at me looking at her but I didn't look at her. Judging by what I've experienced so far I'd say that this is just the sort of thing that they would implement.


Notes:

The following was written on Aug 12 2015:

Here's another set-up that I detected and protected myself from! I've obviously got something wrong here because Pinner is nearer Chesham than Harrow-on-the-Hill but I do remember that the station where it happened was a substantial and open one with stairs going up therefore I'd say that this happened on my journey out and not on the way back. I didn't realise at the time that these things were being done to me for other people to witness but I do know that now so it was likely for the benefit of the security cameras on the train and the operators (British Transport Police perhaps). The two young men looked as though they could've been agents/detectives, I'm very familiar with them now.


Oct 30 2014

23:55 A doctor came to visit my dad today maybe between 13:00 and 13:30 but I didn't see her at the time. I went to speak to my dad afterwards and he said that she gave him some antibiotics and that she was very pretty which cheared him up I think. Later the phone rang and he answered it and said that the doctor had lost her mobile phone and that she was coming round to look for it and he did say that he'd told her he'd looked and couldn't find it and I thought why doesn't she just get us to look! If you think that maybe you've left something in somebody's house wouldn't you normally ask them to look rather than visit to look yourself?

About 14:30 there was a knock on the door and she stood there at almost my height I think and my dad was right, she was very pretty. I said "Have you lost your mobile phone?" and she said that she thinks she might've left it in one of the houses she's visited or something like that, I can't exactly remember to be honest. She entered the hallway and I told her to go up and see my dad and I went into the kitchen to check on my pasta bake that I made which was almost cooked. She then came down and stood in the hallway whilst I was closing up the oven and she said that she didn't find it but that she found a pair of glasses under the bed and we chuckled. I then showed her out the front door but she was doing it herself so all I had to do was put the latch down that I put up when she came in.

About 20:30 I went to the toilet for a number two and I returned to play GTA Online on my PS3 and not long afterwards (maybe 10 minutes) there was a very loud helicopter going over my house which was loud enough to get my attention from the game I was playing. I don't know if it means anything. I do know that I've had plenty of messages sent to me via police helicopter so I'm just mentioning it.

I asked my mother at some point in the evening if the doctor had found her phone and she didn't know. She told me that the doctor was new and that she'd only been there since August.

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Oct 31 2014

19:27 Early this morning I was awoken by a couple of men talking loudly I presume walking along the path at the back of our house and then I heard what I thought was a loud motorcycle riding along the same path! As I've mentioned before, it's very very quiet around here and you can hardly hear anything all day so it was certainly unusual. My mother said she heard an engine or machinery being run over and over and thought that it was after 06:30 but I don't know what time it was. About 14:17 I heard something like machinery being used somewhere so maybe there was some work being carried out on some utility.

November

Nov 2 2014

16:14 I had a great trip out today. I think it was about 13:00 when I left and I rode:

and caught the 13:23 train all the way to Willesden Green. Once there I went to Sainsbury's Willesden Green and bought pineapple chunks, soups, Marmite, nuts and raisins, toffees, chocolate, ginger snaps, satsumas, onions and Ibuprofen tablets (receipt says 14:33). I rode back to Neasden and caught the train back to Chesham and I arrived back at the station at 15:44. I then rode:

and returned home approaching 16:00.

I read my book about Fuzzy Logic going out and the Sunday Times' Culture magazine on the way back that somebody had left on the train. Somewhere around Rickmansworth or Chorleywood a woman walked her little boy up the train and they stopped at me sitting down and eventually I looked because I guessed the little boy had taken an interest in my bicycle and he waved at me and I waved back and laughed. The woman said "He has to say hello because you have a bike" and I chuckled.

It was noticeably warmer in London than out here. I got quite warm even just walking my bike through Willesden Green High Street and when I got back to Chesham it was cold and damp.

Sunday Sep 21 2014 was the last trip I had that was almost completely uneventful but this trip today was as far as I can tell at this time entirely uneventful and a very beautiful experience. I feel like a pressure has dropped within my system.

Maurice from next door knocked this morning around 10:30 and mentioned that somebody last night had tipped over my dad's mobility scooter so Maurice and I righted it. My mother's been talking to people out front today and they are disgusted by it.


Notes:

The following was written on Aug 12 2015:

This was an agent/detective forcing me to interact with a child -- it happens again on Saturday Nov 29 2014. Yeah, it's very very sinister. Is this an official Thames Valley Police test? So my attackers manipulate/nudge me into walking past children's groups along the Backs between January 2014 and March 2014 (no doubt they told them I was coming) and now they're standing them in front of me to force me to interact with them. Was this for the Underground security cameras and operators to witness? Were they judging my level of happiness and joy?


Nov 3 2014

13:12 I've been thinking about yesterday Sunday Nov 2 2014 and I don't think that the woman with her little boy on the train taking an interest in my bicycle was just an innocent random event -- I think that the woman was an agent/detective and the event was scripted.

Let me add some more detail about yesterday: I had spent the trip from Neasden to Wembley Park on the Jubilee Line standing up resting against the post holding my bicycle whilst reading the Culture magazine and again from Wembley Park to somewhere around Rickmansworth or Chorleywood on the Metropolitan Line because the carriages I was on were quite populated and if you sit down with a bicycle then you need to sit somewhere where there are two or three empty seats. My carriage then emptied out and I sat down with my bicycle in front of me resting against my left leg and I was looking up at the Metropolitan Line route map when a woman and a small child approached from my left and stopped on my left completely quietly and I kept looking at the Metropolitan Line route map until it became uncomfortable and I guessed that they had taken an interest in my bike. I then looked down to see a small boy waving at me and I waved back and laughed and then looked at the woman and she said "He has to say hello because you have a bike" and I chuckled. At the time I remember that I found it a bit embarassing and felt my face flush. I didn't notice out of my peripheral vision that the little boy was waving until I looked at him and his face was just blank so there were some oddities about it all but at the time I hadn't analysed it. It felt sterile, wooden, scripted, prompted, those are currently the best words I can think of to describe it. Some time after they'd gone I found myself grabbing with a slap the seat of my bicycle, smiling and thinking how pleasant an experience that was in a sort of "Well I'll be" moment.

Nov 5 2014

13:56 This week I've been updating the online HTML version of my diary although I'm not uploading it to my website until I've finished it. I've also had the Champion of Champions snooker tournament on the TV and because there's not a great deal of broadband bandwidth left I'm playing other offline single player games such as Saints Row 2 on my PS3 and a selection of games on my GameCube which is attached to my television.

14:53 OK, the contents of this diary stored in an Osmo personal organiser XML file have now been transferred to my Pwikip wiki markup version which I compile to HTML suitable for publishing online.

I think it's time to stop maintaining my diary within the Osmo personal organiser and instead write directly to the Pwikip wiki markup version.

Nov 6 2014

14:15 I've just come back upstairs after going downstairs to deal with my pizza dough that required rolling out -- one of the portions I've made into a small loaf which is currently proving and will be cooked first.

Prior to making my pizza bases and loaf I had a shower and before that I shaved my face.

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The eczema in the middle of my chest was as bad as it normally is but everywhere else was fine. As usual I rubbed in plenty of Savlon.

Nov 11 2014

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Nov 12 2014

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Nov 13 2014

13:27 Dr Shots visited to see my dad about 13:10 and left about 13:20. I went down and opened the door, ...

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... and my dad is still in bed with a chest infection. I've seen Dr Shots plenty of times before and she's a nice lady. It was her I saw when I discovered what type of eczema I had (I diagnosed myself because until that point we didn't know) and by chance a dermatologist was at the surgery that day and he verified my diagnosis (seborrheic dermatitis) and I told him how I'd dealt with it up until then.

I opened the door and Dr shots was standing there wearing glasses and I said "Hi". There was some initial very brief eye contact and she said "Hello, Dr Shots" whilst looking straight ahead and walking inside. Whilst I was closing the door I said "He's upstairs and my mother's up there somewhere" and I looked around and she was already a third of the way up the stairs and I looked up at her and said "I guess you know where he is then" and I think she said "Yeah". I then walked into the kitchen and started to cook some rice and she came down around 10 minutes later and I looked along the hallway to see if she was going to say goodbye and to make sure she was OK getting out but all I saw was the back of her so I just carried on cooking and I think my mother came down behind her and saw her out of the door.

I think basically Dr Shots is going to prescribe my dad some more tablets and my mother's got to go out later today to collect them. Dr Shots said that my dad was getting close to the point where he might have to go into hospital and she told him to sit up in bed rather than lie down to deal with the phlegm.

I would like to record that a loud helicopter didn't pass over my house after the doctor had left but one did at 13:38 when I was in the kitchen dealing with my rice. I'm just mentioning it because if I don't then I can't see patterns. I spend all day on my computer and PS3 in my room and I barely hear a thing and I have my little window open.

I've still got some recent catching up to do with this diary but right now I've had enough and I'm going to consume some spare remaining bandwidth playing GTA Online.

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Nov 14 2014

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I shaved my face today around 13:30 and also my chest because my eczema is bad and it'll get worse this time of year with the central heating and then I took a shower and applied masses of Savlon and it was about 14:30 by the time I'd finished. At the time I had some bread dough mixing so after my shower I went down and made a really nice loaf.

My dad went down for breakfast but as usual now he spent the day in bed. He's looking really frail, shaky and gaunt.

Nov 16 2014

13:40 I'm not going out today; the weather is horrible, I only need some satsumas, I've only got £16 which I may have to stretch out to 3 weeks, I'm doing some laundry and I need to catch up with recording some recent events and I don't want to let them slip by.

Sunday Nov 9 2014:
I thought this was a good day but as is normally the case there were a few odd things that sort of tainted the experience a little. I went to Watford with my bicycle on the train and I think I caught the 13:23 (or 13:27) train from Chesham which seems to match up with the time printed on the first of my shopping receipts. I rode:

and caught the train as mentioned above. At Watford I rode into the High Street via Cassiobury Avenue and I did notice that right at the top further than I visit there was something going on with lots of people and an initially confusing sign that asked cyclists to dismount at the underpass which I did and then realised they meant going up and not down. My first stop was the 99p shop and I bought a bag of liquorice for my dad and peanuts and raisins for myself (receipt says 14:28). I left my bicycle locked to the bicycle rack outside the shop and walked up to Poundland and bought blackcurrant and liquorice sweets and liquorice allsorts (receipt says 14:34). I then walked into the top end of the shopping centre and as I walked through the doors on the ground level there were lots of people and there's an escalator in the middle so I scanned left and right to locate a route which is done subconsciously, it's not a process that I'm spending much thought on and when I looked left the location that I looked I focused on a pair of legs in black leggings or similar side-on and once I'd realised what I was looking at I looked ahead and I continued to walk forward and that's the route that I chose. It's not as though they were prominent and I don't know what people were wearing but I have a picture in my mind that most people were wearing black trousers or leggings or whatever, it's that time of year now. It's only now that I'm putting some thought into this because I think that it is important in a programming/conditioning/sensitising context. I do plan on adding notes throughout this diary explaining what I think I am being subjected to and adding some more information and thoughts.

I visited Game and was looking for a used copy of Red Dead Redemption PS3 Game of the Year edition but I didn't find it and scanned through the games and picked up Far Cry 3 at a bargain price of £6 (I'm currently playing Far Cry 2). I stood in the long queue which moved incredibly slowly and I spent the time watching the large TV directly ahead of me showing release videos. When I reached the counter the guy took my game box and I know from previous visits that the contents are kept in drawers behind the staff so you can watch them locating your game's disc and manual but for some reason he disappeared off with the game box out of the door at the back of the shop for a short while. On return he located the game box's contents from the exact same drawers as I've already mentioned and the transaction was completed and I walked off with my game in a small Game carrier bag (receipt says 14:56).

I continued on through the middle lower doors and there's a location along there where there are mirrored doors on the left and I noticed out of the corner of my eye a man standing there and then he paced left and then right back to where he was standing. I wasn't looking anywhere other than ahead and I wasn't thinking about anything in particular either. Was he a twitchy security guard who wanted me to notice him or was it nothing.

The next shop I visited within the shopping centre was Boots so I walked all the way to the bottom end and then up the escalator into the back of Boots and bought some Canesten clotrimazole cream for my eczema which unfortunately is an expensive purchase but necessary as it kills off the fungus that we have on our skin which particularly likes my dry skin which causes it to inflame and get a bit raw (receipt says 15:02).

I walked out of the main shopping centre doors at the bottom end and outside parked to the right across the footpath was a police car. It wasn't parked slightly on the road, it was parked entirely on the footpath with a large margin right across where people walk when they walk up to the lower middle doors, where the row of bicycle racks are located.

I got my bicycle from the rack outside the 99p shop and rode up to Sainsbury's Watford and bought tobacco (receipt says 15:13), Savlon, pineapple chunks, pork luncheon meat, mature cheddar, satsumas and onions (receipt says 15:25) and I squeezed it all into my rucksack, rode off on my bicycle and there were two empty police vans parked just across the road from the Sainsbury's Watford exit and at least one of the vans was running. I thought maybe they were something to do with the event at the top end of the High Street but I hadn't seen any policemen anywhere and why are the vans parked all the way down at Sainsbury's Watford?

I rode back to the station the same way I'd come and worked my way back to Chesham which took a while because the extended time I spent at Watford queuing meant that I caught the Amersham train and I had to wait at Chalfont and Latimer for the Chesham train. Once at Chesham it was dark because it was 16:45 and I haven't bought lights for my bicycle yet so I pushed it along:

and it was probably about 17:00 when I got home. I enjoyed the day and I bought a good bargain game for my PS3 and I did some walking so it was good.


Notes:

The following was written on Aug 12 2015:

I expect that everyone was all over me today. I do wonder if the staff member in Game took my Far Cry 3 game out to show to somebody (security?) before I bought it.


Nov 17 2014

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Nov 19 2014

23:51 I shaved my face about midday and had a shower at 12:30. My skin is pretty good except for a raw patch in the middle of my chest but I can shift that with some more applications of Savlon and clotrimazole during the week.

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Nov 20 2014

21:25

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Dr Roberts whom I haven't met came to visit my dad today who's still in bed with a chest infection. My mother was in when she visited about 14:30 and so she let her in and I was in my room so I didn't see her. Ten minutes later I went down to the kitchen to remove my loaf of bread from the oven and to make some chips and she came down to the hallway at that point and talked to my mother who was standing in the front room to hallway doorway. I looked up the hallway just in case she was going to say hello but I couldn't see her because the kitchen door was in the way and the hallway was dark. After she'd left my mother asked my dad how he got on and he said that the doctor was a big girl so the selection of doctors they are sending are obviously keeping my dad happy! Later I spoke to my mother about the doctor's visit and I mentioned what I heard dad say and my mother said that she "had it all on show" which I suppose means that she was big chested and wasn't shy about showing it.

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Nov 25 2014

23:55 This morning I was awoken at 08:55 by a loud helicopter that flew low over and hovered around my house for a short while and it sounded like it could've been a police helicopter. I asked my mother if she heard it when I went downstairs for breakfast and she said she did hear it.

Very personal information originally recorded here has been moved to my Very Personal Diary.

I didn't go out over the weekend because it rained and I'm getting low on supplies so I was thinking about going down to Sainsbury's Chesham during the afternoon but I decided against it and vacuumed my room and then took a shower instead -- it was raining anyway.

Personal information originally recorded here has been moved to my Personal Diary.

My dad left the house today to get a haircut, the first time he's been out for several weeks and he looks very frail and gaunt. It's nice to see him up and about again.

Nov 26 2014

15:46 Over the last three evenings I've been using my GP2X handheld again although my rechargeable batteries aren't up to the job of powering it anymore so I had to use normal batteries that failed last night. I did manage to play a few favourite games such as Animatch and Freecell but I need to buy another pack of Maplin's rechargeable AAs at some point and I don't have any money to spare at the moment.

My dad went out again today for a few hours for some tests and then a half down the pub.

I just went in to ask my dad about a couple of new rechargeable batteries he was using in his camera and I found them and I'm borrowing them for the moment which is nice.

I just want to say a few things about the helicopter pounding the air over my house again yesterday Tuesday Nov 25 2014: in the early part of the evening I was participating in an online racing game which always causes the adrenalin to circulate and my heart started pounding and it started to do it in an extreme way and it hurt. It was thumping really hard like it was going to explode or fly out of my chest. This morning I put the TV on about 09:00 which I don't normally do and I couldn't be bothered to get up.

I don't want to go down the town but I'm going to have to because it's my mother's birthday on Saturday and my dad gave me some money to buy some gifts on his behalf. It's also raining still which is very annoying and I'm not walking down because it wouldn't be safe, I'm only going on my bicycle on the road. I might go out tomorrow or leave it till Friday. I really need a lot of supplies now which isn't surprising as I haven't been out since Sunday Nov 9 2014.

16:42 Another thing I wanted to state: I still have two space blankets folded in two covering the majority of my window leaving a foot gap where I'm sitting now at my desk which is the opposite side of my room from my bed. It stops the sun bleading over my screens and it does psychologically help to cope with the all-seeing-eye of my attackers.

23:49 It's gone very quiet since that helicopter came over yesterday. Something else that was different yesterday was when I went out for a cigarette around 17:15 there was a bright light right in front of me which was actually the light in a bedroom in the house opposite with the curtains open but nobody was there. Normally it's dark out there so when you open the back door there's nothing. It's important to record things that appear in my view.

Nov 27 2014

15:15 I've decided not to go out until the weekend and I've given the money my dad gave me to my mother so that she can get herself some nice flowers when she's out in the car down the town and I'll get her a birthday card on Saturday or Sunday.

Nov 28 2014

15:43 My parents have just returned from wherever it is they went, only Chesham I think. I got my dad to get me some tobacco as he was going to the newsagents anyway and I'm assuming he managed to get my mother a card and gift for her birthday tomorrow because I gave him his money back for this reason.

I made a really nice loaf of bread today. I've got lots of supplies to get over the weekend and I want to get some lights for my bicycle so fingers crossed it doesn't pour down with rain.

Dec 1 2014

14:45 I quite enjoyed the weekend although as usual it had a dodgy tainting element provided by my attackers. It was my mother's birthday on Saturday Nov 29 2014 and we had a selection of things like mini Kievs, vol-au-vents, small parcels, battered king prawns, a glass of Cava and some really rich cake and macaroons which I finished off Sunday and today. My mother is now 70 and she wasn't happy about celebrating it but it went fine anyway.

Weatherwise the weekend was great, warm and sunny on Saturday and similarly on Sunday although it became overcast and cool later in the afternoon. I had really run down my supplies as the last time I went out was Sunday Nov 9 2014 so I went out both days to get everything I needed.

Saturday Nov 29 2014:
I went out about 13:05 and rode:

and caught the 13:25 (or thereabouts) train from Chesham to Northwick Park. As usual I was sitting with my bicycle resting against my legs and reading my Fuzzy Logic book and I noticed a woman with a small child going up and down the carriage like the last time on Sunday Nov 2 2014 but I didn't spend any time thinking about it, I guess a bell rang in my head to let me know that they're possibly suspect but I was engrossed in my book and I didn't spend any more time thinking about it. Eventually surprise surprise they walked in front of me and stopped by my left leg with the child standing behind my book so again like last time I could sense that the child had taken an interest in me or my bicycle and kept reading and then it just started to get uncomfortable but this time they walked off. Obviously I'm not timing the periods between me sensing somebody standing in front of me and me finding it uncomfortable enough to want to enquire what it is they want but it wasn't as long as the last time. If they'd of stood there longer I would've interacted with them because it would've gone from the slightly uncomfortable through to the really uncomfortable.

At Northwick Park I rode around the corner to Sainsbury's Kenton and bought apples, nuts and raisins, coal tar soap, cheddar cheese, toothpaste and tropical granola (receipt says 14:25) and then rode to the big Halford's in Harrow on the Hill where I bought some cycling lights (receipt says 14:45). I then rode back to North Harrow station which I'd never used before and caught the train back to Amersham and rode:

and I was home before it was dark and I think it was around 15:45. There was nothing odd to note about the day other than the woman and child event on the train going out. I didn't see any police vehicles or experience odd behaviour from shop staff or security guards. For a welcome change I did a lot of riding in the beautiful sunshine and making the most of it.

Sunday Nov 30 2014:
I went out about 13:05 and rode:

and caught the 13:25 (or thereabouts) train from Chesham to Watford. At Watford I rode the usual route along Cassiobury Avenue into the Hight Street and I locked my bicycle against the bicycle rack opposite Poundland but when I went in there it was packed and I only wanted a bag or two of sweets so I came straight back out again. I then found Poundworld just down a bit so I popped in and bought After Eights and chocolate limes (receipt says 14:24). I did consider going to The 99p Shop but I could get my nuts and raisins in Sainsbury's Watford so I decided against it.

I went into Argos outside near the front of the shopping centre to see how much and what sort of rechargeable batteries they had but they weren't as good as Maplin's so I left, got my bicycle and visited Sainsbury's Watford and bought eleven items (receipt says 14:44) including jelly babies for my dad who is still spending most of his time in bed although he's much better now and I think especially this time of year he's not in any rush to go out in the cold.

I took the Watford train to Moor park and caught the Amersham train and at Amersham I rode:

and again it wasn't dark enough for cycle lamps and it was around 15:45.

There was absolutely nothing odd to report about Sunday, no police, no odd behaviour, no set-ups on the train, and when I got home I felt fantastic. It's certainly very unusual to experience such an uneventful day and later in the evening I did start to feel concerned that my attackers are up to something and my heart was hurting and it was still hurting this morning but I've been fine whilst writing this. It can be quite horrible having to record events within this diary but it is definitely therapeutic and worthwhile.

Let's add some more detail about my life at the moment: the last time I went out was Sunday Nov 9 2014 which as always was out of Chesham on the train. I don't go into Chesham anymore unless I really need to and the last time that happened was Tuesday Sep 30 2014 when I visited the train station to record my recent journey times and I popped into Sainsbury's Chesham to stock up on a few things. Since Sunday Nov 9 2014 I've seen Dr Shots when I let her in to see my dad, Jackie from next door talking to my mother on the front footpath and Maurice from next door talking to my dad on the front footpath and that's it. I can't see out of my room because of the blind and the only other place I look out is the back garden and that's fenced. I rarely watch TV instead preferring to play games on my PS3 which includes GTA Online, Red Dead Redemption Multiplayer (online) and various offline single players titles. I purposely don't add people to my friends list on PS3 and I don't request to be added to anyone else's list either. Like most people in free roam (freemode) I do my own thing but interact with other players when joining their hosted missions. I watch TV when I get into bed at midnight and I usually watch something interesting on BBC Four, The Big Bang Theory, Father Ted or 9 Out Of 10 Cats. I've got it on at the moment for the snooker and I like the Formula One Grand Prix as well but the Simpsons at 18:00 is the only other thing I'm interested in and I've seen most of those now anyway.

It's 17:21 now so I'll call it a day and go outside and enjoy a cigarette.


Notes:

The following was written on Aug 12 2015:

Another sinister forced child interaction event on the Underground train by my attackers.


December

Dec 2 2014

19:36 I have some more trips out to record that I never got around to doing because it's tedious and now is a good time to do it.

Saturday Sep 6 2014:
These are the times I wrote down:

I went to Watford with my bicycle on the train and the previous Sunday Aug 31 2014 at 14:27 I bought a beard trimmer from Argos Waterfields that was terribly broken in its packaging. I thought it was really strange that something could be so badly smashed but I took it back and showed the guy in the store and it was replaced (receipt says 15:54). I sat down and looked at the screen to wait for my number to be called but the screen was blank because the system was down so I guessed somebody was going to shout out the numbers. There were some other people sitting down and standing up and a guy appeared from a door on the right wearing a black polo shirt and headed straight for me and asked me what my number was so I showed him my ticket. I don't know why I got special treatment as there were other people there before me and nearer to the door and I thought it was strange but he was assisting me and I assumed he would be helping others too. When my item arrived at the counter the guy brought it over to me and I thanked him and left.

I rode back to Rickmansworth and bought some clotrimazole cream in Boots (receipt says 16:24) and then I can't remember how I got back to Chesham and I don't have a train journey record for it so maybe I rode back along Latimer Road.


Notes:

The following was written on Aug 12 2015:

I'm guessing this guy in Argos was a security guard attempting to get me out of the store as quickly as possible. I do wonder if the initial beard trimmer I bought from there was smashed to pieces by the staff or maybe even the security staff did it in an attempt to dissuade me from visiting the store again.


Dec 3 2014

16:17 I have some more trips out to record that I never got around to doing.

Sunday Aug 31 2014:
These are the times I wrote down:

I went to Watford with my bicycle on the train and bought a beard trimmer from Argos Waterfields (receipt says 14:27) and liquorice, Savlon and Toblerone from Poundland (receipt says 14:40). I rode to Rickmansworth and then took the train back to Chesham. When I opened the beard trimmer packaging at home I found that it had been smashed which was very strange because the plastic is thick and you couldn't break it unless you whacked it against something. The fact that the packaging was perfect makes this even more strange.

Saturday Aug 30 2014:
These are the times I wrote down:

I don't have an outward bound journey time for this trip because the ticket machine only shows so many in a list and I'm guessing the bottom row had been chopped off but I went to Watford with my bicycle and visited Sainsbury's Watford and bought several items (receipt says 16:32). I then got the train back to Chalfont and Latimer and rode back along Latimer Road. If there was something odd about this trip then I would've remembered it but I don't recall anything so it must've been one of those rare uneventful trips out.

Dec 4 2014

15:44 My last upload of this diary to my website was Feb 27 2014 so I'm going to do it again now. This was the last upload that Thames Valley Police got to read.

I've still got two August trips to document and a few important ones from the last quarter of 2013.

This needs to be online now, certainly before I venture out again!

17:00 I'm starting to go through this diary and standardise on the date format -- MMM D YYYY -- to facilitate searching. Also at the top of the document it states when it was last updated/uploaded so I won't bother mentioning it within the body anymore.

17:55 I've removed some personal information belonging to other people -- it's marked as "[private]".

Dec 5 2014

20:24 Windows 7 on my mother's laptop has died. She was using IE 10 because IE 11 was unstable and she came upstairs angrily blaming the Internet and the ISP and said she wasn't going to pay for it anymore and when I took a look IE 10 crashed and the OS crashed and system restore didn't work and wiped all of the other restore points so now I'll have to boot a Linux CD to recover her personal files and attempt to restore Windows 7 to factory settings -- a huge job. I'd install Linux on it but I don't think the Kodak printer would be recognised and also her Sony video camera.

I've been working on this diary today standardising the date format and I'm currently up to Dec 16 2013. I'm not yet sure I'm going out this weekend because I'd prefer to get this diary up to date but we'll see.

Dec 6 2014

20:45 I've been working on this diary today standardising the date format and I'm currently up to May 8 2014.

I managed to get Puppy Linux to boot from a USB flash drive on my mother's laptop and I can see her files so my next task is to back them up. Linux is amazingly fast on that computer and it just shows you how slow Windows is.

Dec 8 2014

20:43 Yesterday Sunday Dec 7 2014 I went to Watford with my bicycle on the train. I rode:

and caught the 13:55 (or thereabouts) train from Chesham to Watford. At Watford I rode the usual route along Cassiobury Avenue into the Hight Street and I locked my bicycle against the bicycle rack opposite Burger King just down from Poundland and visited The 99p Shop and bought jelly babies for my dad, tropical mix and chocolate liqueurs (receipt says 14:54). I then popped into Argos with the intention of buying a USB flash drive 249/7721 but they were out of stock. I then rode down to Argos Waterfields to buy the same item but they were out of stock too so I jumped on my bike and rode up to Sainsbury's Watford and bought oranges, tinned grapefruit segments and pineapple chunks and mature cheddar (receipt says 15:23) to complete my shopping trip.

I rode back to Watford Underground station the same way I came and got off my bicycle outside the front door and as I pulled down the zip on my jacket from my neck down to my chest I noticed a man (Indian or similar, 30 something, 5 and a half foot tall) who was leaning on the entrance stare at the base of my neck as the zip came down. It seemed odd when it happened and even stranger the more I thought about it. I got off at Chalfont and Latimer and waited for the Chesham train because it was freezing and I didn't fancy riding back from Amersham and somebody behind me said "Excuse me, is this the platform for Chesham?" and I said "Yes, it'll be 10 or 15 minutes" to the Indian or similar woman. I left my bicycle against the post and strolled up to the timetable and she stayed in the same area that my bicycle was and I went back and told her that the next train will be about 16:08 and that it was 16:00 at the time. I strolled off again and indicated with my arms that she might want to walk about to keep warm and we both laughed. When the train arrived (early actually) I grabbed my bike and she thanked me and I said "You're welcome".


Notes:

The following was written on Aug 12 2015:

I think the man at Watford Underground station was an agent/detective expecting me to pop. I think that after all of the things that they've been doing to me they were expecting me to lose it (is this what their operational manual says will happen at this point?) and I felt as though he was checking to see if I was going to pull something out of my jacket. I remember that the second forced child interaction event on the Underground train on Sunday Nov 30 2014 I found very sinister because I knew it was my attackers and I was agitated by that and they will know that because I'm under complete and total surveillance. I have mentioned many times in this diary that I think that they're trying to make me explode. Like I said, maybe their operational manual says I should have done so by now.

Was the Indian woman requiring information about the platform an agent/detective too?


At Chesham the light was going so I attached my cycle lamps to my rucksack back and front and rode:

and it was probably about 16:30 when I got home.

Other things that happened was in Watford on the short stretch of path from the road to Waterfields I navigated carefully through some pedestrians and the front forks on my bicycle are currently squeeking quite loudly and it amused me and a little girl just forward to the left of my front wheel turned around and stared at my bicycle with a puzzled look on her face and I thought that she was going to look at me smiling but she didn't. When I prepared to leave my house at 13:26 I could hear a light aircraft flying around and a helicopter was hovering around somewhere because I could hear the fwapping of the blades at one point.

It was a good day out, some pleasant interaction with people and no odd behaviour from anyone in the shops so let's hope it continues because it greatly reduces the huge pressure upon my system and I open up and enjoy myself. I think over the last week I've been stressed out at times and at others I've felt quite good like now when I'm writing. I don't think for one minute that the people attacking me have finished with me yet so I'm apprehensive but it's nice to have a rest from it all.

Yesterday Sunday Dec 7 2014 evening I used Linux on a USB flash drive to back-up around 16 gigabytes of my mother's files from her laptop and then the hard disk failed and then the USB flash drive wouldn't boot so this morning I partitioned and formatted the hard disk and attempted to install Linux on it but it just errors so I'm spending a lot of time with that at the moment. It is a priority to get this diary up-to-date but so is fixing my mother's laptop so tomorrow I'll take the hard disk out and try and get a live Linux CD working so she can browse the Internet to keep her quiet.


Notes:

The following was written on Aug 14 2015:

I didn't think at all that there was anything suspicious about the little girl taking an interest in my bicycle because my squeeky forks caused her to look round out of interest and I thought it was nice to have a normal innocent interaction with somebody that isn't some hideous sinister sickening set-up and because my attackers are using children as weapons against me I wanted to record this so that I have such an interaction writen down.


Dec 9 2014

17:36 I spent the day setting up Linux to boot from a USB flash drive for my mother's laptop and placed a few icons on the desktop for Firefox, Solitaire and her Enya albums and I removed the dead hard disk so that I can get another to replace it. Of course Windows died with the drive so I'll probably install Ubuntu or something but I'm not at that stage yet.

I extracted the URLs from her IE favourites and wrote them to a file that I imported into Firefox bookmarks so she can visit her favourite websites to keep her happy for the time being.

I've only eaten toast today as I'm not particularly hungry, just cold. I'm going to play a little GTA Online now.

Dec 10 2014

15:32 I've done some more date and time standardising within this diary and I'm going to start July 2014 tomorrow so I'm doing great but I've had enough now and I'm going to play some GTA Online.

Dec 11 2014

16:00 I had a shower today and I can't remember the exact time but it was about 13:00. The eczema in the middle of my chest was as bad as it normally is but the rest of my skin was fine. I've finally put my thermals on because the temperature is cold enough now. I don't like to overheat because then I excessively sweat which results in places like the middle of my chest getting really infected.

17:03 I've done some more date and time standardising within this diary and I'm going to start September 2014 tomorrow.

Dec 13 2014

21:37 Just a note to say that last night after midnight whilst watching the TV in bed and playing Freecell on my GP2X and earlier today when playing GTA Online at my desk I experienced some sharp pains in my heart. Actually while I'm writing this now I just experienced something that I can best describe as a tightening. I'm getting pains in my heart a lot now but these pains are noteworthy.

My dad had a fall when getting dressed to go out today (my mother was out) and I popped into his bedroom to see if he was OK and he was fine but he couldn't get up so I grabbed his hand and pulled. I don't think he has a lot of power in his legs anymore so I hope he keeps a check on that when he's out.

I downloaded Ubuntu for my mother's laptop and installed it to a USB flash drive in preparation for installing it to a new hard disk and I played with it for a while and it looks really nice. Her computer is really fast with Linux and was unbearably slow with Windows 7 so the hard disk dying along with the Windows 7 image is the best thing that could've happened. She'll get years more life out of this once I've got it all up and running.

Dec 15 2014

13:59 Another interesting 3 quarters of an hour trip out yesterday Sunday Dec 14 2014.

I don't want to waste money on my Underground Oyster card if I can help it since it's getting close to Christmas now so about 14:00 (it's in the middle of the times I normally go out) I rode:

and deposited some paper and card in the recycle centre, then:

and then kept going along the road past Waitrose to White Hill and down to the front of Sainsbury's Chesham and locked my bike against the cycle rack outside. Inside I walked around grabbing quite a few items and walked down one isle somewhere around where the soups are and the route was blocked by two women I believe, the one on the left I couldn't tell you anything about but the one on the right was prominently standing in the middle of the isle facing towards the right rack and it was this woman that I reached and who caused me to have to stop. I didn't look at her directly except I think for the side of her head and face and I said "Excuse me" but there was no reaction at all of any kind even though I was right next to her. All I can say about her was that she was perhaps 5 and a half foot, white with short black hair and plumpish. Very shortly after she ignored me there was some space on the left opening up so I squeezed through. I thought that it was weird that she didn't respond to my request to move but I didn't spend any more time thinking about it and continued shopping.

The very last item Lip Salve I had to get assistance with locating because I often have trouble finding it so I asked a young man in the magazine isle if he knew where it was and I helped him by mentioning that the last one I bought was near the ladies lipstick and he knew then where to go so I followed him around the bottom of an isle near the tills and right there on the ground squatting looking at something on the bottom of the rack was a woman whom I immediately felt was the same woman that ignored me earlier. We were walking quite fast and this woman was hidden behind the end of the rack so she appeared in my view very suddenly and very briefly and I guess because of the speed of it all I didn't get a focused detailed picture in my mind but what I got was her facing in my direction squatting wearing black tights with a knee length taut skirt and there was a knee jutting out in my direction and I'm pretty sure that her knees were far apart. What interests me in particular is my immediate thought of "Is that the woman who ignored me earlier?". It's as though that initial interaction we had when she blocked the isle and ignored me has registered her as hostile/a possible threat within my subconcious, somebody that I will automatically be wary of. Maybe that was the purpose of that initial interaction.

I left Sainsbury's Chesham about 14:26 (receipt says 14:25) and walked and pushed my bicycle through the High Street, down Red Lion Street and then rode down Waterside and up Pheasant Rise and it was around 14:45 when I got in.

I recorded a squatting person outside Sainsbury's Chesham on Monday Jun 16 2014 and in-between that date and now I've only visited the store once on Tuesday Sep 30 2014. I haven't told my monitors/attackers that I've updated and uploaded this diary to my website but they know where to find it and they certainly will be visiting it to check. I think that it is very likely that at least the squatting woman was an agent/detective.

Very personal information originally recorded here has been moved to my Very Personal Diary.


Notes:

The following was written on Aug 14 2015:

Do I need to point out that this was another set-up? I'm going to index them at the top anyway and they do start to get quite obvious.


Dec 16 2014

19:55 I had a busy day today.

I got up about 10:30 and had a wash and washed my groin area so that I could wear clean underwear and I went downstairs and put my laundry in the washing machine. Between 11:00 and 12:00 the hard disk I ordered for my mother's laptop arrived so after breakfast I installed that, partitioned it and then installed Ubuntu. My parents went out today to the stroke club for some mulled wine and I shaved my face about 14:30, took a shower and was finished by 15:15.

Very personal information originally recorded here has been moved to my Very Personal Diary.

After my shower I went back downstairs, closed the living room to dining room door and continued in the dining room setting-up Ubuntu for my mother.

Personal information originally recorded here has been moved to my Personal Diary.

I then continued to set-up Ubuntu and sometime before 18:00 I sat her [my mother] down and showed her how the interface works. I then went out for my first of two cigarettes later than normal about 18:15, the second I had around 19:30.

To get Ubuntu to connect to the Internet I used my GP2X to hold the very long wireless password and read it off and typed it in and when I attempted to remove the password from the GP2X's SD card there was an input/output error and some of the folders were corrupted so I had to erase the SD card, reformat it to FAT16 and install my stuff back onto it which luckily I've backed up because I experienced this a couple of weeks ago when I retrieved it from a box that it'd been stored in for a long time. I think possibly the SD card is a bit dodgy so if happens again then I'll destroy it and use another one.

I played GTA Online in a public session for about half an hour at breakfast and I'm now going to play it in a solo session for a while.

Dec 17 2014

10:01 I've just this moment had a real pain in my heart, in my left side and left upper arm which lasted a few minutes.

10:53 I still have the remnants of that now.

16:35 I've just come up from spending the day downstairs setting-up my mother's new Ubuntu system. I made a loaf of bread and I got carried away playing mahjong solitair and overproved and it spread outwards instead of upwards but it tastes nice! My parents went out to a stroke club organised event at Chartridge golf club today and my dad is fine but he gets tired easily now.

Dec 22 2014

14:27 Doctor Offside -- a male doctor -- just left the house after visiting my dad in bed regarding his chest infection and is organising a prescription of antibiotics for him.

I was set-up again yesterday Sunday Dec 21 2014 and I'm going to document it now:

Sunday Dec 21 2014:
I went out with my bicycle at 13:00 and rode:

and checked my Oyster card balance in the Underground station. My dad gave me some money which he does occasionally and I was thinking about topping it up with five pounds but I decided against it as I don't want to waste money at Christmas, the weather was dull and windy and I only needed to get my last big grocery shop for the year so I headed along past Waitrose to White Hill and down to the front of Sainsbury's Chesham (I did mention on Monday Dec 15 2014 that I wasn't going to use the train until after Christmas). As I approached the High Street access I got off my bike near the windows covered in mirror film next to the cycle rack and a man walked past between me and the mirrored windows very closely and very fast with his head down so that I saw the hair on the top of his head but no face and I thought that something was really suspicious about that guy and I looked behind me to check him out (it was a natural reaction, it happened automatically in a fraction of a second) but he was so fast that he'd disappeared around the corner and I can't picture seeing any part of him at all. What I did initially see of him when I saw him zipping past was a blue top and short to medium length dark brown hair.

At this point I was standing between the cycle rack and the mirrored windows facing that way holding my bicycle with my head turned rightwards in the direction that the guy had fled i.e. looking across the face of the large mirrored window and what eventually came into view was the image of a young woman a similar height to myself (5 foot 10 inches) possibly wearing torquoise and pink top and trousers being reflected off of the mirrored window and I noticed that she was staring at me although I don't know if it was me or my reflection she was staring at. My eyes now take a little while to focus when switching between far and near images so what I got was a blurry image coming into focus and the sense that she was staring at me and when I got a clear enough image to verify that I turned my head to the left and continued towards the cycle rack where I parked and locked my bicycle. When I first rode into that small area I noticed that there was a group of people on the left against the side of the video shop but I didn't look at them directly as I was concentrating on the route ahead that I was coasting into with both of my feet on the left peddle. When I saw the reflection of the young woman I saw nothing to her right or left so she was leftwards from her group on her own.

At the time I felt that both the suspicious guy and the staring young woman were strange but I get all sorts of things happening to me so I just carried on and didn't think about it anymore. Inside the store it was quite busy for a Sunday and I got together a dozen items and made my way towards the checkouts and there were two empty staffed checkouts which I thought was interesting and due to the fact that I had quite a basketful of items I approached the empty checkout directly ahead of me (I normally use self-service). The checkout was staffed by an older very large woman who was talking to a younger female member of staff who was holding a basket and I heard the younger woman say "tsh tsh" before walking off. I emptied out the contents of my basket onto the conveyor belt and I could feel the checkout lady staring at me so once I'd finished emptying my basket I looked up at her and saw that she was staring at me in the face and eyes. I did feel like something had been said about me and I could sense it in her face but this happens a lot elsewhere so it's nothing new. When I was walking around the store I did hear over the tannoy that the manager was being called to the manager's desk which may or may not be important. I left the store (receipt says 13:23) and went outside to my bicycle and loaded up my rucksack and still had a few items left so I tied the Sainsbury's bag to my right handlebar and walked and pushed my bike:

and through the houses behind us and I got in around 13:45 or 13:50. Initially I thought that my trip had been OK but by 21:00 I'd realised what had happened outside and then I thought about it a great deal for the remainder of the evening and this is what I've deduced: the suspicious man zipping past me manipulated me by grabbing my attention so that I'd be left looking across the face of the large mirrored window whereby a young woman would be waiting over by the video shop wall to manoeuvre herself into a suitable position to reflect an image of herself staring at me which again I would be drawn to and then my monitors/attackers said something about me to the store manager which reached the checkout staff and which I sensed. Actually something similar to this I've detected before but it wasn't successful because I realised that my gaze was being manipulated -- this was the Kenton trip on Sunday Oct 19 2014 which I recorded on Wednesday Oct 29 2014. The timing of it is pretty interesting too being the last Sunday before Christmas and...

Very personal information originally recorded here has been moved to my Very Personal Diary.

It's now 17:40 and I'm going to take a break and I'll resume afterwards.

18:01 Something else that happened at 01:57 Sunday Dec 21 2014 morning (my clock is fast so it was probably 01:49) was that a helicopter that sounded like a police helicopter came through the valley although it was distant. I have noticed that since I've uploaded this up-to-date diary to my website on Thursday Dec 4 2014 which Thames Valley Police know the URL of is that I haven't seen police vehicles when out or had police helicopter blades fwapping over my house. I don't know the reason why they've disappeared but I've thought that maybe the extent to which I've documented everything has dissuaded them from being so visually and obviously involved -- who knows.

This caused the eczema on my chin to become inflamed and I've put Savlon on it today to try and keep it down. Also my heart was hurting quite a bit last night. I weighed myself in the bathroom this morning and I now weigh 9 stone 6 pounds when in my late teens I remember weighing 9 stone 8 pounds. I've got a nice flat stomach though!

I think I've recorded everything for this event and I'm uploading now.

Dec 24 2014

22:37 I went out today at 12:00 because I wanted to get some more tobacco and it looked nice out and I wanted to go out. I rode:

and pushed my bicycle through the High Street and it was busy with a market on. I locked my bicycle outside Sainsbury's Chesham and went inside and the security guard was busy with some kids in the foyer in plastic toy cars perhaps and there were a lot of people in there as you would expect. The first thing I bought was tobacco (receipt says 12:18) and then went off and got two bags of jelly babies (one for my dad) and a bag of tortilla chips and then joined the long queue at the self-service checkouts. Whilst standing there I looked around and I looked left at the crowd pouring in (it would've been nice to have seen someone I know to have had a chat with) and a little girl taking and inspecting something in a sizeable box off of the shelf caught my attention. If this had been anywhere other than Sainsbury's Chesham I wouldn't have thought anything of it but now I know from the event on Sunday Dec 21 2014 that all my attackers require to say something about me is for me to look at someone which they're more than happy to engineer. That event was the key to unlocking all of the other events so today I went out and I couldn't care less who's real and who isn't. I had a rare normal day and I enjoyed it.

I left Sainsbury's Chesham (receipt says 12:24) and rode through the car park and it was slow going all the way out to the road so when I reached it I went through Star Yard car park hoping to cut through the gates of the building near the George and Dragon pub but the gates were shut so I went out into the High Street and pushed my bike down to the traffic lights and rode:

and got home at 12:45. I rode up Pheasant Rise which I enjoyed and I was hot went I got in and I was only wearing a T-shirt with a thin fleece, a very warm day. The last couple of days I didn't have much of an appetite but today I boiled eight sprouts and placed a lump of butter on the top, then sprinkled with crushed tortilla chips and thin slices of mature cheddar which I grilled and it was awesome! I've not made that before and it was just something that I put together and it worked.

OK, crap stuff out of the way, I'm now going to play a little more GTA V Online and then look forward to enjoying Christmas Day.

23:40 PSN is undergoing maintenance, on Christmas Eve! I hope it's OK for tomorrow.


Notes:

The following was written on Aug 14 2015:

I expect this was a set-up because following the little girl taking and inspecting something in a sizeable box off of the shelf caught my attention I looked at the security guards at the security desk and they were both looking at me. It felt as though it was meant to happen.


Dec 25 2014

19:26 I woke up this morning about 07:22 because my mother was up early doing things.

Very personal information originally recorded here has been moved to my Very Personal Diary.

I had a shower today maybe around 13:00, I can't remember exactly.

Personal information originally recorded here has been moved to my Personal Diary.

Robin bought my mother an Apple iPad mini on behalf of Ann I think which is an amazing gift so she was pleased with that and we're going to get it running tomorrow together in the dining room. I don't know what she's going to do with it but she's interested in its picture taking capability and she might like to read books or surf the Internet in bed.

I've been playing GTA V Online and watching the Big Bang Theory on TV. Actually this morning between 00:35 and 01:50 I watched Swingin' Christmas presented by Michael Parkinson with the "John Wilson Orchestra in a celebration of festive musical treats from the golden age of swing" which I thoroughly enjoyed and it could well be the best thing I've seen on TV for a long time.

20:37

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20:57 PSN (PlayStation Network) is down again! Apparently Xbox Live is down as well so no GTA V Online at the moment. I think they're under attack by a hacking group.

Dec 26 2014

21:32 The file on one of my SD cards that contains the router details was corrupted (I now know that it's my SD card reader/writer that's responsible) so I had to factory-reset the router and I couldn't get it to authenticate with my ISP so I rang them and found that I needed values for VPI and VCI and it connected. Then I had to set-up the network and the WiFi and passwords and lock down the MAC adresses and I've probably spent five hours doing that and helping my mother with her new iPad mini.

Personal information originally recorded here has been moved to my Personal Diary.

Dec 27 2014

17:52 I managed to retrieve the contents of my dodgy SD card using TestDisk on my mother's Ubuntu laptop because it has a working SD card reader/writer which I'm very happy about.

I'm not planning on going out this weekend because I have everything I need but I do need to purchase several items on eBay:

I think that's about it for the moment.

Dec 29 2014

12:03 It's a lovely day today, frosty to start with but now plenty of sunshine. My dad is in bed as usual with a slight cough but my mother is quite ill from something and didn't go out yesterday and isn't going out today either. My dad doesn't eat much anymore and there's lots of food in the fridge so I've been consuming it because otherwise it'll get wasted.

Very personal information originally recorded here has been moved to my Very Personal Diary.

17:26 Earlier today possibly after 14:00 I was in the kitchen getting some lunch and my dad came out with my mother behind him and he stopped by the door and came over faint, his eyes rolled in his head and he dropped backwards and we both lowered him to the floor and he came round and we sat him in a dining room chair.

Personal information originally recorded here has been moved to my Personal Diary.

Dec 30 2014

13:50 Today I washed my whites around 11:00 and played GTA V Online public session over breakfast until midday, then went downstairs to see how easy it would be to connect to another WiFi network on my mother's Ubuntu laptop (I thought it might require administrator priviledges but it didn't) for when she takes it up to the care home and I successfully, very briefly and legally connected to a local BTWiFi hotspot so she'll be fine. I then initiated the backup of her pictures and videos to the USB flash drives that I bought for her and took a shower around 13:00 and got out around 13:35.

Very personal information originally recorded here has been moved to my Very Personal Diary.

I've got some vegetables boiling for my lunch now and I need to make some bread too although I might leave that until tomorrow.

2015

January

Jan 1 2015

21:30

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Jan 5 2015

11:00

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14:15 Doctor Cooper (male) has just arrived to see my dad. My mother opened the door as she hasn't ventured out yet today. I can hear the doctor saying that my dad needs an antibiotic that you breath in through a "puffer" device. He just left at 14:24.

Jan 6 2015

13:41 I took a shower today at 13:00 and finished in the bathroom by 13:40.

Very personal information originally recorded here has been moved to my Very Personal Diary.

I finished playing Far Cry 2 last night. I guess somewhere around the middle of the game it became repetitive but it definitely improved towards the end and I wasn't expecting the story to develop in the way that it did.

22:19 I've just finished playing "Resistance: Fall of Man" which I've been working my way through for a while now. It's an on-rails alien shooter which wasn't that spectacular initially but it definitely got amazing after I'd completed half of the campaign.

Jan 7 2015

12:22 Ordered on eBay:

18:39 I've just finished playing Star Fox Adventures on the GameCube, another impressive game from legendary British developer Rare released 2002. I'm doing quite well at finishing things at the moment.

Jan 12 2015

18:23 A few things require recording from the last few days:

Friday Jan 9 2015:
My deodorant has been running out and in the morning I realised I could do with a change of vest so I put clean vest and pants on. Yeah, sounds funny to have to record this but recording having a strip wash turned out to be worthwhile.

My mother's friend Helen visited for lunch/dinner although I didn't get to see her.

Saturday Jan 10 2015:
I went on my bicycle to Sainsbury's Chesham around 15:30. I rode:

and deposited some waste paper in the recycling centre. Then rode:

and walked across the crossing outside the Red Lion pub and up the High Street which was quite busy. I locked my bicycle to the rack outside Sainsbury's Chesham and asked the security guard inside where the battery recycling tube was and he told me and I deposited four used AAs inside. Sainsbury's Chesham was quite busy as well and I bought nuts and raisins, jelly babies for me and my dad, oranges, deodorant, Savlon, Ibuprofen and onions (receipt says 15:44). I then bought some tobacco (receipt says 15:46) and I can't remember if I walked back down the High Street or rode down East Street but I rode:

and rode all the way to get some much needed exercise. I didn't experience anything odd about the trip which was very refreshing and it made me feel really good but later in the evening or possibly by the next day I started to feel uneasy that there was something but I missed it. I guess after all this time you get used to going out and experiencing something so it's only normal to feel this way.

Sunday Jan 11 2015:
Personal information originally recorded here has been moved to my Personal Diary.

Today the USB hub arrived for my mother's laptop which is really small and neat and early afternoon the DVD player for my dad arrived and I also took a delivery for Chloe Saunders (Lee-Ann's daughter I guess at number 2) which Lee-Ann collected late afternoon (my mother saw her as I was upstairs with my dad). I demonstrated the DVD player's SD card reader feature with the SD card from my dad's camera and left him watching his favourite film Willow. He's really happy with the device and I am too.

I made some bread but forgot about it because of all the things I've been doing and it overproved but I knocked it back and reformed it and it turned out great in the end.

My last upload of this diary to my website was Dec 27 2014 so I'm going to do it again now.

Jan 15 2015

11:41 Doctor Barnett (female and our family doctor) visited my dad yesterday Wednesday Jan 14 2015 at 13:16 and my mother was here so she let her in. She examined him and found that he's developed a heart murmur and has fluid or water in his lungs so he's got to have an echocardiogram and he has to give a sample of the fluid. My mother's getting him to go downstairs again now for breakfast and dinner possibly because he has been advised to exercise.

Sunday Jan 11 2015 I ordered through eBay eight 2900mAh rechargeable batteries for my dad and three more SD card readers and they arrived yesterday Wednesday Jan 14 2015 and I noticed that each SD card reader was in its own sealed card envelope (they were all wrapped together in a very oversized grey plastic bag) and each envelope had a little 3mm hole in the back which I found interesting. Also the batteries were wrapped in black plastic and the side of that was cut or sliced a few times and on Sunday Jan 11 2015 when I opened the DVD player box I found that the ends of the polystyrene packaging were broken off which you might expect from somebody having already carelessly unpacked it. Maybe this is a result of having my mail inspected which is more likely than not. My attackers have everything else I do under absolute surveillance so why would they not be monitoring what I receive through the post?

"Sensitising" -- something I was thinking about recently and I wanted get it written down.

12:37 I've got some bread proving and I'm just about to go down and bake it.

13:07 I'm blowing my own trumpet but this loaf is going to get a distinction!

14:14 I've just finished applying Savlon after my shower (my chest is a bit raw today) so I probably went in there around 13:45.

Very personal information originally recorded here has been moved to my Very Personal Diary.

I've yet to play a computer/video game today but I'm now going to play a little "Operation Flashpoint: Dragon Rising" which I'm enjoying and which I've nearly completed. There's snooker on the TV this week too so I've got that on in the background with the volume muted and Ronnie is playing Marco Fu and I'm not expecting him to lose.

Jan 16 2015

23:46 I just want to record that the flashing lights of an emergency vehicle could be seen through the thin strip of blind behind my monitor yesterday Thursday Jan 15 2015 evening but I can't remember the time. There was no noise at all so it wasn't moving at speed. I experienced the same thing a while back so I'm recording it to spot patterns.

Personal information originally recorded here has been moved to my Personal Diary.

Jan 17 2015

11:16 I've removed the games from my mother's iPad: it's done through Settings->General->Restrictions which must be enabled and then you push and hold the icons on the desktop and press the little "x". I had to find this on the Internet -- I looked briefly in Settings myself but I didn't see General->Restrictions.

There were big snowflakes coming down at breakfast time (10:30) but the sun came out a few minutes ago so I think it's just going to be a cold and wet day.

I'm now back to completing "Elder Scrolls IV: Oblivion" which is massive and which I've already spent 130 hours playing!

Jan 21 2015

14:13 I got out of the shower about 14:05 and I've been downstairs to prove my loaf and now I'm back up here in my room recording a few things that have happened recently.

I think I got in the shower about 13:30 after shaving my face and my body as the eczema in my chest and groin was very bad and there was lots of flaky skin so that's when you need to get the hair off. After my shower I put a lot of Savlon on my skin and I'll have to do it again for a few days to get rid of the worst of it.

Very personal information originally recorded here has been moved to my Very Personal Diary.

I ordered a few PS3 games through eBay over the weekend and two packages arrived today sealed in a clear plastic bag from Royal Mail explaining that they had been damaged although the damage amounted to a soiling from an oil or silicon product and it hadn't reached through the bubble wrap so the contents were fine. It did though make one end of one package transparent but the other package wasn't so affected although it had a small triangle of paper missing from the outside that was cleanly cut out exposing the bubble wrap. The soiling looked oily but I couldn't detect that so maybe some silicon was used somewhere within the machinery and it was spilt onto the packages -- who knows. It was odourless too.

Whilst writing this at 14:25 my dad was downstairs making a Pot Noodle and he called out for me and I went down and he felt faint so I placed a chair behind him and lowered him onto it. I then went upstairs to his bedroom and brought down the walking frame so that he could reach the stairlift safely and took his Pot Noodle and walking frame upstairs to enable him to safely reach his bedroom from the landing. My mother has been organising somebody to add some handrails outside in the back garden with the intention of getting him out of the house but I don't think he's going to be doing much of that anymore. She said that the last time he went out the front she had to push him up the steps and it was dangerous and she doesn't want to do that again.

My dad wants a tablet computer now for taking pictures and showing his friends so I've been researching that. I found that the Tesco Hudl2 tablet met his requirements and is reasonably priced and has great reviews so I've been attempting to order that today and it couldn't have gone worse! The Tesco Direct website forces you to create a login and to sign-up to a Clubcard but my mother didn't want that so she went out and left it in my capable hands and so I attempted to order it over the phone but they needed my mother present and so I left it. She returned home about 14:50 and I rang them again but her Mastercard wouldn't authorise so we decided to do it through the website and to create a login and accept signing-up to a Clubcard but I couldn't complete the transaction because the Mastercard wouldn't authorise so she rang her card issuer and they said that they were doing a security check (for £132!) and my mother was really annoyed because it could've happened in a store. After the lengthy call and the security check cleared I returned to the Tesco Direct checkout webpage to press "Pay" but there was an internal page error presumably because there was a timeout on the page so I went through the process again but it's telling me that I've already used the email address that I registered with them and therefore I'm a returning customer and not a new one but it doesn't recognise the password so I'm guessing that the information has been processed incompletely and I'm currently stuck somewhere in-between.

16:51 I chopped up some potatoes and made chips in the oven with a couple of sausages and had it with sweetcorn and it was lovely. I've just attempted to login to the Tesco Direct website again and it was successful and I managed to complete a transaction for a Hudl2 tablet so everyone is happy.

Saturday Jan 17 2015:
I went to Sainsbury's Chesham not long before 15:00. I rode:

and walked across the crossing outside the Red Lion pub and up the High Street which was very busy with a market. I locked my bicycle to the rack outside Sainsbury's Chesham and bought a dozen items (receipt says 15:12) and then walked back down the High Street and rode:

and rode all the way to get some much needed exercise. I didn't experience anything odd about the trip which is fantastic and which now marks the second such consecutive uneventful experience.

Other things that I've done is played through Harry Potter and the Philosopher's Stone on my GameCube which I loved as much as the Chamber of Secrets. Yes, it's well below the 18 rating of the majority of the games I usually play but it's so refreshing to play something so nice and pleasant. I've still got The Prisoner of Azkaban and The Goblet of Fire to enjoy in the future but I definitely won't be involving myself in the darkness of the Deathly Hallows.

My last upload of this diary to my website was Jan 12 2015 so I'm going to do it again now.

Jan 22 2015

11:50 A doctor is coming to visit my dad today because he's experiencing dizzy spells when he stands and my mother said he's already had a couple of those today when she got him downstairs for breakfast and a walk around.

21:57 I should mention that this morning in the bathroom I applied Savlon to my chest and groin area which I mentioned yesterday because my eczema is bad. I know it appears to have gone quiet but I should still assume that everything I do is being monitored so I should record this.

Doctor Shots visited my dad around 13:30 for possibly 15 minutes. I didn't see her as my mother was here and she let her in. She's organised somebody to pickup my dad Monday I think to take him somewhere for a thorough examination. She did say that he'll fade away if he's not careful because of his lack of appetite and his weight loss.

I had a package containing two PS3 games arrive today and it was undamaged. I'll record items I receive in the post from now on and what condition they arrive in.

I just want to note that it's been extrememly quiet here for a long time and even more so now.

23:57 Before the day ends I want to say that I've got an appetite again! Last week I started eating fried egg and onion or poached egg on toast for breakfast instead of just toast and I'm now eating a proper lunch such as potato wedges, sausages and mushy peas or something with rice and it's been a while since I was eating this much. I did weight myself a few days back and I weighed 9 stone 9 pounds which is up from the 9 stone 6 pounds that I recorded on Dec 22 2014.

Jan 28 2015

14:01 I've got several things that require recording from the last few days:

Friday Jan 23 2015:
Applied Savlon to my chest and groin in the bathroom in the morning. Received a Hudl2 tablet and case in the post which I ordered for my dad and there was nothing wrong with the packaging of either. Amazingly this tablet seems to have brought my dad back to life possibly because it's given him something new and interesting to do -- we all need something to get up for in the morning whatever it is.

Saturday Jan 24 2015:
My dad wanted to go out to get his hair cut! I can't remember the last time he went out even voluntarily and personally I didn't think he was going to get out of bed again but my mother thought it was best to leave it until after his forthcoming Monday comprehensive examination.

Sunday Jan 25 2015:
I went to Watford on the train with my bicycle around 13:30. I remembered something about my exit from my back garden yesterday Tuesday Jan 27 2015 and it almost passed me by which was a guy talking loudly into a phone about something unimportant pacing around and around near the steps a few houses along and there was also somebody else further along the path but I didn't think that they were connected at the time. I did look at the guy as I was locking the back gate but I didn't see him look at me and I didn't think any more about it when I was out. I rode:

and walked across the crossing outside the Red Lion pub and continued riding:

and I caught the 13:57 (or thereabouts) train to Moor Park and on to Watford where I took the usual route of Cassiobury Park Avenue into the High Street where I locked my bicycle against the rack opposite Burger King. The first shop I visited was Poundland where I bought jelly sweets (receipt says 14:55), the second shop was The 99p Store where I bought chocolate (receipt says 15:02) and within both shops I searched for screen cleaner for my dad but I was unsuccessful. I then walked to Argos and looked at the price of a 16GB micro SD card which my dad's new Hudl tablet accepts and I think it was £7.99 but I was only window shopping. I returned to my bicycle and then rode up to Sainsbury's Watford and bought tropical granola, sausages, mushy peas, sweetcorn and nuts and raisins (receipt says 15:27) and I noticed that the security guard was standing a few metres inside the store from the exit looking in my direction as I walked behind him to the cigarette counter where I was served by a Pakistani looking tall young chap and I asked him for Cutter's Choice tobacco but I couldn't remember the weight so I preemptively mentioned that "It's normally about £6" and then he asked me what weight I wanted and I said that "I can't remember but it's normally about £6" and he laughed/chuckled possibly because he then realised that I'd twice given him a clue but when I handed over the money (receipt says 15:31) and I enquired what the weight actually was (it was 20g) he laughed/chuckled again and he wasn't looking at me but around me as though somebody was doing something behind my back but he didn't want to give it away by looking at them directly and he didn't feel comfortable looking at me either. I did at the time feel like looking behind me but I didn't so I'm going to go with my instinct and say that it's likely that the security guard (Pakistani or Indian looking possibly) was doing something that was making the shop assistant laugh but I can't be certain of that.

I returned via the way I'd came and reached Chesham about 16:15 and rode:

and it was probably about 16:30 when I got home.

Monday Jan 26 2015:
A vehicle arrived to take my dad to a hospital for an examination and he's going back to have something (magnesium?) fed into his bloodstream via a drip.

Tuesday Jan 27 2015:
I had a shower around 13:30 and my skin is in the best condition that it has been for a long while.

Very personal information originally recorded here has been moved to my Very Personal Diary.

My mother took my dad out in a wheelchair to get his hair cut and then to the Misty Moon pub.

Today I applied Savlon to my chest and groin in the bathroom in the morning. A small packet containing tablet stylii arrived in the post and the packaging was undamaged.

February

Feb 6 2015

21:23 I've got several things that require recording from the last few days:

Friday Jan 30 2015:
A Hudl2 tablet protective bag for my dad arrived in the post undamaged.

Personal information originally recorded here has been moved to my Personal Diary.

Saturday Jan 31 2015:
Very personal information originally recorded here has been moved to my Very Personal Diary.

Sunday Feb 1 2015:
I went with my bicycle down to Sainsbury's Chesham although I was going to go further afield but a very icy wind dissuaded me from being more adventurous. I rode:

and walked across the crossing outside the Red Lion pub and up the High Street which was quiet. I locked my bicycle to the rack outside Sainsbury's Chesham and bought eight items (receipt says 14:03) and some tobacco (receipt says 14:04) and then walked all the way home via:

and as I turned the corner at the back of my house a woman walked along from the Pheasant Rise end with two big dogs and I moved aside for her and she thanked me.

I didn't detect anything odd about this trip.

Tuesday Feb 3 2015:
I had a shower about 13:30.

Very personal information originally recorded here has been moved to my Very Personal Diary.

Wednesday Feb 4 2015:
Very personal information originally recorded here has been moved to my Very Personal Diary.

I applied clotrimazole cream to my groin area in the bathroom in the morning because my skin in that entire region is inflamed and burning hot.

Thursday Feb 5 2015:
I applied clotrimazole cream to my groin area in the bathroom in the morning.

My mother's friend Ann who's been living up at the care home along Lye Green Road passed away on this day.

Today I applied clotrimazole cream to my chest and groin area in the bathroom in the morning and the inflamation is noticeably better. I also had a complete change of underwear.

I think I've recorded everything. Hang on, I finished playing "James Bond 007 Nightfire" on the GameCube and I enjoyed it. I'm now halfway through PS3 "Elder Scrolls IV: Oblivion" main quest having completed most of the side quests (massive game!) and I've started "Tom Clancy's Splinter Cell" on the GameCube which I play for a little while when I get into bed in preference to watching repeats of The Big Bang Theory on E4 which I've seen dozens of times each.

Feb 18 2015

15:09 I've got several things that require recording from the last couple of weeks:

Saturday Feb 7 2015:
Very personal information originally recorded here has been moved to my Very Personal Diary.

Sunday Feb 8 2015:
Very personal information originally recorded here has been moved to my Very Personal Diary.

It was a lovely sunny day so around 13:45 I rode my bicycle:

and through Latimer and right at the end of the road where it goes up to Flaunden I heard a very quiet vehicle (dark blue people carrier) pull in behind me onto the gravel so I looked behind me to see if it was coming up but it had stopped. I continued a short distance up the hill and two vehicles went past neither of which was the quiet vehicle. It did feel a little odd at the time and odder the more I thought about it because it felt like I'd been very quietly tailed which had resulted in a couple of other cars to bunch up behind it although it was just a feeling.

I rode through Flaunden past a few old motorcycles parked outside the Green Dragon (I saw a Triumph) and then through Sarrat (I saw people on horses and sitting outside the pub) and down into Croxley Green and then up the main road to Watford where a police car passed me which is the first police vehicle I've seen for a very long time (Sunday Nov 9 2014 in Watford). In Watford I bought several items in Sainsbury's Watford (receipt says 15:07) and then bought some chocolates in Poundworld (receipt says 15:24) and I'd had enough by then because my body wasn't used to the ride over there so I took the Watford train to Moor Park and boarded the Amersham train and along the journey I repeatedly heard a whistled tune comprising of six notes but I couldn't detect the direction it was coming from. I was standing holding my bicycle against the pole and facing the doors and up the train and the only person there was an Indian looking guy sitting facing me in the next carriage and I did look at him a few times thinking that maybe he's got a mobile phone with a funny ring tone but I only saw him fiddling with something once so I have no idea what it was. I did realise at the time that the tune was making me look around so that's worth noting and something to be aware of.

I left the train at Chalfont and Latimer and waited for the Chesham train and I was getting cold by then. When the train arrived an Indian looking guy exited and said something like "Where's the Underground?" which initially confused me somewhat since we were on the Underground but his hand movement gave me another clue and whilst my brain was ticking over coming up with a solution he said "Carry on" probably because he didn't want me to miss the train and then he said something about "under" and then I realised that he meant the stairway/subway to reach the other platform and I said "Oh, it's up there on the right" before boarding the train. That made me smile on the way back and it's making me chuckle now.

I'm pretty certain I rode back:

At 17:52 whilst at my desk I saw the flashing lights of an emergency vehicle through my blind and the last time I experienced that was the evening of Thursday Jan 15 2015.

I had a wonderful time on my bicycle and it made me feel absolutely fantastic. I remember riding towards Sarrat down a country lane and thinking how amazing it was making me feel.

Tuesday Feb 10 2015:
I had a shower about 14:00 or maybe a little later such as 14:15 because it was 15:00 when I'd finally finished.

Very personal information originally recorded here has been moved to my Very Personal Diary.

Wednesday Feb 11 2015:
Very personal information originally recorded here has been moved to my Very Personal Diary.

Friday Feb 13 2015:
About 08:24 I heard my dad go into my mother's room to tell her that the window cleaner was here so I got up to close my windows which I've had open a little recently because the weather's been warming up and also because I put my PS3 on the floor beneath the window to help cool it as the fan was labouring. I heard her go downstairs and tell the window cleaner not to bother cleaning the rear windows because the patio was covered in pots of bulbs but I also think that she's annoyed that they're getting earlier and earlier to the point of being too early. They used to visit midday to early afternoon so I don't know why they're coming so early now.

I washed my groin area with coal tar soap and antibacterial soap in the bathroom in the morning before putting on clean underwear to assist with my eczema skin irritation isues.

Saturday Feb 14 2015:
My cousins Bridget and Emma visited today along with Bridget's boyfriend Martin. They and my parents left to visit the Pheasant pub and then to get fish and chips which isn't my scene so I stayed at home but they actually went to the Half Moon pub in Hawridge Common and had a meal there. Whilst they were out Jackie Gettings knocked on my door requesting assistance with her laptop as her granddaughter Amy had installed Avast antivirus software which had blocked a program managing events and caused the touchpad to stop functioning so I showed her how to navigate through open applications and how to navigate through controls using only the keyboard and I fixed it but I got the impression that she didn't know what I was doing and wasn't going to remember what I was teaching her. Later my family returned and we had a glass of wine in the front room and chatted and then they headed back to Brighton.

Sunday Feb 15 2015:
Again it was a lovely sunny day so around 13:30 I rode my bicycle:

and then onto Watford along the main roads. The first place I visited was Poundworld to get some Savlon and chocolates (receipt says 14:45) and the queue was quite long and the isle points towards one till although there's another one next to it that wasn't being used so a big stocky confident guy appeared and squeezed past me (either he touched me and said "Sorry" or he said "Excuse me") and stood next to the till and directed the people in front of me to the other till and later the people behind me too. I did notice that the staff members behind the tills were wearing branded polo shirts possibly blue but his was dark grey and without a logo. After that I popped into Argos with the intention of buying a new PS3 controller as mine has developed a little play in the right analogue stick but they were out of stock so I rode down to Argos Waterfields to check their stock and they were out too. I did find a feature on the computer there to check the stock availability of other branches and the only place that had one was Hemel Hempstead so it's likely that I'll have to order it online. I then visited Tesco's Waterfields and bought several items (receipt says 15:18) and then rode back to Watford Underground and caught the train to Moor Park and took the Amersham train to Amersham. At Amersham I rode through to Chesham Bois and down Hodd's Wood Road and up Pheasant Rise and again I thoroughly enjoyed it and it made me feel fantastic and I really pushed hard in places to help me get fitter for the Spring and Summer. At Chenies there was a large group of OAPs out for a walk I presume and a group of cyclists passed me along the road to Chorleywood so lots of other people were making the most of the good weather just as much as myself.


Notes:

The following was written on Aug 14 2015:

Was the guy in Poundworld a member of the security staff and was he isolating me at the till?


Monday Feb 16 2015:
My mother's friend Helen visited for lunch and I was going to install Frozen Bubble on her laptop but there isn't a Windows version so I couldn't do that for her which was a shame because she likes playing it on my mother's Ubuntu Linux laptop and she doesn't even have Internet access at home because I think it's not available in her group of houses in the town.

I lubricated the hinges on my main window because one of them at least is creaking terribly and I noticed that there's a lot of mold around the frames so cleaning them is on my list of things to do.

Tuesday Feb 17 2015:
I had a shower about 14:15.

Very personal information originally recorded here has been moved to my Very Personal Diary.

Feb 23 2015

11:48 I need to order some things for my dad and keep track of them so I'll record them here. Ordered:

March

Mar 6 2015

Very personal information originally recorded here has been moved to my Very Personal Diary.

Friday Feb 20 2015:
I washed my groin area with coal tar soap and antibacterial soap in the bathroom in the morning before putting on clean underwear to help prevent eczema skin irritation isues.

Sunday Feb 22 2015:
This was another interesting and rather disturbing day I think. I mentioned recently that I require a new PS3 controller and I found a feature on the Argos website that enabled me to check stock availability within branches around a postcode so I put together a list which I still have in my pocket of the branches that were showing availability on this day:

And yes, Watford and Hemel Hempstead were out of stock and I'm guessing that they only get one PS3 controller in at a time, therefore Swiss Cottage was the destination or rather Finchley Road followed by a short walk or ride to the Argos store. So possibly around 12:50 I rode:

and when I reached the bottom I looked left and right before riding out onto Waterside and whilst looking right a girl on a bicycle appeared out of nowhere (there was nobody else around) zipping out from Lords Mill on the path staring intensely at me which I saw because that's where I was looking and then I rode out and looked at my right handlebar grip until I was past her. I didn't feel comfortable at the time that this was simply a random event and I don't now because it has all the ingredients of a staged event to force somebody into my view. I then rode:

and walked across the crossing outside the Red Lion pub and up the High Street to the Nationwide cashpoint to draw out £50. At the Underground station I added £5 to my Oyster card so that the balance was £10.10 because the last time I went to Finchley Road it was £2.60 one way. The train arrived as I entered the station so I walked up the platform with my bicycle on my left and a middle aged couple walked towards me and past me on my left very closely and it felt as though the person closest to me (a woman I think) was looking at me so that her head stayed facing mine as they walked past and something was being said but I didn't hear any of it. On the train somebody had left a couple of sections from the Telegraph broadsheet so I spent the journey sitting down with my bicycle resting against my legs reading these sections oblivious to whatever else was going on.

At Finchley Road I exited through the wide gate and swiped my Oyster card and it beeped acceptingly and I saw £2.80 appear on the display so at that point I was happy that the entry at Chesham and the exit at Finchley Road had been properly recorded. I then walked down to Argos at Swiss Cottage and bought a PS3 controller (receipt says 14:29) which took some time as there were staff shortages mentioned by a shop assistant to a complaining customer about the length of the queues. I walked back up to Finchley Road and the sign read Chesham in 9 minutes so I swiped through the wide gate, caught the Chesham train, initially stood up with my bike resting against a pole but eventually sat down and read the Evening Standard that somebody had left which lasted me until we reached Chesham. At Chesham I swiped out and alarmingly saw minus 30p appear on the display so I checked my journey history on the ticket machine and found that neither of my journeys had been recorded correctly and I'd been charged the full amount both ways which effectively wiped my credit! At the time I didn't want to get involved writing it down because it was a horrible windy, freezing cold and damp day and I only ventured out to get the PS3 controller, I wouldn't have gone out otherwise but I did record the journey history on Saturday Feb 28 2015 which is here:

As you can see I topped up at 13:11, I exited Finchley Road at 14:16 but the charge is zero when I saw £2.80 on the display so these things don't add up. I entered Finchley Road at 14:45 and was charged the full amount because it says that I didn't touch out at Finchley Road and then my return trip was messed up as well so that I got charged the full amount again. I'm very familiar with using the Oyster card and getting a beep and seeing the charge on the display so I'm not happy with this at all, this looks very strange.

I didn't ride home because it was or had been raining so I walked:

As always after a few days to think about my trip the events on this day made me feel uncomfortable. Based on previous experiences it feels as though the sudden appearance/insertion of the intensely staring girl on the bicycle into my view was staged and then something was said about me to the Underground personnel who fiddled with the transactions on my Oyster card possibly with the intent to dissuade me from using it again. If that is the case then I think it's rather disturbing.

Monday Feb 23 2015:
I washed the windows in my room because the frames especially were very moldy and I lubricated the hinges again.

Tuesday Feb 24 2015:
I had a shower in the early afternoon.

Very personal information originally recorded here has been moved to my Very Personal Diary.

Wednesday Feb 25 2015:
The rechargeable batteries and the 4GB SD card that I ordered a few days ago for my dad arrived today undamaged.

Thursday Feb 26 2015:
Around 13:45 there was a knock on the door and I could see through the security hole that it was a postwoman whom I have experienced before and so has my mother. I said "Hello" in a jolly way and she didn't say anything and hid under her baseball cap and so I said "Hello" again and there was no response, she simply gave me my package (a cheap third party PS3 controller that I bought through eBay to try but it's not an official replacement by any means) and I said "Thanks" and she stayed hidden under her cap. I watched her as she departed up the steps and I was quite amazed or shocked at her odd behaviour and I saw the tiniest of sideways looks as she went left on the path. I told my mother about this later in the early evening and she said that she'd experienced the same odd behaviour with her and she'd mentioned it to other post people and they said that that's how she is and that they have worse people working for them. My mother said that maybe she's a "special person" i.e. she has illnesses or birth defects so just accept that that's how she's going to behave.

I'm pretty sure that my dad's 32GB micro SD card arrived today but it could've been the following day. Both the third party PS3 controller and the 32GB micro SD card packages and items arrived undamaged.

Friday Feb 27 2015:
I washed my groin area with coal tar soap and antibacterial soap in the bathroom in the morning before putting on clean underwear to help prevent eczema skin irritation isues.

Saturday Feb 28 2015:
I took the usual route to Chesham Underground station but I wasn't intending on using it because I wanted to get the Finchley Road journey incomplete transactions fixed and my Oyster card credit adjusted first so I wrote down the recent journey history:

Even though the office was closed I saw two male staff members standing around a monitor so I asked one of them about how I go about getting my Oyster card adjusted and he told me very politely to return when the office is open or find an open office elsewhere and they'll look at it. I mentioned that he was polite because it's the usual guy who in the past I got used to him barking at me everytime I asked him something so I was quite surprised to experience him being polite. There was another guy in there though and he didn't move, he kept staring into his monitor with his back facing me so maybe he was being on his best behaviour because there was somebody else there.

I then went back down Station Road and walked up to Sainsbury's Chesham and bought a dozen items (receipt says 14:29) and then walked home the usual route because of the shopping I had hanging on my handlebars and up Trapps Lane and through Five Acres and I can't remember seeing a single person using the paths along the entire journey home! The weather wasn't anything special but the town was busy with the market and it's a Saturday so it does feel very odd.

The trip was definitely a bit strange but I've experienced a lot worse. Something else happened and it could be nothing but it may help to make sense of the rest of the trip so I should record it: on my way up the town near the Baker's Oven I was passed on my right by a group of females whom I can't tell you anything about other than they may have been approaching my height of 5 foot 10 inches so I'm guessing that they were a group of teenage girls and they were loud and one of them said something like "I get what you mean now" and as they passed it felt as though one of them was focusing on me so that their head turned. I do feel at times as though Chesham High Street is a stage populated with actors and I'm walking out onto it.

Sunday Mar 1 2015:
I installed the SD cards I'd recently ordered for my dad into his camera and Hudl tablet and I saw that his battery charger was covered in acid and I found one of his old rechargeable batteries had leaked (he failed to notice these things himself) so they went into the wastebasket. Myself and my mother did spend a lot of time both upstairs and downstairs looking for the manual to a camera he'd recently bought from a charity shop and my mother eventually found it on the floor to the right of his bed so I put it inside the Hudl box in his room to try and keep important things together.

Monday Mar 2 2015:
I had to go out today because I'd run out of clotrimazole cream a week ago and I need it for my eczema so I rode out the usual route and deposited some waste paper in the recycle centre behind Darvell's Bakery and attempted to walk into Boots through the rear door but that is now only a fire exit so I entered Boots from the front and bought the cream (receipt says 13:05). I then walked up to Sainsbury's Chesham and bought a few items including a medium sized box of washing powder (receipt says 13:17) and returned home the usual route and met an old friend Martin waiting to be picked up along Red Lion Street and we had a chat which was nice. I think I initially walked and then rode along Waterside and up Pheasant Rise and this trip was uneventful, there was nothing odd about any of it which is rare.

My mother gave me some pocket money.

Tuesday Mar 3 2015:
I had a shower just after midday.

Very personal information originally recorded here has been moved to my Very Personal Diary.

I ordered a battery charger for my dad through eBay from the same seller I buy the rechargeable batteries from.

Wednesday Mar 4 2015:
The blind in my room has missing cords on the right and it droops a little so I fixed it by collecting the slack at the bottom and placing wire loops through the cord holes.

Friday Mar 6 2015:
I washed my groin area with coal tar soap and antibacterial soap in the bathroom in the morning before putting on clean underwear to help prevent eczema skin irritation isues.

Around 12:30 our usual postman knocked on the door and my dad took delivery of his battery charger that I recently ordered. My mother was upstairs cleaning my dad's room and she greeted the postman from the window.

18:37 I've spent the last few days getting the above events recorded and I'm currently finding it quite a struggle to do so. The week just gone I haven't slept particularly well, I've felt a bit sick in my stomach and my heart has been hurting a bit but I've had worse in the past. I'm glad now that I've finished it and it always makes me feel good so now I'm going to relax and play some GTA Online and possibly some "Race Driver Grid" on my PS3 which I've been having some fun with recently. I finished "Tom Clancy's Splinter Cell" on my GameCube and I've moved on to XIII which is quite an amazing game for this platform.

My last upload of this diary to my website was Jan 21 2015 but I don't want to do it at the moment because it feels as though my attackers are using it to formulate set-ups so I want to stop them from reading it for the time being. I still have a couple of receipts under my keyboard from trips I haven't recorded yet and some other events to get written down so it would make sense to finish this and get the IPCC to look at it but it is so very very difficult to revisit this stuff and to write about it.

Mar 9 2015

14:57

Very personal information originally recorded here has been moved to my Very Personal Diary.

Yesterday Sunday Mar 8 2015 I went to Watford on the train around 13:35. I rode:

and then jumped off of my bicycle and ran across the road by the side of the Red Lion pub and then rode:

and into the Underground station. The train was there so I swiped my Oyster card and the display said "13.30" which wasn't the balance I was expecting (£4.90) so that was initially a puzzle. I stood up with my bike and looked at the scenery and the Underground map all the way to Moor Park and onto Watford and I swiped out with my Oyster card and then looked at the journey history on the ticket machine and I'd been given two adjustments on swipe-in at Chesham which amounted to £8.40 so at the moment I don't know what to do about this. I will write the journey history down from the ticket machine at some point but I haven't done it yet.

At Watford I rode the usual route of Cassiobury Park Avenue and into the top of the High Street and locked my bike up opposite the Burger King. The first shop I visited was Poundworld and I bought Savlon, chocolates and a card of 16 AA batteries (receipt says 14:42) which my dad asked me to get but my mother currently requires for her bedside clock. I did look for some Head and Shoulders conditioner but I couldn't find it so likely it's sold in Poundland or the 99p Shop because my mother bought some a while ago thinking it was shampoo and I'm currently using it. I then rode down to the outside middle section of the shopping mall and locked my bicycle against the rack not far from the doors and went into Primark and bought some nice thick black socks and some more vests (receipt says 14:58). I then went to Game and looked at the previously purchased PS3 games and I didn't see anything that I wanted and the only thing that really interested me was The Saboteur which doesn't appear on eBay very often and apparently is worth playing. I returned to my bicycle and rode up to Sainsbury's Watford and bought a dozen items (receipt says 15:24) and some tobacco (receipt says 15:27) from the same guy that served me on Sunday Jan 25 2015 and he definitely has a laid-back chilled-out style of interacting which does throw me a little and possibly previously I may have misread this as him being difficult.

I rode back to Watford Underground the same way I'd came and caught the 16:09 Chesham train from Moor Park and again stood up all the way as I quite enjoy it since I spend most of the week sitting at my desk. When I returned to Chesham I rode back:

and there were people walking all along that route possibly as many as nine or ten which makes a change because it's often devoid of humans other than me. I didn't experience anything odd with this trip and I certainly visited plenty of places where I have experienced odd things in the past so I found it very enjoyable. I saw two community police officers in Watford High Street as I rode down to Primark and I didn't see any other police personnel or vehicles anywhere else.

16:20 I just saw my mother having a cigarette outside in the back garden and I went and had one with her. At the moment I normally have one about 18:00 and another about 20:00.

I feel pretty good that I had a nice trip out Sunday and that I've managed to record it so quickly.

Mar 11 2015

17:35 There's actually some more detail I'd like to record about my trip out last Sunday Mar 8 2015 because something that I previously didn't think anything of could potentially have been a set-up: when I boarded the train at Watford sometime around 15:40 I entered near the front and walked a short distance through the carriages and stood by a central pole with my bicycle. A little while later a large group of very loud and energetic children boarded my carriage and occupied the seats behind my position but I didn't see them as I was facing the door on the other side of the train from the platform and studying the Underground map. Not long afterwards somebody walked behind me up the carriage and I looked down around my left arm to make sure that my bicycle and especially the handlebars or a wheel wasn't blocking the route (i.e. I was being courteous because that's how I am) and I saw out of my peripheral vision the person walking up the carriage. All I noticed about this person was beige or light brown jeans, the person was possibly approaching my height and was possibly a teenage girl from the body shape. My attackers know everything about me, they know that I can be distracted by somebody manoeuvring past my bicycle which often causes difficulty for people to pass and the fact that this person wearing beige jeans walked up the carriage and then back could mean that it was a staged event which is why I need to record it.


Notes:

The following was written on Sep 10 2015:

I'm very aware that my attackers are monitoring me and identifying ways in which my view can be manipulated and I have also detected and documented them placing people around me so it's very likely that this was a set-up for the benefit of the train security cameras and operators.


Yesterday Tuesday Mar 10 2015 I went downstairs to get my breakfast and my parents had already gone out and my mother left her laptop on so I looked at the news especially about the latest GTA Online update that was released on this day whilst my toast and egg were cooking. Later in the day around 13:00 I had a shave and then showered.

Very personal information originally recorded here has been moved to my Very Personal Diary.

Today a PS3 game "Racedriver Grid 2" that I ordered a few days ago through eBay arrived undamaged.

I'm really looking forward to playing the latest GTA Online update but it's 1.3GB so I'll download it at midnight because my bandwidth usage is free from then until 08:00. I did try last night but Rockstar were experiencing server issues and it froze my PS3 which I guess is to be expected. I'm particularly interested in the new helicopters and VTOL jet as I have enjoyed playing a lot of PC flight sims in the past and I haven't got anything like this on the PS3.

Mar 23 2015

15:47 I've got the last couple of weekends to document and they are particularly important because they give me a good idea now of what I'm being subjected to but something just happened and I want to record it: somebody knocked on the door and my mother's in and there was no movement downstairs so I went down and said "There's somebody at the door" and I looked through the peephole (door eye hole) and all I saw was a young woman and a little girl walking left past the top of our steps and then my mother appeared in the kitchen and said it was the RSPCA and that she saw him presumably coming down the steps and that they're not supposed to knock on our doors. My attackers know everything about me, everything I do is monitored which I guess includes the other members of our household and they would know that my mother is unlikely to answer the door if she knows it's canvassers and that I will investigate who it is if she ignores it. Judging by what I've already experienced, it could quite easily be them putting this together which is why I want it written down.

Tomorrow would be a good time to bring this diary up-to-date.

Mar 27 2015

16:49 I washed my bedding today and put it out on the line to dry in the sunshine.

Very personal information originally recorded here has been moved to my Very Personal Diary.

I brought my washing in about 16:10, my mother returned from the town/pub about 16:25 and went outside for a cigarette so I joined her and came back in at 16:36.

Mar 28 2015

11:37 My mother gave me some pocket money.

Mar 30 2015

13:26 I'm getting a backlog of very important things to record and I'm going to start it now.

Saturday Mar 14 2015:
I don't remember the exact time I left the house but it was 14:00 or shortly thereafter. I needed to get some supplies and to get a reasonable amount of exercise but I didn't want to go too far so I decided to go to Tesco's Amersham which I haven't visited for some time (I can't find a previous visit recorded in this diary) and since the weather is improving now it makes a nice trip. I rode:

and then rode into the path by the waterfall because it cuts through to Bois Moor Hill which is much quicker than travelling by road and I saw a guy standing on the path with a phone in his hand up to his ear so I rang my bell and watched his reaction and he did keep to the right but he didn't look at me directly even when I thanked him and was sort of moving about eyes everywhere except on me. There was also a white van to his right behind the fence of the gravel pit and it's not uncommon because people go fishing down there. I've experienced this type of person before and I think it was an agent/detective doing his best to be prominent without interacting with me and it still amazes me that I can leave this house and choose somewhere to ride at the last second (I could've kept going on the road, I didn't plan to take that route until I'd approached it) and find dodgy people roaming about.

I rode along the dirt path to Cresswell Road and then up to Bois Moor Road and continued up the hill and just past the bridge on the left was a tall male cyclist with helmet and brightly coloured safety jacket (there was some white on him somewhere, maybe a white top under his safety jacket) standing against a fence doing something like looking at a phone in his hand and I thought at the time what a strange place to stop and hang around because there's nothing there other than a tall wooden fence on a steep part of the hill. There is though an entrance to a wood on the other side of the road near a utility station (gas, electric?). I rode:

and into Tesco's Amersham and picked up a basket which I had to fiddle with because the handles were a bit stuck and I saw a newspaper stand ahead of me which I kept in my view and headed towards and somebody closely crossed my path from the right, a tall woman wearing a brilliantly white suit jacket and blue jeans with noisy heels but she just crossed my view briefly and that's all that registered. I bought soup, nuts and raisins, sausages, oranges and a Mother's Day card (receipt says 15:08). As I came out of an isle I noticed a security guard walk past and when I exited the store another security guard was standing in front of the leftmost security gate/device which is where I was heading and he moved aside as I approached it. I've had enough experiences like this in the past to tell me that these guys were monitoring me. I rode:

and I'm not sure if it was the evening of the same day or the following day as I thought about the events did it hit me about the woman in the white jacket (my attackers have used white clothing a lot). Was she part of a set-up that maybe didn't work out because I didn't follow behind her through the crowd but instead went straight ahead to the newspaper stand or was she sending a message that I'll get setup if I visit there again. I think it might be the latter.

This experience did start a period of intense heart strain and has interferred with my sleep patterns and nervous system which is still with me 16 days later although it's being topped-up with other more recent events that I'll record tomorrow as I've had enough reliving this now. It always makes me feel good though once I've finished recording this like I've unloaded something horrible.

Today my mother returned from the town about 15:15 and we went and had a cigarette in the back garden and I've just come in at 15:28. Mrs Storey (my mother reminded me that her name is Maureen) is having a tree cut down outside her house to create a permanent parking area on her front lawn so there's currently lots of chainsaw noise going on.

Mar 31 2015

18:12 I just want to add something about the woman in white in Tesco's Amersham on Saturday Mar 14 2015 that I wrote up yesterday: the way that she crossed my path reminded me of Thursday Jan 30 2014 when a woman crossed my path in Chesham High Street. I have thought that that was some sort of test to see how I would deal with that -- would I stop, which way would I go -- and I do remember that it happened on two occasions although I think I've only recorded one of those.

Sunday Mar 22 2015:
I don't remember the exact time I left the house but it was somewhere between 12:30 and 13:00. It was a nice day, possibly the nicest weekend day we've had so far this year so I rode to Watford through the country lanes. I rode:

and then took the lane from the bottom of the hill that goes to Chenies towards Belsize and I was overtaken by a silver 4x4 which I felt came towards me and passed me a short time later as though it had gone past, turned around and come back again but I can't be certain of that, it's just a feeling that I had. I went through Sarrat and between there and the M25 I was passed by two male cyclists and both of them said "Hiya" and "Hello" which is nice but quite rare in my experience. I do like people to do that and I know that the agents/detectives that hover around me are quite reluctant to interact so I did wonder if they were infact agents/detectives just making me feel at ease, trying to blend in better than they normally do. Something I did notice was how quiet it was compared to a similar trip I made on Sunday Feb 8 2015 where I saw lots of people enjoying an equally sunny and pleasant day. It just makes me feel as though I was on a stage again, not in a normal situation.

I went across Croxley Green (The Green) and then down Baldwins Lane which brings you out onto the main road to Watford and then I reached the top end of the High Street and entered Watford the same way as I normally do and visited Sainsbury's Watford and bought jelly babies and oranges (receipt says 14:18) and tobacco (receipt says 14:19). I then bought some chocolates in Poundland (receipt says 14:28) and Savlon and After Eights for my mother in The 99p Store (receipt says 14:39) and I'd had enough by then because of the ride out so I rode back to the Underground station and the weather was still nice and it was only early so I decided to make the most of it and ride back the same way I'd came.

Everything was fine until I reached the top of the lane that goes back down to Latimer Road where there was a dark (black maybe) coloured car sitting at the entrance to a dirt track that goes to a wood which I have used many times as it goes to Latimer and cuts out the corner and I think the engine was running but I wasn't actually paying attention to it because the sun was very warm and I was soaking it up and closing my eyes and really enjoying the experience. Not much further down that road is a right corner and then a left and you get a nice view looking down to Latimer Road and I stopped there for probably 30 seconds or less just to take it all in and I heard a car coming from behind so I started off again and the car came past and I felt that it was the same car that had been sitting at the entrance to the dirt track. Again, I can't be certain of that but it's just what I felt so I'm recording it. I then rode:

I enjoyed the ride, the sunshine, the countryside and the view but I did feel as though I was being monitored, that people were around me trying to blend in.

Today around 13:30 I had a shave and then showered.

Very personal information originally recorded here has been moved to my Very Personal Diary.

April

Apr 4 2015

13:04 I finished shaving maybe around 15 minutes ago, went downstairs to check on my bicycle to make sure that the tyres are inflated enough, came back in and made a hot drink and got some cake, took it upstairs and then heard a loud helicopter going past (13:02) which I knew was a police helicopter because I am familiar with the sound so I went back downstairs and watched it going south down the valley clearly visible under the complete cloud cover. I think the model is a Eurocopter EC135 according to Wikipedia.

14:45 I need to get some supplies and although the weather isn't exactly enticing, I'm not expecting anything to be open tomorrow and I am apprehensive about venturing out but also I'm feeling an heroic courageous drive to push against these people so what I'm going to do is publish this on my website in another directory than the one Thames Valley Police have been visiting and I'm going to make it publically visible so that if I get arrested when I go out then the Internet search engine bots will eventually index it, if I make it home then I'll hide it again. I haven't written up events for Saturday Mar 28 2015 yet but basically I went out at 16:00 and a police car with flashing lights and sirens stopped at my right side two vehicle widths away and quickly tooted and I feel as though it was meant for me so I have to be prepared for anything now.

14:58 My mother's just returned home and we're going to have a cigarette in the back garden. I haven't made up my mind yet if I'm going out but I may run out of Savlon for my eczema during the week although I could get my mother to buy it for me.

15:17 I've just come back upstairs after having a cigarette with my mother and my dad's still down at the Misty Moon. I think that if I went out now my attackers will be waiting for me knowing that I won't be going out tomorrow so it would be sensible not to go out.

Apr 11 2015

16:13 I need to go out to get some supplies and I also need to get out of the house to get some fresh air and exercise -- it's very bad for my health being in all the time.

My last upload of this diary to my website was Jan 21 2015 which was the original document that Thames Valley Police were monitoring and I'm not updating that anymore.

My last upload of this diary to my website was Jan 21 2015 and I'm writing to a new one that is linked-to from the main page when I go out and unlinked when I return so if I don't make it home then as I said above, the Internet search engine bots will eventually index and cache it, so I'm going to upload it again now.

17:21 OK, I've made it home and I didn't detect one thing other than it did seem a bit quiet for a sunny day although not as evacuated as it quite often is. The market was leaving as I entered the town and I guess people are doing nicer things anyway such as sitting in their back gardens having a barbecue and a few drinks.

17:32 I have unlinked this document from my website's main page: check.

Apr 18 2015

13:10 I need to go out to get some supplies (Clotrimazole, Savlon) and I also need to get out of the house to get some fresh air, exercise and some sunshine so again I'm linking this document to my website's main page and I'll unlink it when I return home.

15:15 I've only just returned home and unpacked everything and I've unlinked this document from my website's main page. Again I didn't detect anything and I did ride many routes across Amersham and Chesham that I haven't used for a long time. I can't currently be bothered to write it up as I have some rice on the cooker and the F1 Grand Prix qualifying is about to start so I'll do it at a later time.

16:05 I had rice with half a can of pea and ham soup today which is the first proper afternoon meal I've eaten for some time.

Apr 19 2015

18:30 It's just as well I had a nice ride out yesterday because today has been overcast and cold and not inviting at all. I watched the F1 Grand Prix in bed and fell asleep through much of it and got really nice and warm as a result.

Personal information originally recorded here has been moved to my Personal Diary.

Apr 23 2015

14:12 I've just returned from a visit to the town and things are again getting interesting and quite clear so I need to get myself up-to-date with my records:

Saturday Mar 28 2015:
I went out about 16:00 (I have been regularly going out before 14:00) and rode down Pheasant Rise, through The Moor and up Red Lion Street and when I reached the roundabout that joins with Waterside a Police car with flashing lights and siren passed from behind, stopped at my right side two vehicle widths away and quickly tooted and I feel as though it was meant for me. The approach to the roundabout is quite wide and there was a big gap between me and them and there wasn't much traffic around so it feels as though they wanted to get my attention but subtly and at a distance.

I entered the town at the crossing opposite the Red Lion pub and walked up pushing my bicycle and as I approached Sainsbury's Chesham (I was looking upwards as I regularly do that now to help protect and control my view) a child boy on a scooter zipped out from the path into Sainsbury's Chesham towards me in the High Street/Broad Street and my gaze was drawn to him because of his sudden appearance and that mechanism of gaze grabbing is a speciality of my attackers so there's a possibility that that was them. The boy wasn't paying any attention to me, he appeared to be looking down and I'm pretty sure that there was another one behind him but it needs to be recorded because of the location and the gaze grabbing mechanism.

In Sainsbury's Chesham I bought jelly babies for me and my dad, pea and ham soup, mushy peas, sweetcorn, sausages, pasta, Ibuprofen tablets and bananas (receipt says 16:19). I think it's likely I walked back through the town as I tend to do that now to get some walking exercise and then I rode down Red Lion Street, Waterside and up Chessmount Rise and just up past the initial peak on the left were two women chatting a few metres apart and it felt as though they'd stopped talking when I passed and they were focusing on me and one of them said something like "MMMmmm" or "Ooohhh".

Once the day had ended and I'd got into bed I was adjusting my clock for British Summer Time and I saw the flashing lights of an emergency vehicle shining through the strip of blind opposite my desk at 00:23. There was no sound of any sort, just a flashing light as though a police car had arrived outside my house, turned on its flashing lights, sat there until I'd noticed and then disappeared off. I've experienced this before and the last time was Sunday Feb 8 2015 when I adventurously rode to Watford on the first sunny and enticing day of the year.

So I go out a couple of hours later than I normally do and there's a suspect police car, gaze grabbing, intimidating gossiping women and flashing emergency vehicle lights sitting outside my house.

Saturday Apr 4 2015:
I documented this on the day: it was the police helicopter going down the valley on this Easter Weekend and after the tooting police car the previous Saturday Mar 28 2015 I decided it wasn't a good idea to go out knowing that the following day (Sunday) the shops would be closed so I could leave myself open to anything they wanted to subject me to.

Saturday Apr 11 2015:
This was the first time that I'd ventured out for two weeks. I went out somewhere between 16:30 and 16:45 and rode down Pheasant Rise, The Moor, Red Lion Street and across the crossing opposite the pub (the usual route) and went to Sainsbury's Chesham and bought Ibuprofen tablets and oranges (receipt says 16:56) and then onto Boots and bought two items of eye drops (receipt says 17:06) because the second one was half price and I'm going to start requiring them now that the weather's warming up. I returned home using the usual route of Red Lion Street and Waterside but I can't remember if I rode up Pheasant Rise or Chessmount Rise but it's not important because I detected absolutely nothing wrong with this trip out.

Thursday Apr 16 2015:
I needed to go out to deposit my £50 birthday present into my account so that I could then use my debit card and PayPal to make some eBay purchases at a later date. I rode the usual route of Pheasant Rise, The Moor where I think I recycled some paper and card, Red Lion Street and into the town using the crossing opposite the pub and deposited my money in Nationwide at 12:33. Then in Sainsbury's Chesham I bought some oranges, tropical granola and Ibuprofen tablets (I've been buying a few packets of these but I've got a couple in stock now which is what I like to do) (receipt says 12:42), The Daily Telegraph for my mother and some Cutters Choice tobacco (receipt says 12:44) and then returned home the usual route and I'm pretty sure I rode up Trapps Lane and through Five Acres for a change. I detected absolutely nothing wrong with this trip out.

Saturday Apr 18 2015:
I needed to buy a few things but not much because other than toast in the morning and granola and fruit in the evening I haven't really been consuming a lot of anything else for a while. I got adventurous here because the weather is getting really nice now and I detected absolutely nothing wrong with recent trips out so I decided initially on Amersham and I rode:

and into Boots to buy some Clotrimazole cream for my eczema (receipt says 13:47). I then rode:

and into the Underground station to check the balance of my Oyster card as I was thinking about going to Rickmansworth but I could really do with topping it up with £5 so I came out of there and rode down Station Road to Tesco's Amersham where I bought mixed nuts and raisins, jelly babies for me and my dad, chocolate, sausages and a tin of baked beans (receipt says 14:11). I rode:

and up through some paths that take you across Stanley Hill Avenue and the railway to King George V Road and then back through:

and then crossed the road by the Red Lion pub and rode the usual route of:

and again I detected absolutely nothing wrong with this trip out. I did at the time think that I was likely to experience some payback for being so adventurous and it does very much look like I got it on my next trip out but it's now 17:15 and I've spent three hours writing this up and I'm going to have a break intending to complete this tomorrow.

Apr 25 2015

14:20 A couple of days ago on Thursday Apr 23 2015 in the afternoon a police car came up the hill and ten minutes later there was a police helicopter hovering around and something was going on up the hill and yesterday my mother told me that somebody they know as "John the foot" was found dead up the fields and they think it might've been suicide for possibly financial reasons -- I guess we'll find out soon.

My parents went to John Hosier's funeral yesterday Friday Apr 24 2015 and the reception was up Ley Hill Golf Club so my dad met lots of his old golfing friends and had a great time. John Hosier battled cancer for a long time and he got through it only to be hit by a massive stroke that left him unresponsive. When I think about that I feel for his wife Christine and their children Karen and David.

14:50 The fair is down The Moor at the moment and I find it interesting to hear the music they're playing. At the moment it's "Chaka Khan - Ain't Nobody" which I really like and I was into Chaka Khan and Rufus in the 1980s. I remember the fair used to play "Carl Douglas - Kung Fu Fighting" for years and I don't think they upgrade their record collection very often! They're now playing "The Trammps - Disco Inferno" so it's nice to hear these tracks whilst I'm watching the snooker on the TV.

I was thinking about going out but the sun's coming and going and it's quite windy and fleece weather and I don't really need anything although I would like to get some more vests from Primark at some point.

15:23 My mother's returned home from the town within the last ten minutes and she said that "John the foot" hung himself up the lanes or woods and his son found him!

May

May 2 2015

11:03 I've got a lot to record so I'll do it now because I might go out today although the weather isn't looking great for the weekend.

I have been struggling to get everything recorded and I've done it although I can see that I haven't been recording my showers etc. on a Tuesday and strip wash on a Friday but that has been my routine for a while now and that's what I have been doing. I know that on one occasion Tuesday was busy in my house and so events resumed the following day which could actually be seen in my Internet bandwidth usage history because I don't play in public PS3 GTA Online sessions on that day, I play either in a solo session or I play something else. Rockstar recently added a Daily Objectives feature to GTA Online with rewards for completing these consecutively over a week or month and sometimes these objectives require participating in an event with other players so if that is the case on a Tuesday then I join a public session to activate/register the daily objective and then I leave the game and play something else (I'm currently playing through Assassin's Creed). Why am I mentioning this? Because whilst this attack is occuring I feel more comfortable and safer isolating my personal grooming/body maintenance from other people.

Tuesday Apr 21 2015:
This is my usual shower etc. day but I had a haircut too and I used my Remington Hair Clipper to cut it to about half an inch which is what I do when the weather warms up. I am an excessive sweater and I've got eczema and like to be active in the warmer months and it's normal for me to have a short haircut this time of the year. I can't stand the trickling of sweat from overheating with long hair because it sits on the skin where the eczema is and inflames it so I have to manage that. As my haircut grows out I'll shape it into many of my favourite styles until the point where it is making me overheat and then I'll cut it back again for as long as the warm weather remains.

I have been mentioning that I've been maintaining my body hair to deal with the eczema but also the hair on my legs is almost non existent from my knees down and I like to wear shorts and ride my bicycle and look smart so maintaining all of my body hair is currently part of my Tuesday personal grooming day. There is nothing unusual about this, this has been part of my existence for at least twenty years it's just that you don't normally need to write about it.

On this day I found a lot of dry and red skin in my groin and this marked the start of a period of daily antiseptic cream applications to my groin and chest.

I'm getting a bit overwhelmed with data so I'll be briefer than normal but everything that should be recorded will be there.

Wednesday Apr 22 2015:
During my morning wash I applied antiseptic cream to my groin and chest. At some point before I went out I went to the toilet (number two). I rode to Sainsbury's Chesham along the usual route and entered the town at the usual place and walked up the High Street to Sainsbury's Chesham. I went to the sausages and bacon isle and bought some sausages and turned to my left to walk to the end of the very short isle and my eyes fell on a little boy in a pushchair staring at me with a Damien from the Omen film type intensity which lasted for possibly a second at most before I looked more rightwards and continued to the end of the isle. As I walked towards the mother and child, the mother bent down into the child's pushchair and looked at it and then stood up and looked at me and I saw this in my peripheral vision without difficulty because the woman's actions were very animated and clear. I knew something wasn't right about this when I turned away from the sausages and my eyes fell on an intensely staring person strategically placed. At the time I took the woman's actions to simply be ensuring the registering of this event but now that I'm writing this up I think these events are being acted out for the security cameras, for the Sainsbury's Chesham staff. Let me write the next few days up and I'll go into that some more.

In Sainsbury's Chesham I bought rice, Savlon, baked beans pea and ham soup and sausages (receipt says 12:49).

I picked up the Daily Telegraph for my mother and walked towards the tobacco counter and stood behind one man. On the left was a woman leaning on the counter from behind it as though she could be doing something with a pen and a book and there was a woman to the right serving (Karen it says on her badge). When it was my time to be served, the woman on the left looked at me which I could see through my peripheral vision and Karen wouldn't look at me at all. She took and scanned my paper, took my money and I asked for a receipt but her eyes remained so downwards that I was just looking at eyelids (receipt says 12:52).

Wednesday is a market day and it's busy and when I left Sainsbury's Chesham two people either side of me returned to their bicycles at the bicycle rack. As I attended to my combination lock the person on my left was standing next to me very closely and it's very tight in there and I was aware that I was bent over unlocking my bike around the saddle area and their backside was at a similar level to my head but I really couldn't tell you much about the person other than they were wearing blue jeans and a big coat and it could've been a mature woman or man. I felt uncomfortable with the situation there after what I'd experienced inside the store and I was being careful with what was entering my view. The person on my right was I guess waiting for me to remove my bicycle before removing hers. I didn't see the person directly but I felt from my peripheral vision and the fact that the very distinctive bicycle (Viking folding bike) looked liked a ladies bike so I think it was a woman. I came away from the store and I didn't think much about this but considering what was going on inside the store there could've been something going on at the bicycle rack.

I walked down the High Street and it was a nice sunny day and very pleasant indeed. I continued to walk down Waterside and as I approached the railway bridge a woman and child (a little girl) passed me on the left and the child said "Hello" at the moment that I passed so even if I wanted to interact with them the moment had gone but I know that the likelyhood that this person is an agent/detective is very high based upon previous experience and my experience at Sainsbury's Chesham on this day. I don't know what they're attempting to achieve with these children at this time. Sometimes I think they're just attempting to scare me and doing it repeatedly in an attempt to condition me into staying at home or dissuading me from going out so often or maybe they're actually going to attempt to use this against me in a court in some way. There's a lot of conditioning and manipulation going on and all I can really do is record it.

Thursday Apr 23 2015:
I'm going out more now in the week because the weather is nice and I like the exercise. The warm temperature and sun on my skin, the buzz that I get from exercising and in fact the very simple thing of going to Sainsbury's to find something nice to eat however small just makes for a pleasant and enjoyable experience. Today I went out for that but I was also interested to see what would happen to me so that I could compare it to yesterday and for this reason I did the same things: I applied antiseptic cream to my groin and chest in the morning, I didn't go to the toilet before going out which I forgot to duplicate, I went to Sainsbury's Chesham the same way, went to the sausage isle and bought Rizla papers at the tobacco counter which I don't need but I wanted to interact with the staff to see what response I would get and everything was normal (two older women were at the counter). I bought milk, bakes beans, chocolate digestives and bananas (receipt says 13:35) and I bought Rizla papers (receipt says 13:36).

I left Sainsbury's Chesham and entered the town and a man (Pakistani looking) came out of the hairdesser's on the right and walked across the street looking at me up and down in an intimidating way. All I can say about this is maybe it was related to my new short haircut and they were told that I was approaching the shop.

I continued to walk down the High Street and walked along Waterside the same as yesterday and everything was normal and fine.

It's now 16:08 and I was intending to go out but it's overcast, cool and breezy again and I only need to buy a new mug anyway. I'm going to stop writing for the moment and play some GTA Online. I just wanted to add that my parents arrived home within the last half hour and my mother bought a gas weed burner which I assembled for her and taught her how to use properly.

It does concern me that what my attackers are doing in Sainsbury's Chesham and potentially everywhere is setting me up and then getting other people to witness the events. I know what they're doing to me and they know this because they've been reading my diary but the security staff and general staff in Sainsbury's Chesham don't know that they're being manipulated in this way. It's a bit like when you're at school and you say to your friend "Look at that guy over there" at the same time as you throw a ball of paper at them and look away leaving the guy staring at your friend who's now getting the blame for something he hasn't done. It's just that this is being done to me on a regular basis, over and over.

May 3 2015

13:00 I plan on going out so I'm linking this diary to my website's main page and I'll unlink it when I return. I did the same thing yesterday but I didn't go out so I unlinked it and didn't feel the need to record it at the time.

Personal information originally recorded here has been moved to my Personal Diary.

My dad did something odd earlier: he got up around 8:00 and started to go downstairs on his stairlift and my mother heard him (as did I) and she asked him what he was doing and he said that he thought she'd called him downstairs but she was still in bed. He had a growth removed from his face on Friday May 1 2015 and his eye is closing up and it's hurting him so he's unwell at the moment.

The sun's out now! The forecast was bad but it might turn out to be quite nice. I need to get a new mug.

17:36 I'll write this up now because I had an absolutely beautiful day.

I went to Watford on the train taking the usual route and my first stop was Poundworld where I bought a fantastic bright blue with white polka dot mug, liquorice comfits which I love and haven't eaten for years and a bag of chocolates (receipt says 14:55). I then rode down to Tesco's Waterfields and bought mixed nuts and raisins, chocolate limes and jelly babies for my dad (receipt says 15:11).

The weather was warm and sunny and all I saw of the rain was a few dots on the pavement outside Tesco's Waterfields so I decided to ride the Ebury Way to Rickmansworth with the intention of getting the train back to Chesham. I was a bit concerned that the heavens might open seeing that that's what the Met Office weather forecast was saying so I didn't want to ride all the way back through Sarrat and Flaunden so the Ebury Way was a sensible choice.

I had an absolutely beautiful ride along that route, the scent from the plants was lovely and everything is blooming and warm and sunny and when I reached Rickmansworth I decided to continue on the road back to Chesham so that's what I did and the road was wet along Latimer so it had been raining here but the sun was following me around today. I rode up Chessmount Rise and then it poured down and I pushed my bicycle up the hill very fast and bent down so that the rain was running off of my rucksack and by the time I'd got to the top it had stopped so I got a bit damp on my sides and my head was wet but I was so hot I found it cooling.

I detected nothing today, all I saw was an empty police van parked near the entrance to Watford's shopping centre. On Sunday Aug 3 2014 I recorded an incident at the end of the Ebury Way so there could've been allsorts going on today but there was nothing.

I've unlinked this diary from my website's main page.

May 4 2015

12:20 I'm going out in a moment to get some bacon, mushrooms and the Daily Telegraph for my mother whom isn't going out today. I want to watch the World Snooker Championship final at 14:00.

I'm linking this diary to my website's main page now.

14:11 I've been out and it was lovely and I'll record it now: I rode up Amersham Hill and down Rectory Hill to Tesco's Amersham and bought mushrooms, apples (6 for 69p!), bacon and the Daily Telegraph for my mother (receipt says 13:11). I rode back up Station Road, Chiltern Avenue, across Woodside Road and down the side of the Jet garage to Plantation Road/Grimsdell's Lane, down Bois Lane, Holloway Lane, Latimer Road and up Chessmount Rise and returned home at 13:40. I didn't leave until around 12:45 and I and my mother were amazed that I did it so quickly. I thought I'd been out for a lot longer than that and was expecting to return after the snooker had started at 14:00. I have been concerned about my level of fitness especially since I have a heart murmur and this attack on me has put enormous pressure on my system but I guess I'm a lot fitter than I think I am.

I didn't detect anything when I was out. There were a lot of people about, unsurprising considering it's a Bank Holiday and I am quite surprised that I've had two adventurous days without incident.

I've got the snooker on now between Murphy and Bingham and I'm making some bread and I'm going to enjoy some GTA Online on my PS3.

I've unlinked this diary from my website's main page.

00:12 It's the following day now but I want to record this here: there was something in Tesco's Amersham that I forgot about -- I first went to the newspaper stand and picked up a paper and I was reading the front page whilst turning around and a woman was standing to my right quite close and I could see out of my peripheral vision that she was wearing black jogging trousers and I think there might've been another one there further rightwards. I didn't think anything of it at the time but I was aware of it and it just came back to me this evening. I thought it was important to record just in case my attackers were placing people around me for the benefit of the security cameras and staff.

May 8 2015

15:53 I've got a batch of things to write about and I went out today and I have a suspicion something was going on there too so I may as well get it all done. I'm getting a bit behind and my intention was to get on top of this completely so I'm going to get to the meat.

Monday Apr 27 2015:
I went to Sainsbury's Chesham the usual route, I walked past the new cake counter and two young female staff members I felt were talking about and looking at me; I expect this anyway and you can deal with it simply by getting used to it but I do like to identify it so that I can record it here. I walked past a second time and felt the same thing and a third time that I walked past only one of the staff was left and I looked at her to see if I could catch her out and maybe get some idea of what was going on by analysing her face (eyes, expression) but she wasn't looking at me. I bought mushrooms, bacon and toothpaste (receipt says 13:13).

I visited the tobacco counter to buy Rizlas that I don't need just to get a response that I can analyse and record. There were two female staff members at the counter and Karen again served me and on Wednesday Apr 22 2015 I noted that she put a lot of effort into not making eye contact and generally interacting with me but on this day she was a different person. Initially she was looking around me and eventually I looked behind me to see what was going on but I couldn't see anything and when I returned to the front to face her she explained that she thought somebody was walking out of the store with stolen goods. As I said I bought Rizla papers (receipt says 13:15), the social interaction and transaction were normalish and my trip out was normalish whatever that means now, it's certainly not uneventful.

Tuesday Apr 28 2015:
Usual personal grooming/body maintenance day.

Very personal information originally recorded here has been moved to my Very Personal Diary.

Thursday Apr 30 2015:
I did jot down a few notes for today in preparation for recording it in more detail so some of it is possibly unimportant life stuff but I'll record it anyway.

As I've already mentioned since Tuesday Apr 21 2015 I've been regularly applying antiseptic cream to my chest and groin and my day started like this.

I went up the town the usual route and today I went to Wickes to look for some handrail brackets to fix the rusty corroded ones in the back garden but I didn't find anything that would be suitable. I then went to Sainsbury's Chesham and I think the first thing I went for was apples and I picked up a bag of Cox's that weren't very expensive but there's so much obfuscation going on with pricing that I went and weighed them on the hanging scales which are around the other side of the isle and I noticed out of my peripheral vision that a woman in tight jeans was bent over sideways delving into a shelf (refridgerated I think) that runs across the fruit and veg section and what registered was the fact that she was very animatedly looking out at me and then back into the shelf and she did this a few times as I passed. At the time I wondered if it was a member of the shop staff but when I was at Bucks College I worked at Sainsbury's Apsley for a while and I remember being given a uniform with trousers so I think I ruled that out. Then I thought hang on, I think she's trying to get my attention by very obviously looking at me which is why she did it more than once. I then went back to the apples to check that I wasn't being ripped off by buying them bagged and then went back around the other side of the isle to get some mushrooms so I passed her a couple of times and I think on the third pass she walked off into the refridgerated section.

I went on to buy chocolate bars and a loaf of bread because I didn't have time to make one myself (receipt says 13:19). I then went to the tobacco counter and bought the Daily Telegraph for my mother and tobacco for myself and there were two female staff at the counter and one of them (on the right I think) looked at me (receipt says 13:21).

I think that the tight jeans wearing woman bending over delving into the refridgerated shelf was attempting to get my attention so I'm pretty cetain that it was an attempted set-up.

Friday May 1 2015:
I did jot down a few notes for today in preparation for recording it in more detail so some of it is possibly unimportant life stuff but I'll record it anyway.

I applied antiseptic cream to my chest and groin when washing in the morning. I went to the toilet before leaving the house.

I went up the town the usual route and again I went to Wickes but this time I wanted a couple of hooks that you place on doors to hang dressing gowns etc. but I actually wanted them to hang a sun blind that I've been making that hangs from the top of my normal blind. I picked them up and took them to the counter and they should've been £2.29 but the till said £2.99 so I went back to the isle to check and returned to the till and another member of staff (a man) arrived to deal with it. Like my yesterday visit, the customers in there at that time of day are few and maybe I saw one other person when I entered so it was far from busy but a lot of staff seemed to appear in the section of the warehouse where I was being active and I just thought that that was odd. Also the member of staff that arrived to deal with the incorrect pricing (he was pushing a trolley jack around at the time but it was he who had the authority to adjust the pricing on the till) wasn't doing much social interaction. He wasn't being rude but he wasn't being openly cheerful and it felt odd so there's a possibility that I was expected there, they were posibly told that I was visiting. I bought "One Prong Hook Polished Brass Finish" and the receipt says 13:50.

I then went to Sainsbury's Chesham and bought chunky caramel chocolate bars and chocolate digestives and detected nothing in there (receipt says 14:00).

May 13 2015

Personal grooming/body maintenance day and I'm washing my whites in the washing machine. My parents went out today instead of yesterday so today is my day to get things done.

Very personal information originally recorded here has been moved to my Very Personal Diary.

13:08 I'm just going to have a cigarette in the back garden in the sunshine and then I'm going to get this up-to-date.

Personal information originally recorded here has been moved to my Personal Diary.

May 16 2015

Personal information originally recorded here has been moved to my Personal Diary.

15:05 My mother went out at 14:48 and I'm off out now as I need some supplies.

I'm linking this diary to my website's main page now.

23:53

Personal information originally recorded here has been moved to my Personal Diary.

I've run out of time now to document my trip out but initially I thought it was uneventful until 23:15 when something struck me about a woman and two children in Tesco's Amersham that were getting in the way around the fruit isle and again I think it was them behind me when I got some sausages. I'll write it up later because it's bedtime now.

This diary remains linked to from my website's main page and I don't currently feel comfortable unlinking it.

May 17 2015

12:32

Personal information originally recorded here has been moved to my Personal Diary.

14:26 I'm not going out today, I don't like the wind that's out there, it'll chill me and make me feverish and I've got things to write about anyway. I'm going out for a cigarette now.

Personal information originally recorded here has been moved to my Personal Diary.

OK, I'm bored with this now. I'm going to play something on my PS3.

May 18 2015

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May 19 2015

21:54 My mother went to a funeral today, came home and then took my dad down to the Misty Moon pub for the reception and they returned home around 17:00. My mother came out for a cigarette around 19:45 and she's fine.

Personal grooming/body maintenance day and I washed some dark coloured clothes.

Very personal information originally recorded here has been moved to my Very Personal Diary.

Let's get up-to-date now.

Friday May 8 2015:
I went to Sainsbury's Chesham with my bicycle taking the usual route because I needed some supplies. I had my shopping list in my left hand as I walked around the store and I find that it acts like a shield, blocking out part of the view in front and also for focusing upon so that you've got control of your gaze. On Sunday May 3 2015 I recorded that I took a bicycle trip down the Ebury Way between Watford and Rickmansworth and that I'd previously experienced an incident at the Rickmansworth end on Sunday Aug 3 2014. I was expecting to be attacked for being so adventurous which is why I was comfortable hiding behind my shopping list but they really went for it on this day.

I walked into the store and there was one security guard at the station. I got some sausages and then walked along towards the deli counter and I reached the top end of the milk isle and I could detect through my peripheral vision and indeed sense a tall woman wearing tight black trousers with some sort of fancy work down the side like maybe a plait or something. I say sensed because my head was buzzing with a warning about that person. I'm pretty sure she was wearing a white top and I have been conditioned/sensitised by black trousers and white tops and something was telling me in my mind that this person was suspect. The people who've been programming me will know the formal name for this reaction but sensitising is a good description. At the end of the milk isle on the opposite side I saw a section of items that I thought might contain Sesame Snaps which I always have trouble finding if I can find them at all so I backtracked a couple of steps and had a look to see what was there (I was well into the isle and couldn't see around the corner to where the suspect woman was standing) but it was just a selection of health and special items. I walked back to where the deli was to continue towards the muesli and I had my shopping list held up in my left hand and I was focusing on that and there were a few people along my route and as I approached the muesli the suspect woman was in front of me slightly to the left and she bent straight over as though she'd dropped something and was picking it up. At that point I still had my shopping list held up in my left hand but I was looking straight ahead at the muesli so the shopping list blocked her out but I could detect what she was doing in my peripheral vision and I pretty much knew then that she was indeed suspect. I walked down the confectionery isle and got some jelly babies for my dad and then when I reached the bottom where the tills are I saw a second security guard at the station and he was looking at me.

Another attempted set-up by my attackers but the woman wasn't in my view but I guess it's for the security guards and the cameras -- they won't know that the woman was an agent/detective, they're just keeping an eye on me like they've been told to. They see what my attackers want them to see.

I bought sausages, jelly babies and tropical granola and the receipt says 13:50.

May 22 2015

14:29 I've just been through this diary and modified "Sainsbury's" to include the location so that you can search for "Sainsbury's Chesham" or "Sainsbury's Watford" etc.

Personal information originally recorded here has been moved to my Personal Diary.

May 23 2015

11:47 My mother just gave me some pocket money. She's going out in a little while to get a few things but I'm not bothered at the moment, it's very dark and grey out there. I don't think we're going to get any sunshine this weekend.

I need to get up-to-date with a few trips out.

Saturday May 16 2015:
I rode to Tesco's Amersham along Bois Moor Road, up to Chesham Bois and through Amersham-on-the-Hill and then down Rectory Hill but for a change I went off-road through the little wood, down the side of the field above the Church, through the little green area, across the car park behind B & M's garage and then along the side of Tesco's Amersham. I locked my bicycle against the railings out the front, walked inside and took a look at the newspaper headlines and then walked across to a big display of apples on a round table and a woman with a small child on each arm approached from my left but it's a busy store, it's quite tight around that section so at that point it's just people getting in the way. Just past that display of apples are the bananas and I thought I'd get some bananas for a change and I think that that woman with the children was to my right but I'm not looking at people, I'm just focusing on getting my shopping oftenly with my shopping list held up in my left hand which acts like a shield and it's also very effective in preventing your attention from being grabbed or from having people inserted into your view, so I can't say for certain that the same woman with children was to my right but I felt that that was the case at that time.

Next I picked up a container of mushrooms and then made my way to the isle that contained the sausages and chose the Tesco's pork sausages and when I turned around I felt as though the same woman with children was to my right a little way up the isle possibly approaching me or hovering about. I then looked at a packet of beefburgers that were in front of me on the other side of the isle and they looked nice for £3 and I did consider getting them instead for a change but the sausages were only £1.20 so they won on this occasion. I then went down the isle which was away from the woman and children and I continued shopping and I didn't notice them again. I bought mushrooms, sausages, jelly babies for my dad and jelly beans for myself and upon leaving the store one of the security guards at the station quickly glanced at me as I passed (receipt says 15:55).

After leaving Tesco's Amersham I rode along to Shardloes and went off-road as far as the lane that goes up to Hyde Heath and then I rode to Pednor and along the bottom into Chesham, up St Mary's Way and into Sainsbury's Chesham to buy a loaf of bread because I didn't have time to make one myself (receipt says 17:05). It was a beautiful ride, the sun was out and riding past the Shardloes lake was lovely and there were two people in a boat fishing.

As usual I think through my trips out and initially I thought it was uneventful but that evening around 23:15 I came to the conclusion that the woman with children was suspicious and I suspect she was an agent/detective hovering around me likely for the security guards and the cameras.

May 26 2015

10:07 I didn't go out over the bank holiday weekend just passed, initially the weather wasn't brilliant but I also didn't want to add any more incidents to this diary because I'll never get this into a presentable complete state, it'll just go on forever being incomplete, always something to add, perpetual. I need to get on top of this instead of being behind all the time otherwise my attackers will finish me off and none of the right people will ever get to see this.

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Wednesday May 20 2015:
Paradigm Housing visited to check the electrics throughout the house and they were here very early around 08:30 so I got up and spent my time sitting in the front room with the electric off playing freecell on my GP2X handheld device. Just before midday I decided to take a bicycle ride into town because I needed a couple of things and it was a nice day and was much more appealing than suffering no electricity in the home. I rode the usual route and walked up the High Street pushing my bike and the market was on and there were lots of people about -- pleasant.

In Sainsbury's Chesham I picked up some mushrooms, some granola and went to get some Basics chocolate and there were a few people hovering about in that section and I wanted it to be clearer before I attempted to dig out the chocolate from the bottom shelf so I went along a little way and had a look to see what other nice things there were that might take my fancy whilst the isle became less busy and I saw some Sesame Snaps! I thought that was quite funny after the incident on Friday May 8 2015 that I wrote up on Tuesday May 19 2015. The area around the chocolate cleared and there was just one older guy bending down taking his time digging out a bar or more from the tray and I waited patiently to get some myself and then I got a bar of milk chocolate. I looked at the magazine isle before reaching the self service tills and the receipt says 12:11.

I walked past a lone security guard at the station by the entrance and he glanced at me as I made my way to the tobacco counter where I bought the Daily Telegraph for my mother (receipt says 12:12). Whilst I was queuing at the counter I had the paper held up and I was reading it and eventually the lady said "Can I help you" or equivalent and I looked at her and said "Just this thanks" and I didn't detect anything out of the ordinary there but I did feel as though the second female member of staff behind the counter to my right who wasn't serving anyone and wasn't looking at me was uncomfortable. I could only detect her in my peripheral vision but it just felt as though something was eminating from her that I could sense and I could simply not write this up but it's more than nothing so it should be noted.

I walked back through the town and also a considerable way along Waterside and then went up Trapps Lane to reach home and the electricity had been restored whilst the Paradigm guys presumably took lunch and on return the electricity remained on for most of the time but I sat downstairs and did various things (got some dough going in the bread machine) and eventually they went and it was back to normal.

I was quite surprised that I didn't get set-up in Sainsbury's Chesham or maybe there was something that I missed. On Saturday May 16 2015 (recorded on Saturday May 23 2015) I was quite adventurous when I went to Tesco's Amersham so based on previous experience they could have hit me hard but maybe I'll get it next time I venture out.

14:57 Today was my usual personal grooming/body maintenance day and I washed some dark coloured clothes. I haven't been very thorough applying Savlon to my groin and chest recently only doing it a few times and my chest is a little bit raw today.

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May 27 2015

11:56 I've finally got around to finishing off the sun blind that I made which hangs over my normal room blind. I've got another one to do yet but my glue's run out and I need some more hooks.

I've just been through this diary and modified "Tesco's" to include the location so that you can search for "Tesco's Waterfields" or "Tesco's Amersham" etc.. The Tesco's Express up Hill Avenue is "Tesco's Express Amersham". I'm finishing off standardising on the date and time format and I'm up to Sep 30 2014.

13:24 I'm currently up to Oct 15 2014.

May 28 2015

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17:43 The standardising of the date and time format used throughout this diary is now complete (MMM D YYYY).

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May 30 2015

20:11 I had a nice day out I think. I went to Amersham on my bicycle up Hodds Wood Road and caught the Amersham Underground train to Rickmansworth and went to Tesco's Rickmansworth where I bought several items and one of them was lemon sherberts which I took some time in choosing because I couldn't decide what I wanted. At the time I could hear a guy behind me saying that he couldn't reach a bag of crips on the top shelf and I looked around and he was asking a member of staff (who was wearing a dark suit possibly navy) who went off for help and I offered to help the guy but he said that somebody was dealing with it. I realise now that the member of staff was a security guard and I recognised him from the security desk by the front door so he was behind me when I was choosing my sweets. I paid for my items at a manned till and the receipt says 15:20. The guy was back at the security desk by the front door when I left the store and I didn't detect anything else.

After Tesco's Rickmansworth I popped into Boots and bought some eye drops (receipt says 15:26) because I'm having troubles with my eyes again which is the norm for this time of year.

It was a sunny day with a bit of a cool breeze and I got quite hot wearing my tracksuit bottoms and fleece so instead of returning along the busy road I dropped down to the off-road route that runs through Kingfisher Lure, up the side of the M25 and follows the river Chess through Chorleywood Wood and onto Chenies. There were a few people about as you might expect but I've seen it a lot busier. Riding towards the Chorleywood Wood section I passed a couple walking a dog and then as I approached the green area by the river Chess something caught my eye to my right in the grass and it was a couple of small children one behind the other but they were so small and the way that they were sitting it could've been a pile of somebody's belongings or a dog. I'm recording this because of the fact that my gaze was drawn. Just up ahead a short way was a man with a pushchair so I guess they were together and having a nice day out by the river Chess.

From that position onwards there're no cycling signs so I walked along there and a group of people passed me, then a short distance later an elderly lady with a dog approached who said "Hello" and then not long afterwards a couple approached who also said "Hello". After that I rode up a track to Chenies and came home along Latimer Road and up Chessmount Rise.

In Rickmansworth under the railway bridge I saw an emergency vehicle that could've been a police car or a paramedic car. When I entered Boots I saw through a gap down the side of the store a police car going along the road behind.

Was that a good day or not? Who knows. The cycling and the sunshine was nice and so too was the countryside. Initially I was undecided as to where I was heading but when I reached Amersham Underground I thought I'd head out Watford way and Rickmansworth made a good trip out for the time that I had.

May 31 2015

09:35 I'm up early today for a couple of reasons: I had trouble getting to sleep last night and it may have been 04:00 before I finally did and I want to work on this diary.

Last night my skin was burning hot and I felt very uneasy about the trip out yesterday Saturday May 30 2015 -- I think that I may have ridden into a set-up at the green area by the river Chess. I may have reached home about 16:45 because after I'd unpacked my shopping and put all my things away I made some rice and peas and I remember it was about 17:05 when I left the rice cooking and it was around 17:25 when I'd finished cooking the meal and tidying up. I went to my room and ate my meal with "Saints Row the Third" playing on my PS3 and I got quite immersed in that game and the volume was up not too high but when you're sitting in front of a monitor with speakers either side then it does take some overriding and at some point a helicopter outside the house caught my attention because of its loudness and its slow momentum and it registered to the point of me wondering what it was doing out there and then it left. For the record that green area by the river Chess in Chorleywood Herts is likely OS reference "TQ 03814 97601" and it is inside Hertfordshire by maybe a quarter of a mile. I didn't detect for certain the distinctive sound of the police helicopters currently being used (Eurocopter EC135?) but equally I didn't detect for certain that it was something other.

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11:24 I currently feel quite hopeless about this at the moment because these people attacking me appear to be able to do what they like, to create the reality they want or require to reach their objective whatever that is. Either they're trying to make me explode or they're beating me down to the point that I'll just die or I'll take my own life or they'll kill me and make it look like suicide or they'll attempt to use their set-ups and the witnesses they've duped into believing them to lock me up forever.

I've read George Orwell's Nineteen Eighty-Four (1984) a few times and I didn't then understand "If you want a picture of the future, imagine a boot stamping on a human face - forever" but now I'd say that I do understand that, I know what that feels like, my attackers are subjecting me to that and have been for a few years now.

June

Jun 1 2015

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Jun 2 2015

14:16

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Today was my usual personal grooming/body maintenance day and I currently have my whites washing in the washing machine.

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14:46 I haven't got that much left to record to get this into a condition that I could present to the IPCC. I've got two shopping receipts from trips out in August 2014 where I struggled to get everything recorded and I can't remember which way round the events occured but I did write "Another set-up day" on Aug 9 2014 and the other event was minor and I didn't note anything for that so that must've been Aug 17 2014.

15:35 I've just recorded an incident for Sunday Aug 17 2014 and I've inserted it into the diary as Notes (I don't change things that have already been written except for standardising on formats such as dates and shop names and locations).

15:41 I really feel happy that I'm managing to get on top of this diary now and complete it. I've really struggled with this under the pressure that I've been under.

Jun 3 2015

15:13 I've just recorded an incident for Saturday Aug 9 2014 and I've inserted it into the diary as Notes.

Jun 7 2015

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Saturday Jun 6 2015:
I went out around 15:00 on my bicycle along Bois Moor Road, up the track under the railway bridge at the end of Woodleigh Hill (Feb 27 2013 appears to be the last time that I recorded using that route) and into Amersham-on-the-Hill and I went to Tesco's Express Amersham and very luckily found a couple of punnets of mushrooms reduced from £1 to 37p each and I bought some sweets and tobacco (receipt says 15:38). I then rode along Copperkins Lane and down Fuller's Hill to Chesham and I walked up the High Street to Sainsbury's Chesham and bought some cooking bacon to go with my mushrooms and a couple of other items (receipt says 16:04). The headache tablets that I bought required assistance on the self-service checkout and a female staff member approached from my left and I looked at her and said "I've got some headache tablets" because very often they look to see what they are verifying so I help them by telling them what it is and she said "OK" whilst giggling and smiling and it made me feel as though she was mocking me but I don't know if she was. Is there something amusing about telling a staff member what the item is that needs verifying? As far as I'm concerned the trip out was uneventful and I enjoyed it and it made me feel really good and I thoroughly enjoyed the bacon and mushrooms I had for breakfast this morning. Actually there was something else in Sainsbury's Chesham but it was just me being paranoid but I want to record it: before I got to the self-service checkouts I was going to have a look at the front of private Eye and Computer Mart but I looked up the magazine isle before venturing in and a woman was reading something there and nobody else was around so I walked straight around the corner into the sandwhich and salad vegetable section and thought to myself right, I'm not going in there, I don't need anything else, I think I shall call it a day and checkout now. I wanted to record this because if I'm being monitored walking around then it would look odd and I might need to recall why I did this.

13:39

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There was something this morning that I want to note: about 06:00 there were some male voices along the path out the back and it woke me up and I had trouble getting back to sleep after that and I played on my GameBoy Advance to pass the time and to help me drift off afterwards. It's a nice day and possibly some people were preparing to venture off for the day so that's all I thought it was.

Jun 8 2015

10:36 I want to add one more thing about my Sainsbury's Chesham visit on Saturday Jun 6 2015: as I walked around I was looking so high up that I was looking at the ceiling much of the time and that's because it's getting very dangerous in there now. When I looked at my shopping list I looked at it in front of an empty rack so that there was nothing behind it. I'm still going in there because I need to so I'm going to be doing this a lot more now.

Sunday Jun 7 2015:
I went to Watford on the Chesham Underground train which I caught at 14:27. I only waited at Moor Park for a few minutes before the Watford train arrived so the trip only took half an hour which is fantastic. In Watford I bought sweets and Savlon in Poundworld and the receipt says 15:14. There was a market in the High Street which I've not seen before. I didn't need to buy anything else, I just wanted to go out in the sunshine somewhere out of Chesham and get some exercise so I rode to Rickmansworth following that on the main road and then caught the Rickmansworth Underground train back to Amersham and rode home via Chesham Bois, Bois Moor Road and Chessmount Rise.

The trip was uneventful and I detected absolutely nothing. The only thing I would note is that my bicycle was wedged against a central pole on the train where the doors are and I was sitting in the section up the train from that and a woman joined the train and sat in the section down from that on the opposite side of the train to me and the train decelerated hard and my bicycle moved so I lunged at it to stop it going anywhere and the woman looked around at me and we briefly looked at one another but it was a totally normal situation, there was nothing odd about her. A police car passed me as I left Watford on the Rickmansworth Road which I should note but that was it.

I haven't actually uploaded the latest copy of this diary to my website since May 28 2015 because I'm currently finishing it off and I'm not planning on uploading it again until it's complete and somebody official is reading it.

Jun 10 2015

10:53 I want to record what I did yesterday:

Tuesday Jun 9 2015:
My usual personal grooming/body maintenance day, I trimmed my hair because it's growing out a bit now and I trimmed my body hair because my eczema was bad and I applied lots of Savlon. I washed my colours in the washing machine but I didn't dry them on the line. I made some bread dough in the new bread machine (it's the same make as the last) and then made my own loaf as usual. Because I was so busy I didn't have a cigarette in the back garden in the early afternoon.

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15:24

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I finished playing Borderlands on my PS3 yesterday and it was really addictive and also Eternal Darkness on my GameCube which I enjoyed. I'm currently taking a look at the latest 1.24 GTA V update because there's some new interesting content but I don't really play it anymore, it's got a bit stale.

Jun 15 2015

14:54 I went to Sainsbury's Chesham today because I'm low on supplies and I haven't been out since Sunday Jun 7 2015. My mother was going to get me some milk but she used my dad's mobility scooter on Saturday and it stopped working so she's had to wait for somebody to come and collect it. I rode the usual route of Pheasant Rise, Moor Road and deposited some paper and card in the recycle centre and then entered the High Street opposite The Red Lion and the town was quite busy likely because it's sunny and warm. As I've mentioned many times before I have to protect my view because my attackers keep wrestling it from me using attention grabbing techniques to inject the people they want me to be looking at so I did the same as I normally do which is looking ahead above head height in a mental state somewhere between knowing that my attackers are monitoring me and possibly preparing to set me up at any time and a relative contentedness enjoying the exercise and the sunshine.

Just up past the old Tiger's Eye shop a boy on a bicycle just appeared and rode across my path a few metres ahead close enough to get my attention. When I reached the war memorial there was a lone policeman in black without a flourescent jacket standing still looking across the High Street in my direction and he moved around as I walked past. In Sainsbury's Chesham I bought several items and paid at the self-service tills and the receipt says 14:02. There was one security guard at the desk when I entered and he was still there when I left and wasn't noticeably interested in me. I walked back down the High Street and just before the Misty Moon pub the same boy on the bicycle rode across my path but he wasn't so close this time so I detected him in my peripheral vision. I reached the war memorial and I was interested to see if the policeman was still there but he was gone.

Based on previous experience I'd say that something was going on here.

I've got a few things I want to note that have happened in the last few days but it's not a lot: Yesterday Sunday Jun 14 2015 at around 05:15 I was awoken by a loud male voice along the path behind our group of houses and I think I played something on my GP2X handheld device to get me off to sleep again -- I'm noting it because I recorded a similar thing for Sunday Jun 7 2015 but that was around 06:00. Saturday Jun 13 2015 my dad's TV remote control stopped functioning properly so I took it apart and refurbished it and he was really thankful which is nice because the previous day he bought me a new Cutter's Choice branded "Zippo" lighter for an unknown reason.

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21:37 I want to add some additional detail about my trip out today because I'm pretty certain that I'd walked into something prepared for me. The more I think about it and replay it in my mind I get the feeling that it was meant to be some sort of instillation of fear exercise. The kid for example looked the size of somebody that should've been at school and yet the majority of the people I noticed were adults. The prominent lone policeman in his black uniform reminded me of the High Street decades past. The kid appearing from nowhere closely riding across my path causing automatic capture of attention followed by the twitchy policeman just smacks of my attackers.

Jun 16 2015

10:24 I fell asleep easily last night about 01:45 but then I awoke just after 05:00 because my mother dropped something on the draining board in the kitchen and I don't think I got much if any sleep after that.

I've been playing the events of yesterday Monday Jun 15 2015 over in my mind this morning and I missed something that I did detect at the time but I countered it and I didn't think that it was out of the ordinary enough and I forgot about it but now I think I may have discovered an agent/detective in Sainsbury's Chesham: I bought several items which I wrote on my shopping list and I wasn't organised at all which resulted in me traversing the central walkway a few times backwards and forwards picking things from isles that I could've got on a previous visit but even though there was some level of randomness to my isle visits I didn't choose anything unusual and I've documented in this diary what I buy and my attackers were reading this diary so they know the locations within the store that I'm likely to visit. Additionally I told my mother in the back garden some of the items that I needed before I left the house (I've detected that my house is under complete and absolute surveillance).

One of the last items that I picked was nuts and raisins and I think I'd already visited that isle earlier for Sesame Snaps but the store has been changed and I'm still not familiar with the layout so I'm not exactly certain. I traversed the central walkway and walked around the corner into the bottom of the isle containing the nuts and raisins and right in my view possibly half way up the isle was a 30 something woman bending over out into the isle (sideways to me) looking at something half way up the shelf and I'm pretty certain that her legs were straight and her back was flat. Because that image was presented to me as I walked around the corner (that was where my gaze fell) I noticed that she was wearing light blue jeans and a shortish top that was revealing her midrift and the top (I'm assuming) of some big knickers and I have to record it to this uncomfortable level of detail because it's very likely going to be important. As soon as I realised what was in my view I looked at her face side-on and thinking about it now I feel as though she was studying something in a wide eyed adrenalin pumped state rather than a relaxed and calm state. All this happened in a fraction of a second as I walked around the corner and I immediately span around 180 degrees so that she was behind me and I walked backwards a couple of steps to where the nuts and raisins are on the bottom shelf and bent down and picked them up and walked back around the corner. This threat avoidance reaction of mine is what I mean by "countered" and it's what I'm getting used to doing so at the time I was happy that if there was a chance of that person being suspicious then I'd detected it and dealt with it and I didn't think anything else about it until this morning because I have a feeling that that woman may have been in front of me as I traversed the central walkway earlier in my visit. I'm walking around the store keeping my gaze upwards as much as possible and I get so little within my view that registers because it's all in the periphery but there's something about those light blue jeans that makes me think that she may have been hovering around me which is why I need to record this at the level of detail that I have. I have a strong suspicion that she was an agent/detective attempting to set me up.

12:32 The window cleaners visited today around 10:15.

13:00 I just want to record that the events of yesterday Monday Jun 15 2015 have placed some pressure upon my system and my heart was fluctuating weirdly this morning and my stomach was tied up and I currently feel nervous.

Jun 17 2015

10:42 I slept better last night until around 07:15 this morning. My heart has been doing some weird fluctuations and it does feel as though it's taking a beating but it's been worse and I'm fine at the moment.

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12:51 Printed off a 20 page document (letter-to-sainsburys-20150617) for Sainsbury's Chesham containing events from there and Tesco's Amersham because I don't want to keep going in there without them knowing what's really happening. This could cause my attackers to come after me but it has to be done.

14:37 I've just got out of the shower and I'm washing a few dark coloured items.

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Jun 18 2015

19:21 For the record I haven't yet given Sainsbury's Chesham my 20 page document and I think it would be better to complete this diary and give it to the IPCC first before doing things like that. My attackers are agitating me and it causes me to feel hopeless and desperate and I just want people to know about the hideous things that they're doing to me. I've come up with a better idea of moving the very personal content to another accompanying document so that it's easier to digest and that's what I'm currently doing. I've also started to go through and add some notes with some additional detail.

23:57 You know "agitating" is exactly what they're doing and they're trying to get a response that they can use against me. I said before that they're trying to make me explode and I've felt this from the start when they moved on me after the incident with my mother which leads this diary.

Jun 20 2015

10:44 I'm waking up earlier at the moment quite often around 07:00 which is annoying and then I find myself hyperventilating. I'm suffering from the same things at the moment as I normally do after my attackers have been doing something hideous to me -- it's makes me ill, my heart pounds and fluctuates weirdly, my entire system has a pressure applied to it and it agitates me and it unsettles my nerves.

12:38

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13:04 It's Father's Day tomorrow and the weather's a bit crappy today so my mother's going to get me a card when she goes to Sainsbury's Chesham later. It's saves me too from being set-up again with something and I can't physically or mentally cope with more of that at the moment.

Jun 21 2015

10:55 I went sleep about 03:00 this morning and then awoke about 05:00 and I sort of half slept until just after 09:00 when I got up. My heart is under strain at the moment and I just generally feel as though my insides have been blended.

I've got a tinned loaf proving at the moment which'll be about 30 minutes before I cook it. I got my mother to buy me some sesame seeds and honey yesterday and I'm going to make my own sesame snaps at some point.

Jun 22 2015

12:33 Yesterday Sunday Jun 21 2015 I felt terrible as though my system had taken a massive hit. About 16:30 I had a cigarette outside with my mother and at the time she was cooking a risotto which was ready soon after and then I had some lemon pie with strawberries in bed watching nothing in particular on the television and then I fell asleep fully dressed wearing a fleece! A cold wind started to blow through the house in the late afternoon and it made me feel feverish and I felt cold but my skin was burning hot and when I went to bed at midnight I had to wear my dressing gown and I cooked and sweated but I did get a good night's sleep until around 07:30. Right at this moment as I'm recording this my heart hurts.

I went out today because I didn't go out over the weekend and I wanted to buy a couple more hooks to complete my sunblind project. I rode the usual route and walked through the High Street and looked up very high for the majority of the time looking at tree tops and chimney pots and roofs and the sky to protect my view from having my attackers set me up by inserting people into it. I reached the war memorial and then rode to Sainsbury's Chesham car park and then crossed the main road and when to Wickes. In Wickes car park I saw an old longtime friend Tim Baldwin and we were probably at school together from the very start and we had a chat about his painting and decorating company amongst other things and it was nice to see him. In Wickes I bought "One Prong Hook Polished Brass Finish" and the receipt says 12:17 and it was £2.99 this time. As I approached the checkout somwewhere in the middle there was a woman in the left checkout looking my way and she came over and stood right next to the woman at my checkout as I was being served and she said "Mmm?" as though somebody behind me was saying something to her but she couldn't quite make it out so she said "Mmm?" meaning "Pardon?". I walked back through the High Street as far as the war memorial and then mounted my bicycle on the road and I heard behind me people running and I could hear they were girls and at the bottom of Station Road were a group of people who could be teenagers so possibly the schools are on holiday this week it's just that when I intially rode out it looked like a regular day. I rode up Station Road and then along East Street and I didn't have a plan on the route I was taking but I guess I took that route automatically because it just made me feel safer and I continued to ride home the usual route along Waterside and up Trapps Lane and it was as quiet as it normally is.

I definitely feel better for going out and getting some exercise but my heart is currently under some strain and my nervous system isn't right.

14:31 My mother gave me some pocket money today. I just made some Sesame Snaps for the first time and I've overcooked the sesame seeds because I'm not yet familiar with the heat setting and what exactly "lightly browned" means but I've learned from that and I'll get it right next time -- it was fun anyway.

Jun 23 2015

13:10 I slept from around 01:45 until 05:00 this morning and then again from around 06:00 to somewhere between 08:00 and 09:00. I've been backed up which I've experienced before under extreme stress and I definitely didn't go to the toilet (number two) yesterday and I don't remember going the day before that either but today I've been twice.

I've looked through my old paper diaries searching for the incident with my mother in 2012 that resulted in her hitting her head on the window frame and me making a statement at the police station and I don't have anything from June 2012 to the start of this diary so I can't remember exactly when it was but I can recall it from memory easily enough. I was using an old computer then that was several years past its life expectancy and the hard drive started clonking so I ended up using my dad's old laptop which I'm still using now and I'm sure there'll be something that I can recover from the failing/failed drive that'll be useful but it won't be easy.

Jun 30 2015

13:49 I've got some catching up to do with recent events:

Thursday Jun 25 2015:
I had a shower on this day.

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Saturday Jun 27 2015:
Another set-up day. I didn't need to buy much but I did need to get some exercise which benefits me a great deal especially since my attackers are really upsetting my system at the moment. We needed some toilet air freshener and I needed some Savlon antiseptic cream so I decided to ride to Hemel Hempstead as it was such a lovely day and it was the first time I'd ridden out this year wearing only shorts and a T-shirt. I rode down Pheasant Rise, along Latimer Road and I was aiming for the hill that goes up to Flaunden and you can get there by going through Latimer or up Blackwell Hall Lane so for a change I rode up the latter and rode through Flaunden, up to Chipperfield Road and across and eventually I dropped down to near the railway station and rode into Hemel from the far end. It was very busy there and the market was on and work was being done on the pavement so it was quite congested and I navigated towards Poundland looking high up into the sky at the tops of buildings to protect my view. In Poundland I bought two cans of air freshener for a pound which was a bargain and some sweets and the receipt says 15:19.

I couldn't find any Savlon so I left Poundland and unlocked my bicycle from a lampost and walked down the High Street again keeping my view and my head way up into the air and I found The 99p Store and I locked my bicycle down the side against another lampost. I got inside the store and in the isle just ahead were a group of teenage girls that numbered possibly four who were standing together in a group whom I detected in my peripheral vision and behind me appeared a middle aged male member of staff and that particular location was where the medicinal items were located so I looked and couldn't find any Savlon so I asked the member of staff if they had any Savlon or antiseptic cream and he pointed up past the group of girls to the right and I looked to where he was pointing and I saw the rightmost girl look at the member of staff in a wide eyed alert way which registered. I went to the section of the isle that I was directed to and there was nothing there and I went around the corner to the other side of the shelves and I didn't find it there either and the member of staff appeared with a tube of antiseptic cream that I don't normally purchase but it was all they had so I accepted it and thanked him. At the time the group of teenage girls were just shoppers to me and other than the odd look one of them gave the member of staff I didn't think there was anything suspicious about them but I did note that they were hovering around the isle where I was shopping and I didn't hear any noise from them. I stood in the queue to pay for my item (receipt says 15:29) and I was served by the very same member of staff that was behind me when I entered the store and who helped me locate the antispetic cream and he called me "Sir" at one point which I thought was far too polite for the norm.

I left The 99p Store and unlocked my bicycle and navigated across the main road and made my way back to the location that I entered Hemel but I decided to take the main road towards Bovingdon rather than using the exact same route back likely for safety reasons and for variety and as I reached the lane that goes through Ley Hill Golf Course I passed a white pick-up truck idling on the side of the lane containing a male driver with short dark hair and glasses not doing anything noticeable. I turned out of the lane past the front of the golf course and the same vehicle slowly reached the end of the lane behind me and then I indicated to turn right to take the short lane that connects with Blackwell Hall Lane and the vehicle slowly drove behind me but didn't follow and I thought it was very suspicious. It felt as though he was following me and I expect he was and was likely a local farmer who was told I was approaching. The vehicle registration I think started with "BL" and I still have a complete clear image in my mind of the event. At the bottom of Blackwell Hall Lane I rode home via Latimer Road and Chessmount Rise and I enjoyed my trip out and my mother was very happy with her air fresheners.

For the remainder of the day I played Far Cry 3 on my PS3 which is very addictive and engrossing so I didn't spend a lot of time thinking about my trip out. I noticed at 00:27 a helicopter that sounded very much like a police helicopter hovered around our end of town and I would say that there was mild fwapping of the blades and it hung around for several minutes I guess and the sound varied as though it was moving around but not over a great distance, still in our vicinity. I think it was about 06:00 when I awoke and then I realised what had happened to me -- that group of teenage girls in The 99p Store were put there and the male member of staff was told I was approaching and when he pointed me towards the antiseptic cream it caused one of the girls to think that he was pointing at them and she reacted to that. The girls hovered around the section of the isle that I was interested in and didn't say a word or do anything, they were just there. The same male member of staff served me at the tills and was overly friendly. The pick-up truck in Ley Hill was waiting for me and followed me and the helicopter at 00:27 the following morning was meant for me which made sure that everything would eventually register. So as I said at the start of this -- another set-up day.

At the moment I've got lower back pain and I'm having trouble standing up straight when I leave my chair and this goes hand-in-hand with being backed-up in the bowels and under extreme stress and the last time I suffered this was because of my attackers activities and they're doing it to me again. My health is really suffering from the framing and the ostracising that these people keep subjecting me to and they really are destroying all of my life including my body.

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My dad has very painful gout in his foot and I doubt he'll be going out for a while. A man called Graham came and installed a very nice handrail in the back garden to replace the rubbish that somebody else created. I'm currently refurbishing a PS3 controller having had success cleaning another one and correcting a drifting analogue stick (potentiometer) and very shortly I'm going to return to finishing off Far Cry 3 as I'm 88% through it. It's now 16:40 and it's taken me three hours to write this up.

July

Jul 7 2015

15:05 I've just got out of the shower. Earlier I made some bread and washed my whites which have just finished.

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I've got some catching up to do with recent events:

Wednesday Jul 1 2015:
I had a shower on this day.

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Thursday Jul 2 2015:
This was my dad's birthday and we had a selection of things to eat at the dining room table with a glass of sparkling rose and I ate a couple of platefulls and it was very nice.

Jul 11 2015

I've got some catching up to do with recent events:

Saturday Jul 4 2015:
I've had this in my mind for a whole week now but I knew something wasn't right about this day on the day. It was about 15:00 when I left the house and the previous Saturday Jun 27 2015 I'd been set-up in Hemel and had a vehicle tailing me in Ley Hill and a police helicopter hovering around our end of town mildly fwapping and I wasn't in any hurry to ride back out there again so I rode along Latimer Road with no planned destination in mind but I was thinking about visiting Tesco's Rickmansworth or Amersham. I rode up the hill to Chenies and I'd already decided before then that I couldn't be bothered to go to Rickmansworth and that I'd go to Tesco's Express in Little Chalfont which I don't think I've ever visited before and as I approached the centre of Chenies I noticed a small tall white car sitting on the road that runs past the entrance to the drive to Chenies Manor and this road is the one that I took because it goes straight up and comes out on the main road between Little Chalfont and Chorleywood and as I approached the car it drove off quickly up the drive to Chenies Manor and parked up there. As I went past I saw a handmade sign on the green area to my left which said "Musicians" at the top and "Helpers" at the bottom so I guess some event was going on in Chenies Manor. I'm also guessing that the occupant of the white car was told that I'd be riding through Chenies and possibly when it looked like I was going to ride past them they drove off up the drive.

I rode along the main road to Little Chalfont and bought some bananas in Tesco's Express (receipt says 15:41) and there was nothing else I wanted from there. In fact other than fruit I didn't need anything in particular, I just wanted to get some exercise and some sunshine and to exercise my right to do that. I then rode along White Lion Road and Stanley Hill Avenue and went over the railway bridge and rode past the police station to Hill Avenue and then out to Copperkin's Lane and down Fuller's Hill into Chesham and as I walked up the High Street looking up very high into the sky to protect my view I heard somebody on my left that I recognised as my dad (I wouldn't have seen him if he hadn't got my attention) and he questioned me about what I was doing looking up so high but I don't remember what I said other than laughing it off as being miles away. After chatting to my dad I continued up the High Street and I was thinking about going to Sainsbury's Chesham to stock-up on a few more things but I wasn't really bothered so I stopped at the Nationwide cash point to check my balance because I was planning on buying a few things through eBay and whilst I was wating for a woman to finish using the cash point (I was standing in the gutter with my bicycle looking up high) I noticed in my peripheral vision a man walking along the path who looked at me but I have no idea who he was or what he found so interesting in me. I then walked back down the High Street and saw my parents sitting outside the Brewery Shop (I think my dad may have said he was going there but I know he goes there anyway) so I stopped and chatted with them and then rode home the usual route.

I know what happened on this day: my attackers set me up in Hemel Hempstead the previous Saturday Jun 27 2015 to increase the chances that I would ride through Chenies on this day when an event was taking place i.e. they manipulated me, they knew that I would be reluctant to ride over to Hemel to be subjected to another set-up. Since then I've been out twice and I haven't detected anything and that's another sign because I've experienced that before, it's them letting me know that they've got what they wanted.

I'm going to have a break now and I'll write-up my two most recent uneventful trips out later.

Jul 13 2015

12:54 I'm going to record now my two most recent trips out.

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Thursday Jul 9 2015:
I went out just before 14:00 to Chesham and I walked up the town with my bicycle looking high up in the sky and at the tops of buildings and went into Sainsbury's Chesham and bought lots of salad vegetables which I really like this time of year. I wanted to buy some coleslaw and I was looking up so high in the isle that I couldn't see it and I was reluctant to look down any further than I was and an older female member of staff arrived stacking shelves so I asked her where it was and she paused and then said "It's down there!" and I said in a laughing way "Oh yeah, I didn't look down there". I've seen this woman before at the cigarette counter. I felt like she was responding to me in a mocking way and is likely because of what she's being told about me. There was one security guard manning the security desk by the main entrance who I think was there the entire time but I didn't detect anything suspicious in the store (receipt says 14:10).

I think I left through the car park and then rode down St Mary's Way just to be different. I then rode the usual route of Red Lion Street, Waterside and up Trapps Lane. It's was uneventful.

This was a good thing buying the salad vegetables because I haven't been eating properly which is not surprising under the circumstances. Going out with the possibility of being set-up doesn't make you want to go out shopping for groceries.

Saturday Jul 4 2015:
An interesting day. I rode into Chesham High Street and walked up to Sainsbury's Chesham looking up very high and there was a market on and it was busy but there were only a few occassions where I instinctively looked ahead and down to check where I was walking. I locked my bicycle outside Sainsbury's Chesham and went inside and bought several items and again I was looking up very high at the ceiling and the isle signs hanging from the ceiling. The only thing I detected was when I walked along past the checkouts towards the self-service area I noticed on my left in my peripheral vision a man that looked like a security guard walking towards and past me and I don't actually see them walking about very much, they're either at the security desk by the main entrance or they're somewhere else out of sight. I paid for my items (receipt says 14:47), returned to my bicycle and walked down the High Street in the narrow path along the front of the shops (the market fills up the pedestrianised street) and a hand waved at me on my left high enough to get my attention so I looked down and it was my mother who was puzzled by my looking up at the rooftops. She did ask me why I was walking along like that and asked if I was having problems with my eyes and I remember saying "You'll find out one day" but it doesn't appear as though she took any notice of that statement. After our brief chat I continued my journey looking up high and a very short distance later I instinctively looked ahead and down because it was very packed and in front of me was a woman in black jogging trousers with a small girl holding her left hand and I thought of all the people it could've been it was people like them. I don't know if it was my attackers but I think it very likely was because it was the ideal location and time to set me up as I'd just finished talking to my mother and wasn't so intensely guarded and it was very narrow and packed there.

I visited Boots Chesham and bought some much needed Clotrimazole cream to treat my eczema as I ran out weeks ago and you can only keep the infection at bay with antiseptic cream for a short while (receipt says 14:59). After Boots I rode out to St Mary's Way and went home the usual route and up Chessmount Rise. I was thinking about going for a decent bike ride but I just wanted to get home to be honest, the intensity and stress of going to the supermarket takes its toll.

Jul 14 2015

16:07 I had a shower today and trimmed my body hair on my chest and groin because my eczema is very bad at the moment, possibly the worst it's been for a very long time. I think that the oil based antiseptic cream I bought recently from The 99p Store makes the eczema worse and my skin on my face isn't too good either. I'm sure the massive amount of pressure I'm under at the moment from my attackers and my mother isn't helping either. I really need to buy the 100g tube of Savlon but I don't currently have the funds to purchase it.

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17:38 Other things I've been doing recently include going through a couple of old desktop tower computers and retrieving my parents pictures from old digital cameras which I successfully achieved. Both hard disks in one were fine so I repartitioned, reformatted and wiped them several times. In the other computer one of the disks was dead so I removed it with the intention of destroying it and I repartitioned, reformatted and wiped the other disk several times. I then installed Puppy Linux on both computers so that they're fresh to use again as backups if I ever need to. I ordered a VGA cable through eBay that ghosts at 1920x1080 so that's not much use to me and I ordered four PS3 controller potentiometers that were the wrong size for my controller so they're of no use to me either. The third party PS3 controller that arrived today though is pretty good but it's still not a patch on the official controller but as a backup it's fine. I'll have another attempt to buy the correct potentiometers because I don't need another complete official controller at £44, I just need the analogue joysticks.

Jul 16 2015

12:15 Yesterday I didn't feel well and lacked energy and I spent much of it playing PS3 and GameCube games on my TV at the end of my bed. I'm suffering similar health issues as I have done on a few occasions recently with backache and feeling a bit backed-up. My eczema in the middle of my chest at the moment is very flaky and I've been applying lots of Clotrimazole cream to it and I washed it and scrubbed it this morning. I did spend quite a while yesterday attempting to split this diary so that the very personal stuff is recorded in another document but I've tried this before and I've experienced the same problem: what exactly should and shouldn't be in here? I want to make this document easier to read but much of it is related. I'm going to try again today.

My dad's just about to go out and my mother was preparing his mobility scooter and it lost power at the end of the path outside our house so I had to go and get it back to the top of the garden. He's going to go out on the little secondary backup scooter that they normally use on coach trips and holidays.

16:46 I've had a very productive day! I've been through this diary and removed the very personal stuff and placed it into my Very Personal Diary. We'll call this the first pass because it was all marked anyway and easy to extract and the next step will be to search through this and find anything else that would be uncomfortable to read. I found a Flock of Seagulls album on YouTube that I've not heard before (The Story of a Young Heart) so I've been listening to that and it's one of those albums that are great in the background when you work and I've been working away and I feel great.

Jul 17 2015

20:25 Today I made some bread and then helped my mother make some because she's been having some difficulties -- she was really happy with the result and I wrote down the recipe for her so that she can repeat it.

Jul 21 2015

Saturday Jul 19 2015:
My mother gave me some pocket money on this day. She had a cigarette in the back garden between 21:30 and 21:45 and reported that she saw three dark faces peering over the back gate.

Jul 22 2015

14:15 I've just got out of the shower. I shaved the hair on my chest again today because my eczema in the middle of my chest is still bad but improving slowly. My mother got me a big 100g tube of Savlon from Boots Chesham on Monday Jul 20 2015 and another one for half price so I'm hoping it's going to clear up this week. Normally this time of year I ride hard across the countryside and the large amounts of sweat really kill the infection but I'm not doing that because my attackers are setting me up almost everytime I go out.

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Today I went through my last old tower computer and there's nothing salvageable so I've put it in the shed and I've destroyed the hard drive because it was dead anyway (the platters were glass so they shattered easily). My old Sony CRT TV developed thin green lines all over the screen so that's dead as well and I've put that in the back garden ready to take down the local dump/recycle centre.

16:45 I'm currently splitting this diary into Police Framing, Personal and Very Personal and adding notes and I'm a quarter way through it (line 1005) so I'm doing very well. I haven't uploaded this since May 28 2015 and it won't be uploaded again until it's finished.

16:57 I'm going to call it a day now and play some GTA Online. I've got some bread proving and I'm helping my mother make some as she's experiencing problems (she made some dough earlier and threw it away and was reluctant to talk about it!).

23:52 I've just finished playing "Uncharted 3: Drake's Deception" on PS3 and it was pretty amazing.

Jul 23 2015

21:32 Somewhere around 09:30 this morning my mother drove us both to the local dump to dispose of my old TV, tower PC and our dead hard drives. I don't think I saw anybody on the way down there. At the dump I placed the TV on the ground next to another one and a guy there told me to place the tower PC in a nearby skip. I asked him where to put the bag of hard drives and he said the same skip. On the way back I saw a car parked down by the waterfall on the river Chess and two older people were there. I then saw a woman ahead walking across the road to go down the track to the waterfall and near the bottom of Pheasant Rise there was a large woman wearing black jogging trousers followed by two small children. These people were on the right behind parked cars as we approached the bottom of the hill so initially they were out of view. Of course I wonder if they were put there. I didn't go out today with my guard up like I do at the weekends otherwise I would've sat in the car looking at the glove compartment. I really can't see why my attackers would miss an opportunity like this so they probably were put there.

00:15 It's the early hours of Saturday morning now but let's keep it here: there was something interesting about the man at the dump -- I don't think we made eye contact but I did attempt to. His eyes looked a big wide open and he looked a bit clean cut for somebody working there. He was sweeping around where the TVs are between some metal trolleys but not making a pile of anything, just sweeping. Just an observation, a bit more detail.

Jul 29 2015

13:59 I've not long been out of the shower. I've been applying a lot of Savlon to the patch of eczema in the middle of my chest over the last week and it's almost cleared up which is great because it got really bad. I've currently got some whites in the washing machine and I'm downloading "Red Faction: Guerilla - Demons of the Badlands" DLC for my PS3 because I played the game and I found it awesome so I want to play the additional prequel that I saw for £1.99 -- bargain.

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August

Aug 4 2015

14:56 I've just got out of the shower. The patch of eczema in the middle of my chest has almost completely cleared up.

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I've got a couple of recent weekend trips to document but they were completely uneventful -- I detected nothing in either of them. It's very quiet here at the moment.

I'm playing RAGE on my PS3 at the moment and I recently finished "Red Faction: Guerilla" and I've been engrossed in them and I'm having fun and enjoying the peace.

22:46 Finished RAGE and the two DLCs -- absolutely beautiful game.

Aug 5 2015

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Aug 7 2015

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I've got some catching up to do with a couple of recent trips out:

Saturday Jul 25 2015:
I went out on my bicycle along Bois Moor Road and up through Chesham Bois, through Amersham-on-the-Hill and down to Tesco's Amersham via Rectory Hill. I bought five items in there (receipt says 15:58) and rode back up Station Road, through Amersham-on-the-Hill, through Chesham Bois, down Holloway Lane, along Latimer Road and up Chessmount Rise. I didn't detect anything wrong with this trip at all, it was what I call an uneventful trip out.

Sunday Aug 2 2015:
I went out on my bicycle and deposited some paper and card in the recycle centre on the Moor Road and then rode to Chesham Underground station. I think I caught the 13:27 train and I found a free magazine somebody had left on there called Gamereactor and I read that on my way to Pinner where I exited and went to Sainsbury's Pinner and bought several items (receipt says 14:06). I them rode a route I've used many times before to reach Northwood and then took the main road to Rickmansworth and caught the train back to Amersham (I continued to read Gamereactor on the train). I then returned home the usual route down Holloway Lane, along Latimer Road and up Chessmount Rise and again I didn't detect anything wrong with this trip at all, it was what I call an uneventful trip out. It is quite interesting that I haven't been set-up for the last two weekends and I haven't even detected odd behaviour from people such as security guards in supermarkets.

Aug 8 2015

23:44 I've just finished Dead Space on my PS3 and I enjoyed it but it didn't have the addiction level of other games that I've played recently. I'm not a big fan of survival horror games but I enjoyed Resident Evil on my GameCube.

I went out today and something was going on in Tesco's Amersham but I'll document it after the weekend.

Aug 9 2015

00:15 I think a lot was going on today [Saturday Aug 8 2015] and I'm starting to realise it now! I rode up Bois Moor Hill and I saw a guy in a flourescent yellow jacket on the drive to the manor house, another in Chesham Bois, in Tesco's Amersham a small girl appeared on my left in the confectionery isle and a woman on my right, a group of identical women staff came along past the tills as I turned into their path from around an isle and they went quiet, a security guard was looking at me and pacing around the entrance as I left the self service tills and in Chesham High Street I was coming back down and actually was miles away thinking about my dad whom I met earlier and was just about to meet up with again and two girls possibly teenage came up and passed me on my right but I didn't see them only in my peripheral vision and I thought how unusual and rare it was now to experience that. I think my attackers were all over me today. Earlier it was just bits and pieces, now it's all coming together. I've no interest in any of those people, nothing, zero, I'm not drawn to them, I don't need to be near them, they do nothing for me -- I can't use the word "nothing" enough here. There is something interesting to note about this but it'll be in my Very Personal Diary and it's to do with the thoroughness of the surveillance I'm under.

Aug 10 2015

17:59 I've just come back inside after having a cigarette with my mother. She went out earlier and I asked her if it was busy out (I quite often ask her that) and she said that it was very quiet. In Sainsbury's Chesham she said is was very quiet and chatted to a member of staff about it who said that she didn't know what was going on as it was so quiet.

Aug 11 2015

19:19 I'm now more than halfway through this diary seperating it and adding notes. I've got one of the worse things to summarise out of the way -- the nudging of me along the Backs past children's groups -- which was very hard to write and to relive and I've got three simpler incidents to record that I never got around to doing and then I'll index it and it'll be done.

Aug 12 2015

17:26 I've just come back in from having a cigarette out the back with my mother. Both my parents have just returned from the town and I asked my mother again if it was busy and she said "Hmm, ummm no..." and I said "Was it as evacuated as last Monday Aug 10 2015" and she said "Funny, I spoke to somebody and said Chesham seems evacuated and said is there something you're not telling me". Interesting eh? It's dead quiet here at the moment. I think I need to hurry up with this diary.

17:54 I just want to mention that Jackie Gettings next door locked herself out of her house yesterday (I think she came out the front and when she went to go back inside she'd found that the door had closed and she hadn't put the latch up) but she did have a small downstairs window open and I climbed in and opened the door for her.

Aug 13 2015

15:24 I need to document my disturbing trip out last Saturday:

Saturday Aug 8 2015:
I think it was around 15:30 when I left the house on my bicycle and I rode along Bois Moor Road and up Bois Moor Hill and I noticed a guy in a flourescent yellow jacket standing at the entrance to the manor house but there was somebody working on the boundary of the property opposite which was to my left as I passed so I thought it might be something to do with that. I continued along to Chesham Bois and and I saw another guy wearing a flourescent yellow jacket walking ahead and away from me on the right just past the shops. I rode into Amersham-on-the-Hill and approached the pedestrian crossing and I crossed to the right to withdraw £10 from an ATM and I detected in my peripheral vision on the left of the street three people walking side by side completely wearing white. I detected this, I wasn't looking over that side of the street and my attackers have used white clothing many many times so that's why it registered. I would say that they were three young women possibly bounding along in high spirits wearing white from their head to their feet. There were lots of people about so even out of my vision in the corner of my eye they were prominent, brightly coloured and animated. Based upon previous experience and how the rest of this day went I'd say that they were agents/detectives or they were working for them and they were likely meant to attract my attention (attention grabbing). All through my experience with my attackers they've used white clothing (and black jogging trousers and beige shorts and trousers) and you get sensitised to it, they become a threat to you subconciously and it's done so that your attention can be grabbed instinctively. Maybe my attackers weren't expecting me to stop at the ATM.

I rode down Rectory Hill and along to Tesco's Amersham and locked my bicycle against the railing to the left of the entrance. I went inside and looked at the front of the newspapers, I then got some eggs and some cheese and then went to the confectionery isle and picked up a couple of bars of chocolate. I then went down the end of the isle where the bags of sweets are and there wasn't anybody else there that I noticed and I picked up a bag of fudge and thought I'd get another bag because there's a price reduction when you buy two and a woman appeared on my right and a small child on my left during this time. I don't know if they appeared when I was choosing the first bag or the second, I just became aware that they appeared either side of me quite closely. After choosing my sweets I walked around the corner of the isle and walked out onto the route that runs along past the checkouts and a group of female staff came towards me who were talking to one another but they didn't continue onwards like that, they went quiet and slowed down and dissipated a little which made me feel as though it was me they were coming for. I didn't look directly at these people as I turned the corner, I don't look at people if I can help it, but I passed them closely enough to detect that they were wearing the same dark blue jumpers perhaps and dark trousers and it just felt like a group of clones. I paid for my items at the self-service checkouts (receipt says 16:08) and as I left there I looked ahead towards the store entrance and I noticed a security guard looking at me and pacing around near the security desk. I bought some tobacco (recipt says 16:10) and left the store and there weren't any security staff pacing around then, I think there was one guy manning the security desk looking at the monitors but there was no attention being paid to me.

I left Tesco's Amersham and rode up Station Road, Hill Avenue and then took the main road to Chesham and went along Copperkin's Lane and down Fuller's Hill and then I crossed the pedestrian crossing outside the Red Lion pub and went and said hello to my dad who was drinking outside the Brewery Shop on his own as my mother was in the Misty Moon and was going to get the bus home at 17:00. I then walked up to Sainsbury's Chesham with my bicycle and bought a few more items such as granola which I like from there and I had enough space remaining within my rucksack for these additional items (reciept says 16:45). I walked back down the High Street and I was enjoying the day even with the odd things that I'd detected (it didn't all come together until midnight) and I was miles away thinking about my dad outside the Brewery Shop who I thought I'd go and see again and I detected in my peripheral vision on my right (I was looking over towards my left at the old Tiger's Eye shop) a couple of girls possibly teenage passing me on my right and I remember thinking how unusual and rare it was now to experience that. They were just people passing in the periphery, I couldn't tell you anything about them other than they weren't dressed completely from head to toe in white. I do wonder if they were put there by agents/detectives too considering everything else that was going on. I was having a nice day exercising and shopping in the sunshine, I had my guard up enough but I wasn't super paranoid and I wasn't interested in anything else. I would say for certain that I was set-up in Tesco's Amersham and if my attackers were attempting some attention grabbing in Amersham-on-the-Hill or Chesham High Street then they were way off of achieving that. Exercise, sunshine, shopping, chatting to my dad, that was what interested me on this day, nothing else.

It's now 17:19 so you can see how much work it is getting this recorded, it is a real task to do this.

17:39 I've just come in from having a cigarette with my mother and it's still dead quiet outside. I haven't had a shower this week yet! It's very off-putting knowing that you're being watched in the shower! It doesn't make you want to go and have one.

Aug 14 2015

11:30 I've just ordered a few things through eBay for my dad that he wants to donate to the stroke club: portable voice amplifier, microphone and adapter.

13:27 I've just got out of the shower which I very much needed. I've got some dark clothes in the washing machine at the moment which will finish soon but it's not a day to put them out on the line, it's dark and rainy. My mother went down the town earlier but my dad's staying in bed today.

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Aug 21 2015

13:29 I've got to get up-to-date with a few things:

My mother gave me some pocket money at the beginning of this week but I can't remember what day it was, maybe Monday Aug 17 2015.

The items that I'd ordered for my dad arrived throughout this week but they're not what he wants and so I refunded him his money and told him that I'd send them back but it's too much trouble -- it's not the seller's fault is it -- and it's easier to sell them on so the money that I did have has now gone and I'm left with the hassle of selling these items on eBay which I'll get a fraction of the value of if I can be bothered and I can't.

Thursday Aug 20 2015:
I had a shower on this day about 12:15. I washed some dark clothing.

Very personal information originally recorded here has been moved to my Very Personal Diary.

Aug 27 2015

Personal information originally recorded here has been moved to my Personal Diary.

16:28 I've just this moment come back inside from delivering a copy of my Personal Diary to Maurice Gettings next door but they're out so I've put it through their letterbox. Their little dog is closed out of the hallway so it should still be there on their return.

The Personal Diary is now completely seperated from this.

Aug 28 2015

15:14 I had a shower today.

Very personal information originally recorded here has been moved to my Very Personal Diary.

My dad's DVD player blew up yesterday and then his large LG TV stopped working only showing a red blinking light. I looked on the Internet and found somebody who'd fixed their's but his had noticeably blown capacitors and I've looked in the back of my dad's and I can't see any obvious signs of damage. If it can be fixed then it'll require a qualified engineer to take a look at it.

September

Sep 1 2015

14:04 I've found a suitable replacement TV for my dad and my mother's now ordering it from John Lewis.

I did want to go out for a bicycle ride yesterday but it rained so I didn't go out at all over the bank holiday weekend.

I've realised that I haven't recorded my last trip out so I'm going to get up-to-date now.

Saturday Aug 22 2015:
I went out on my bicycle approaching 14:00 and I withdrew my last £20 from my Nationwide account and then pushed my bicycle up to Sainsbury's Chesham and locked it against the cycle rack outside the front. I bought only medicinal items and some tobacco and paid for them at the tobacco counter and the receipt says 14:08. I didn't detect anything wrong with this visit and I don't think a security guard was at the security desk by the main entrance either.

I then rode up Amersham Hill and visited Boots in Sycamore Road and bought some clotrimazole cream for my eczema and the receipt says 14:28 so it didn't take me long to ride up there! I rode home through Chesham Bois, Holloway Lane and up Chessmount Rise and it was a nice ride and very hot in fact.

Friday Aug 28 2015:
I wrote on this day that I had a shower amongst other things but there was something odd that happened and I feel as though it should be recorded: my parents went out on this day and my mother said that she talked to our window cleaner along the road on her way out and he said that he'd send his son along to clean our windows and that he'll collect the money on Tuesday since she's on her way out and won't be at home to pay them. I got in the shower about 12:30 and I heard the window cleaner going up and down the ladder to clean our windows. It could've been half an hour after I'd got out of the shower and applied Savlon to my dry skin and put clean clothes on etc. and I was sitting at my desk in my room and I heard the window cleaner coming up the ladder to wash the windows at the back of the house and normally they'll (there's normally more than one window cleaner) clean the rear windows straight after the front so that was odd. At some point later on he knocked on the front door and I went down and he said "Is your mum there?" and I said "No..." and I attempted to continue what I wanted to say but he talked over me so I gave up and he said that he'll collect the money on Tuesday and that he's off to Southend and sprinted off up the steps. There were three odd things there and I feel as though I should get them written down but it's just detail, it doesn't have to mean anything.

Sep 10 2015

12:48 I've got some catching up to do:

Monday Sep 7 2015:
I can't remember the exact time but somewhere between 12:30 and 13:30 my mother asked me to open the back gate as she wanted to take some garden rubbish to the local tip and she said that she'd take some old electrical items down as well so I brought them downstairs and took them out the back gate and a woman wearing black combat trousers, black polo shirt and possibly black boots came around the corner towards me with a grey greyhound type dog and she said "Sorry" as I manoeuvred past and I did see a small white square logo on the left of her top but I spent most of the time watching the dog as it passed since it wasn't on a lead. I reached the road at the end of the alley expecting to find my mother's car but she hadn't brought it down so I stood there for a while looking up the hill wondering what she was going to do and then turned around and right in my gaze was the back and backside of the woman (it's where my gaze fell) who hadn't got very far (three houses along by the steps) and I felt this shock or alertness in my system as though she was a threat. I wasn't expecting her to be there at all and was surprised that she was still there and she appeared to be dawdling and playing with something in her right hand (maybe a phone) and the dog had gone up the alley ahead of her a way. I've been thinking about this for the last few days and it seems very suspicious to me, her black combat attire, her sudden appearance, her hanging around behind me, very strange. The last time that I went out was Saturday Aug 22 2015 and I haven't been out the back gate since then and the only time I went out the front was on Thursday Aug 27 2015 went I popped next door to the Gettings household so it's even more amazing that somebody so suspicious should just appear as I leave my back gate over that period.

Very personal information originally recorded here has been moved to my Very Personal Diary.

Tuesday Sep 8 2015:
I went out on this day because I needed some tropical granola (I asked my dad for £2 because I don't currently have any money) and I also wanted to enquire within the local office bureau about the file formats that they support for printing documents. I rode down Trapps Lane and along Waterside and entered the High Street opposite the Red Lion pub and walked up to the recycle centre and deposited some paper and card and also a small bag of non-recyclable plastic food wrapping that I put into the litter bin. I then rode to Sainsbury's Chesham through their car park and I bought some tropical granola and paid at the self service tills (receipt says 13:52). I didn't notice a security guard at the monitor station by the entrance when I walked in but there was one there when I exited the store wearing a yellow flourescent jacket. I detected nothing wrong with this trip out. I walked back down the High Street and rode home from red Lion Street and up Trapps Lane and I went along Whichcote Gardens for a change which I haven't done for a while and I did this because of that suspicious combat attired woman on Monday Sep 7 2015 -- I wanted to push back against my attackers and exercise my freedom to go where I want.

Wednesday Sep 9 2015:
I chose a new TV for my dad, my mother ordered it from John Lewis and it arrived today and I assembled it and installed it and it's really nice, he's really happy with it and it supports Freeview HD which is a new feature for TVs in our household. I've kept his other one with the intention of seeing if I can identify the faulty component and it's a long shot but worth the trouble.

17:34 I had a shower today after having a shave about 14:30, I applied Savlon to my eczema which wasn't too bad and it was 15:18 when I finally sat down at my desk.

Very personal information originally recorded here has been moved to my Very Personal Diary.

Sep 15 2015

18:00 I had a shower today, got in about 13:15 and finished at 14:00.

Very personal information originally recorded here has been moved to my Very Personal Diary.

Friday Sep 11 2015:
My mother gave me some pocket money on this day.

Saturday Sep 12 2015:
An old friend of mine Ian Pearce visited in the evening and it was nice to see him again. I think it was at least 20 years since we'd last seen each other so we had a good chat.

I want to note something that is very interesting and it's about the quietness here: on Jul 23 2014 I noted that a noisy group of children walked along the path behind our house about 8:30 in the morning which I guess is them going to school which was normal once upon a time but it's an ambient sound that has been missing for a long time which is why I noticed it. The same can be said for the noise of children getting off of the bus just down the road about 16:30. It's just that there were two recent events of this noisy activity and the timing I've found quite interesting: one was a group of noisy children going along the path behind our house I guess on their first day of school after the Summer Holidays (I don't know when that was) and then within the first week of September a group of noisy children got off of the bus about 16:30 coming back from school and the interesting thing about the latter is that I didn't have a shower that week, I completely lost track of time and a week disappeared and I didn't realise it and that is also when I recorded the combat attired woman just appearing and hanging about outside our back gate as I took some rubbish out on Monday Sep 7 2015. It's now gone quiet again. I shall certainly be more aware of it when I hear it again and I'll note it. I did think on Jul 23 2014 that my attackers were attempting to link that to something within my life and after the interesting timing of these last two events I'd say that they are.

Sep 23 2015


Notes:

The following was written on Feb 19 2016:

I kept notes for this but I struggled at the time to keep this diary up-to-date and so it's being fleshed out now.

My parents went away for a short break on this day and I think it might've been Bath. Having the day to myself felt very liberating and I had a cigarette in the shed whilst looking at my bicycle around 10:30 -- I could do what I wanted without having to explain why. I had another at the usual time around 12:30 and then I went out on my bicycle with the intention of visiting Sainsbury's Chesham around 13:30. I rode down Pheasant Rise and reached the junction at the bottom and to my left I saw a young girl crossing the road someway down towards the Pheasant pub and to my right there looked like there were a group of kids playing in the stream behind the bushes and trees so it's pretty safe to say that the schools were on holiday this week. I can't remember if I rode along Waterside or Moor Road but it was one of them and then I rode Red Lion Street, St Mary's Way and into Sainsbury's Chesham via their car park. In the store I bought some tobacco only (receipt says 13:46) and then returned home the same way I'd came. I had cigarettes in the back garden around the usual times of 17:30 and 19:30 and whilst I was sitting at my desk around 21:50 I saw flashing emergency vehicle lights through the thin strip of my blind that isn't covered by a sunblind and I expect that this was the police again sitting outside the back of my house or going down the hill slowly putting their lights on to send me a message which they've done many times before. I had another cigarette around 22:30 just because I wanted one and I could.


Sep 24 2015

21:41 I'm having a great deal of problems writing in this diary at the moment. I'm not too far away from indexing it at the top and printing it but I've sat here and attempted to update it so many times recently and I can't do it, it's repellent, I end up surfing the Internet or playing something on my PS3 instead.

I've got some catching up to do which again I've had trouble attempting to do but I can do it now.

Saturday Sep 19 2015:
The last time I went out was Tuesday Sep 8 2015 to get some tropical granola from Sainsbury's Chesham and before that it was Saturday Aug 22 2015 to Chesham and Amersham which is not good so I decided to go into London to get my shopping and to ride my bicycle. I think I went out about 13:30 but it could've been 14:00. I took the Chesham Underground train, leaned my bicycle against a central pole and sat down on a seat that has another facing it and read the Evening Standard that somebody had left on the train and there was also a fashion magazine that wasn't of any interest to me. A few stations later I finished reading the paper and moved to a side seat near my bicycle so that I could keep my foot on the rear tyre just in case it moved. At some point a woman got on and sat on a side seat a couple of seats along from me (I had my rucksack in the seat next to me). A short time later she moved to the seats opposite me where I'd previously sat and she looked at the magazine. A few stops later the train started filling up and I grabbed my rucksack so that it wasn't occupying a seat and a woman and small child got on and they occupied the side seats next to me and the child was actually stting in the seat next to me that my rucksack had previously occupied. I don't look at people to protect myself and I couldn't tell you anything about this woman and child because I was looking rightwards at my bicycle and they were on my left. A couple of times the child leant against my arm I guess because it was moving about and on one occasion it was as though it had put its arm over mine on the armrest and into my personal space but kids aren't familiar with shared armrest protocol and I just ignored it and kept looking at my bike. I got off at Harrow-on-the-Hill and I think I'd spent two or maybe three stops with this woman and child next to me so all of these people entered with a gap between them between maybe Rickmansworth or Moor Park and Northwood Hills or Pinner and then of course a few stops later I exited. The only other thing that was noteworthy was a middle aged man who entered and stood opposite me by the doors and I noticed through my peripheral vision that he looked at me a few times but I was either looking at my bicycle or at the Underground map above his head. At Harrow-on-the-Hill I carried my bicycle up the stairs and made my way towards the wide gate and a male member of staff moved nearby and said very loudly "It's slow" but I don't know who he was talking to or what it was about.

From Harrow-on-the-Hill I rode to Tesco's Extra Wembley which is by the North Circular not too far away from Ikea and I've used that branch many times before and it's a nice big store (receipt says 15:41). I then rode back to Pinner, took the train to Moor Park and caught the Chesham train and returned home riding up Chessmount Rise. I did have a nice ride although my level of fitness is not really very good currently unsurprisingly and my heart really pounds even exiting the back gate because I could be set-up from right outside my house but I got some exercise, got out of the house and bought a dozen items that amazingly all fitted into my rucksack and the weather was lovely.

By the evening I began to think that something was suspicious with the outward train journey with the child sitting next to me touching me on a few occasions and the unnervingly loud and prominent Tube male member of staff at Harrow-on-the-Hill. As I'm writing this now I'd say that it was a set-up for the train cameras and operators and earlier today I asked myself the question how could they guarantee that nobody else occupied the seat next to me and then I remembered about the woman who did indeed occupy the seat next to my rucksack and who relocated before the woman and child got on. She moved, I removed my rucksack, that left two seats for the woman and child to occupy. I expect the guy by the door who kept looking at me was another agent/detective overseeing it all.

I just want to go outside in the nice sunny weather, get some exercise and groceries, go somewhere where there are real people of all ages who are normal and not agents, that's all.

Sep 25 2015

23:07 I had a shower today around 12:45. I washed some dark coloured clothes but I didn't put them out on the line because the weather looked a bit untrustworthy.

Very personal information originally recorded here has been moved to my Very Personal Diary.

Sep 26 2015

10:06 Just a note to say that I was awoken this morning by a group of young sounding people in high spirits who were talking loudly at 7:57 somewhere around here. It sounded like they'd exited a house together and were in party mood. It really is that rare to hear which is why I'm noting it.

00:22 It's the early hours of the following morning now but I just wanted to note that Bev from across the street knocked on our door earlier asking about the bus service from the town up to here so I told her that my mother uses it on a Saturday and where she boards it from and she was very nice and grateful. My parents arrived home today after a nice trip and my mother bought me some Stonehenge chocolates and a postcard.

Sep 29 2015

20:26 I had a shower today around 13:45. I made some bread. I didn't do any laundry because I'm up-to-date at the moment.

Very personal information originally recorded here has been moved to my Very Personal Diary.

Sep 30 2015

21:45 There was a knock on the door this morning at 8:05 and I went down in my dressing gown and answered it and it was the window cleaner -- I then got dressed and opened the back gate for them. My mother got up and went down to the kitchen, the window cleaners went to the rear of the house straight after doing the front and she wasn't impressed with their early visit and put that across to them in an annoyed but nice way. I did say to them that they normally visit on a Friday and one of them said "Do we?" and then he said "We're a bit behind at the moment."

October

Oct 1 2015

16:45 I've got some catching-up to do with recent events and I went out today and I think I detected a set-up but it was subtle and I need to get this recorded first:

I was recently sent in the post (Monday Sep 21 2015) a claim for a debt that's many years old and it's an official court document so I filled it out this morning and I needed to post it so that was my primary reason for going out and I was also out of salad vegetables so I wanted to visit Sainsbury's Chesham too. I told my mother I was popping down the town and she asked me to get her a Daily Telegraph. It was around 13:30 when I left the house and I rode the usual route of Pheasant Rise, Moor Road and Red Lion Street, I walked into the High Street on the crossing outside the Red Lion pub and it's been a lovely warm day and I was enjoying it. I locked my bike against a sign post outside the Post Office, walked in and there was a queue and I stood behind a woman who was possibly shorter than me by a few inches, who had longish hair and I think was wearing jeans but I didn't look at her directly and it wasn't bright in there either and at the time she was just a person in a queue. The reason why I'm recording this in such detail is because I think that she was in Sainsbury's Chesham too but I'll get to that soon. The first thing I did in the Post Office was look ahead at the counter to see what's going on because I'm in the queue not too far away from the door and I'm looking for some reassuring activity which makes me feel as though some progress is being made and I saw an Indian looking male member of staff -- who was serving somebody -- look in my direction but I just thought he was keeping an eye on the length of the queue but he did it a few times whilst he was busily serving the customer and it did feel as though he was looking at me rather than past me but I don't know if this is the case, I stopped looking. After this I stood sideways with plenty of personal space and looked at the rack of greetings cards for most of the time except for a few more glances up ahead to see why the queue wasn't moving and it did take a long time to move. The problem appeared to be a guy with a couple of big packages who was talking about his money cards as well and the other member of staff was on the phone. People behind me started to sigh and cough and moan, an elderly woman behind me left and then the woman in front of me left too. I was eventually served by the other member of staff and I sent my letter signed for (receipt says 13:59) and then collected my bicycle and went to Sainsbury's Chesham.

In Sainsbury's Chesham I bought some salad vegetables and and sesame snaps, chocolate and biscuits and paid for my items at the self-service tills (receipt says 14:13) and walked towards the newspapers and a woman who fitted the description of the woman who was standing in front of me in the post office was walking there too but I didn't look at her, I was looking at the general area of the newpapers and I couldn't tell you where she came from, she was just there as I made my way there and I don't even know what she did there, whether she got a newspaper or not, and she left that section and went into the vegetable isle and I looked for the Daily Telegraph and there weren't any, the stand for that paper was empty which I thought was unusual so I left the store. There were two security guards at the security desk by the doors, one was behind the desk and the other was leaning on it and they were chatting.

I walked down the high Street and bought the Daily Telegraph in the Bulldog newsagents and rode home the usual route of Red Lion Street, Waterside and up Trapps lane.

I think it was about 16:00 when I started to think that something was going on today. I've just had a cigarette in the back garden with my mother and she said that it was very unusual for there not to be any Daily Telegraphs in Sainsbury's Chesham for the time that I visited. Was the post office told that I was visiting, was the male member of staff looking at me because he was expecting me, was the woman in front of me an agent/detective, was she the same woman heading towards the newspaper section in Sainsbury's Chesham, were the security guards monitoring me? I could just say that it was nothing but my attackers set me up regularly and they know everything that goes on in my house so they'll know that I'd prepared a letter and will post it and they'll know that my mother asked me to get her a Daily Telegraph so why would they not set me up.

As is usually the case, a couple of hours of my time have been wasted writing this garbage up and I've had enough now, I'm going to play some "Last of Us: Factions" multiplayer on my PS3 and I'll have to catch-up with other recent events later. I really would like to say that what I've described above is nothing but I can't say that. I'm happy that I've managed to get it written down though because I'm really struggling at the moment.

Oct 2 2015

20:47 I awoke about 7:30 this morning I think but it might've been earlier. I played something on my GBA SP for a while because it helps me back to sleep and I heard the rare sound of children's voices going to school around 8:30 possibly. It's not a consistent ambient sound of life, it's as though it's very selective and I do wonder why that is. I did say previously that it's like an evacuated zone outside and the noise of people has very much disappeared and I said that I'd record noise so that I can attempt to see patterns so that's why I'm writing this.

Oct 3 2015


Notes:

The following was written on Feb 19 2016:

I kept notes for this but I struggled at the time to keep this diary up-to-date and so it's being fleshed out now.

A police helicopter flew overhead when I was having a cigarette outside in the back garden somewhere between 12:30 and 13:30 and another at 17:30.


Oct 4 2015


Notes:

The following was written on May 11 2016:

I kept notes for this but I struggled at the time to keep this diary up-to-date and so it's being fleshed out now.

I went to Watford on the train with my bicycle. I rode from Watford Underground station using the usual route of Cassiobury Park Avenue and my first stop was Sainsbury's Watford where I bought a couple of items (receipt says 14:23). I then rode down to Poundworld and when I entered the store the security guard -- whom I've seen many times before -- was escorting a small boy from the store and he walked past me so closely that I had to shift over a little so that we didn't bump into one another and he said to the child "We'll get you somewhere safe". I felt as though it was done in an obvious way so that I would be aware of it, that it was meant for me to see and experience. I'd say that this is related to the event on Saturday Sep 19 2015 that I recorded on Sep 24 2015 when the woman and child sat next to me and the child touched my arm on the armrest. I guess my attackers are trying to communicate to me, that they want me to think that I'm not safe around children. All I can really say about that is that on Sunday Nov 8 2015 I recorded that I'd discovered that my attackers have been setting me up when I've been experiencing a swollen prostate gland restricting my urethra and irritation from my eczema causing inflammation and heat from my groin and at this point I didn't realise that they were doing that.

I bought four items in Poundworld (receipt says 14:31) and then went into The Harlequin shopping centre to Boots and bought some clotrimazole cream for my eczema (receipt says 14:35) and a police looking man entered the shopping centre as I left. He was wearing black trousers, shoes and jacket with a white shirt and walking into the store quite briskly keeping over to the shop fronts and looking down as though I was meant to notice him. I then rode down towards Waterfields with the intention of riding the Ebury Way and two police cars drove along the road near the entrance to Waterfields. I rode the Ebury Way back to Rickmansworth and caught the train back to Chesham.


Oct 6 2015

20:29 I'm getting way behind again recording trips out because I'm really struggling with this attack on me -- it's relentless and incredibly destructive but I've written some notes and I've got the receipts and I remember events very well anyway.

Today is Tuesday and I would normally have a shave, shower and do some laundry but my parents aren't going to the stroke club so I'll do it tomorrow or Thursday. I did make some bread though and it came out huge which is fantastic.

Today I was watching some Graham Norton Show clips on YouTube and again I heard some loud childrens voices about the time the bus comes up the hill which is 16:20 or thereabouts and it's so unusual and rare now that I said I'd record it just in case there's a pattern to detect. I did go out last Sunday Oct 4 2015 to Watford which I haven't documented yet and something disturbing was going on and I did ride back along the Ebury Way so if something unusual happens this week then it needs to be recorded.

I'm going to try to get this up-to-date tomorrow because I should be moving forward to finish this, not get behind with it.

Oct 7 2015

16:00 I can bring this diary up-to-date now.

Monday Sep 21 2015:
Received court documents/claim for an old credit card debt (8 years maybe?) which is actually a good thing I guess because now it's being handled by the courts rather than the shady debt collectors. I do find the timing of this rather interesting because my attackers are being very intense at the moment and I do wonder if they've had a hand in this.

Tuesday Sep 22 2015:
Personal information originally recorded here has been moved to my Personal Diary.

Oct 8 2015


Notes:

The following was written on May 12 2016:

I kept notes for this but I struggled at the time to keep this diary up-to-date and so it's being added now.

Shower and personal maintenance day, really bad eczema so trimmed body hair.

Very personal information originally recorded here has been moved to my Very Personal Diary.


Oct 16 2015


Notes:

The following was written on May 12 2016:

I kept notes for this but I struggled at the time to keep this diary up-to-date and so it's being added now.

Police type helicopter (unmarked grey) came over my house low during 17:00 cigarette, went up the valley and then returned over the other side.


Oct 17 2015


Notes:

The following was written on May 12 2016:

I kept notes for this but I struggled at the time to keep this diary up-to-date and so it's being added now.

I had a shower on this day.

Very personal information originally recorded here has been moved to my Very Personal Diary.


Oct 24 2015


Notes:

The following was written on May 12 2016:

I kept notes for this but I struggled at the time to keep this diary up-to-date and so it's being added now.

I had a shower on this day.

Very personal information originally recorded here has been moved to my Very Personal Diary.


Oct 25 2015


Notes:

The following was written on May 12 2016:

I kept notes for this but I struggled at the time to keep this diary up-to-date and so it's being added now.

Watford trip, completely uneventful, had inflammation free groin for a change -- I think very much that that is why I was left alone. Visited Tesco Waterfields and bought a couple of items (receipt says 13:52), Argos Waterfields and bought Far Cry 4 for my PS3 (receipt says 13:59), the 99p Store and bought some sweets (receipt says 14:09) and Poundland and bought some more sweets (receipt says 14:14).

Found my gpg passphrase to not work (I type it without thinking) and I can't now remember the middle part.


Oct 31 2015


Notes:

The following was written on May 12 2016:

I kept notes for this but I struggled at the time to keep this diary up-to-date and so it's being added now.

I had a shower on this day.

Very personal information originally recorded here has been moved to my Very Personal Diary.


November

Nov 2 2015


Notes:

The following was written on May 12 2016:

I kept notes for this but I struggled at the time to keep this diary up-to-date and so it's being added now.

Paid the first £5 towards my debt over the phone but next time I'll do it online.


Nov 6 2015


Notes:

The following was written on May 12 2016:

I kept notes for this but I struggled at the time to keep this diary up-to-date and so it's being added now.

I wrote a program to attempt to brute force my gpg passphrase and I'm very surprised that I haven't cracked it, it's very very strange. I've given up now because it would require a supercomputer to take it any further!


Nov 7 2015


Notes:

The following was written on May 12 2016:

I kept notes for this but I struggled at the time to keep this diary up-to-date and so it's being added now.

I had a shower on this day.

Very personal information originally recorded here has been moved to my Very Personal Diary.


Nov 8 2015

09:53 I was awoken this morning at 3:48 by a noise that sounded like somebody knocking on the front door by opening and dropping the letterbox cover twice -- I heard some voices around somewhere and then a car went down the hill. I couldn't get back to sleep after that and played Advance Wars 2 on my GBA SP until 8:45. I did hear my mother moving about and groaning in her room at the time as though the noise slightly registered with her but I've just asked her if she heard anything and she says she didn't.

I have a suspicion that it was Thames Valley Police because yesterday was my personal grooming/body maintenance day (shower etc.) and my mother returned home from the town on the 17:00 bus and we went out for a cigarette shortly afterwards and it was windy out the back so we decided between us to go out the front under the cover of the porch and this was the first time I'd been outside the house other than the back garden on my personal grooming/body maintenance day for a very long time, possibly a year and a half.

I want to go out today and I want to get this diary up-to-date and since I last went out on Sunday Oct 25 2015 I've discovered what my attackers are doing to me: I'll record this in more detail later -- I get a swollen prostate gland which causes a restriction and irritation in my urethra and I've also got eczema in my groin so I can get a lot of inflammation and irritation coming from that region and I have documented this which I've recorded in my Very Personal Diary and Thames Valley Police have had access to this information and were reading it on my website and what they've been doing is monitoring the heat/inflammation coming from my groin and when it's at a certain level they've set me up by hovering women and children around me and warning people about me. What made me realise this was my Sunday Oct 25 2015 Watford trip which was completely uneventful and for a change I had hardly any inflammation and irritation in my groin. I think my attackers wanted this to register with me which is why I was left alone. I also think that they've been intentionally making my health worse by intimidating me to stay in (amongst other things) so that I end up sitting all day on my prostate gland causing it to inflame. I have noticed that the inflammation has been getting worse and the last week for example I've been sitting on two folded cushions so that there's a gap down the middle to keep the pressure off of that region. I am shocked to realise that that's what they've been doing, I must be a great prize to somebody. I did say on Jan 29 2014 that "somebody has my name on a cell somewhere and is manipulating me into it".

Nov 9 2015

14:07 I've just walked down the town via Whichcote Gardens, The Backs, Station Road and I've deposited some money into my bank account, visited Sainsbury's Chesham and bought some toiletries, tobacco and the Daily Telegraph for my mother and it was another uneventful trip out (I currently have minimal inflammation in my groin area and prostate). There was one security guard at the desk by the door in Sainsbury's but he didn't pay any interest to me and the older lady at the cigarette counter was pleasant, no odd reactions or anything (receipt says 13:40). I walked back along Waterside, up Gordon Road, Springfield Road and back along Whichcote Gardens.

Personal information originally recorded here has been moved to my Personal Diary.

00:07 It's just gone midnight but I want to record this here: when I went out the afternoon just passed I decided to go for a walk because it was windy and I fancied a change and I don't think I've walked down to the town since my bicycle was delivered on Friday May 2 2014 -- I rode everywhere after that because I felt safer. I also didn't take my rucksack out with me. I did upload this diary to my website the evening just passed but it's not publically visible yet, I just feel safer having it accessible there.

Nov 11 2015

15:02 I had a shower today around 14:15.

Very personal information originally recorded here has been moved to my Very Personal Diary.

Nov 15 2015

Saturday Nov 14 2015:
I had a shower on this day.

Very personal information originally recorded here has been moved to my Very Personal Diary.

The weather is currently terrible so I'm not going out today. I do need some Savlon and clotrimazole cream for my eczema so I might go out in the week or ask my mother to get them for me.

Nov 19 2015

15:13 I had a shower today around 13:30.

Nov 22 2015

Saturday Nov 21 2015:
I had a shower on this day.

Very personal information originally recorded here has been moved to my Very Personal Diary.

11:19 I've still got September and October to document yet but I've kept notes and all of these experiences stay fresh in my mind anyway.

The window cleaner guy visited Thursday or Friday morning around 9:30 and I didn't hear him knock but my mother was downstairs and she said that he did.

I'm uploading this now to my website and I'm linking it to the main page so that it's publically visible, the first time for this reformatted version.

11:43 I've just taken four Ibuprofen tablets to deal with any excessive heat I may have from inflammation within my groin area due to my prostate gland so if I do go out today then I've done as much as I can to reduce the heat signature for my attackers who are pointing highly sensitive thermal imaging equipment at my genitals. It sounds funny the way that I've written that but it's not meant to be, just facts.

12:26 I've just come back in from having a cigarette with my mother in the back garden and she said that last night somebody threw an egg at the back door and she washed it off this morning. She also said that last week (Friday I think) my dad went out on his mobility scooter and popped into the newsagents along Waterside and when he came out some things were missing from the basket such as gloves and a hat. I don't know a lot about this but she has mentioned that he has been hassled by children when he's on his scooter along Whichcote Gardens and possibly other places as well like Waterside. I think it's been going on for a while but I don't get told about it a great deal, just little bits of information.

Personal information originally recorded here has been moved to my Personal Diary.

Actually I did hear some kids voices and running about along the path behind our house yesterday evening, I'm wondering now if that's when the egg was thrown.

Nov 23 2015

14:18 I've just got back from Chesham town. My mother was out so I told my dad not to get up in case he had a fall and as usual he was very happy to stay in bed in the warm.

I went out about 13:30, walked along The Backs, down Station Road, up the High Street and into Sainsbury's Chesham and bought several items (receipt says 13:51). I walked back down the High Street, Red Lion Street, Waterside, up Springfield Road and back along Whichcote Gardens so I used two normal routes for some variety.

I detected absolutely nothing wrong with this trip out so this is another uneventful trip.

I do currently have some inflammation in my groin but it's minor and I consumed and passed plenty of water before I left and I took four Ibuprofen anti-inflammatory tablets as well. I did put on my thermals on Saturday but yesterday Sunday I had to remove the bottoms because my groin was burning from the heat and making things worse so I'm leaving them off.

Oh yeah, I didn't wear my rucksack today, I took an old Tesco's bag because I wanted to buy some big items.

I'm uploading this to my website now.

Nov 28 2015

10:35 I've got a lot of catching up to do here but I just need to record a few things from last week at the moment:

Thursday Nov 26 2015:
I had a shower on this day. I also made some bread and washed some coloured clothing.

Very personal information originally recorded here has been moved to my Very Personal Diary.

A couple of interesting things happened and I think it was Wednesday Nov 25 2015 and Thursday Nov 26 2015: on the first of those days at some point in the late evening a very bright flash of light could be seen in the part of my window that wasn't covered by a sunblind and it lasted for a fraction of a second. I thought it was strange because of its intensity and its duration and at the time I thought it might've been a torch as I couldn't see how it could've originated from a vehicle and I couldn't hear any vehicle noise either. I also feel as though the angle was perpendicular to the house. On the second of those days at 22:28 or 22:38 an emergency vehicle with flashing lights came up the hill at speed which was probably a police car because there was no noise that you would associate with a vehicle larger than that, then at 22:46 (my clock was 5 minutes fast so deduct 5 minutes from those times) I'm assuming the same vehicle came back down the hill and was outside with its flashing lights on but it looked as though it was stationary or moving very slowly. I've experienced flashing emergency vehicle lights from vehicles that appear to be sitting outside my house on numerous occasions throughout this diary (the last being Saturday Mar 28 2015) and it makes me think about what I may have done to cause my attackers to be signalling me and then I realised that I'd uploaded this reformatted diary to my website and made it publically visible for the first time on Saturday Nov 21 2015 so I think that they are responding to that, letting me know that they have read it. I think that they had a car over the other side of the valley with one of their high powered floodlights that they've illuminated me with many times before and they've shone it at my window for long enough for me to notice and then reinforced that with a police car sitting outside my house that flashes its emergency lights for a second or more.

I want to note that I made one last effort to brute force my gpg passphrase that has stopped working and I did report that it was a couple of digits that I couldn't remember and I so I tried to brute force it with four digits in that area and I didn't find it. I think it's very very strange that I haven't been able to crack it. I have used it to encrypt many old archived personal files few of which I would ever want to view again and the most important file I've recreated and I'm now using a new passphrase so it's not the end of the world. I am lucky that I didn't use it to encrypt my diary on my computer because I did think about doing that at one point. It has crossed my mind that somebody may have gained entry to my computer and sabotaged my gpg passphrase so I have done a lot of checking into that but I haven't discovered anything yet. The loss of the files is not an issue anymore, I'm more interested in discovering if the passhpase has been changed.

12:27 I'm uploading this to my website now.

15:24 I've not been in long from going down to Chesham town to buy a few things. I went along The Backs again and dropped down Station Road and withdrew some money from my account. I then visited Sainsbury's Chesham and there were two security guards by the security desk at the door as I walked in but they weren't obviously interested in me. I attempted to walk into the magazine isle where I was expecting the birthday cards to be but a woman and child had just entered it so I didn't go in straight away because it could've been a set-up so I looked around the ends of the isles and the corner of the adjacent isle and couldn't see the cards and then entered the magazine isle, didn't find the cards, found them eventually in the adjacent isle. I then made my way over to the biscuits and confectionery isles and bought a few things and I did hear over the PA system that the duty manager was being called over to the customer services desk at the time. I made my way back to the tills down the laundry powder isle and a female member of staff was standing at the end of the isle as I turned the corner and another one was at the end of the adjacent isle. I paid for my items at the self-service tills (receipt says 14:49), made my way towards the door and there was just one security guard there who took no interest in me and there were queues of people at the cigarette/customer services counter. I didn't detect anything wrong with my Sainsbury's Chesham shopping experience, I'm just recording everything in detail for reference. I walked back down the High Street and I wasn't being paranoid about where I was looking, I was just mostly looking down but looking here and there in a relatively relaxed way and I looked at the clock tower as I passed and a small girl was sitting at the bottom on the step but I'm just recording it, there were lots of people of all ages around but it needs to be noted. I walked along Waterside, up Gordon Road and Springfield Road and along Whichcote Gardens so I used the same route as I did when I went out last Monday Nov 23 2015.

The birthday card and confectionery I bought for my mother who's birthday it is tomorrow.

I just want to add that I didn't wear my rucksack when I went down the town today and I had no irritation or noticeable inflammation in my groin area from my eczema and dodgy prostate gland. There's always some heat coming from there but I'm doing everything that I can to minimise it so that my attackers don't set me up when I go out.

I'm recording this as an uneventful trip out.


Notes:

The following was written on Dec 7 2015:

I've changed my mind about this trip out and I'm reclassifying it as a "possible event".


16:20 I'm uploading this to my website now.

December

Dec 1 2015

23:53 My mother told me that she spoke to Derek next door earlier today and he said that he and Beverley are selling their house and that the house is too big for just the two of them (their daughter has moved out) and that they're going to downsize to something smaller and cheaper. It sounds like an odd excuse to me because these houses aren't big and what exactly is going to be cheaper than these -- they're typical late 1960s terraced ex-council properties. He said that a sign is going up soon and I'll be interested to see what they're asking for it.


Notes:

The following was written on Dec 7 2015:

My mother only initially gave me the quick version of this story and now that I know the whole story (which I won't write here) it now makes sense.


Monday Nov 30 2015:
I had a shower on this day. I also made some bread and washed some coloured clothing.

Very personal information originally recorded here has been moved to my Very Personal Diary.

Dec 2 2015

12:11 I've just made my second monthly £5 payment to Wright Hassall using the website.

Dec 7 2015

14:46 I went out today but I need to get up-to-date with some recent events first:

Friday Dec 4 2015:
I had a shower on this day.

Very personal information originally recorded here has been moved to my Very Personal Diary.

Saturday Dec 5 2015:
I was thinking about going out on Sunday but the weather was terrible and I decided around 16:30 to go out on this day and get some supplies so I walked into Chesham along Waterside and popped into WHSmith and looked for a magazine called The MagPi which has a Raspberry Pi Zero computer attached to the front cover but unsurprisingly they didn't have it -- I think only a select number of stores are going to have this. I then walked up to Sainsbury's Chesham and walked around the corner and in my view outside the main entrance were a group of young women and one of them had their back to me and was wearing black jogging trousers so I quickly looked away from them. Because my attackers have sensitised me to women wearing these trousers I can tell you that I experienced a feeling of shock and intense awareness of what's in my view -- it's a response that I have been conditioned into exhibiting, my attackers have programmed this into me. At the time it was getting dark and the light level was low so I couldn't tell you anything else about this group except that they were tall and were quiet so all I can say is that they were young women. I didn't continue to think about this for the remainder of the day, they were in my view when I walked around the corner and then I looked away, it didn't register as anything that I needed to think about. I walked into the store and there was one security guard at the desk and I bought several items and I didn't experience anything odd in there at all and I paid for my items at the self-service tills (receipt says 17:01) and then the lone security guard at the desk by the door walked off. I walked home the same way I'd came and I felt really good that I'd managed to walk into town without being set-up and enjoyed yet another uneventful trip out. I did have some heat coming from my groin because of my prostate gland but it wasn't intense and there was no pain or irritation so that's as good as it gets -- there's always some heat and to be honest I don't know what the norm is. I didn't take my rucksack as I wanted to get some big items and since I'm not currently riding my bicycle I'm quite happy for the moment to just take a plastic bag.

About 1:30 the following morning when I was in bed playing something on my GBA a thought hit me that that group of young women (girls even) were put there by my attackers and that it was intentional that one of them was wearing black jogging trousers and was in that spot outside the main doors with her back to me so that I would walk around the corner and I'd be looking at them, therefore I'm not going to classify this trip out as uneventful, I think I will define it as "possible event". I did note some things about my trip out to Sainsbury's Chesham the previous Saturday Nov 28 2015 and I classified it as uneventful but I've been thinking about it since and especially with what I've just recorded above I'm going to change it to "possible event" also.

17:01 Today I took a walk into Chesham along The Backs and down Station Road and into Nationwide to deposit some money into my account (my mother gave me some pocket money last Friday Dec 4 2015). I then walked up to Sainsbury's Chesham and there was one security guard at the security desk when I entered and I bought a few items including some milk for my parents as my mother is ill in bed with toothache after having it drilled out and filled last week. I paid for my items at the self-service tills (receipt says 14:09) and considered buying my mother The Daily Telegraph at the cigarette counter but there was a huge queue so I left the store and I saw one security guard at his desk casually chatting to somebody. I then walked down the High Street and bought a paper in the Bulldog newsagents and then returned home the usual route along Waterside. There was nothing at all to note about this trip, it was completely uneventful and at this moment I can't think of anything that was odd -- a rare experience. I still have some heat coming from my groin (when don't I!?) as I checked it before I left the house but I don't know exactly how different it is to what I'd experienced on Saturday, but I think it's a little less.

I still have Wednesday Sep 23 2015 to Saturday Nov 7 2015 remaining to be fully documented but I've had enough now, I'm going out for a cigarette and then continue playing inFamous on my PS3.

17:37 I'm uploading this to my website now.

2016

January

Jan 8 2016

12:02 I have a massive update to do here but I've kept brief notes for everything.

Tuesday Dec 8 2015:
I had a shower on this day.

Very personal information originally recorded here has been moved to my Very Personal Diary.

Saturday Dec 12 2015:
I walked down to Chesham but I don't remember if I went along The Backs although I expect that I did. I visited Sainsbury's Chesham and there was no security guard at the security desk by the front door when I entered the store. I bought many items (receipt says 15:33) and passed a big white security guard wearing a black T-shirt standing at the security desk whom could've been looking at me as I made my way to the cigarette counter but I didn't look at him directly, I just noticed that he was looking out across the store as opposed to down at the monitors. I bought The Daily Mail for my mother at the cigarette counter (receipt says 15:35) and then walked home through the town, Waterside, Gordon Road, Springfield Road -- the exact same route that I normally take.

At 19:50 I saw the flashing of emergency vehicle lights at the back of my house.

The previous Saturday Dec 5 2015 I noted the group of young women or girls standing outside Sainsbury's Chesham's main entrance with one of them wearing black jogging trousers and the next Saturday Dec 19 2015 -- which I shall soon document -- a girl ran past me from behind very quickly and very closely (automatic attention grabbing) wearing beige trousers which have been used repeatedly in the same way as black jogging trousers and based upon my experiences of this time last year I would say that all of these events were designed to attempt to dissuade me from visiting the town over the busier Christmas period. Additionally on Wednesday Dec 23 2015 -- which I shall soon document -- an older guy walked in behind me at Springfield Road from the flats and a man was sitting on the steps at the top of Jacobs Ladder which I felt was intimidating and could've been agents/detectives following and monitoring me.

Monday Dec 14 2015:
I had a shower on this day.

Very personal information originally recorded here has been moved to my Very Personal Diary.

Friday Dec 18 2015:
I had a shower on this day.

Very personal information originally recorded here has been moved to my Very Personal Diary.

Jan 18 2016

13:57 Continuing my massive update:

Saturday Dec 19 2015:
Walked down Springfield Road, Gordon Road, Waterside, Red Lion Street, High Street and into Sainsbury's Chesham and noted one security guard at the security desk by the front door on entrance. I bought several items (receipt says 16:48) and noted one security guard at the same spot on exit. I walked down the High Steet and just past Greggs/Baker's Oven a girl possibly in her early teens ran past me from behind very fast and very close (almost touching) and I instinctively looked at her head and I could see through my peripheral vision that she was wearing beige trousers and then I looked away and realised that she was in the employ of my attackers; automatic attention grabbing, beige trousers -- it's their signature. I continued walking rather startled and noticed in my peripheral vision that she slowed down and stopped next to a small girl possibly half her height and then I passed them and returned home the same way I'd came. I'm guessing that some attempt was being made to dissuade me from going into town or even going out generally.

Monday Dec 21 2015:
I had a shower on this day.

Very personal information originally recorded here has been moved to my Very Personal Diary.

Wednesday Dec 23 2015:
I needed some tobacco to last me over Christmas because I was running low (my existing packet actually ran out on the 27th) and I had today and the following day to make my mind up so I decided around 16:40 to get it today so that I didn't have to go out Christmas Eve. I walked to Springfield Road and an older guy walked in behind me from the flats to the left of the entrance to The Backs although I didn't see him exiting the flats, he was just there. I was smoking a cigarette by this time and I decided to continue walking along The Backs to enjoy my cigarette in peace and I sped up to create some space between me and the guy who'd walked in behind me. I reached the top of Jacob's Ladder and there was a big guy wearing a jacket with the hood up sitting on the steps and I thought OK, a guy's walked in behind me and there's another hanging out along The Backs with his hood up in the dark and I wondered if they were agents/detectives. I continued along The Backs, down Station Road, up to Sainsbury's Chesham and bought some tobacco (receipt says 16:58) and some Ibupofen tablets and liquorice allsorts (receipt says 17:02) and noted one security guard on entrance and exit at his usual security desk by the main doors. I walked home along Waterside, Gordon Road, Springfield Road -- the usual route. Other than the two guys along The Backs I detected nothing. There's a possibility that the two guys were agents/detectives monitoring or intimidating me but I don't know if that's the case or not, it was just unusual and I'm recording it.

There was something else that happened in the evening that I've heard many times before and I've often wondered what the point of it was -- it was a car came up the hill at speed and tooted its horn a few times and in the past I've wondered who was it that they could possibly be tooting at. It's not a consistent event and at the time of writing this (Jan 18 2016) I haven't heard it since and it hasn't caught my attention enough in the past for me to put any more thought into it but on Friday Jan 1 2016 I note that it's been incredibly quiet over Christmas and the New Year and it's still like that now so I'm wondering whether it was my attackers signalling to me that they've said something about me to the community. I don't know, I'm just recording stuff, I just want to detect patterns so if it happens again then I'll be more aware of it.

Monday Dec 28 2015:
I had a shower on this day.

Very personal information originally recorded here has been moved to my Very Personal Diary.

Jan 28 2016

11:29 Continuing my massive update which again is running away from me -- so much material, it's overwhelming like a flood.

Tuesday Dec 29 2015:
I walked along The Backs, down Station Road and into the town and deposited some money that I was given over the Christmas period into my account (receipt says 14:00). I then walked up to Sainsbury's Chesham and bought one item (receipt says 14:08) and noted one security guard at the security desk by the main doors on entrance and exit. I returned home along Waterside, Gordon Road, Springfield Road -- the usual route. I didn't detect anything odd during this trip out.

Thursday Dec 31 2015:
I had a shower on this day.

Very personal information originally recorded here has been moved to my Very Personal Diary.

Friday Jan 1 2016:
It's been incredibly quiet here all Christmas and New Year. It feels like the area has been evacuated again.

Sunday Jan 3 2016:
I walked along The Backs, down Station Road and up to Sainsbury's Chesham. I bought several items (receipt says 15:29) and some tobacco (receipt says 15:32) and didn't see any security guards. I noted lots of people about of all ages. I returned home along Waterside, Gordon Road, Springfield Road -- the usual route. I didn't detect anything odd during this trip out.

16:10 I've just made my third monthly £5 payment to Wright Hassall using the website.

Monday Jan 4 2016:
I had a shower on this day and trimmed my body hair for health reasons (eczema).

Very personal information originally recorded here has been moved to my Very Personal Diary.

Tuesday Jan 5 2016:
I walked along The Backs, down Station Road and into the town and deposited some money into my account (receipt says 13:48) that my mother gave me to purchase a DVD player for. I then walked up to Sainsbury's Chesham and bought a few items (receipt says 13:56) and noted one security guard at the security desk by the main doors on entrance and exit. I returned home along Waterside, Gordon Road, Springfield Road -- the usual route. I didn't detect anything odd during this trip out.

Thursday Jan 7 2016:
The DVD player that I ordered for my dad using my eBay account arrived and I took delivery of two packages for numbers 2 and 4 which they collected later in the day. When Bev from number 4 knocked on our door I answered it and my mother came into the hallway and then extended the conversation which mostly didn't involve me but I stood there because I felt as though it would be rude just to walk off and I flicked between making eye contact with Bev and looking at the door post and she turned a security pass round that was hanging around her neck. I didn't notice that she was wearing one and wasn't looking at it but it looks as though she thought I was and I just wanted to note that she felt the need to hide it.

Saturday Jan 9 2016:
I had a shower on this day.

Very personal information originally recorded here has been moved to my Very Personal Diary.

Sunday Jan 10 2016:
I walked along The Backs, down Station Road and withdrew some money from my bank account and then took the train to Watford. On exit at Watford station I walked through the car park at the front on the right for some way and then crossed the road to walk on the left side and I saw some way down the road on the side that I was crossing to a woman jogging wearing a bright pink top and black trousers. I do quite often leave the station and walk across the road from the outset but sometimes I don't and today was a day that I didn't. Further along the road (Cassiobury Park Avenue) I heard her coming up behind me slowly and as she passed me closely on my right I looked over to the houses on the right and kept my view there for a long time until I could hardly detect her in my peripheral vision and by that time she had reached the end of the road and was barely visible and then she disappeared around the corner. I want to note that when she passed me I got the feeling that she had quite a substantial backside but as I said I was looking at the houses along the right but I could gauge her physical size enough in my peripheral vision. I took this woman to be an agent/detective and probably did right from the moment I first saw her coming up the road. I don't think that my attackers expected me to leave the train station on the right and I think that she was positioned down the road on the left waiting for me to exit the station but of course I saw her coming when I crossed the road. I think that she was designed to trigger automatic grabbing of attention.

In Watford I first looked for Argos but it had gone -- there is some construction work going on there -- and I went into the shopping centre using the left-hand door and a guard opened it for the person in front of me and I thanked him for keeping it open. I looked at the shirts in Primark but I didn't like them and then I went into BHS and found one I liked but it had a pull on the left arm so I left there and continued through the shopping centre and exited at the other end and there was a guard standing just up from the doors. I visited Argos Waterfields and bought a new PS3 controller (receipt says 14:05), walked back up the High Street and bought some sweets and deodorant for my dad in The 99p Store (receipt says 14:24), found Poundworld to be too busy and so I left and then made my way back to the train. I walked home along The Backs.

Jan 29 2016

11:05 Continuing my massive update and I'm catching up now.

Wednesday Jan 13 2016:
I had a shower on this day.

Very personal information originally recorded here has been moved to my Very Personal Diary.

Two cheap PS3 games (they're nearly all cheap now) that I'd ordered through eBay arrived in the post on this day and one was signed-for but it was just posted through the door and I have experienced this before but a while ago now and I didn't record it in here. None of the signed-for pull-off stickers had been removed from the packaging. I don't know why they do that, maybe the postman is simply comfortable taking responsibility for the package and the local delivery office is comfortable accepting that. I'm not complaining, I'm just noting it, the package reached me so there's no problem, it's just that I've signed for dozens of items over the years.

Thursday Jan 14 2016:
A GameCube RGB SCART cable arrived in the post on this day and was signed-for but it was just posted through the door -- again. One of the signed-for pull-off stickers (the topmost one) was removed from the packaging. I'm just noting it, the package arrived so there's no problem.

17:24 My mother has just returned from the town and she saw the postman this morning and said that it was our usual postman who must've been in a hurry because he ran off back up the steps. She also said that the postman yesterday wasn't our usual postman.

Friday Jan 15 2016:
I Walked along The Backs, down Station Road and up the High Street to Sainsbury's Chesham. I noted one security guard on entrance and exit and I bought several items (receipt says 14:09) and The Daily Telegraph for my mother (receipt says 14:12). I walked back down the High Street, Red Lion Street, Waterside, Gordon Road and Springfield Road. I detected nothing.

Jan 31 2016

14:45 Continuing my massive update:

Sunday Jan 17 2016:
I walked along The Backs and caught the train to Harrow-on-the-Hill. I did actually say to my mother that I was going to Watford before I left the house which I'm noting because conversation in our house is listened to. At some point before Moor Park -- which could've been Rickmansworth -- a 20 something asian male with a definite thin black moustache and maybe some other minor facial hair on his chin, big headphones, walked up to me and asked for assistance with travelling to Woolwich Arsenal and he said that this was his first time using the tube and unluckily for him there was repair work being carried out on the line which meant Harrow-on-the-Hill was the end of the line. He spoke English and what he did speak he spoke well but I got the impression that he wasn't fully understanding what I was saying but he had the Underground map open on his smart phone and I explained that he's going to have to make his way to Marylebone on the diesel which I was hoping and expecting to be running from Harrow-on-the-Hill and then walk the short distance along the road to Baker Street station which I explained was the hub and then he could ask for assistance there. I sit in one of the two side seats where the carriages join and there are two opposite and he sat next to me and the seats opposite were empty. We discussed his journey and got up and looked at the partial Underground map inside the carriage on a few occasions and at some point two people got on (a white 40 something male and an asian 40 something female) and they occupied the seats opposite us and looked at one another and chatted a lot and quietly. I was studying the Underground map above their heads and I flicked my eyes down to look at her face and then back up to the map and then did the same with the man. I don't know if they were agents/detectives but they could've been and I did think about the possibility that they were. I talked to the guy sitting next to me about his journey and I did ask him where he got on just to make conversation and he said "I don't know" and I just assumed that he didn't understand me and I said "Nevermind, it's not important". He did tell me that he was going for a job interview and that's going to be some commute because Woolwich Arsenal is bottom-right of the Underground map and we're top-left!

Once we'd reached Harrow-on-the-Hill I told him to follow me and I could see the diesel train sitting at platform 1 or 2 and I told him that he's going to need to board a train like that so we went up the stairs and I checked with a member of staff that the diesels are running up to Marylebone and he said that they were so I told the guy to go to platform 2 and we shook hands and I guess he was really grateful for my assistance and I felt good about helping him on his way. I did have a look afterwards at a complete Underground map on a sign and he needed to take the Bakerloo line to Oxford Circus which he could actually take from Marylebone if he works that out, the Central line to Bank and then the Docklands Light Railway (DLR) for a dozen stops to the end at Woolwhich Arsenal.

In Harrow-on-the-Hill I visited BHS to see if they stocked the shirt I was looking for but the mens department was nothing compared to Watford's and most of the shirts were sleeveless so I left there and went to Poundworld but that was very busy with big queues so I went back to the train and went to Watford. In BHS Watford I took the shirt that I liked that had a pull on the arm to the male staff member and he went to check if they had another one in stock but they didn't and then he and his female colleague checked the computer at the payment desk and he couldn't find it online so I went and chose another shirt I liked equally as much and bought that instead (receipt says 14:55). When I left the store I passed a tiny HMV which I didn't realise was there and popped inside to look for a Blu-ray DVD that perhaps my dad and I would both like but in the end I saw Groundhog Day which I wanted so I bought that quite cheaply in fact (receipt says 15:02). I continued all the way through the shopping centre and out the other end (no security guards manning the doors today), visited Poundworld and bought a few things for all of us (receipt says 15:21) and then made my way back to the train, caught the Amersham train from Moor Park to Chalfont and Latimer and then the Chesham train arrived about 20 to 25 minutes later. I had a nice day, bought some nice things, did a good deed, walked a lot, detected no problems with anyone anywhere -- great.

February

Feb 1 2016

16:34 Continuing my massive update:

Monday Jan 18 2016:
Very personal information originally recorded here has been moved to my Very Personal Diary.

Tuesday Jan 19 2016:
Our usual postman delivered a power lead that I'd ordered for my mother's Roberts radio using my eBay account and he knocked on the door because it was too big to go through the letterbox and I took delivery of it and said "Thanks very much" and our interaction was normal. I'm simply looking for behavioural changes that I can document in anybody that I can trace back to my attackers.

Feb 2 2016

19:31 I've just made my fourth monthly £5 payment to Wright Hassall using the website.

April

Apr 14 2016

16:01 Continuing my massive update (I have an IPCC reference number now so it's spurred me on). I want to note that this stuff had already been written other than a few events and I couldn't insert it properly because I wanted to keep the flow so it had to wait until the motivation returned.

Wednesday Jan 20 2016:
I had a shower on this day.

Very personal information originally recorded here has been moved to my Very Personal Diary.

I was hoping to get back to my now usual Monday and Thursday/Friday routine but my mother's not going out much at the moment so I was expecting to shower Monday but it ended up being today.

Monday Jan 25 2016:
13:32 Just got in from having a cigarette in the back garden and a small white light aircraft came up the valley and then turned towards my house and flew over me low.

Tuesday Jan 26 2016:
I went out along The Backs, down Station Road and into the High Street and up to Sainsbury's Chesham. The security guard on entrance did look up from his monitor at me as I walked past him to his right so he was taking an interest in me. I noticed through my peripheral vision that when I walked down one medicinal isle and back up the adjoining one a woman was either walking into the same isle or she was already there and she was wearing black trousers which could've been jogging trousers and she was standing and looking at the isle on my left whereas I was doing the opposite. I didn't look at her at all, she simply registered as being there and I didn't register her being anywhere else around me in the store -- I do wonder now if she was an agent/detective.

There was an old man with a walking frame who walked towards me as I made my way to the self-service tills who said "Hello" but I don't know him and he did the same thing recently between Sainsbury's Chesham and the Misty Moon pub which must've been Friday Jan 15 2016. I mentioned this to my mother because I thought that perhaps it was somebody that she knew but the description I gave of him didn't ring any bells.

I paid at the self-service tills (receipt says 14:06) and then bought some tobacco at the cigarette counter (receipt says 14:07). When I left the store I think another security guard appeared and talked to the existing one and I've seen this many times before but I wonder now if they were comparing notes so there is a possibility that that woman was following me around but I didn't notice.

I walked down the High Street and into Pearces hardware store to buy some light bulbs for my mother. I walked into the store and stood behind an older man at the counter. A staff member (older man) walked towards me and said "Hello" as I stood in the isle in front of the counter but it wasn't a happy smiley hello, it was expressionless. He then returned to me from behind and asked if he could help me and he got me the light bulbs (receipt says 14:14). It could be that the people at my destinations were warned that I was coming but I didn't detect anything else.

In the morning I changed my underwear and in the bathroom I strip washed my groin area and applied Savlon to my eczemous skin and this can result in a temporary firming effect (a mild erection). Was this why people at my destinations were warned that I was visiting their stores today (my attackers listen to the conversations in our household), why there was a woman in black jogging trousers in Sainsbury's Chesham?

I returned down the High Street, Red Lion Street, Waterside, Gordon Road and Springfield Road.

The potentiometers from China that I'd ordered for my PS3 controller arrived today. Amazingly it only took twelve days for a tiny package to reach me.

Wednesday Jan 27 2016:
Strip washed groin because of burning and irritation, cleaned with bleachy water, then lots of clotrimazole anti-fungal cream. The application of clotrimazole worked very well so I applied some more in the bathroom at midnight before getting into bed.

Thursday Jan 28 2016:
I had a shower on this day. I applied more clotrimazole to my groin area as it worked very well yesterday.

Very personal information originally recorded here has been moved to my Very Personal Diary.

The window cleaner knocked on the front door just after I'd exited the shower so I got dressed and went down and spoke to him and opened the back gate. The weather was nice and I had a chat with him and it was pleasant.

Friday Jan 29 2016:
I had a cigarette today about midday and I smoked it in the shed because there is a terrible wind gusting up here on the hills. I went out earlier about 12:45 to 12:50 as I wanted to see if that old man with a walking frame appeared somewhere and said "Hello" but I didn't see him. I walked along The Backs and heard an emergency vehicle siren whilst along there and a police van drove down Station Road as I reached it and I saw it parked outside the Douglas McMinn Centre, a meeting place for OAPs as far as I know. I withdrew ten pounds from Nationwide and then walked up to Sainsbury's Chesham and there were two security guards at the security desk by the main doors chatting away to one another and I walked past them and deposited two batteries in the recyle point and I was interested to see if they noticed me but they didn't, they continued chatting and I guess they haven't been notified of my arrival today. I bought several mostly toiletries and medicinal items (receipt says 13:06) and The Daily Telegraph for my mother (receipt says 13:08) and both security guards were still chatting away to one another as I left the store. I walked down the High Street and a charity lady asked me to purchase a smiley face keyring for £3 and I said "No thanks, I don't have a job" and she said "Thanks for being polite" so I'm assuming most people aren't. I returned home along Red Lion Street, Waterside, Gordon Road, Springfield Road -- the usual route and other than the police van there's nothing else to note.

I drank lots of squash this morning and went to the toilet maybe three times to keep my urethra flushed through as I have some irritation and some heat there at the moment (prostate gland) but it's improving. I know it's my prostate gland because after urinating a little more can leak out later because of the restriction. It was much less noticeable after I'd returned home from my walk which is unsurprising as exercise is known to be good for the prostate gland.

My mother said yesterday that Derek next door had someone interested in buying his house -- a family consisting of a banker, his wife and three children -- but the man told Derek that he was no longer interested because his wife didn't think that she wanted to continue to live in this country anymore and I though that that was quite interesting. I would've thought that you would want to get rid of those uncertainties before even looking, not leave it so close to the deal. He's got lots of interest in the property anyway.

Saturday Jan 30 2016:
The irritation/inflammation and heat in my groin area has mostly gone. Last night I again applied some clotrimazole to my groin area along with clean underwear and it's worked its magic overnight so this morning I had a shower and applied Savlon and put clean clothes on to help maintain my current health level. I really need to get some more vests and possibly underpants so I may go and buy those over the weekend from Primark I expect since they'll suffice and it's what I can afford.

My mother gave me some pocket money today.

15:12 I've just returned from the town. I needed to get a few things and I was playing with the idea of going to a Primark to buy some underwear but it's freezing out there so I just bought a few things in the supermarket. I walked along The Backs and down the cobbled path by the church because I wanted to deposit some paper and card in the recycle centre so I visited there first and then walked up to Sainsbury's Chesham through their car park. I deposited a couple of old remote batteries in the recycle point that my mother gave me yesterday and there was one security guard at the security desk by the main doors who was looking into the store but he didn't pay any obvious attention to me as I passed him. I bought some bread as I don't have the time at the moment to make my own and some air freshener for the toilet which ran out several days ago and a few other food items (receipt says 14:51) and the same security guard was in the same spot as I left. I walked home through the town which was very busy because the market's on, Red Lion Street, Waterside and Gordon Road. Lots of people about of all ages along The Backs, in the town and Sainsbury's Chesham. I detected nothing today.

15:49 There was something to note about my trip out: by Bulldog newsagents on my way out a man asked me for directions to Moor Road and I said "Do you know this area at all?" and he said "Not really, I want Chesham Bois" so I explained how to get there. I've just wondered why he asked me when the town is full of people and the market's on. It's a totally normal thing to get asked for directions which is why it can be so easily forgotten. I'm just wondering whether it's something agents/detectives do to a target.

16:39 I just want to finish this by suggesting that it's possible that the man asking me for directions today could've been an agent/detective checking me out because my routine was quite different today and I took a slightly different route into town with a package (recyclable paper and card). I have said that I think that they're trying to make me explode. I feel as though my attackers are intentionally agitating me in an attempt to provoke a response.

Apr 15 2016

Monday Feb 1 2016:
I had a shower on this day.

Very personal information originally recorded here has been moved to my Very Personal Diary.

Thursday Feb 4 2016:
12:04 I've just got in from having a cigarette in the back garden. A white light aircraft came across the valley and straight over my house whilst I was out there at 11:55.

13:01 I've just returned from the town. I went out at the time I did today because I made some bread dough and I started to prove it about 12:10 and it takes about an hour and a half this time of the year. I washed my trousers yesterday and I want to apply some more black fabric dye to a couple of patches before I wear them again so I went out in my tracksuit bottoms and trainers and I took my rucksack because I needed to get a bottle of squash and it's just easier to put weighty stuff on your back. On Monday Nov 9 2015 I started to note that I wasn't using my rucksack when I went out and so this is the first time today that I've used it. I walked along The Backs the entire length and continued towards Waitrose as I didn't need to go into the High Street first. I walked down the side of Waitrose and into Sainsbury's Chesham and one security guard was at his security desk by the main doors on a mobile phone. I stood in the queue at the self-service tills and it was busy and I did notice in my peripheral vision that a woman wearing black jogging trousers was using a till. When a till became available for use I took it and it was the till to the left of the woman wearing black jogging trousers. I bought several items (receipt says 12:31) and put them into my rucksack and made my way to the cigarette counter and the woman wearing black jogging trousers was still at her till so she was there a long time. When I passed the security guard he looked up from his monitor and took an interest in me as I walked past. I bought The Daily Telegraph for my mother (receipt says 12:35) and walked home through the High Street, Red Lion Street, Waterside, Gordon Road and Springfield Road.

An interesting day I'd say -- there could've been something going on.

14:15 I'll tell you what else I did this morning which I've been doing a lot again now either in the bathroom at night or first thing: applying Savlon or clotrimazole cream to my groin area to assist in preventing my eczemous skin from inflamming because otherwise I could go out with a varying amount of heat there and then they'll set me up and frame me. I've started doing this regularly again because of my attackers. I know now what was going on today -- when I applied the Savlon this morning to my groin area it can have a temporary firming effect (a mild erection) and that's why they sent the white light aircraft over my house when I was having a cigarette earlier, that's why there was a woman wearing black jogging trousers spending a long time at the self-service tills and I must say it's quite interesting that all the tills were occupied (unusual in itself) and the first one to become available was next to her, and then the security guard took an interest in me as I walked past. Was I being set-up there? Was I intentionally placed beside that woman? Is the security guard in on it or has he been told I'm following women in black jogging trousers? Was that a stage and were they all actors and does he know that?

I wanted to leave the following statement until I'd got this document into a more complete state but I will still and I also want to say it now: I'm not addicted to looking at women in an attractive/sexually attractive way, my sexuality does not require females at all (I'm not declaring that my sexuality is fluid rather I'm stating that I'm quite content with just myself at this point in my life). I stopped finding women attractive/sexually attractive outside the house in late September 2013 after the set-up with the young woman on the Chalfont and Latimer platform and I simply switched that part of my life off at that point because my freedom is important to me. I can switch it off so easily because it is not a requirement of my existence, it's not necessary, I don't need it in any fraction. I need to state this now because you wouldn't think that by the way that I'm constantly being set-up. There is nothing happening in my life that is changing this. I'm not fighting an urge to be attracted/sexually attracted to somebody, I'm not having to force myself to refrain from doing it, there was zero effort in switching it off and there is zero effort in keeping it off. I can't say this enough: NOTHING about me changes this. It is absolutely no challenge to me to not find anybody outside the house attractive/sexually attractive ever again for the rest of my life, it is now my default state. I think it's very likely that my reality has been intentionally saturated with pneumatic female agents/detectives for at least ten years but it could possibly go back to 2002 when I returned to the UK from the Canary Islands and became interested in nationalist politics.

17:26 I thought I'd already mentioned the following somewhere but I haven't (possibly I was just thinking it) that I'd become quite numb now to their Automatic Attention Grabbing by Subliminal Spatial Cues events and I put this down to not being fearful and paranoid when going outside. It's not surprising is it really that if you go out calm or relatively calm then it's harder for people to get your attention.

19:37 I should add some more detail about my time at the self-service tills in Sainsbury's Chesham today: I stood in the queue and there was one other person in front of me. I scanned across the tills and they were all occupied and immediately in front of me was a female staff member who manages the tills whom I haven't seen before and the other side of her was the leftmost till which I would eventually occupy and to the right of that was the female wearing black jogging trousers. I waited and looked up to the left at the tops of the main doors to keep my view up there and I didn't notice anyone going past so there was no point in scanning across the tills again because they must all still be occupied. Eventually the person in the leftmost till left and I waited momentarily for the female staff member to point me to the now vacant till which is what they normally do and she didn't do that so I made my way to the vacant till because as far as I knew it was the only one available and it was by me so I used it.

23:01 I'm never going to finish this at this rate. I'm struggling to get it up-to-date and they keep adding to it.

Friday Feb 5 2016:
I had a shower on this day.

Very personal information originally recorded here has been moved to my Very Personal Diary.

18:53 Before I get carried away focusing on the white light aircraft and the set-up yesterday being down to myself having a mild erection as a result of the application of Savlon to my groin area to deal with my eczema and the inflammation, DON'T overlook the fact that I used my rucksack for the first time since stopping using it in November 2015.

Saturday Feb 6 2016:
16:00 What exactly are they doing when they buzz me with the white light aircraft? Are they saying that if I go out then they'll set me up?

Sunday Feb 7 2016:
16:26 I went out today about 15:30 only down to Sainsbury's Chesham to buy a few things. I didn't wear my rucksack today. I walked along The Backs and it was empty other than a female with a colourful jumper some distance ahead. At the top of Jacob's Ladder there were some little kids sitting on the steps and I eventually caught up with the female wearing the colourful jumper approaching the train station and she'd stopped and had her back to me and was holding up a mobile phone and I looked rightwards as I passed (the only time I looked at her directly was when I first noticed that somebody was up ahead and she was a small figure in the distance) and I guess she was a teenage girl, quite portly and wearing black leggings which I am describing from my peripheral vision. Based upon experience she could've been put there by my attackers.

In Sainsbury's Chesham there was no security guard visible on entrance and it was very busy in there and there was a big queue at the self-service tills. I bought several items (receipt says 15:47) including some things for my mother and I queued at the self-service tills and again looked up above the main doors to protect my view in case something was being set-up. I then visited the cigarette counter and a security guard was at his security desk by the main doors and there were no newspapers remaining so I just bought my mother some cigarettes (receipt says 15:50). I walked back through the High Street, Red Lion Street, Waterside, Gordon Road and Springfield Road. Despite the fact that there was a very cold strong wind there were quite a few people about of all ages.

23:41 I wonder what it is that my attackers are up to at the moment. I went out last Thursday and they set me up and I showered the following day. I went out today and I've detected something that has their signature and I quite often shower tomorrow. Are they trying to create links or do they want me to think that they are trying to create links?

23:54 Let me add just a little bit more detail about The Backs today: as I approached Jacob's Ladder there were a couple of little kids sitting on the steps and there was another person which could've been an older kid bending over away from me towards the railway line and I detected this through my peripheral vision as I was looking down and ahead and as I've said many times before, I don't look at people if I can help it because when I go out I'm on a stage and there are actors everywhere and it's dangerous to look at people. I'm just wondering if they were part of something as well.

So now I'm thinking shall I shower tomorrow or not? Part of me says stick to the routine and part of me says don't! Shall I flip a coin?

I forgot to mention that I am now applying Savlon or clotrimazole to my groin area at night now before bedtime rather than doing it in the morning.

Apr 20 2016

Tuesday Feb 9 2016:
I had a shower on this day.

Very personal information originally recorded here has been moved to my Very Personal Diary.

Lee-Anne popped round somewhere between 15:30 and 16:00 asking for my mother because she's been helping Lee-Anne's mother with her health.

Wednesday Feb 10 2016:
14:01 I left some bread dough proving and I walked down the town just after 13:00. I walked along The Backs with my rucksack containing some recyclable paper and card and some non-recyclable various plastic wrappings and junk. I dropped down the cobbled path by the church which I now have been reminded is Punch Bowl Lane and walked up the High Street, down the side of Darvell's bakery and deposited the recyclable paper and card into the skip and the plastic junk went into the litter bin. I then walked up the car park and into Sainsbury's Chesham car park and into the store and there was one security guard at his security desk by the main doors. I bought three items and another security guard had appeared next to the other one and was looking in my direction as I approached the self-service tills. I paid for my items (receipt says 13:25) and the second security guard went off somewhere leaving the first one who looked at me as I walked past. I'm not familiar with these guards, they were a couple of Pakistani or Indian looking chaps and they currently seem to be getting through a lot of different security staff in there at the moment. It wasn't that far in the past that I remember seing the same security guards in there every time I went in so I'm just mentioning it because it's interesting. I walked back down the High Street, Red Lion Street where a police car drove past me towards Amersham at the bottom of Punch Bowl Lane, Waterside, Gordon Road and Springfield Road. I don't think that I go out at all now where there isn't something going on but I didn't detect anything obvious.

16:17 I feel strange at the moment as though I was at the centre of something when I went out earlier. Was it the rucksack again?

Thursday Feb 11 2016:
18:27 I said to my mother earlier that I'm off out to get some milk (my attackers would have heard me says that since they monitor everything we say) and she waited for me to return before she went out so that there's always somebody in to keep an eye on my dad in case he falls. I wore my new shirt which was a bit brave because it was still chilly out and I took my rucksack for the four pints of milk. I walked along The Backs and down Punch Bowl Lane and up the High Street to Sainsbury's Chesham and there was no security guard to be seen when I entered. I bought four pints of milk only and paid for it at the self-service tills (receipt says 13:06) and there must be ten tills and only possibly three were occupied which is very different to what I recorded for last Thursday Feb 4 2016 when they were all occupied and I had to take the till next to the female wearing black jogging trousers. I left the store and still no security guard to be seen which is very unusual and I walked down the High Street looking for a card shop and I initially passed it but then went back and found it next to Gregg's; I bought my parents a golden wedding anniversary card (receipt says 13:19). I walked home along the bottom as usual -- Red Lion Street, Waterside and Gordon Road. I detected nothing today.

19:21 I did something last night and I'm wondering whether it has had an effect on today's trip out: I zipped up these three wiki documents and emailed them to myself as an additional backup and there's a lot of information here (including a declaration about my sexuality) that hasn't been uploaded to my website yet (the last upload I did was Dec 7 2015) and I'm wondering whether they've intercepted it and have read it. I don't know, I'm just recording this because it could be important. With the amount of surveillance I'm under it would be ridiculous if my attackers stated that they're not monitoring my Internet activity.

21:25 My dad just called my mother from his room and I heard that his speech sounded slurred so I went and had a look and he was having an epileptic seizure so we got him back into bed and it passed and then it came back again and now it's gone. The left-hand side of his face was twitching and he couldn't speak properly and we've told him to throw his book or the TV remote on the floor to make a bang in future instead of making his way to his bedroom door and trying to speak. Scary stuff to witness, unsettling.

Saturday Feb 13 2016:
Very personal information originally recorded here has been moved to my Very Personal Diary.

I had a shower on this day.

Apr 22 2016

Tuesday Feb 16 2016:
I had a shower on this day.

Very personal information originally recorded here has been moved to my Very Personal Diary.

Thursday Feb 18 2016:
14:31 I walked down to the town today because I needed a few things including some clotrimazole cream for my eczema and it's a lovely sunny day. I walked along The Backs wearing my new shirt and I took my rucksack and a carrier bag. I walked down Station Road and up the High Street and into Sainsbury's Chesham and there were no security guards anywhere to be seen when I entered the store. I bought several items including bananas for my mother and walked towards the self-service tills and a security guard was at the security desk by the main doors looking in my direction and I looked at him from a distance for a short period and he was looking at me. I paid for my items (receipt says 13:17) and walked towards the main doors and another security guard had joined the first one. Everything was fine in the store except when walking from the fruit and vegetable isle towards the milk isle there was a woman wearing black jogging trousers at the end of the isle with her back to me but I only saw her as my gaze moved across from my right to my left as I turned into and walked along the ends of the isles. I don't know if she was a normal civilian or an agent/detective. Sainsbury's Chesham was busy I expect because it's a nice day but I didn't need to queue at the self-service tills and there may have only been three of the possibly ten tills occupied.

I walked down the High Street and into Boots to buy some clotrimazole cream and everything was fine in there (receipt says 13:26). I continued down the High Street and it was very busy with lots of people of all ages around. I walked home along Red Lion Street, Waterside and Gordon Road.

Friday Feb 19 2016:
15:59 Let's add a little bit more detail about the Sainsbury's Chesham event yesterday:

After I'd picked up two bunches of bananas I walked to the end of that section and I turned left and I wasn't aware that a woman wearing black jogging trousers was standing at the end of a nearby isle but there were a few people around there and I think that somebody could've been standing in front of her and moved as I turned left and approached. I do remember that somebody was there and that they moved so it could well have been a set-up and I'm thinking this because of the reactions by the security guards as though they'd just watched me do something that they were expecting. Possibly the other people around there were agents/detectives creating some congestion and intentionally obfuscating the woman so that I couldn't detect her in my peripheral vision.

I'm getting a sense of deja vu now with this current set-up intensity this time of the year and I think that my attackers are attempting to dissuade me from going out more as the warmer weather approaches. They're trying to imprison me in my home as much as they can by framing me sexually knowing that it's extremely unlikely that anyone is ever going to find out. It's very tortuous what they repeatedly subject me to. It feels like I'm being blackmailed and when I push against them they torture me. They turn something like a pleasant walk into town on the sunniest and warmest day of the year so far into a disturbing and distressing and sickening experience.

19:52 Added an entry for Sep 23 2015 that I've inserted there as notes to maintain the flow.

19:58 Added an entry for Oct 3 2015 that I've inserted there as notes to maintain the flow.

Saturday Feb 20 2016:
I changed my underwear and applied Savlon to my groin area the previous midnight for the record. I wanted to buy some new vests and underpants and it was a horribly wet day but it needed to be done. For a change I decided to visit the Primark at Wembley Central so I walked along The Backs and caught the train and at Rickmansworth I think the driver said "Ladies and gentlemen, this train will be held here for a time." but didn't give a reason which is unusual although it might've only been a minute that we sat at the station and I asked a guy further down the train what time it was and he said 14:40. At Wembley Park I left the station and walked to Wembley Central which is a fair walk but I don't think I've walked it before so it was nice to have a change of scenery. In Primark I bought some vests and underpants and the receipt says 15:38. I walked back to Wembley Park using the same route and the Chesham train was waiting when I got there which was nice.

At Chesham I visited Sainsbury's Chesham and bought a few items and the receipt says 15:38. I returned home through the High Street, Red Lion Street, Waterside, Gordon Road and Springfield Road. Despite the fact that it was raining all the time I enjoyed it and it was uneventful.

Monday Feb 22 2016:
I was awoken early in the morning by loud children I expect going to school walking along the path behind my house and my alarm clock said 8:46 but it's 7 minutes fast so it was actually about 8:39. I've said that it's so quiet here that it sounds evacuated and I've hardly heard anything since I reported this current extreme quietness on Friday Jan 1 2016 so it should be noted because it's very rare and suspicious. When I got up I changed my underwear and washed my groin area and applied Savlon because I need to prevent my eczema from becoming inflammed. Later at around 13:45 I went down the town to get some supplies and some Savlon which has almost run out. I walked along The Backs the full length and when I reached Waitrose a teenage schoolboy walked across the crossing and in front of me and I was walking fast and he walked as fast as me and I attempted to pass him on his left but he moved left and I tried on his right and he moved right and I sped up and it was as though it didn't make any difference. I did eventually pass him down the alley down the side of Waitrose. I like to keep the space in front of me clear for personal security reasons especially since I'm being set-up so regularly and I want to note this in case it means something.

I entered Sainsbury's Chesham and there were no security guard to be seen. I bought a few items and made my way to the self-service tills and two security guards were now at the security desk by the main doors. I paid for my items (receipt says 14:05) and put them in my rucksack and left the store and walked home through the High Street, Red Lion Street, Waterside and Gordon Road. Was something going on today or not?

Tuesday Feb 23 2016:
12:51 I've just come in from having a cigarette in the back garden and a police helicopter flew down the valley. At first something flew over from behind me that I couldn't see and I didn't know what it was and then the police helicopter appeared.

I had a shower on this day, the first for a week as I would have had one last Saturday but I wanted to go shopping on that day so I left it until today.

Very personal information originally recorded here has been moved to my Very Personal Diary.

Wednesday Feb 24 2016:
13:35 It's a beautiful sunny day today although a bit fresh still. Earlier some guys from Paradigm came and took some samples from the house to look for asbestos, apparently they're checking lots of houses. I went out and had a cigarette in the back garden around 12:20 and a white light aircraft came up the valley and flew over my house. It didn't do any obvious manoeuvre but it needs to be noted. I'd run out of tobacco and my mother wanted something too so I went down the town and walked along the bottom to soak in the sun and the route was Springfield Road, Gordon Road, Waterside, Red Lion Street and into the High Street -- the usual route. I withdrew some money from my bank account cashpoint and then walked into Sainsbury's Chesham and there was one security guard at the security desk by the main doors who was looking down at his monitor and then looked at me as I walked in and I did enter close to the desk so it was easy to detect that. I bought some carrots for my mother (receipt says 13:04) and then some tobacco for myself (receipt says 13:06). I then walked up the side of Waitrose and made my way towards the train station where The Backs starts and a police van drove up Station Road and along past me and I gave it a little while before I looked back and it was driving past Waitrose. I took my rucksack today.

15:25 I'm going out a lot more now since the weather is getting better and I enjoy the exercise and being warmed by the sun.

Thursday Feb 25 2016:
16:20 Somebody is driving up and down the hill and around the area tooting their car horn and I thought that it was out the front so I just looked out of my dad's bedroom window and I couldn't see anything or anybody out there. The bus has just gone up the hill so it was prior to that.

16:25 It's gone quiet now.

16:28 It's tooting again -- 5 times in succession and it sounds like it could be down the hill a bit.

16:52 I haven't heard it again.

Friday Feb 26 2016:
I decided to take a walk into town to buy a few groceries since my mother wasn't going out. I looked out the back door to see what the weather and temperature was like and there was a police helicopter hovering about over the other side of the valley slightly south and my mother was in the kitchen and I said to her that something was going on over there because there's a police helicopter hovering about and she stood there and watched it as I went into the hallway and sat on the bottom of the stairs putting my shoes on. I then noticed from the sound and the gradual upwards tilt of my mother's head that the helicopter was coming over this side of the valley. I left the house and walked along the street and between Trapps Lane and Springfield Road I could see the police helicopter hovering above me through the gaps in the trees and bushes but by the time I'd reached Springfield Road it had stop buzzing me. I don't know what was going on there.

I walked along The Backs and down Punch Bowl Lane and up to Sainsbury's Chesham where I bought fruit, tortillas and price reduced multi-seeded bread (receipt says 14:06) as I'd run out and I wasn't going to be making any on this day and I didn't record any notes about the security guards so the store visit was uneventful. I returned the usual route of the High Street, Red Lion Street, Waterside, Gordon Road and Springfield Road.

Saturday Feb 27 2016:
12:43 The window cleaner just knocked on the door. My mother thought it was a bit quick since the last visit but in fact I recorded it here and it was Thursday Jan 28 2016 so it's normal.

I had a shower on this day.

Very personal information originally recorded here has been moved to my Very Personal Diary.

Monday Feb 29 2016:
12:49 I've just come back in from having a cigarette in the back garden and a white light aircraft flew down the valley about half way through my cigarette but it wasn't so low and obvious -- just noting it.

13:52 I've just returned from the town. I walked (with my rucksack) along The Backs and saw a sign on approach to the bridge that said "Footpath closed" and I could hear some noises that would suggest that they are thinning the trees and bushes so I turned around and a man was behind me wearing headphones looking down and I told him not to bother going any further but he couldn't hear me or see me but the woman a short distance behind him took notice so I walked between the houses to Waterside and into town along the bottom. My mother gave me some pocket money on Saturday Feb 27 2016 so I deposited that into my bank account (receipt says 13:19) and walked up to Sainsbury's Chesham and there was one security guard at his security desk by the main doors on entrance and I walked past him to deposited one old battery into the battery recycling tube and he didn't take any notice of me. I bought a few items and paid at the self-service tills (receipt says 13:30) and another security guard joined the other one and they walked off into the store. I walked home through the High Street, Red Lion Street, Waterside, Gordon Road and Springfield Road. It's a lovely sunny day today, very busy in the town and I didn't detect anything obvious whilst I was out. I have a feeling that the guy behind me along The Backs was walking towards me along Waterside on my way back but I can't be certain as I didn't look directly at him on my return. I made some pizza dough and my own pizzas from last Friday and I'm doing the same thing again so I stocked up with some more ingredients today.

Tuesday Mar 1 2016:
I had a shower on this day.

Very personal information originally recorded here has been moved to my Very Personal Diary.

Wednesday Mar 2 2016:
20:39 I just saw some flashing lights out of the corner of my window that isn't covered by a sunblind. It didn't last for long and I couldn't hear any sounds although I'm playing a game on my PS3 and have the volume up. I could say that it was the gritter but the light was white or bright blue rather than orange. Again it's as though the lights were turned on and then off rather than moving with a vehicle. It's been a really cold day today. I got into bed about 16:15 to warm up and read the instruction manual to a game that I've just started and then I nodded off for quite a while.

Thursday Mar 3 2016:
14:00 I've just made my fifth monthly £5 payment to Wright Hassall using the website.

14:02 I've only been home ten minutes from popping down the town. I walked along The Backs and down Station Road into the High Street and up to Sainsbury's Chesham. It was a warm sunny day earlier but it clouded over when I went out and there was a cold wind. On entrance to the store there were two security guards at the security desk by the main doors who were chatting away and weren't obviously interested in me. I bought several items mostly containing ingredients for the pizzas that I'm currently making. I stood behind one other person in the queue for the self-service tills and when it was my turn I scanned across the tills to find a vacant one and a short woman wearing black looked my way. I took the till at the end on the right a few tills past her and placed my rucksack on the shelf and turned around to get the attention of the staff member so that she could login to verify my bag and the woman in black was leaving and she looked at me in the eyes but I didn't look at her directly, I just detected it through my peripheral vision. It looked as though she was wearing a long black coat with black leggings and she was slim and short with dark hair. I don't know who she was but she seemed to be taking an interest in me for some reason. Was she an agent/detective attempting to get me to look at her? Who knows -- it's their trick. I paid for my items (receipt says 13:37) and left the store and the same security guards were at the same spot chatting away not taking any obvious interest in me. I returned through the High Street, Red Lion Street, Waterside, Gordon Road and Springfield Road and it rained all the way home but it wasn't heavy, just drizzle.

14:27 A guy from Paradigm is currently installing a new lock mechanism for the rear door and I have my pizza dough proving in the oven.

Friday Mar 4 2016:
I had a shower on this day.

Very personal information originally recorded here has been moved to my Very Personal Diary.

Apr 27 2016

Saturday Mar 5 2016:
These are the notes that I wrote for this day and I'll keep them and just expand on it:

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The Backs, Station Road, Sainsbury's Chesham, maybe one security guard on entrance but it was busy with people walking in and out and I couldn't be certain, bought After Eights, Mother's Day cards were mostly gone and what was left were expensive, exited store and didn't notice a security guard at the desk, walked down town thinking that that Sainsbury's Chesham visit was refreshingly uneventful for a change, walked into Card Factory -- very tiny store --, two young teenage girls on right, man to their left, short woman (I assumed by her attire) to his left standing along the Mother's Day cards and not doing anything, I waited, nobody is moving, I had to reach in from behind the man to get a card and I had to move my head left, up, right around the man to see, it was very frustrating that they weren't doing anything, I huffed and tutted in a quiet way that was real rather than doing it to get noticed (one teenage girl looked at me), two teenage girls on right moved but I don't know where they went as people were entering the store so they could've paid for something at the tills or left, I moved to the free space and looked at the cards, man on my left move towards me very closely, I decided the card I originally picked up was the best so I turned around to the tills and the leftmost woman quickly moved out and in front of me in the queue. When she paid she moved off and then quickly stopped and did something else and then I had to wait for her to finish messing about while there was an empty till the other side of her that I couldn't reach because the store is too tiny and people were coming in the store. Walked home along the bottom. When crossing from Gordon Road to Springfield Road, car came up hill and stopped as I reached the road and I thought that he was going to turn into the car park entrance that I'd just walked out of so I walked across the road and up it slightly and then he continued going up the hill and turned around near the steps that I walked up and went back down. By the end of the evening I started to realise that something was going on today and it took me an extra hour to get to sleep whilst I thought it through and as usual I was overheating when things like this happen and then I start to feel a bit sick in my stomach.

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I'm just going to add some detail to this since I noted most of it: in Sainsbury's Chesham the Mother's Day cards were almost gone and what was left were cards that weren't anything special and were over £3 so this influenced me into buying a card in the Card Factory instead. As I stated when I entered the very tiny Card Factory shop there was a line of people in front of the Mother's Day cards -- a small woman (I assumed) who was wearing a white wool hat and a suede and white wool jacket that looked like adult clothes so that's why I assumed that she was a small woman. To her right was a man, to his right were two teenage girls and I stood behind the man and initially waited for somebody to move but they were very lacking in movement, quite fixed and rigid and eventually I reached in to the left of the man and picked up a card that I liked. It was very frustrating because they'd blocked access to the cards and I was waiting and they weren't moving and I tutted and huffed in a real way and as I looked around the man to his right to see what cards were there the teenage girl to his right looked at me (I detected it in my peripheral vision) and then both teenage girls walked off somewhere and I filled the space. At this point the man moved uncomfortably closely to my left and I decided that the card that I had chosen was the best one and I pulled out (did he influence me into pulling out by being uncomfortably close?) and this is when the leftmost small woman quickly moved out in front of me.

I stood behind the small woman in the queue with a good amount of space that I feel comfortable with and then a big tall burly man walked into the shop (there may have been another one behind him) and said "Are you in the queue mate?" and I said "Yes" and moved forward to reduce the empty space that I had left because I thought that maybe it wasn't obvious that I was in the queue. Whilst I was standing there waiting for the small woman to finish paying I studied the card that I had in my hand and fiddled with it straightening out one of the corners and then I looked at the two female staff members to get an idea of what was going on (the furthest one wasn't doing anything but that position was unreachable/inaccessible due to lack of space) and the small woman in front of me appeared to have finished paying for her purchase and started to move away and then abruptly stopped and fiddled about in her bag. I think what I did at this point was I started to move forward by shifting my body weight forward (I don't think I moved my feet) and I kept this position whilst holding my card in my right hand and looking at the staff member who would be serving me and she looked at me and we did this for a while and she did look down at the small woman at one point and then returned to look at me.

What was the point of that set-up? The small woman and the man were very fixed towards the card rack and I got nothing from my peripheral vision about their faces. When I pulled away from the rack and the small woman quickly pulled out in front of me again I got nothing from my peripheral vision about her face or hair or anything other than her white hat and suede jacket. It was as though it was being done in an intentionally obfuscated manner to prevent me from reading much information from it.

The big tall burly man who entered the shop and asked me if I was in the queue was an agent/detective and the purpose of that was to get me to reduce the space between me and the small woman in front. Possibly the small woman abruptly stopping after initially moving away from the tills was meant to get me to bump into her or touch her. And then there's the possibility that she wasn't a small woman at all, that she was in fact a child dressed in clothing that you'd normally attribute to an adult.

The two female staff members at the tills knew something was being set-up here, I was on a stage and they knew it (they were quite rigid and fixed, no communication, eye movement was about it) and I wonder what they were told beforehand and what they got from that experience. If you asked them what they thought was going on there, what would they say.

I've got the receipts from these shops: Sainsbury's Chesham was 16:13, the Card Factory was 16:25 served by LINDA.

I almost forgot to get the Mother's Day card. I wasn't initially going to go out and my mother came home and we had a cigarette in the back garden and then she mentioned about the meal she was going to cook for Mother's Day and then I realised that I'd forgotten and that I did indeed need go out today. My attackers had organised this Card Factory event and they knew that I would be going out to buy a card but I could've bought one in Sainsbury's Chesham, so I'm thinking that possibly Sainsbury's Chesham (a security guard) intentionally removed Mother's Day cards from their display leaving only expensive ones knowing that I wouldn't buy them which would influence me into visiting the Card Factory. I have mentioned here before that my attackers are listening to what's being said in our household. I have had a discussion with my mother about how reasonable the Card Factory card prices are in comparison to Sainsbury's.

I didn't have anything to worry about this event from my side of things but what I've learnt from my experiences is that it doesn't matter or it matters little. I think that what really matters is what other people see or what other people can be made to believe that they're seeing. What exactly did these two Card Factory staff members think that they had witnessed? I think that my attackers are possibly attempting to bury me underneath a huge mass of set-ups that would be equally huge and massive a task to dig your way out from.

I'm just going to finish this by saying that this set-up affected my experience of Mother's Day because I kept thinking about it.

One more thing: the car that came up Springfield Road and which waited for me to cross the road before continuing up the hill and turning around by the steps had blacked out windows so I couldn't see anything about who was in it.

Monday Mar 7 2016:
17:51 I went out today and took some waste paper and card in my rucksack to deposit in the recycling centre in the town. I walked along The Backs and down Punch Bowl Lane and as I walked around the bottom corner a man asked me for directions to Waterside and I told him just to keep walking down the same path that he's on. Funny because on Saturday Jan 30 2016 I took recyclable materials into town and was asked for directions on that day too! I noted then that I wondered if it was an agent/detective checking me out. After I'd deposited the materials in the recycling centre I walked up to Sainsbury's Chesham through the car parks and there was one security guard at the security desk by the main doors on entrance to the store and I didn't feel as though he was aware of my arrival in any way. I bought a few things that I needed (receipt says 12:37) and there was one security guard in the same spot as I left the store who was chatting with possibly another one and they seemed oblivious to my presence. I returned home through the High Street, Red Lion Street, Waterside, Gordon Road and Springfield Road. Other than the man asking me for directions I didn't detect anything else.

20:53 I just saw flashing emergency vehicle lights out of the corner of my window that isn't covered by a sunblind -- a very noticeable blue flashing and it was the brightness you might expect for a car driving [slowly] on the hill. I recorded on Wednesday Mar 2 2016 that I thought I'd experienced the same thing but I now know that that was very different -- it was very bright and white as though somebody was shining such a lamp directly at my window and flicking it across so that it appeared to be flashing.

21:04 I forgot to mention that I saw two people that I know when I went out today -- Ricky from across the street and Craig the window cleaner and we greeted one another. I just want to record social interactions so that I can detect and record differences in people that I can trace back to my attackers.

Tuesday Mar 8 2016:
I had a shower on this day.

Very personal information originally recorded here has been moved to my Very Personal Diary.

Thursday Mar 10 2016:
I walked along The Backs, down Station Road, into the High Street and withdrew some money from my bank's cashpoint machine. I then made my way up to Sainsbury's Chesham and there were no security guards to be seen on entry. I bought several items and paid at the self-service tills (receipt says 13:22) and two security guards were now at the security desk by the main doors and I felt as though one of them was looking at me as I walked slowly past them whilst attempting to pack my purchases into my rucksack and close the zip. I returned down the High Street, Red Lion Street, Waterside, Gordon Road and Springfield Road. It wasn't a nice day weatherwise but I needed to get some supplies. An uneventful trip out.

Friday Mar 11 2016:
Walked along The Backs, down Station Road and into the High Street and up to Sainsbury's Chesham and there was one security guard at the security desk by the main doors who was looking down at his monitor and who looked up at me and watched me as I walked past him towards the battery recycle point where I deposited a few of my dad's old camera batteries -- I like to recycle our old batteries since Sainsbury's Chesham go to the effort of providing us with recycling facilites but I can also see if the security guard is anticipating my arrival and monitoring me by his reaction when I do something different. I paid for my items at the self-service tills (receipt says 14:07) and the same security guard was at the same spot when I left the store. I returned through the High Street, Red Lion Street, Waterside, Gordon Road and Springfield Road -- the usual route.

Saturday Mar 12 2016:
I had a shower on this day.

Very personal information originally recorded here has been moved to my Very Personal Diary.

Apr 28 2016

Sunday Mar 13 2016:
I went to Watford with my bicycle. The only notes that I kept for this are "Watford trip on bicycle, nothing detected." so it was exactly that but I've kept the receipts and I'll document where I went: Sainsbury's Watford 14:17, Poundland Watford 14:28 and Argos Waterfields 14:45 where I bought my dad a USB flash drive to plug into the back of his TV so that I can put his pictures and some videos on it for him. I rode back along the Ebury Way to Rickmansworth and then caught the train back to Chesham and it was a nice sunny day for March which is why I rode my bicycle.

Tuesday Mar 15 2016:
I had a shower on this day.

Very personal information originally recorded here has been moved to my Very Personal Diary.

Thursday Mar 17 2016:
14:37 I've just got back from the town. I walked along The Backs with my rucksack, down Station Road and into the High Street to check my bank balance at the cashpoint machine and then up to Sainsbury's Chesham. On entry to the store there was one security guard at the security desk by the main doors looking at his monitor who looked up at me for a brief period as I walked past him to deposit two batteries into the battery recycle point. I bought several items and paid at the self-service tills as usual (receipt says 14:13) and on exiting the store the same security guard was looking over at the cigarette counter and didn't take any notice of me as I walked past. I returned down the High Street, Red Lion Street, Waterside, Gordon Road and up Springfield Road. It's sunny out and the exercise was welcome but there's a cold wind so the walk out was fresh but I'd warmed up for the return journey.

Friday Mar 18 2016:
14:31 I got home about 10 minutes ago from a trip into town. I walked along The Backs and sitting in the Underground station car park was a police van ticking over with its doors open. I walked down Station Road and into the High Street and checked my bank balance using the cashpoint machine and then walked up to Sainsbury's Chesham and two security guards were at the security desk by the main doors on entrance. I bought one medicinal item and paid at the self-service tills (receipt says 13:58) and both security guards were still there as I manoeuvred my way past their security desk and a group of teenage girls that were coming towards me making their way to the bottom end of the tills that I'd just left. I then bought a newspaper for my mother (receipt says 14:00) and placed it into my rucksack and I'd noticed that both security guards had now gone from their desk. I left the store and walked up the side of Waitrose and along towards the Underground station because I wanted to see if the police van was still there but it had gone (I expected that it was there just for me). I then walked down Station Road and into the High Street and noticed that there were a lot of people of all ages about today which wasn't noticeable yesterday. I returned along Red Lion Street, Waterside, Gordon Road and Springfield Road.

Saturday Mar 19 2016:
I showered this morning and I was going to go out to get some wholemeal flour but the weather was dull and cold. A white light aircraft flew down the valley when I had a cigarette about 12:30 and what sounded like the same one flew lower over my house a few minutes later whilst I was finishing off the same cigarette as though it had looped around out of my view.

Very personal information originally recorded here has been moved to my Very Personal Diary.

Sunday Mar 20 2016:
The notes that I kept for this day are "Sainsbury's Chesham trip for wholemeal flour. No security guards." so it would've been the usual walk along The Backs into the High Street and into Sainsbury's Chesham paying at the self-service tills (receipt says 14:38) and then returning down the High Street, Red Lion Street, Waterside, Gordon Road and Springfield Road.

Monday Mar 21 2016:
13:10 I had a cigarette in the back garden within the last half hour and no white light aircraft were flying around which is quite unusual so I thought that it was worth noting.

May

May 6 2016

Tuesday Mar 22 2016:
No white light aircraft were flying around when I had a cigarette in the back garden after midday.

My parents usually visit the stroke club today but they didn't go out as my dad was weak.

I had a shower on this day.

Very personal information originally recorded here has been moved to my Very Personal Diary.

Wednesday Mar 23 2016:
No white light aircraft were flying around when I had a cigarette in the back garden after midday.

Thursday Mar 24 2016:
No white light aircraft were flying around when I had a cigarette in the back garden after midday.

Friday Mar 25 2016:
No white light aircraft were flying around when I had a cigarette in the back garden after midday.

Saturday Mar 26 2016:
No white light aircraft were flying around when I had a cigarette in the back garden after midday.

Sunday Mar 27 2016:
No white light aircraft were flying around when I had a cigarette in the back garden after midday.

I had a shower on this day.

Very personal information originally recorded here has been moved to my Very Personal Diary.

May 10 2016

I'm going to start rushing through this now because it's been a month since I initially corresponded with the IPCC and they've sent me an email dated May 6 2016 telling me so.

Monday Mar 28 2016:
No white light aircraft were flying around when I had a cigarette in the back garden after midday.

Sainsbury's Chesham trip, two security guards on entrance and exit. Bought many items (receipt says 15:25) including a newspaper for my mother (receipt says 15:26). Nothing odd detected.

Tuesday Mar 29 2016:
No white light aircraft were flying around when I had a cigarette in the back garden after midday.

Wednesday Mar 30 2016:
No white light aircraft were flying around when I had a cigarette in the back garden after midday.

I had a shower on this day.

Very personal information originally recorded here has been moved to my Very Personal Diary.

Thursday Mar 31 2016:
No white light aircraft were flying around when I had a cigarette in the back garden after midday.

14:43 I've not been home long from a trip into town. I walked along The Backs and down Station Road and into the High Street and deposited some money into my account in Nationwide (receipt says 14:07). I then walked up to Sainsbury's Chesham and there were no security guards to be seen on entrance. I bought a couple of items and paid at the self-service tills (receipt says 14:15) and no security guards were around when I exited the store. I returned home down the High Street, Red Lion Street, Waterside, Gordon Road and Springfield Road. It was sunny and warm out today and very busy, lots of people about of all ages. I've now got some bread dough mixing in the machine and I thought I'd do half white and half wholemeal today for fun.

16:28 I've just come in from having a cigarette in the back garden and a white light aircraft flew down the valley towards my house and then banked tightly to the right when it reached me and continued down the valley.

Friday Apr 1 2016:
13:26 I've just returned from a trip into town. I walked along The Backs with some recycleable materials in my rucksack, down Punch Bowl Lane, up the High Street and through the path to the council offices and I noticed that a police van was sitting in the pedestrianised High Street up near Costa Coffee. I deposited my recycleable materials in the recycle centre and then walked up to Sainsbury's Chesham through the car parks. On entrance to the store there was one security guard at the security desk by the main doors and I walked around the store and got three items and a Pakistani/Indian looking man walked past me and a staff member who was stacking shelves said hello to him and he responded and then I twigged that he was a security guard who wasn't wearing anything obvious that would indicate that he was such and he must've been following me around and I was behind him and I kept behind him and he kept looking over his shoulder and he got more twitchy the longer I was behind him so at that point there was no doubt that he was a security guard and he was keeping an eye on me. It was the staff member who said hello to him that initially gave him away and he was also doing that thing security guards do where they pretend to look at stuff. I paid for my items at the self-service tills (receipt says 13:02) and left the store and I think one security guard was still at the security desk but I didn't really pay much attention but I would've noticed if there wasn't.

I walked down the High Street and the police van was still outside Costa Coffee and I popped into Millet's and enquired about the lightweight fleeces that I bought there a while ago (two years probably now!) and they didn't have any anymore and what they do have is too hardcore for this time of year so I thanked them for their assistance and left the store and because the police van was just a shop's length down and parked on the left I walked around it on the right and there was somebody sitting in the driver's seat doing something that sounded like rustling a crisp bag. When I initially saw the van when I entered the High Street I did notice somebody wearing possibly green trousers and a green jumper at the driver's window and looking down towards me and I just want to note that.

15:02 I've just sent an email to the IPCC asking for assistance using their general enquiry form.

Saturday Apr 2 2016:
15:08 I've just got back from the town. I walked along The Backs, down Station Road and into the High Street and up to Sainsbury's Chesham and there was one security guard at the security desk by the main doors who didn't take any obvious notice of me. I bought a few items and paid at the self-service tills (receipt says 14:48) and left the store and the security guard was still there and he didn't look up as I passed him. The town was busy with the market on and it was sunny and warm -- a nice walk out. I returned down the High Street, Red Lion Street, Waterside, Gordon Road and Springfield Road -- nothing to report today, again no light aircraft buzzing me when I had a cigarette in the back garden earlier.

15:18 I've just made my sixth monthly £5 payment to Wright Hassall using the website.

Sunday Apr 3 2016:
I had a shower in the morning.

Very personal information originally recorded here has been moved to my Very Personal Diary.

A white light aircraft did fly over our house when I was having a cigarette with my mother in the back garden after midday but the engine noise was different to the one that usually buzzes me so I'm just noting it.

I walked down to Sainsbury's Chesham in the afternoon to get some mouthwash that I forgot to get on my previous visit and my mother wanted a newspaper. I walked along The Backs, down Station Road and into the High Street and up to Sainsbury's Chesham and one security guard was at the security desk by the main doors on entrance who was looking down at his monitor and continued to do so as I passed. I paid at the self-service tills (receipt says 15:14) and then bought a newspaper for my mother at the cigarette counter (receipt says 15:16) and left the store and the same security guard was in the same place doing the same thing. I returned home through the High Street, Red Lion Street, Waterside, Gordon Road and Springfield Road.

Monday Apr 4 2016:
No white light aircraft were flying around when I had a cigarette in the back garden after midday.

Tuesday Apr 5 2016:
No white light aircraft were flying around when I had a cigarette in the back garden after midday.

I had a shower on this day.

Very personal information originally recorded here has been moved to my Very Personal Diary.

On Friday Apr 1 2016 I noted that I'd sent an email to the IPCC asking for assistance using their general enquiry form and they haven't replied.

Wednesday Apr 6 2016:
No white light aircraft were flying around when I had a cigarette in the back garden after midday.

I walked down to Chesham because I needed some milk and nuts and raisins. I walked along The Backs and down Station Road and into the High Street which was busy with the market on and there were lots of people about of all ages. I walked into Sainsbury's Chesham and there were no security guards to be seen on entrance and I bought a few items and paid at the self-service tills (receipt says 13:03). I left the store and one security guard had appeared at the security desk by the main doors but he kept looking at his monitor and didn't pay any attention to me as I passed. I returned down the High Street and the heavens opened up so I ran across the road and walked down the right-hand side because there's some cover along there to prevent me from getting soaked. The downpour didn't last for long and it had stopped not far down Red Lion Street. I walked down Waterside and at the railway bridge there were maybe two or three Pakistani/Indian kids messing about there on the pavement and they sort of assembled as I approached and one of them said "Hello" and I was in half a mind to reciprocate but it looked and felt as though it was staged and it happened at the same place before (Wednesday Apr 22 2015) so I didn't say anything, I just kept looking down and continued walking.

Thursday Apr 7 2016:
No white light aircraft were flying around when I had a cigarette in the back garden after midday.

Friday Apr 8 2016:
No white light aircraft were flying around when I had a cigarette in the back garden after midday.

Two packages arrived at 13:15: one was signed-for but it was just pushed through the letterbox with both signed-for stickers still attached to the packaging.

I had a shower on this day.

Very personal information originally recorded here has been moved to my Very Personal Diary.

Saturday Apr 9 2016:
No white light aircraft were flying around when I had a cigarette in the back garden after midday.

Sunday Apr 10 2016:
I walked along The Backs, down Station Road and into the High Street and checked my bank balance at my bank's cashpoint machine. I then walked up to Sainsbury's Chesham and there was one security guard at the security desk by the main doors on entrance with his hands in his pockets. I bought a couple of items and paid at the self-service tills (receipt says 14:37). I then bought my mother a newspaper at the cigarette counter (receipt says 14:37) and the same security guard was at the same spot when I exited the store. I returned through the High Street, Red Lion Street, Waterside, Gordon Road and Springfield Road. It's a nice sunny day with a cool wind and there were a few people about but it wasn't busy.

Monday Apr 11 2016:
13:48 No white light aircraft were flying around when I had a cigarette in the front garden after midday. We're currently having the kitchen floor retiled so I can't go out the back door for a few hours yet.

I've just returned from a trip into town. I walked along The Backs and a white teenage girl was having an argument with an African male just past Punchbowl Lane and she asked me for a cigarette but I said that I didn't have any tobacco on me [because I'd made myself one at home before I left]. I walked down Station Road and up to Nationwide and deposited some birthday money that my dad gave me yesterday (receipt says 13:26). I then walked down to the Halifax building society to deposit a cheque that my mother gave me for my birthday but she'd forgotten to write the date so I'll have to return later in the week. I returned down the High Street, Red Lion Street, Waterside, Gordon Road and Springfield Road. Lot's of people about of all ages again.

18:23 Actually there were a couple of things to note about today now that I've had a little time to think about them: as I crossed Springfield Road a tall slim young woman or even a girl crossed before me and she was wearing black leggings and I passed her up past the steps. When I got to Whichcote Gardens there was a man standing on the path facing a house and as I approached him he walked off and down a side path and glanced around but he could've been glancing around at the house that he'd been looking at. I don't know if these things mean anything but I'll note them.

20:25 I feel as though my reality is being messed around with again. No white light aircraft buzzing me, no police vans in the town, no security guards in Sainsbury's Chesham or single apparently uninterested guards and yet I still feel as though I'm walking out onto a stage when I go out. This is the fourth week now that I've visited the town and found people of all ages around.

20:58 As I didn't get a response from the IPCC using their general enquiry form on Friday Apr 1 2016 I've just sent them an email entitled "General Enquiry Attempt 2". There's a possibility that they couldn't trust that the information that I'd entered was legitimate so by sending them an email from my email account I'm hoping that they will find it more acceptable.

Tuesday Apr 12 2016:
No white light aircraft were flying around when I had a cigarette in the front garden after midday.

Wednesday Apr 13 2016:
I had a shower on this day.

Very personal information originally recorded here has been moved to my Very Personal Diary.

No white light aircraft were flying around when I had a cigarette in the back garden after midday.

I'm now in correspondence with the IPCC and I have received a reference number of IPCC Reference 2016/064327. I now just need to get this diary into a more complete and presentable state and make a complaint with it.

The new tiling on the kitchen floor is complete now and Ricky from across the road and myself put the fridge, freezer and washing machine back into position yesterday evening. I'm currently using the washing machine now and there's a slight drip coming from under the sink where the pipe's connected but I'll keep an eye on it.

Thursday Apr 14 2016:
14:54 I haven't been back from the town long. I walked along The Backs, down Station Road, up the High Street to Sainsbury's Chesham and there were no security guards to be seen on entrance. I bought several items and paid at the self-service tills (receipt says 14:06) and one security guard was now at the security desk by the main doors as I exited the store. I walked down the High Street and popped into Carphone Warehouse to look at the current range of Pay As You Go phones and then down to Halifax to deposit a cheque my mother gave me for my birthday. I returned down the High Street, Red Lion Street, Waterside, Gordon Road and Springfield Road. It was a nice warm sunny day and peaceful.

Friday Apr 15 2016:
I had a shower on this day.

Very personal information originally recorded here has been moved to my Very Personal Diary.

Saturday Apr 16 2016:
16:22 I've just returned from a trip into town. I walked along The Backs, down Station Road and into the High Street and withdrew some money from my bank's cashpoint machine. I then walked up to Sainsbury's Chesham and there was one security guard at the security desk by the main doors on entrance who didn't take any notice of me. I bought Savlon and headache tablets and paid at the self-service tills (receipt says 16:01) and left the store and the same security guard was at the same spot on exit. I returned down the High Street, Red Lion Street, Waterside, Gordon Road and Springfield Road. It was cool and overcast when I went out and then the sun came out down the town and the return trip was warm and sunny. I would say that today was the most normal trip out I've had for a very long time. There were people about of all ages everywhere and I detected no oddness in anyone.

Sunday Apr 17 2016:
14:48 There was a light aircraft flying around for quite a while earlier in the day and I sat in the back garden with my mother and had a cigarette and helped her with the gardening somewhere around 13:00 but the aircraft wasn't noticeable, I didn't see it. It did disappear not long after that and then it became sporadic and then quiet. It has been a nice sunny day so far though.

I've just returned from a trip down to the town. I walked along The Backs and there was a woman wearing black leggings/jogging trousers with a young boy on a scooter whom I caught up with by the bridge and I sped up to get past them and they sped up and the lady jogged a little bit at one point and eventually I managed to get close enough to say "Excuse me mate" and they stopped and let me through and the lady looked at me and said "Sorry" but I didn't look at them, I just kept looking down at the path ahead. I walk quite fast compared to most people so it's inevitable that I'm going to catch up with them and it was frustrating that they kept speeding up when I got close. I don't like people hovering behind me along there and I'm sure they don't either. I don't think that they were suspicious, sometimes I speed up just to give myself a nice comfortable distance if there's somebody behind me so I'm guessing that that's what she was attempting to do.

I walked down Station Road, up the High Street and into Sainsbury's Chesham and there were no security guards to be seen on entrance. I wanted to get some special soap but they'd run out so I bought a couple of other items that I wanted. I paid at the self-service tills (receipt says 14:26) and then bought my mother a newspaper at the cigarette counter (receipt says 14:28). I left the store and there were no security guards to be seen so I didn't see any at all today which is quite rare. I returned down the High Street, Red Lion Street, Waterside, Gordon Road and up Springfield Road there was a parked police van near the steps and a policeman was investigating a Volkswagen Golf that had come down the hill and hit a parked white van and there was quite a crowd of local people having a nose.

I don't know what to make of the day to be honest.

Monday Apr 18 2016:
No white light aircraft were flying around when I had a cigarette in the back garden after midday.

Tuesday Apr 19 2016:
No white light aircraft were flying around when I had a cigarette in the back garden after midday.

I had a shower on this day.

Very personal information originally recorded here has been moved to my Very Personal Diary.

Made bread, washed clothes, eczema bad so washed bedding, washed duvet and pillows.

May 11 2016

Wednesday Apr 20 2016:
12:02 I've hung my duvet and pillows on the washing line which I did earlier when I went down for breakfast as the sun's out and the skies are clear. I just went down to plump the pillows and turn them around and there's a white light aircraft flying around and it flew up the valley. I've heard it already since I'm sitting here at my desk near my window that's open and it's been flying around for a while and it's gone now. I looked up at it and I was wondering is that the police white light aircraft, are they flying one around all day long and just radioing the pilot who to buzz?

12:41 I've just come in from having a cigarette in the back garden and it was peaceful.

15:03 I went down the town today. I walked along The Backs, down Punch Bowl Lane and out onto Red Lion Street and a police car passed me going into town by the Red Lion pub so there's a possibility that something was going on today but I don't know so I'll just make sure that I thoroughly document the trip in detail. After the police car had passed me I entered the High Street and I scanned up and across the route ahead and some distance ahead at this point I noticed a young girl I would've thought should've been at school sitting on a bench at the bottom of the clock tower. I very often look at the clock tower because it's in the middle of the pedestrianised High Street and of course you can check the time but I am protective of my view, if I'm not aware of my surroundings by scanning from a distance then I get my information from my peripheral vision. Following this a group of young women crossed my path but I don't know where they came from and I detected from my peripheral vision as they crossed that one of them was wearing black leggings/jogging trousers. That's all the information that I got at that point -- I don't know exactly how many of them were in the group (three maybe) or indeed if they were young women or school age girls. At this point I was wondering if something was going on.

I was intending to use the path by the council building to reach the recycle centre as I had some recyclable paper and card with me but I forgot to do it on the way up so I first went to my bank's cashpoint machine to withdraw some money but it was only offering £20 notes and I only wanted £10 so I then walked through the cobbled path on the other side of the war memorial to reach the recycle centre, and then I walked back up through the car parks to Sainsbury's Chesham. I used the Sainsbury's cashpoint to withdraw £10 and then entered the store and no security guards were anywhere to be seen on entrance. I bought a few items and paid at the self-service tills (receipt says 14:17) and then bought my mother The Telegraph at the cigarette counter (receipt says 14:18) and left the store and still no security guards were anywhere to be seen on exit which is quite rare. I walked out into the High Street and it's market day today so it's quite restricted and I ended up walking behind a police woman and a male community support person for a short distance and then I stopped just after the Misty Moon pub to properly pack my rucksack as I couldn't get the newspaper in. I then continued down to Boots and bought some clotrimazole cream for my eczema (receipt says 14:28 but it's not a 10 minute trip from Sainsbury's so somebody's till is showing the wrong time) and returned down the High Street, Red Lion Street, Waterside, Gordon Road and Springfield Road.

Was something going on today? It's all noted anyway.

Thursday Apr 21 2016:
13:54 No white light aircraft were flying around when I had a cigarette in the back garden after midday.

I've just returned from a trip into town. I walked along The Backs and as I approached the Underground station a female jogger wearing black jogging trousers jogged towards me which is rare because they're normally coming from behind. I walked into the High Street via the path that runs down the side of Waitrose and into Sainsbury's Chesham and a three wide line of young women were entering as I turned the corner off the High Street. On entering the store there were two security guards at the security desk by the main doors chatting to one another and they didn't take any obvious notice of me. I bought some granola and some vegetables for today's lunch and paid at the self service tills (receipt says 13:29) using the till almost opposite their desk and I sneaked a look at them a couple of times but they weren't obviously interested in me and once I'd finished paying they went outside. I returned down the High Street, Red Lion Street, Waterside, Gordon Road and Springfield Road. There was a white light aircraft flying about when I went down the town and I saw it flying over me down Waterside. It's a nice sunny day and I enjoyed the exercise.

I don't know if it was a normal day or not but I documented it in detail anyway.

Friday Apr 22 2016:
11:25 I've found a wonderful website that I have heard of before but I've never had any reason or interest in visiting it -- it's flightradar24 . I'm watching a Cessna 152 registration G-BSDP flying a loop around Chesham, Amersham, Chorleywood, Flaunden, Ley Hill, Lye Green and back round again. I'm going to have a bit of fun with this for a while so that instead of recording that I'm being buzzed by a white light aircraft I can actually record its registration number.

12:34 No white light aircraft were flying around when I had a cigarette in the back garden after midday.

I've just shown my mother the flight website and she's more interested in it than I am! She likes things like that, Google Earth and webcams in cities etc.

Saturday Apr 23 2016:
17:25 No white light aircraft were flying around when I had a cigarette in the back garden after midday.

17:47 I went out today. I walked along The Backs, down Station Road and into the High Street and up to Sainsbury's Chesham and there were no security guards to be seen on entrance to the store. I bought my dad the new Star Wars film on Blu-ray as he asked me about it and I said that I'd get it for him if I see it. I bought a few other items that I needed and paid at the self-service tills (receipt says 16:46) and left the store and there were no security guards to be seen on exit. I returned down the High Street, Red Lion Street, Waterside, Gordon Road and Springfield Road and I detected nothing odd about the trip out today. It was sunny with a chilly wind and there were quite a few people about but I wouldn't call it busy.

Sunday Apr 24 2016:
14:59 Something was going on yesterday Saturday Apr 23 2016, I just didn't see it until 1:24 this morning. In Sainsbury's Chesham I stood in the empty sweets isle and took a little while to decide on something different and I was aware that somebody had entered the isle behind me but it didn't occupy my thoughts any more than that. I eventually chose liquorice allsorts for a change and turned to my right to walk down the isle and a woman was standing next to me facing the shelves with a girl over the other side of the isle holding the trolley which was positioned straight across the isle so that it was blocked. I said "Can I get through please" and I had my basket in front of me and the girl moved the trolley aside enough for me to pass through without my basket or myself touching the woman on my left or the trolley on my right. I didn't get any response from either of them, they remained quiet and their trolley was empty as though they'd walked through the entire store to the sweets isle which is located at the far corner without first buying anything else. When I left the self-service tills a man wearing a flourescent yellow jacket walked speedily along the bottom of the tills from my right towards me and I turned left and I guess he was behind me and I didn't see him again and all I thought about that was that he was an employee perhaps responsible for collecting the trolleys and that he was being busy.

At 1:24 this morning I put it all together and realised that the woman and girl were agents/detectives and they had intentionally positioned themselves next to me and blocked the isle so that I had to squeeze through a gap that they had control over behind and close to the woman. I suspect then that the guy in the yellow flourescent jacket speedily approaching me at the bottom of the tills was a security guard and that he was wearing his flourescent yellow jacket so that I would notice him (or maybe he was an agent/detective too). I've experienced these types of set-ups before whereby they hover people around me and then I get a reaction from the security team on my way out but this one was a bit more subtle and I didn't get it at the time, it took a while. Importantly they weren't just hovering around me this time, they had control over my movement, they were manipulating me.

Once I'd returned home I sat on my bed and played Skyrim on my PS3 and there was a cold wind out and I often get a chill so I was warming up nicely under the duvet and I fell asleep and when I awoke I had morning glory. When this happens I think about my attackers watching me and then I get concerned that they're going to use that against me in some way and it was then that I started to think the events of the day through.

22:00 I went out today just to get some exercise and my mother likes a newspaper anyway. I walked to the end of my street and although it was sunny there's also a very chilly wind at the moment so at that point I started jogging to warm up. As I jogged around a corner past some houses next to a fence there were two suspicious people -- a girl wearing black leggings/jogging trousers with her back to me whom looked around at me as I appeared and an older man who was facing her and as I jogged past they said something very quietly to one another. I didn't look at them, I was concentrating on jogging and looking at the path in front of me and I took everything in through my peripheral vision. It just seemed as though a set-up was being put together there -- a girl, black leggings, back to me, around a corner -- and I think I surprised them because I jogged and they weren't expecting that.

I walked along The Backs and I passed maybe two or three adults along there who were walking in the opposite direction to me. I went down Station Road, up the High Street and into Sainsbury's Chesham and there was one security guard at the security desk by the main doors on entrance. I bought myself a couple of items and paid at the self-service tills and the tills were quite busy so I had to wait a little while and the till that became available was the one nearest and facing the lone security guard so I took that and I detected that he looked up from his monitor in my direction once. I paid for my items (receipt says 14:37) and then made my way to the cigarette counter and bought my mother a newspaper (receipt says 14:39) and left the store.

I walked down the High Street and there were quite a few people about and it was comparable to yesterday which is quite odd because yesterday was a Saturday. When I got up this morning I did feel as though yesterday was a Sunday so it shows you that it was quiet yesterday and it was actually St Georges Day. As I passed the clock tower a bicycle ridden by a girl rode past me on my right but I didn't look up, it didn't catch my attention, I was detecting this from my peripheral vision. I used to take an interest in bicycles because I enjoy riding them and I guess it just makes the walk a bit more interesting but I don't do that anymore because my attackers use attention grabbing to set me up so I guess I've trained myself away from doing that. The girl on the bicycle then stopped before the road and I walked past and shortly afterwards I could hear a bicycle behind me and this went on for a while down to the bottom of Punch Bowl Lane along Red Lion Street and then it stopped. After having experienced the odd people around the corner at the end of my street I'm wondering if the girl on the bicycle was put there by my attackers as well. I don't know, I'm just recording it because it might be important. I returned along Waterside, Gordon Road and Springfield Road.

My mother cooked a roast dinner today which she's doing regularly now and we had a glass of wine to go with it and I enjoyed it very much. After that I sat on my bed and played Skyrim on my PS3 and I got under the duvet to warm up and fell asleep just like yesterday but this time when I awoke I thankfully didn't have morning glory.

Monday Apr 25 2016:
21:51 I went out today along The Backs but the footpath was closed just along from Hospital Hill so I dropped down to Waterside and walked into town along Waterside and Red Lion Street. In the High Street I deposited some money into my account (receipt says 13:59) as my mother gave me some pocket money over the weekend. I then walked up to Sainsbury's Chesham and there was one security guard at the security desk by the main doors on entrance, I bought a couple of items that I needed and I paid at the self-service tills (receipt says 14:04) and left the store and the same security guard was at the same spot on exit. As I walked down the High Street to the war memorial I saw a police car going down the pedestrianised High Street further down but I didn't see it for long, it wasn't hanging about. I returned down the High Street, Red Lion Street, Waterside, Gordon Road and Springfield Road. It was quite nice out although it rained a little but it was refreshing and it had dried up by the time I'd exited Sainsbury's. I didn't detect anything odd today.

Tuesday Apr 26 2016:
I had a shower on this day.

Very personal information originally recorded here has been moved to my Very Personal Diary.

Gave myself a 1/2 inch haircut because I grew it long over the colder months and I'll be overheating soon and I want to ride my bicycle in the sunshine.

Wednesday Apr 27 2016:
13:57 I'd just got ready to pop down the town and there's a big black cloud coming over so I've decided not to go out. I want to go out just to assert my freedom to do so because if I don't then it means that I've allowed my attackers to intimidate me into not doing so.

17:45 I've installed the Tor Browser on my Linux laptop for personal safety.

Thursday Apr 28 2016:
14:26 I took a walk into town to get some supplies. I walked along The Backs and down Punch Bowl Lane intending to deposit some recyclable paper and card into the recycle centre and again I forgot and I walked straight up the High Street to Sainsbury's Chesham. On entrance to the store there was one security guard at the security desk by the main doors. I bought some beefburgers, vegetables for my lunch and some sweets and paid at the self-service tills (receipt says 14:04) and the lone security guard was gone on exit from the store. I then walked through Sainsbury's Chesham car park and saw a police car parked with nobody inside so I'm guessing that one or more policemen were inside the store somewhere. If I hadn't of walked through their car park then I wouldn't have know about this and I don't walk through there very often.

I walked across Star Yard car park towards the recycle centre next to Darvell's Bakery and deposited my paper and card and then walked down the side of Darvell's into the High Street. I returned down Red Lion Street, Waterside and a police van drove up towards me around the bottom of Hospital Hill. I walked up Gordon Road and Springfield Road to home.

Today was the first time I'd gone out since cutting my hair to 1/2 inch and installing the Tor Browser on my Linux laptop. I'm just noting this -- an inquisitive reader might be wondering if this has anything to do with the police vehicles today or they might be completely unrelated.

18:42 I'm sitting in bed playing Skyrim on my PS3 and a helicopter came over low and noisy and hovered about briefly and I looked out of my window but I couldn't see it. Nothing is showing on the flightradar24 website.

21:24 I was thinking about my trip out today and I have detected something and I got it before the noisy helicopter flew over earlier. On my way up the High Street I walked in the middle of the road to the Misty Moon pub and similarly up the pedestrianised part and I was looking down whilst walking to protect my view and I looked up enough to check the route ahead and there was a woman ahead to my left and a young woman wearing black leggings/jogging trousers ahead to my right and all I saw was the feet and lower legs of both people as my eyes flicked up and then I returned to looking down. I've got no memory of anything else about these people, I saw nothing else of them and I wasn't aware of their presence until I looked up. At the time it was just people in the High Street. I was aware enough of the young woman wearing black leggings/jogging trousers to be wary of her but this is automatic now, it's just what I do, the same as walking with plenty of space around me, not being behind people and being careful of what's in my view so I overtook the woman on my left and when I turned left into the path to Sainsbury's Chesham the young woman was doing the same over to my right. What I did was keep well left and I navigated through a congested arch outside the shop on the corner and all I can say about the young woman was that she was ahead on the right over near Sainsbury's mirrored windows. After I'd exited the little arch I think the young woman was entering Sainsbury's Chesham but it's a very vague recollection because she wasn't in my immediate viscinity and my threat level had dropped. When I entered the foyer I headed towards the baskets but there weren't any so I turned around and went back to the door I'd just entered and there were a few on the floor so I took one of those, turned back around and entered the store past the lone security guard at the security desk by the main doors.

The first thing I did was head to the broccoli which I had for lunch today. I then walked up the vegetable isle and right towards the meats and I navigated quite easily past/through a couple of people and it registered that somebody was wearing black leggings/jogging trousers which I got from my peripheral vision (I think my gaze was ahead mid to high and unobstructed) but it was very brief and it barely registered, I'm just recalling it now because it means something. I went to the burgers around the corner which I'm doing regularly at the moment and nobody was in front of me. I picked up the burgers and turned back around the way I'd came and walked along to the confectionery isle and bought some sweets and I didn't detect a person wearing black leggings/jogging trousers for the remainder of my shopping experience.

I feel very good about this experience today, I'm not scared in the slightest. What I have recorded is my attackers attempting to make it look as though I'm following a young woman in black leggings/jogging trousers into Sainsbury's Chesham and she was likely waiting for me to walk around the corner towards the burgers. She's dressed in black leggings/jogging trousers because they've been sensitising me to those over the years but that doesn't work on me anymore, I've become numb to their Automatic Attention Grabbing by Subliminal Spatial Cues events and I've stated this before. I didn't detect her anywhere else in the store but she could've been hovering around me elsewhere without me knowing. It's possible that the police were inside the store with the security staff in their room which is near the burgers because I saw their car in the car park which I don't normally walk through. Did they tell the security staff that I'd be following a young woman into the store? Luckily for me I got held up navigating through the arch and having to go back and get a basket so I had no idea where she was once I'd entered the store. And then there was the police van along Waterside making sure it registers just in case it was too subtle and then possibly there was a police helicopter over my house later on.

This is a fantastic thing to be able to record. I'm very happy that this turned out the way that it did. There is absolutely nothing that I need to worry about regarding my conduct today which is the inverse of what I'm detecting from my attackers.

Very personal information originally recorded here has been moved to my Very Personal Diary.

Friday Apr 29 2016:
14:34 Quite often this day is my personal grooming day (shave, shower, laundry, make some bread) but my mother's staying at home today and I want to go out to exercise my right to do so to push back against my bullying attackers so I walked along The Backs, down Station Road and into the High Street and up to Sainsbury's Chesham. On entrance to the store there were two security guards at the security desk by the main doors chatting away to one another and I headed straight for the fruit isle and bought some kiwi fruit. I then got some bread because I was going to make some today but I forgot and so I bought a 60p wholemeal loaf which will suffice. I then made my way to the self-service tills and paid (receipt says 13:51) and walked to the newspapers and picked up The Telegraph for my mother and briefly read the front page about Ken Livingstone under attack for his Hitler comments and then I turned around and there was a girl wearing blue jeans behind me facing the end of the cigarette counter but not in a queue as though she was just standing there doing nothing. I didn't look at her, I detected her in my peripheral vision and I walked to the front of the cigarette counter and continued to read the headlines whilst waiting for a male staff member to shout "Next please" but nothing was happening so I looked up and there was nobody in front of me and the male staff member was just standing there waiting for me and then he looked behind me as though he was looking at somebody.

I paid for the newspaper (receipt says 13:53) and turned around and saw a security guard walking away from the security desk by the main doors. Interestingly the male staff member said "You want a receipt yeah?" and I always have to ask for one because the norm is they don't give you one at the cigarette counter. He was a Pakistani/Indian looking guy so I'm wondering if he was actually a security guard behind the cigarette counter specifically there to serve me.

I returned down the High Street, Red Lion Street, Waterside and almost at the exact same spot as yesterday near the bottom of Hospital Hill a police van drove past me going south. I then went up Gordon Road and Springfield Road.

So today my attackers inserted a school age girl (young teen or possibly even younger) behind me as I picked up a newspaper (I didn't detect her or anybody when I walked over there) and the security guards were waiting for me to arrive and monitored me and the staff member behind the cigarette counter was watching the security guard watch me. My attackers knew I was going to get a newspaper because I'd discussed it with my mother in my house before I left.

Saturday Apr 30 2016:
17:40 I went out today and it was sunny and pleasant. I walked along The Backs, down Punch Bowl Lane to Red Lion Street and into the High Street and bought some envelopes in JPS Stationers (receipt says 13:48 which is obviously an hour behind). I then walked up to my bank and withdrew some money from my bank's cashpoint machine and then up to Sainsbury's Chesham and there were two security guards at the security desk by the main doors on entrance. I bought some shampoo and then looked for the sugar and couldn't find it so I asked a member of staff and he told me where it was. I had a look at the PS3 games and the front of Private Eye and then paid at the self-service tills (receipt says 15:00) and took the till nearest the security guards and I looked at them a couple of times but they weren't obviously interested in me. I left the store and the same security guards were at the same spot and then returned down the High Street, Red Lion Street, Waterside, Gordon Road and Springfield Road and had a chat with my neighbour Jackie near my home who was walking her litle dog. There were people about but it wasn't what I would call busy and my mother said the same thing when she returned from the town not long after me. I didn't detect anything odd today, it was uneventful.

Sunday May 1 2016:
I had a shower on this day.

Very personal information originally recorded here has been moved to my Very Personal Diary.

23:27 An emergency vehicle with its lights flashing just went down the hill I think. I heard the road noise and it was travelling at speed but not labouring.

Monday May 2 2016:
19:31 I've just made my seventh monthly £5 payment to Wright Hassall using the website.

Tuesday May 3 2016:
I had a shower on this day.

Very personal information originally recorded here has been moved to my Very Personal Diary.

I'd just made some bread and got in the shower and then I heard lots of noise and it was the window cleaner and my parents arriving at the same time so my mother oversaw the window cleaner and opened the back gate for him and I continued with my shower. He normally knocks but my mother was dealing with it.

Wednesday May 4 2016:
14:33 I've just returned from a trip into town. I walked along The Backs, down Station Road and into the High Street and then up to Sainsbury's Chesham and I didn't notice a security guard on entrance to the store. I bought some vegetables which I may have today, some burgers, some crisps and then turned into the confectionery isle and there were some young mothers with children in front of the sweets so I went further down and got a small packet of strawberry pencils just in case those people were put there by my attackers. I paid at the self-service tills (receipt says 14:11) and there was now one security guard at the security desk by the main doors on exit from the store. I returned down the High Street which was busy with the market on and the sun out, Red Lion Street, Waterside, Gordon Road and Springfield Road. It was a nice sunny walk which I really enjoyed and I didn't detect anything odd today.

Thursday May 5 2016:
12:58 I've just returned from a trip into town. I walked along The Backs and I think the only people I saw were an elderly woman walking towards me near the bridge and there was somebody far into the distance approaching the railway station. I walked down Station Road and into the High Street and it was busy today likely because it's very sunny and warm and there is some polling going on for the Police Crime Commissioner which will mean that some schools will be closed but the town didn't look much different to what it normally does on a week day. I walked into Sainsbury's Chesham looking down as I do and I looked up to check the route ahead and there were three little boys sitting on the floor inside the foyer and my initial thoughts were "Warning warning" as they could've been put there by my attackers so I grabbed a basket near the door that I entered through rather than one from over where they were sitting and then I walked in past the security desk as normal and there were no security guards to be seen on entrance to the store. If I shop in another supermarket for example in one on a route into London on the tube then I would relax and not be so paranoid and it wouldn't be such an issue because I wouldn't expect my attackers to be there setting something up and I could have a normal shopping experience but I can't be like that around here, epsecially in Sainsbury's Chesham. When I visit Sainsbury's Chesham I expect something to be set-up ready for me every time that I visit.

In the store I bought some milk, sweets and chocolate and finally some Ibuprofen tablets and paid at the self-service tills (receipt says 12:34) and a couple of those police community support officers came in after me and used the till next to me. I had to get the attention of a staff member to verify my bag and I took the oppotunity to look at these people as I span around and there was a woman and a man and when I looked at the man he looked left towards the front of the store so possibly he knew that I was looking at him or he was looking at me and looked away. There was no security guard to be seen on exit from the store and the three little boys had gone by the time I'd left. I returned down the High Street, Red Lion Street, Waterside, Gordon Road and Springfield Road. It was very warm and sunny and I enjoyed the exercise. I don't know if something was going on today but I've got it all recorded anyway.

Friday May 6 2016:
11:44 As is the norm now after and odd trip out yesterday I couldn't get to sleep last night, I was overheating and my heart was thumping and it was uncomfortable to sleep on my right-hand side. I heard the birds starting to sing at 4:23 this morning (they've got great timekeeping because I've noticed that time before) and I think I nodded off not long after that.

13:10 I've just returned from a lovely sunny and warm trip into town. I walked along The Backs which was empty and then down Station Road into the High Street and up to Sainsbury's Chesham and there were no security guards to be seen on entrance to the store. I bought tropical granola and mixed nuts and raisins which I'm about to run out of at home and paid at the self-service tills (receipt says 12:52). For the record I stood awaiting an empty till and the female staff member there pointed me to a vacant till which is the norm if you wait. I left the store and there were no security guards to be seen on exit. I returned down the very busy High Street, Red Lion Street, Waterside, Gordon Road and Springfield Road. It was an uneventful trip out today.

Saturday May 7 2016:
16:58 I've not long returned from a lovely bicycle ride and I'll write it up in a little while as I'm going to enjoy a cigarette in the back garden.

17:09 I rode my bicycle through the Moor Road, Red Lion Street and walked up the High Street to withdraw some money from my bank's cashpoint machine and then rode up Station Road to catch the train. I exited the train at Northwood and rode my bicycle along a route that I've used many times before that follows the Underground line and just after Harrow-on-the-Hill a police van passed me on approach to a roundabout and it's a wide road which opens up into multiple lanes and I did hear something behind me and I felt as though it was hanging about unnecessarily but I don't know if that was the case, I just wondered why I could hear something and it wasn't passing me when there was no other trafic in front of me and there was lots of space. I was next to it at the roundabout and there was a passenger policeman next to the driver but he wasn't taking any obvious interest in me.

I reached Wembley Park and rode to the shopping area where there's a Primark. I walked into Primark and took a route through some mens clothing and a young woman came through and I moved aside and navigated through to the mens socks. I picked up some socks and some vests and stood in the very long queue for the tills behind a muslim (I think) couple and I think they had a small daughter in front of them. Some time passed and I reached a till and paid (receipt says 15:34 till 2) and then walked along the main pathway out of the store and a small boy ran through some clothing racks and bumped into my right leg. I continued towards the main doors and a security guard who had been talking to a male customer with a shopping basket walked off. Outside the store a police car drove past as I walked along the path back to my bicycle that I had secured to a metal fence/barrier.

I want to note that I enjoyed shopping in there because I didn't feel the need to weave around people because they were being normal, they weren't as far as I know put there or hanging around me and being quiet and emitting an oddness. It was an enjoyable normal shopping experience in a very busy store and that's what I like about getting out of Chesham, I can relax and stop being so paranoid. I'm still very careful about where my gaze is but the people around me and their proximity to me just isn't the issue that it is in the hell that is Chesham. I don't care which is what I keep saying to myself and that's what I want to get across -- I don't care that there are kids around in a normal environment, I just don't want be set-up and that's what I keep detecting in Chesham. In Chesham I'm on a stage and I'm weaving around people that have been placed there and they are emitting an oddness.

I rode back to Wembley Park Underground station and caught the Amersham train and somewhere along the line I was approached by a man with a shield shaped badge in a wallet that said Revenue Protection Officer and he wanted to check my ticket (actually Oyster card) and I said "I've never seen one of you guys before" and he replied "Sadly there aren't that many of us about any more". He had an accomplice with him who was a big tall stocky guy and they weren't wearing anything obvious like a uniform, just normal casual clothes. There were some noisy girls several seats along to where I was standing with my bicycle and they got off at Amersham as well and joined a big group of them who were standing on the platform talking and I just kept looking down as I passed them and lifted my bicycle over the bridge and exited the station and a police car drove past towards the police station. I rode along that way as well and returned through Chesham Bois, Hodds Wood Road, Moor Road and up Trapps Lane.

I could say that the police were monitoring me today and the security guard in Primark was keeping an eye on me and was talking to another security guard disguised as a shopper or I could say that the police vehicles were normal and that the Primark security guard wasn't interested in me at all, take your pick. I had a nice day though and I enjoyed the bicycle ride and I got some new socks and vests and I feel absolutely relieved that I went somewhere normal for a change. It's now 18:23 and you can see that it takes some time to write this stuff up but it's important. I'm going to play a little GTA Online on my PS3 now in bed.

21:16 Actually I think I was being checked out today: once I'd joined the queue in Primark a man joined behind me uncomfortably closely and I turned sideways at one point to get a glimpse of him in my peripheral vision and he was white, at least as tall as me (5 foot 10 inches) and slim and sensibly dressed so that sounds to me like an agent/detective. He was so close that I turned left and right quickly a couple of times because I was wearing my rucksack and if something was going on then my rucksack would've touched him but it was clear, there was no obstruction in my movement. I'd forgotten about this and I've just remembered. Little things like this start to appear as the events of the day turn over in my mind.

00:05 It's just gone midnight but I want to note this here: I'm starting to get the feeling that I was at the centre of something big today. I'm wondering now about the young woman that I passed through the mens clothing racks in Primark. I've been in there once before and I think that I used the same route to the men's underwear and I made the decision to take that route and she appeared very quickly from somewhere in the mens section and I did notice through my peripheral vision that she was busty with a low cut top so of course now I'm thinking that that was put together and that she was rushing to get into position so that I would have to navigate past her closely. I don't know, I'm just recording this in case it's important.

I think the best thing to do now is to call it a day updating this diary and just send it to the IPCC now because it's never ending and my attackers are getting very dangerous and it needs to end now. I can update it afterwards once they've got it.

Sunday May 8 2016:
11:52 I had a shower today.

Very personal information originally recorded here has been moved to my Very Personal Diary.

Monday May 9 2016:
14:14 I've not long returned from a trip into town. I walked along The Backs, down Station Road and into the High Street and up to Sainsbury's Chesham and there were two security guards chatting to one another at the security desk by the main doors on entrance. I first made my way to the confectionery isle and bought some strawberry pencils and then over to the burgers and bought some of those. I paid at the self-service tills eventually after the machine refused to accept my two pound coins and a male staff member swapped them for a two pound coin which worked (receipt says 13:46). I left the store and the same security guards were at the same spot on exit. I returned down the High Street, Red Lion Street, Waterside, Gordon Road and Springfield Road and it is very sunny and very warm and I enjoyed the exercise and the sunshine. I didn't detect anything odd during this trip.

Tuesday May 10 2016:
11:06 I haven't checked my emails for a while and I've just seen one in there from the IPCC and I think that they want me to hurry up so I'm going to have to rush this.

Wednesday May 11 2016:
A guy from Paradigm visited to add some missing plinths to some kitchen units to finish it off after the floor was retiled recently. He doesn't move white goods so I pulled out the fridge, freezer and washing machine to give him access.

I had a shower today.

Very personal information originally recorded here has been moved to my Very Personal Diary.

20:28 Added an entry for Oct 4 2015 that I've inserted there as notes to maintain the flow.

May 12 2016

13:15 Added an entry for Oct 8 2015 that I've inserted there as notes to maintain the flow.

13:16 Added an entry for Oct 16 2015 that I've inserted there as notes to maintain the flow.

13:36 Added an entry for Oct 17 2015 that I've inserted there as notes to maintain the flow.

13:43 Added an entry for Oct 24 2015 that I've inserted there as notes to maintain the flow.

13:47 Added an entry for Oct 31 2015 that I've inserted there as notes to maintain the flow.

13:49 Added an entry for Nov 7 2015 that I've inserted there as notes to maintain the flow.

17:59 Added an entry for Oct 25 2015 that I've inserted there as notes to maintain the flow.

18:01 Added an entry for Nov 2 2015 that I've inserted there as notes to maintain the flow.

18:02 Added an entry for Nov 6 2015 that I've inserted there as notes to maintain the flow.

May 14 2016

I had a shower today.

Very personal information originally recorded here has been moved to my Very Personal Diary.

May 15 2016

15:46 I've just returned from a trip into town and a fantastic walk afterwards. I walked along The Backs, down Station Road and into the High Street and up to Sainsbury's Chesham and there were no security guards to be seen on entrance to the store. I bought nine items (I haven't been out all week because I've been working on this diary) and paid at the self-service tills (receipt says 14:23) and there were no security guards to be seen on exit from the store. I walked back down the High Street and thought that it would be great to make more of this nice weather and so I walked along Germain Street, Amy Lane and up Amersham Hill (Chesham Road officially) into Amersham-on-the-Hill and I saw one police car go past as I was approaching the Boot and Slipper pub and you would expect that since it's the main road and they go up and down it all the time.

I walked through Amersham-on-the-Hill which was busy as you might expect in this nice weather and returned through Chesham Bois, Bois Moor Hill and Bois Moor Road and up Pheasant Rise. It's quite a walk and it took me about and hour and twenty minutes from Sainsbury's Chesham and I was pushing it, I wanted to get some exercise as well as smell the Spring and enjoy the scenery. It was a lovely event free trip out and I didn't detect anything odd about it.

May 16 2016

12:13 Earlier today I spoke to my mother about me wanting to go out to get some things in Sainsbury's Chesham and she said that she wasn't going out today and she asked me to get her a newspaper. About 11:50 I got her to open the back gate and open her car to bring in some bags of earth for gardening and we went out and a police car came up the hill very slowly and I watched the driver and he was looking over at us but we didn't make eye contact. The police car continued up the hill at the same speed and it went around the corner into Woodland View. I got the last bag of earth out and my mother closed the boot of the car and the police car came back down the hill at a normal speed.

13:44* I've just returned from a trip into town. I walked along The Backs which was empty, down Punch Bowl Lane into Red Lion Street, into the High Street and I cut through the council building into the car park to access the recycling centre where I deposited some paper and card. I then walked down the side of Darvell's Bakery back into the High Street and checked my bank balance using my bank's cashpoint machine. I walked up to Sainsbury's Chesham and there were no security guards to be seen on entrance to the store.

I bought lots of items in Sainsbury's and I specifically went out to buy lots of salad vegetables because this time of the year I like to make interesting salads for lunch, so I spent most of my shopping trip in the fruit and vegetable isles and I also bought some tinned tuna and crisps. I paid at the self service tills (receipt says 13:23) and filled up my rucksack and a Waitrose carrier bag and there were two security guards at the security desk by the main doors and one of them walked off just before I left the self-service tills on my way to the newspapers. I bought The Telegraph for my mother and paid at the cigarette counter (receipt says 13:25) and left the store and walked down the very busy and sunny High Street and returned along Red Lion Street, Waterside, Gordon Road and Springfield Road and I didn't detect anything odd during my trip out.

00:31 I know it's the following morning now but I just want to note that the police car slowly cruising past my mother and I today felt really weird, intimidatory in fact. Even my mother pointed out how strange their slow speed was.

May 17 2016

I had a shower today.

Very personal information originally recorded here has been moved to my Very Personal Diary.

May 19 2016

15:24 I went out today along The Backs, down Station Road and into the High Street and I checked my bank balance using my bank's cashpoint machine. I then walked up to Sainsbury's Chesham and somebody in a yellow fluorescent jacket (a security guard probably) was walking in the lobby and entered the store as I entered and there was one security guard at the security desk by the main doors. I bought a few necessary items and paid at the self-service tills (receipt says 14:07) and there were two security guards at the security desk by the main doors on exit from the store.

I returned down the High Street, Red Lion Street and around the bottom of Punch Bowl Lane there was somebody that I would describe as a [Pakistani/Indian] male sixth former from the local High School (I don't know if that terminology is still correct, it's possibly outdated) whom I was catching up with because I walk fast and I sped up to overtake him on his right and he sped up and moved over to the right so that I was right up behind him on a very thin section of the path and I eventually overtook him on his left just before a young woman came towards us and she had to move over to the left to let me through. I find it really suspicious when people speed up as I attempt to pass them and why am I experiencing it so much, it's just so strange especially since the gap was closing so fast even before I sped up! The guy also didn't take any notice of me as I passed, no movement of his head as though he was aware of my presence. I continued along Waterside, Gordon Road and Springfield Road and didn't see anybody else.

18:37 I want to add a little more detail about my trip out today because I don't like that guy speeding up as I attempted to pass him along Red Lion Street and into Waterside. Along The Backs I didn't see anybody other than another [white] male that I would describe as a sixth former from the local High School who appeared from the top of Jacob's Ladder and who walked towards me in the direction that I'd just come from -- the rest I've documented.

19:01 Actually there was somebody else along The Backs when I first started along it: there was a tall male possibly wearing a checkered shirt and jeans who was in the distance and there are a couple of long straights along there and I didn't see him again and I wondered where he'd disappeared to.

I currently feel as though something was going on today, a set-up. The main thing is I've recorded it in detail so if it was a set-up then I've got everything that I can refer back to.

May 20 2016

17:38 I had a shower today.

Very personal information originally recorded here has been moved to my Very Personal Diary.

19:16 I've just returned from a trip into town. I'm working on this diary and I'm two important events away from completing it (I need to add some notes as well) and I needed to get some fresh air, some exercise and some washing powder so I jogged along The Backs for some it and passed quite a few people actually of all ages. I walked down Punch Bowl Lane into Red Lion Street, the High Street and went to check my bank balance using my bank's cashpoint machine but it wasn't working so I left it and jogged up to and into Sainsbury's Chesham and there were no security guards to be seen on entrance to the store. I bought some washing powder and paid at the self-service tills (receipt says 18:50) and left the store and there were no security guards to be seen on exit from the store. I walked and jogged down the High Street, Red Lion Street and then went back up Punch Bowl Lane and returned along The Backs for a change and smoked a cigarette since I couldn't smoke it on the way out as I was jogging. I didn't detect anything odd during this trip but then again I jogged so I was quite quick, I haven't been out this late in the evening during the week possibly since March 2014 so maybe it was just too random for my attackers to deal with.

May 21 2016

18:03 I went out today to Watford because I've been playing the Minecraft demo on my PS3 and it's really addictive and I wanted to purchase the full game and Argos Waterfields was showing has having them in stock at a very reasonable £15.99 (PS3 games are quite cheap now).

I walked along The Backs which was empty I think all the way to the train station and boarded the train to Moor Park and then onto Watford. I walked and jogged a little along Cassiobury Park Avenue as usual and I crossed the main road and walked speedily down the High Street to Waterfields and bought Minecraft (receipt says 15:39). I walked back up the High Street and decided to walk through the Harlequin shopping centre and I walked up and through WHSmith's and was going to look at the latest copy of Retro Gamer but they'd rearranged the magazine section and I couldn't find it so I left and walked through the shopping centre on the top level and passed a security guard who was walking towards me who I think I detected looking at me and then another one passed me a little further along and then I think there was one more.

I reached the end of the top level and outside the doors was a security guard wearing a fluorescent yellow top standing with his legs apart and arms behind back looking quite sturdy and I passed him and walked along a very restricted covered path that is part of some refurbishment and there was no obvious route down so I asked a man who was walking towards me if there was a way down at the end of the path and he said that it only goes up to a car park. I continued along and had a quick look but there was only a route up so I turned around and jogged back towards the shopping centre doors and the security guard had followed me along for a short distance and when he saw me coming back he turned around and returned to his original spot. So, the security guard had just revealed to me that he was there for me and that he was monitoring me -- I'd guessed it anyway from inside the shopping centre. I went down the escalator to the ground level and exited the doors and took another restricted covered path that brought me out over the other side near the main road -- it's been some time since I've used those doors and they must be refurbishing/redeveloping that whole area.

I walked back up the High Street to Sainsbury's Watford and bought some crisps and tins of tuna which I'm having with my salads at the moment and paid at the self-service tills (receipt says 16:08) and left the store and I didn't see any security guards there at all and it was a perfectly normal shopping experience and enjoyable.

I returned the same way I'd came to the Underground station and had to wait for some time for a train to arrive and when it did it was full of balloons and beer cans and smelt like a pub and two train staff walked up through the train to the driver's compartment and a short while later one of them said that we'd have to get off because it requires the attention of the cleaning team. I got off and another train arrived a minute later and that was littered with beer cans but no balloons and eventually we went to Moor Park and the Chesham train was waiting at the platform which was nice. At Chesham I walked home along The Backs as it's a quick and sheltered route and it was raining. When I got home my dad was watching football so I'm guessing that the blue and red balloons and the beer cans on the train are from the football fans.

I had a nice day out even though it was raining from the moment I exited the Harlequin shopping centre in Watford. I had a lot of exercise which always does me good and I'm really enjoying playing Minecraft on my PS3.

May 22 2016

22:40 The flashing lights of an emergency vehicle just flashed through the thin strip of my blind that isn't covered by a sunblind and it lasted about four seconds and then it stopped. I couldn't hear a vehicle or road noise and it was as though the vehicle was stationary rather than moving. I did see the lights of one go up the hill about an hour ago and it was travelling at speed with accompanying road noise.

May 23 2016

14:49 I've just returned from a trip into town. I walked along The Backs and walked down Punch Bowl Lane and passed an older woman walking her dog (the only person I saw along there) and up Red Lion Street, the High Street and into Sainsbury's Chesham and there were no security guards to be seen on entrance to the store. I bought some milk, Savlon for my eczema, Ibuprofen tablets and crisps and paid at the self-service tills (receipt says 14:27) and no security guards were to be seen on exit from the store. I returned down the High Street, Red Lion Street, Waterside and at the railway bridge a police car passed me going south, Gordon Road and Springfield Road. When I got in I realised I'd left my crisps behind in a Waitrose carrier bag. I enjoyed the exercise and the sunshine and there were lots of people about of all ages today. I didn't realise that it was so warm and I could've warn my shorts and T-shirt.

May 24 2016

23:41 I had a shower today.

Very personal information originally recorded here has been moved to my Very Personal Diary.

A very noisy police sounding helicopter came over our house at 23:22 tonight and the blades were really pounding the air. I heard it approach and then it sounded as though it was low above our house for several seconds and then it left just as quickly as it'd arrived. I think it woke my mother as she was quiet in bed and after the helicopter had gone there was movement and coughing coming from her room.

I want to note a few more things about yesterday evening: I had a cigarette outside the front door with my mother on two occasions -- about 17:10 and the second one would've been between 19:00 and 20:00 and on one of the ocassions (I can't remember which one) a police car came up the hill and turned around in the car park across the road as though it was going to go back down the hill but it didn't go down, it went out of view behind parked cars and garden bushes for a short while and then it drove slowly down and the driver had his window open and was looking over at my mother and I. I was thinking about noting it last night but I didn't think it was worthwhile in the end. Later in the evening there was some rain and thunder and a couple of emergency cars came up the hill at speed with their flashing lights on and my dad thought it was lightning and my mother and I told him that it wasn't lightning but police cars (I didn't see police cars, I'm assuming it was since you can tell from the road noise it wasn't anything bigger than that). My mother and I both thought that something was going on at the top of the hill somewhere.

A thought came to my head late last night or early this morning that maybe all of that police activity yesterday evening was meant to get my attention, to send me a signal and possibly it might be because I left a Waitrose carrier bag containing a bag of crisps at the self-service tills in Sainsbury's Chesham earlier in the day but I thought it was a bit silly and over-the-top and I certainly didn't think that it was worth noting but since the noisy police sounding helicopter came over our house tonight it seems more plausible now.

May 29 2016

22:00 I'm getting behind again!

Thursday May 26 2016:
I walked along The Backs, down Station Road and into the High Street and up to Sainsbury's Chesham (I can't now remember exactly the security guard presence on entry and exit but I think it was one in and none out) and bought several items and paid at the self-service tills (receipt says 14:33). I asked the female member of staff at the self-service tills about my Waitrose carrier bag containing crisps that I'd left there on Monday May 23 2016 and she recommended that I enquire at the customer service counter so that's where I went next and a lady there looked in the cupboard and through a book and there was no record of my Waitrose carrier bag containing crisps and she said that somebody probably walked off with them and I thanked her for her effort.

I left the store and walked down the High Street on the right of the road near the parked cars and a police van appeared on my left which had driven into the town centre from behind me and it stopped to wait for pedestrians to walk across the bottom of Station Road. I continued down the High Street, Red Lion Street, Waterside, Gordon Road and Springfield Road. Other than the police van I didn't detect anything obviously odd about this trip out.

Saturday May 28 2016:
I had a shower on this day.

Very personal information originally recorded here has been moved to my Very Personal Diary.

Sunday May 29 2016 -- which is today -- I walked along The Backs which was empty, down Station Road and into the High Street and up to Sainsbury's Chesham and there were no security guards to be seen on entrance to the store. I bought several items (I was also going to get some tobacco but I forgot) and paid at the self-service tills (receipt says 15:29) and one security guard was at the security desk by the main doors on exit from the store. I walked down the High Street and as I approached the pedestrian crossing opposite the Red Lion Pub a police van drove past going south. I returned along Red Lion Street, Waterside, Gordon Road and Springfield Road. Other than the obligatory police van I didn't detect anything obviously odd about this trip out. I wasn't intending to go out any further than I did today but when I saw the police van I did think that I should go out for a longer walk just to push against them in case they were intimidating me not to but I was wearing a thin fleece which was causing me to overheat so I went straight home. It's a Bank Holiday tomorrow so I can be adventurous then if I want to. I'm quite addicted to Minecraft PS3 at the moment and I am having a bit of a problem not playing it.

June

Jun 1 2016

Monday May 30 2016:
On this Bank Holiday Monday all I wanted to do was buy some tobacco and play Minecraft PS3 so I left the house and about halfway along our street I saw our neighbour Lee-Anne and spoke to her about her little dog that she was walking which she told me belongs to her daughter and a young woman/girl came towards us from a nearby alley talking loudly and it startled us I guess because we thought that she was talking to us but in fact she was on a mobile phone with an earpiece so that interupted and brought our conversation to a premature end.

I walked and jogged along The Backs which was empty and I think I went down Punch Bowl Lane to Red Lion Street as I didn't have a cigarette on the way out and I walked up the High Street to Sainsbury's Chesham and bought some tobacco at the cigarette counter (receipt says 13:25) and there was one security guard at the security desk by the main doors on entrance and exit from the store. I returned down the High Street, up Station Road and I cut through the steep car park to The Backs and I made a cigarette as I walked along there and smoked it and I can't remember seeing anybody along there on the way back either. There were plenty of people in the town and the weather was nice and I didn't see a police van and nobody was odd.

Tuesday May 31 2016:
I had a shower on this day.

Very personal information originally recorded here has been moved to my Very Personal Diary.

Wednesday Jun 1 2016 -- which is today -- I walked along The Backs which was empty, down Station Road and into the High Street and deposited my pocket money into my bank account. I then walked up to Sainsbury's Chesham and there was one security guard at the security desk by the main doors on entrance to the store. I bought some milk and some salad vegetables and paid at the self-service tills (receipt says 14:35) and then bought my mother some cigarettes at the cigarette counter (receipt says 14:38) which wasn't easy because my mother said that they were called something "Kings" but in fact they are Richmond and the female member of staff wouldn't let me view the cigarettes (it's against the law) so I had to read the list a couple of times until I worked it out! I left the store and can't remember the security guard presence and returned down the High Street, Red Lion Street, Waterside, Gordon Road and Springfield Road and the weather was wet but mild and I didn't see a police van and nobody was odd.

Jun 2 2016

23:42 I want to add some detail about my trip out yesterday Wednesday Jun 1 2016 because something was going on but I just didn't get it at the time: when I walked into Nationwide to deposit some money into my account there was a woman leaning on the internal cashpoint machine which is where the queue starts so I looked at her and said "Are you in the queue?" and she replied but it wasn't what you'd normally expect somebody to say such as "No, I'm waiting...", it was more like "No, I'm standing here" or "No, I'm staying here" or something similar and she had a very hard look in her eyes, a scary hardness. I moved past her and on the left is a chair and on the right is the central barrier that you queue against and which you can also use to write things on (I think that there's a pen there). On the chair on the left was a girl of possibly early teens (I didn't look at her, I'm just recalling this from my peripheral vision and my awareness of what's around me) and at the end of the barrier was a woman who would be served next and I didn't know if the girl on the chair was with the woman who was waiting or if she was with the woman who would be served next or if she was queuing on her own so I stood along the barrier just before the girl on the chair. Eventually the woman at the end of the barrier was served and the girl on the chair didn't move so I moved along to the end of the barrier and faced the booths awaiting my turn. Before I was served the girl got up from the chair and walked back to the door and I think was chatting with a man but this was going on behind me to my right so it's just stuff that I was aware of while I was waiting. As far as I could tell nothing was changing regarding customers in the bank, everybody was still and there was no movement and there's no line-of-sight between the chair and door because the cashpoint juts out into the room.

After Sainsbury's Chesham I walked a little way down the High Street and a tall big African man wearing a fluorescent jacket was just ahead of me to my right and I heard some jabbering on what I thought was a walkie-talkie and it sounded like it could've been an African language and then the man turned around towards me as I walked past. I just assumed that he was a Sainsbury's Chesham security guard who was going for a walk but I don't recognise him from there so it was just a guess.

Both of these things must've been stewing in my mind and I now think that something was going on and it wasn't such an uneventful trip out after all. I went out today Thursday Jun 2 2016 and I think I detected something in Sainsbury's Chesham but it's too late to record it now, I'll do it tomorrow.


Notes:

The following was written on Jun 6 2016:

I just wanted to note that the money that I deposited into my bank account I took from my pot in my room and I don't normally do that as I put the money straight into my wallet but I already had some money in my wallet and I thought that I'd put it in my pot. This is how my attackers knew that I was intending to visit my bank. It never fails to shock me the level of surveillance that I'm under.


Jun 4 2016

17:10 I've just made my eighth monthly £5 payment to Wright Hassall using the website.

Jun 6 2016

11:30 I've been under siege for a while now and inevitably I'm getting behind documenting it so today I'm going to concentrate on getting on top of it.

Thursday Jun 2 2016:
I spoke to Lee-Anne on my way out who was walking her dog. We had a chat and I asked her if she was working at the moment (she works at the local school) and she said that it was half-term and I said "Is it?" -- I wouldn't have known that from my trip out on Wednesday Jun 1 2016. I just wanted to note this to show how deserted the town quite often is. Lee-Anne had the dog lead in one hand and cigarettes and lighter in the other and dropped the lighter a couple of times and eventually I said that I'm off to Sainsbury's Chesham and said "See you later." and she didn't say anything, no reply, maybe because she was having difficulties juggling everything but I did wonder if she wasn't comfortable being seen with me or responding to "See you later.".

I walked along The Backs which were empty but for one man, down Station Road and into the High Street and up to Sainsbury's Chesham and there was one security guard at the security desk by the main doors on entrance to the store. I only needed to buy a few items and the last ones were a bar of chocolate and nuts and raisins and after that I walked back along the main route and cut down through the washing powder isle (I realise now that I use that isle quite a lot) towards the tills and there was a tall big woman wearing black knee high boots and black skirt facing the washing powder to my right halfway down the isle whom I detected through my peripheral vision -- I don't look at people directly if I can help it, I just like to be aware of what's around me in case I'm going to be set-up. I passed her and turned left towards the self-service tills and stood in the queue (there was one person in front of me) and the female member of staff pointed me to an available till in front of me which is opposite the security guards and once I'd started scanning my items (receipt says 14:20) the lady in black boots and black skirt occupied the till to my right so she must've queued behind me. At this point there were now two security guards at the security desk by the main doors studying the monitor together and when I left I looked high at the ceiling before I turned around so that she wasn't in my view. I returned down the High Street, Red Lion Street, Waterside, Gordon Road and Springfield Road and the journey was empty from the clock tower at the bottom of the High Street to home, cars but no people.

That woman felt like a set-up and it's possible that she's been used before because I just had this feeling when I first walked past her in the washing powder isle that she's familiar in some way. My attackers study me and know that I'm likely to walk down that isle.

Friday Jun 3 2016:
I had a shower on this day.

Very personal information originally recorded here has been moved to my Very Personal Diary.

Saturday Jun 4 2016:
I walked along The Backs and two female joggers wearing black leggings/jogging trousers walked speedily towards me whilst chatting to one another just after Hospital Hill but I don't think that they were suspicious, most of the time The Backs are empty and I do feel as though many of the people that I do encounter along there have been put there so who knows. I walked down Station Road and into the High Street and up to Sainsbury's Chesham and there was one security guard at the security desk by the main doors on entrance to the store. I bought a few needed items and paid at the self-service tills (receipt says 16:45) and left the store and no security guards were to be seen on exit. I returned down the High Street, Red Lion Street, Waterside, Gordon Road and Springfield Road. I didn't detect anything obvious today.

Sunday Jun 5 2016:
I walked along The Backs and I can't remember seeing anyone, down Station Road and into the High Street and up to Sainsbury's Chesham and there were no security guards to be seen on entrance to the store. I bought a couple of items for myself that I needed and some chocolate for my mother and paid at the self-service tills (receipt says 15:40). I then went across to the newspapers but they didn't have the Sunday Mail that my mother wanted so I left the store and no security guards were to be seen on exit. I walked back down the High Street and thought about going into the Card Factory but I didn't have enough change and my bank's cashpoint machine had crashed with a Windows script error so I continued down the High Street, Red Lion Street, Waterside, Gordon Road and Springfield Road. It's very warm and sunny out and I was really sweating by the time I'd got home. There were quite a few people about and I didn't detect anything odd today.

There is actually something that has been playing on my mind about my trip out today: I was walking home along Waterside and on approach to the railway bridge there were a couple of boys walking slowly in the same direction as me and they were side by side and I was catching them up speedily enough without having to adjust my speed to overtake them and as I went to walk onto the road to pass them at least two cars came down and I stopped and faced the road and waited for the cars to pass and once it was clear I turned around and the boys had stopped and had turned around and I guess were taking an interest in me -- I walked onto the road next to the curb to pass them and they resumed walking as I did so. I was thinking about the male wearing a school uniform that sped up as I attempted to pass him and moved in front of me and blocked me on Thursday May 19 2016 which I documented and thought that it was a set-up and I'm wondering if my attackers have said something about me as a result of that set-up or maybe this was a set-up today and the cars were driven by agents/detectives tasked with forcing me to stop behind these kids. I've got it recorded anyway if I need to recall it.

23:54 Monday Jun 6 2016 -- which is today -- I walked along The Backs and it wasn't empty for a change: coming towards me were a woman and an older woman walking a dog, a young man, a woman wearing shorts (beige possibly but I didn't see directly, I'm just replaying the trip in my mind and that's what colour I think they were) and I walked down Station Road and into the High Street and withdrew £10 from my bank's cashpoint machine and then walked up to Sainsbury's Chesham and there was one security guard at the security desk by the main doors on entrance to the store. I bought a couple of items that I needed and paid at the self-service tills (receipt says 14:29) and then bought some tobacco from the cigarette counter (receipt says 14:30) and left the store and the same security guard was at the security desk by the main doors on exit and he looked at me as I walked past him and I could see his head following me in my peripheral vision.

I walked down the High Street and visited the Card Factory which was empty and bought a Father's Day card which I thought was this Sunday and I asked the lady behind the counter (receipt says 14:39, Rhonda) when it was and she said the following Sunday so we joked that I was well prepared and that I didn't need to rush out and buy a card at the last minute -- I'm noting her social interaction because I was set-up in there on Saturday Mar 5 2016. I left the store and returned down the High Street, Red Lion Street, Waterside, Gordon Road and Springfield Road. It was a very warm and sunny day and I enjoyed the exercise and I didn't detect anything odd today.

Jun 8 2016

15:17 I had a shower today.

Very personal information originally recorded here has been moved to my Very Personal Diary.

15:22 Added an entry for Sep 23 2013 that I've inserted there as notes. This was a course and an exam that I took and the notes cover the entire week.

Jun 9 2016

16:09 I went down the town today and it's very hot and I wore my shorts and a T-shirt. I walked along The Backs and I think the only people that I saw were a young couple on approach to the Underground station. I walked down Station Road and into the High Street and up to Sainsbury's Chesham and there were two security guards at the security desk by the main doors on entrance to the store. I bought several items and queued behind one person at the self-service tills and I noticed that the two security guards were studying their monitor. Once I'd reached the front of the queue I looked around the tills keeping my gaze high as I always do to protect my view from having people injected into it and a till was vacant just to my right which I took and I did notice out of my peripheral vision when I initially scanned around, that two tills along at the end was a tall big woman wearing light coloured clothes but I don't know what she was wearing -- I'm recalling white and beige so possibly a top and skirt or shorts in those colours. I paid for my items (receipt says 14:12) and when I turned around to exit the self-service area I'd noticed that the security guards had gone from their security desk. Was the tall big woman part of something?

I left the store and walked down to my bank's cashpoint machine and withdrew £10 because I wanted to buy some lip salve and I wasn't impressed with the selection and prices in Sainsbury's Chesham so I next visited Superdrug and bought one in there more cheaply (receipt says 14:17). I returned down the High Street, Red Lion Street, Waterside, Gordon Road and Springfield Road. I enjoyed the exercise and the sunshine.

Jun 11 2016

13:14 I've just watched the planes fly over from the Trooping of the Colour and it's always fantastic to watch them fly so low up our valley.

I've got to document my trip out yesterday and it wasn't anything at the time but something happened last night that made me think that something was indeed going on. I'll record my trip as I originally experienced it and then add some more detail and thoughts:

Friday Jun 10 2016:
In the morning I had a shower.

Very personal information originally recorded here has been moved to my Very Personal Diary.

I walked along The Backs and the only person I saw along there was one younger male walking towards me with a Sainsbury's carrier bag at the top of Punch Bowl Lane. I walked down Station Road and turned into the High Street and sometimes I walk up the road if the path is busy for protection but it was clear so I walked along the path and I noticed up ahead that there were some young women standing across it and one of them was wearing a black top and black leggings/jogging trousers looking in my direction standing sideways (I detected them through my peripheral vision) and as I walked past them I kept my gaze well over to the right which is how I conduct myself because I'm on a stage and people are placed on it. I didn't think much about them at this point because there can be people like that around the town under normal conditions although I think it's rare that I ever experience normal conditions.

I went into Sainsbury's Chesham and there was one security guard at the security desk by the main doors on entrance to the store. I bought several items including some bananas for my mother (receipt says 14:18) and went to buy her a newspaper but The Telegraph was sold out so I left the store and there were no security guards to be seen on exit (I think he'd left the security desk before I'd paid at the self-service tills). I walked down the High Street and bought a newspaper in the Bulldog newsagents (I don't have a receipt for this). I returned along Red Lion Street, Waterside, Gordon Road and Springfield Road and it was nice and warm and sunny and I enjoyed the exercise.


Notes:

The following was written on Jun 13 2016 to Jun 15 2016:

I'm having to write this up now because there was just too much going on and I needed to get that recorded first.

There was nothing about this trip out at the time that concerned me. Once I'd reached home it was finished with and all I had to do was document it and there wasn't any rush to do that because I didn't see anything wrong with it. At some point in the late evening when it was dark (it would've been somewhere between 22:00 and 23:00) there was a bright flash of light that I could see behind the corner of my sunblind that covers my blind from where I was sitting but I didn't see it over the other side of the room where a strip of that window is not covered by a sunblind and where you'd expect to see the light coming through and reflecting off of the wall (I don't have the light on ever; my PS3 or laptop screens illuminate my room enough). I was sitting on my bed playing Minecraft PS3 at the time which is in the corner of the room against the wall with the window so I could see a bright flash reflecting off of the corner of the outside of the sunblind and I wondered if it was a car but there was no road noise, if it was lightning but as I said it would've flashed across the entire window so it was a bit confusing because it appeared to be local to my corner of the window. I tried for quite a while to move my character around in Minecraft so that the screen would be dark and then suddenly I'd look up into the bright sky but the light from the screen would only reflect off of the inside of the sunblind and not the other side facing outwards. I then thought that it could've been my attackers with their powerful floodlight attempting to get my attention and that's when I started thinking about the day's events to see if there was something that I'd done.

After I'd got home from my trip out I played Minecraft PS3 whilst sitting on my bed and I did give that a rest at some point and watched the latest episode of The Big Bang Theory comedy on All4 and a couple of Father Ted documentary clips and then it was Minecraft PS3 again right up until midnight when I watched some old 70s TV clips and episode one of Boquet of Barbed Wire with Frank Finley on YouTube which I've never seen before because I'd always thought that the intro was scary. As far as sexual thoughts go, I admired the long legs of The Big Bang Theory actress who plays Leonard's mother but it didn't do anything to me and Boquet of Barbed Wire was very sexual but I wasn't focussing on that, it was part of the story and I was enjoying the story so that did nothing to me either. All I can think about is that there is a possibility (I can't be certain because I don't have an exact memory of it, it's a feeling and I'm guessing) that when I was sitting on my bed in my shorts that they'd ridden up really tight and caused me some discomfort with a slight firming effect (a mild erection) and my attackers who are looking for this 24/7 are linking it to their activities outside the house. I have a memory that this occurred because I've very aware that I'm constantly being watched but I don't have an exact clear memory of it happening on this day.


Jun 12 2016

14:27 I need to document my trip out yesterday and I initially thought that it was uneventful but something has just come to mind so I'll record it now.

Saturday Jun 10 2016:
This day was Chesham Carnival day as well as Trooping of the Colour so we get the planes from London coming up our valley which is always exciting to watch. I wanted to go down the town so I intentionally left it later than normal because it would be packed so around 16:45 I walked along The Backs and passed a group of girls chatting away with one another (being normal) who were returning from the town and the Carnival I assume -- I think I passed some other older people along there but I can't remember now. I walked down Station Road and into the High Street and it was busy but not mad so it was a good time that I chose to go out.

I walked into Sainsbury's Chesham and there was one security guard at the security desk by the main doors on entrance to the store and I got some loose carrots and then turned left at the end of that isle to walk along the main route and at the end of the next isle (banana isle) a woman with her trolley was in the middle of the path and she walked across me as I attempted to pass and we both said "Sorry" to one another and I think I said "No, go on" so that she could finish what she was doing and get out of the way so that I could pass but I still had to edge carefully with my back to the end of isle to get through taking little careful steps. There were some other people about making it congested but it's not surprising being where it was. At the time I didn't think that there was anything suspicious about this but it did make me feel unconfortable because I'd lost me personal space and was being pinned in but I do remember thinking that the security guard is going to be studying this very closely.

Just before I started writing this I had a thought that this passing event wasn't as innocent as it seemed. It's the woman -- she never really got out of the way and it was as though she had taken control rather than cooperated. After that I bought chocolate and crisps and headed to the self-service tills and joined the queue and the same security guard was at the security desk by the main doors and wasn't obviously interested in me (i.e. there weren't two of them studying the monitor). A female member of staff pointed me to the next available till and there weren't people around me that I felt were suspicious and I paid for my items (receipt says 17:01) and left the store and packed eveything fully into my rucksack as I slowly passed the security guard at the security desk by the main doors and his head didn't follow me. On exit from the store through the external doors a group of girls came into the store and I was over to the right and they passed me on my left and the hair of the rightmost girl flicked across my arm as they passed. I didn't think that there was anything suspicious about that at the time but now I'm thinking that the entire group of girls could've been in the employ of my attackers and that the contact could've been intentional.

I returned down the High Street, Red Lion Street, Waterside, Gordon Road and Springfield Road. There were a lot of people about on this day of all ages and at the time I didn't think that I'd experienced anything odd and I did think wow, how could my attackers miss an opportunity like that to set me up and I didn't rush to document it because I didn't think that there was going to be much to document but I'd be surprised if there wasn't something going on. Later when I sat on my bed to play Minecraft PS3 and to watch YouTube etc. I did make sure that my shorts and underwear were loose so that I wasn't bound up tightly and uncomfortable so as to cause a firming effect (a mild erection) because that would appear to be what they're looking for to create a link to their set-ups.

16:27 Sunday Jun 12 2016 -- which is today -- I walked along The Backs and passed a family the other side of Hospital Hill who were returning from the town and I passed a lone younger man and I think there was a woman and child who were all walking towards me. I walked down Station Road and into the High Street and up to Sainsbury's Chesham and outside the store by the mirrored windows were a group of youngsters (young teens I guess) and I think that there were two girls standing wearing black leggings/jogging trousers and possibly a couple of males sitting on the window sill and the nearest girl was taking an interest in me as I passed. All of this information I detected through my peripheral vision as I was looking down at the path ahead to protect my view so it's as good a description of the scene that I can give. At this point I did think that they were put there by my attackers and I didn't need to spend any time deciding that. I was looking down so low and gathering information about the situation that once I'd reached the exterior automatic sliding doors I'd found that it was locked which caused me to stop abruptly and then I had to walk around to the other set. Once inside the lobby I couldn't find a basket at any of the usual locations including near the currently locked doors which had some display across them and a sign I think which obscured the view to the outside. I found one by the cigarette counter eventually and I should note that the security desk by the main doors was empty and I couldn't see a guard anywhere.

I didn't need to buy much today but I wanted to go out to get some exercise and to push against my attackers to stop them from terrorising me into staying indoors. I bought some beetroot and then deodorant and that was it and I walked to the self-service tills and it was busy and I was probably fourth in line and I think that I was behind a Pakistani/Indian man with his son and what happened next was bizarre: we moved along a litle bit so I guess that the person at the front of the queue had found a vacant till and then a woman wearing something like light grey jogging trousers and possibly with a child directed the Pakistani/Indian man and son to take the position in front of her and then she turned around and started backing towards me which caused me to back-up to keep a distance between us that I felt comfortable with. She came so far back that there was a big space between her and the front of the queue! I didn't see any of this directly because I spent the time looking at the Father's Day card display or looking high above the main doors to protect my view but I could see and detect enough of what was going on through my peripheral vision. Initially when the queue started moving and I stopped looking at the Father's Day cards and I moved along that as my head moved from right to left my gaze did move across her face and all I can really say from that fraction of a second is that she had wide, intense, energised eyes -- maybe she was charged up with adrenalin because she was an agent/detective. I keep a big personal space which I had behind the Pakistani/Indian man and son so it does feel as though she was tasked with backing into me but the space that she had to cover made it look very strange and why did she even move back a place in the queue?

After all of that weirdness I reached the front of the queue and a female member of staff pointed me to the next available till which was opposite the security desk by the main doors and was now occupied by one security guard but he wasn't taking any obvious interest in me. I paid for my items (receipt says 15:41) and looked up high before turning around to protect my view and kept it high as I left and the security guard didn't watch me as I passed him. I returned down the High Street, Red Lion Street, Waterside, Gordon Road and Springfield Road and it was quite busy out, the sun came out for my return journey and I enjoyed the exercise.

Are my attackers getting desperate to get me as they know that this diary is almost ready for my complaint to the IPCC? Their intensity is astonishing and the scale of it is unbelievable, surreal.

Jun 13 2016

13:40 My parents have gone on a canal trip today and I don't need to go out and I don't want to because I need to get this diary finished for the IPCC. It's currently pouring down with rain so I hope the weather hasn't runined their trip.

I felt sick last night and this morning as a result of my attackers -- their current intensity is really screwing up my health and my existence.

17:08 I had a slice of toast this morning and I've just recently finished a portion of lemon meringue pie which I've had so that I've eaten something. I feel quite bad and I haven't played any games yet and I want to get this diary done. It really has rained hard here today and I wonder if my parents coped with it well during their canal trip. Earlier I did hear what I thought was my mother struggling (as usual) to get the key to open the back gate but they didn't come in which was weird because I know what it sounds like -- it was sometime between 15:00 and 15:30 I think. Normally that sound is followed by voices and footsteps but there was nothing.

17:24 My parents have just returned and they didn't get wet today.

Jun 14 2016

23:47 I had a shower today.

Very personal information originally recorded here has been moved to my Very Personal Diary.

Tonight I've discovered something that my attackers have been doing to me and I've thought about it because over the extremely intense set-up period that I've just gone through there were no police vans and I can see the pattern now: leading up to a school holiday I get passed by police vans every time I go out and this makes me fearful that they are going to do something to me so I make adjustments to my personal grooming/body maintenance day ...

Very personal information originally recorded here has been moved to my Very Personal Diary.

... and this adjustment causes my health to deteriorate (it interferes with the equilibrium, the balance of my system) and my attackers know this which is why they are manipulating me into making this adjustment -- they want my health to deteriorate because it benefits them when they set me up.

I noted in my Very Personal Diary on Wenesday Jun 8 2016 that my urine flow was getting a bit restricted and last night I could tell that some heat was coming from my bladder. I'm not spending all day sitting at my desk now so my prostate isn't hurting from constantly sitting on it so it's easy to detect where the heat is coming from -- my urine has been restricted and dark ever since my attackers started buzzing me with police vans and manipulating me into making adjustments to my personal grooming/body maintenance day and they've been constantly setting me up and attempting to sexualise me ever since and THEY ARE NOT BEING SUCCESSFUL IN THEIR ATTEMPTS, THEY ARE NOT MAKING ME SEXUALLY FRUSTRATED AND THERE IS NO SEXUAL RESPONSE FROM ME TO THEIR SET-UPS.

Jun 15 2016

01:04 A police helicopter came over the town about 00:50 and now it's been encircling my house for a few minutes now. I'm currently watching it going around and around with my house at the centre -- I just got out of bed and turned on my laptop to record this. It's making a hell of a racket and it's gone around half a dozen times now and I'm getting cold with the window open. I'll leave my computer on and record when it goes.

01:22 The police helicopter has just gone. I didn't hear or see any police vehicles, just a helicopter going around and around for over 20 minutes. It didn't start off at my house, it just ended up here.

00:16 It's the following day but I want to get the day just gone documented.

I walked along The Backs and up until the railway bridge I could hear a helicopter that sounded like a police helicopter somewhere around but I couldn't see it. On a few occasions I could hear the blades fwapping so it was low enough somewhere for that sound to be audible. There were a few people along The Backs -- one male and a couple of females with their children at some point all walking towards me -- but they all appeared normal. I walked down Station Road and into the High Street and withdrew some money from my bank's cashpoint machine and then went up to Sainsbury's Chesham and no security guards were to be seen on entrance to the store. I stood in the queue for the self-service tills and it was busy and the female member of staff pointed me to the next available till which was at the end and I paid for my items (receipt says 14:01). I then walked over to the cigarette counter and bought some tobacco (receipt says 14:03). I left the store and no security guards were to be seen on exit so no guards at all today which is unusual. No women backing in to me or blocking me in, nobody hovering around me, no big tall woman, no police vans, no oddness at all. To be honest I spent most of it looking upwards very high throughout the entire trip which must've looked very odd and my feet were shuffling in a few places where I couldn't see the ground properly and I didn't want to look down! It really poured down earlier but when I went out the sun came out and when I got home it started to rain again so I was lucky to have some nice sunny and warm exercise.

I don't know why it was quiet. Maybe they thought I was going to explode today so they were all in the background watching my every move. What I did do when the police helicopter was hovering around for 20 mins that I recorded at 01:04 is I logged into an old account for a political forum that I used to visit years ago and I created a post and attached my diary and my mouse pointer was poised over the Send button. I used the Tor browser but maybe they detected that. I'm just guessing, rambling, adding thoughts. Let's hope my following trip out is as event free.

Jun 16 2016

12:50 I've just uploaded the latest version of this diary to my website because it's almost ready for the IPCC and it needs to be up now and tested.

14:26 I've just returned from a trip into town. I left my house and turned left and was approached by a school aged young teenage girl wearing a black outfit/uniform that I noticed from a distance but I don't think that there was anything suspicious about this person. I walked along The Backs and I passed a woman and child returning from the town. I walked down Station Road and into the High Street and on approach to Sainsbury's Chesham I noticed through my peripheral vision that there was a large woman wearing black leggings/jogging trousers going to the store as well and I passed her well over to the right close to the mirrored windows and I entered the store before her. On entrance to the store there was one security guard at the security desk by the main doors.

I bought a few necessary items and paid at the self-service tills and the tills were probably more vacant than occupied. Shortly after I'd started scanning my items the large woman wearing black leggings/jogging trousers that I'd passed on entrance to the store occupied the till next to me on my right but I don't know if she was suspicious or not. I paid for my items (receipt says 14:05) and left the store and the same security guard was at the security desk by the main doors on exit. I returned down the High Street, Red Lion Street, Waterside, Gordon Road and Springfield Road. It was a nice warm and sunny trip out, the town was busy (the Misty Moon pub was busy I guess with football fans) and I didn't detect anything obvious occuring to me. I am currently looking up high a lot everywhere to protect my view. My bladder is inflamed at the moment which I have been mentioning and I'm drinking lots of fluids and taking Ibuprofen tablets so there's some heat currently coming from my bladder/groin.

Jun 17 2016

14:37 I've just returned from a trip into town. I walked along The Backs and it was very busy along there and I don't think that I can remember all of the people that I'd passed (it's very very unusual but it's possible that the Underground train had just arrived and some of those people were on it). There were only two that were noteworthy -- standing at the top of Jacob's Ladder a young man on his mobile with a young woman wearing something black on her legs and I don't know what they were because I could only see them through my peripheral vision and they were on my right sideways on the path and I passed them on the left and I kept my view well over to the left. There were a couple of women I think along near the Underground station but they'd gone after I'd deposited my cigarette butt in the bin. I walked down Station Road and into the High Street and into Nationwide to deposit my pocket money into my account (receipt says 14:06) that my mother gave me today and there was a queue and it took a long time to reach a booth but I didn't detect anything wrong with the people in there -- a couple of men at the booths and a lady pensioner in front of me.

After Nationwide I walked up to Sainsbury's Chesham with my gaze high up in the air as I do and I walked into the store and there was one security guard at the security desk by the main doors on entrance and I looked down in front of me because it appeared empty and I thought that it was safe to do so and my gaze fell upon a small girl of school age I would've thought wearing blue jeans that was facing away from me and she was with her mother in the vegetable isle by the broccoli and I hate that when it happens because I'm under total surveillance and that just gives my attackers an opportunity to link it to something within my life. She almost bumped into my basket as I passed and I had to move suddenly out of the way and I said "Sorry". Other than that the Sainsbury's Chesham visit was uneventful and I paid at the self-service tills (receipt says 14:11) at a till I chose that was right at the end where nobody else was although a young woman possibly wearing black leggings/jogging trousers did occupy the till next to me on my right after I'd got there but I kept my view well over to the left so I can't tell you exactly what she was wearing. I didn't even look at my items in my basket as I pulled them out to stop too much of her appearing in my peripheral vision! As I left the store there was one security guard at the security desk by the main doors on exit.

I walked into the High Street and there was a huge group of male schoolboys wearing black uniforms just down opposite WHSmiths or thereabouts for some reason. I continued down the High Street, Red Lion Street, Waterside, Gordon Road and Springfield Road and at the top of the steps on the path from Springfield Road was possibly a young woman listening to rap music I guess on a mobile phone although when I initially approached I thought that it was a young man. I have a feeling that it may have been the same young woman who was at the top of Jacob's Ladder on my way out. It's very unusual currently to see somebody sitting there on the wall although years ago it was quite common. I can't remember exactly but it could've been a couple of months since I last saw somebody sitting there so that just shows you how little I experience this now.

Personally I think that something was going on today. My updated diary has been uploaded to my website for two days now and I just feel as though my attackers are reading it and playing on my fears and concerns.

23:53 I just want to note because it's important that my inflammed bladder is considerably better today and I'm hardly aware of it now. Over this entire recent intense period of set-ups I haven't had any prostate fluid being released especially when I go to the toilet which is because I've stopped spending all day sitting at my desk and my prostate gland isn't becoming swollen as a result of constantly being under pressure. In fact it's been that way for quite a while now and I can't remember when I last experienced it -- I'd moved my monitor to the chest of drawers next to my bed on Apr 10 2016 so it's been at least since then and the primary reason why I moved it was because I was getting repetitive strain injury on my arms and shoulders from having my arms resting on my desk all day and I put two thick towels and a thick throw folded over on my desk and eventually even that couldn't stop the pain so I had to move and it's helped my prostate problem. I think it's likely that my bladder became inflammed because of the huge amount of stress I've been experiencing as a result of the actions of my attackers.

Jun 18 2016

22:58 I had a shower today.

Very personal information originally recorded here has been moved to my Very Personal Diary.

Jun 21 2016

23:47 I had a shower today.

Very personal information originally recorded here has been moved to my Very Personal Diary.

My bladder's a lot better now.

Jun 22 2016

23:51 I went out today along The Backs and there was an older lady walking two dogs returning from the town and a younger man and I can't remember if there were any more but there was nobody suspicious. I walked down Station Road and into the High Street and up to Sainsbury's Chesham and there was one security guard at the security desk by the main doors on entrance and I saw another one going out into the car park. I bought several much needed items as the last time I went out was last Friday and I paid at the self-service tills which were mostly empty and I chose my own till in amongst two other vacant tills (receipt says 14:17). I visited the cigarette counter and bought some tobacco (receipt says 14:20) and left the store and there was one security guard at the security desk by the main doors on exit.

I walked down the High Street which was quite busy as the market was on today. I returned along Red Lion Street, Waterside and just past the railway bridge I could see in my peripheral vision (I was looking high as usual) that a woman was approaching on the left and I took the right of the path and a younger woman about the same height as me jogged past the first woman on my side of the path and she was jogging towards me and I moved even further over to the right to make it obvious to her that she should take the big space on my left but she basically did the same thing as me so I stopped completely whilst looking high and she passed me on my right between me and the parked cars so she must've almost been on the curb and she never said a word and she was looking down. Once she'd gone I started moving again and the first woman had approached on my left and passed me and I felt as though she was looking at me but I was looking high so I can't be certain, she could've just been looking straight ahead. Was that a normal situation or was it put together by my attackers? It just feels like something that they would stage. The correct route for the jogger was between the first woman and myself in a sort of chicane but she didn't take it. I've just spent a lot of time writing this and it could be nothing but I have to record it. Following this event I walked up Gordon Road and Springfield Road to home and I enjoyed the exercise but it was very hot and humid. I didn't detect anything else that was odd.

Jun 23 2016

23:53 I went out today down Trapps Lane to vote in the EU Referendum at the polling station which was located in the church hall at the bottom of the hill. A man in there was asking for a pen because he was concerned that somebody could rub out his pencil mark and I did see this generally all over the news later in the day. I then walked along Waterside and Red Lion Street and into the High Street and bumped into my mother coming out of the Misty Moon pub (it might be called the General's Arms now) and we briefly chatted -- I did see her car parked outside.

I walked up to Sainsbury's Chesham and bought a few items that I just wanted to stock up on and went to the self-service tills and the lady member of staff told me to take my pick of the tills as many of them were vacant but the one near the head of the queue was congested so that's why I waited for her to direct me. She had to come over and verify my age for some Ibuprofen tablets and jokingly asked me if I was over 16 and I said "Just about" and we laughed. I paid for my items (receipt says 14:29) and left the self-service till area and a man wearing a dark coloured polo shirt with a logo on the chest walked towards and past me and I felt him looking at me but I don't know if he was a security guard or not. There was a security guard at the security desk by the main doors on entrance to the store but I can't remember seeing one on exit.

I walked back down the High Street and it was very hot and humid and drizzling and the market was on but it wasn't particularly busy. I returned along Red Lion Street, Punch Bowl Lane and The Backs where I smoked a cigarette as I walked along. This was a very normal day and I interacted with a few people and it was enjoyable.

Jun 24 2016

23:58 I went out today along The Backs and there were a few people walking back from the town but there's nothing to note about any of them. I walked down Station Road and into the High Street and up to Sainsbury's Chesham and there was one security guard at the security desk by the main doors on entrance to the store. I bought a few items mostly for my mother as she wasn't going out today but I did need some Savlon for myself. I stood at the self-service till queue and waited for the female member of staff to point me to a vacant till and the one she chose was in between a woman with child on my left and a younger woman on my right. I paid for my items (receipt says 14:31) and walked over to the newspapers and picked up The Telegraph for my mother and paid at the cigarette counter (receipt says 14:33) and left the store and no security guards were to be seen on exit. I think he was still at the security desk when I walked over to the newspapers but he'd gone by the time I'd finished paying.

From Sainsbury's Chesham I walked out into the High Street and this week there was a huge group of small children walking up the High Street on the left approaching WHSmiths -- last Friday Jun 17 2016 it was a huge group of male schoolboys at about the same place but on the right. I am currently going out a bit later than I have been so maybe that's making a difference to the people that are in the town. I'm noting this so that I can detect odd things that might not be immediately obvious. Many things I have detected a long time afterwards because I've made the effort to record everything in detail.

I returned down the High Street, Red Lion Street, Waterside, Gordon Road and Springfield Road and it did rain on the way back but it was hot and humid and I was hot from the exercise and I still enjoyed the trip out.

I'm not currently detecting anything obvious when I go out -- no set-ups, no police vans, no pedestrians speeding up when I attempt to overtake them and it's quite different for the moment.

Jun 25 2016

23:54 I had a shower today.

Very personal information originally recorded here has been moved to my Very Personal Diary.

Jun 27 2016

23:49 I've got a bit of catching up to do so I'll do that before I document my trip out today.

Sunday Jun 26 2016:
I walked along The Backs and passed a woman and her small girl returning from the town and the small girl stopped and let me navigate through a tight section just before Springfield Road and I said "Thanks". I passed a man and his small son(s) returning from the town who were playing football with a tennis ball and it landed at me feet as they went past and the man said "You're it now!" and I said "Oh no!" and I kicked the ball back behind me and the man said "Cheers buddy". I walked down Station Road and into the High Street and I checked my bank balance using my bank's cashpoint machine. I then walked up to Sainsbury's Chesham and there was one security guard at the security desk by the main doors on entrance to the store. I bought a few things that I didn't need straight away but I like to get some exercise and fresh air so a walk to the local supermarket suffices. It was quite busy at the self-service till queue and I stood there with plenty of personal space with my basket out in front of me looking at the ceiling and the sign above the door and the wait did drag on but eventually the female member of staff pointed me to the next available till which was at the end (receipt says 15:41). I left the store and possibly the same security guard was at the security desk by the main doors on exit.

I returned down the High Street, Red Lion Street, Waterside, Gordon Road and Springfield Road and I really enjoyed the walk. I didn't detect anything obviously odd about this trip out.

Monday Jun 27 2016 -- which is today -- I walked along our street and stopped and talked to my old friend Colin's mother Christine who was mowing her lawn and we had quite a chat and she's doing well so that was nice. She's got some Geraniums covering half of her garden and they've spread into the neighbouring garden and the next house down on the other side of the street! I told her that at least she won't have so much grass to cut. I walked along The Backs and I think I passed a male returning from the town. Then just before the bridge a woman was coming towards me and we didn't quite agree on which side of the path we were going to pass each other on so I had to make an adjustment and I said "Sorry". Once upon a time I'd just stick to the left but you can't rely on that anymore -- I've experienced the same issue riding a bicycle on a track.

I reached the top of Punch Bowl Lane and I did notice before I'd got there that somebody was walking ahead of me in the distance and as I got there the person was just up and along to the right a little, stationary with their back to me but I couldn't tell you anything about this person because I turned left down Punch Bowl Lane so that's all the information I got from my peripheral vision. As I turned down Punch Bowl Lane a man wearing a shirt and trousers came up and around the corner towards me so we were very close to one another. I tell you it's very busy along there at the moment! It wasn't that long ago that I was recording nobody along The Backs almost every time I went out and now there's just so many people I'm having trouble remembering them all.

I walked onto Red Lion Street and up the High Street and through Baines walk where the council building is and I deposited some paper and card in the recycle centre. I them walked through the car park to the High Street and attempted to withdraw some money from my bank's cashpoint machine but I only wanted £10 and the machine was only offering £20 so I went up the High Street a short distance and used the cashpoint at Lloyds. I didn't need to visit Sainsbury's Chesham today so I went back down the High Street and entered the Card Factory and a younger woman was at the counter with a couple of women behind her and her child was in a pram next to her and it's very tight in there and so I waited until she'd finished paying and she moved over behind the pram and then I squeezed through and said "Excuse me" as I did so. I chose a birthday card for my dad and paid (receipt says 14:07 served by LINDA) and left the store and returned down the High Street, Red Lion Street, Waterside and at the bottom of Hospital Hill I noticed in my peripheral vision that somebody wearing a fluorescent yellow jacket was running out of the bottom of Gordon Road and across the road and I'd say that it was a male jogger just by the way that the person was running. I walked up Gordon Road and Springfield Road to home.

Something felt odd about today. It felt as though there were agents/detectives around me. Is it because I put some recyclable materials in my rucksack before I went out? I do have odd experiences when I do that such as being asked for directions (Monday Mar 7 2016 and Saturday Jan 30 2016).

Jun 28 2016

18:32 I've just come in from having a cigarette with my mother and she said that we should go out the front as it's been raining and the back garden is wet. Derek and Beverley next door have finally sold their house and the new people are moving in today and I didn't know that they were unloading a van outside the front and we smoked our cigarettes and one of the males who was unloading said to another one who was in the van "I knew they'd come out and be fucking nosy" and the one in the van said "Who's that?" and I guess he looked around and saw us and said "Oh yeah". So I guess that's the new neighbours as I don't expect furniture removers would make comments like that because why would they care. I wasn't being nosy. I currently feel a bit unsettled about this which is why I'm writing about it here.

Jun 29 2016

23:47 I had a shower today.

Very personal information originally recorded here has been moved to my Very Personal Diary.

Jun 30 2016

23:18 I went out today and it was quite interesting. I'm well stocked up with most things at the moment and I'm bored with salads and the weather is so bad it makes me want to eat a hot meal anyway but I needed some tobacco and my mother wanted a couple of items and the fresh air and the exercise is good for me. I went along The Backs and the only person that I passed was an older lady coming towards me walking her Labrador dog so it was quiet along there. I walked down Station Road and into the High Street and up to Sainsbury's Chesham and there was one security guard at the security desk on entrance to the store and I noticed that there was somebody wearing black trousers and a dark coloured polo shirt standing in the space between the two sets of doors and I did record seeing somebody matching that description on Thursday Jun 23 2016 and I expect that he's a security guard because he stood there during my entire shopping experience and I did go back down the vegetable isle and up the fruit isle to get some kiwifruit at one point and he was doing a little pace to the left, pace to the right movement.

I paid at the self-service tills (receipt says 14:10) which weren't busy so I just occupied one of the empty tills opposite the security desk without waiting for the female staff member to direct me. A second security guard appeared at the security desk whilst I was paying for my items and I made my way over to the newspapers and picked up The Telegraph for my mother and read the front page as I slowly made my way to the cigarette counter and I was pretty much facing the man in the dark coloured polo shirt who was still standing and pacing between the two sets of doors. I bought some tobacco for myself and some cigarettes for my mother and paid (receipt says 14:12) and left the store (I think all the security guards were still in position on exit but I can't exactly remember now because I was packing away my change and that was more important) and I walked down the High Street and when I approached the bottom of the High Street where it joins Red Lion Street there was a huge group of small children crossing the pedestrian crossing opposite the Red Lion pub and they were over to the right and I was walking on the left near the shop windows and there was a man coming towards me on my left in between me and the shop windows and even though I was walking looking high I sensed that he was looking or staring at me but I can't be certain because I don't look at people if I can help it. A short way down the road outside the Bulldog newsagents where East Street meets Red Lion Street a small silver car came out and I had a feeling it was a police community support car and I did directly look at it to check as it passed me and it was. I then returned along Red Lion Street, Waterside, Gordon Road and Springfield Road which was quiet.

So it was interesting as I mentioned at the start; in what way I don't know but it's documented.

July

Jul 1 2016

22:53 I went out today and stocked up with a few things as I won't be going out tomorrow as it's my dad's birthday. I walked along The Backs and I passed a woman carrying a small child and a smartly dressed woman who were both returning from the town. I reached the end of The Backs and there was a large group of young teens I guess with lots of gear possibly going camping or hiking or something and it's quite common occasionally to see them there. I did receive a package for a neighbour earlier today and my mother returned from the town and told me that their son's home so I took it over and gave it to him and I think he's at university so some people are off this week although I've already been out twice this week (Monday and Thursday) and I didn't detect that then.

I walked down Station Road and into the High Street and up to Sainsbury's Chesham and there was one security guard at the security desk by the main doors on entrance to the store. I bought a few items and there was one person in the queue at the self-service tills and the female staff member there was busy so I eventually took the only vacant till available which was the second one on the right in between a couple of lady shoppers but they weren't suspicious in any way. I paid for my items (receipt says 13:24) and left the store and I think the same security guard was at the security desk by the main doors on exit.

I returned down the High Street, Red Lion Street, Waterside, Gordon Road and Springfield Road and it was quiet on the way back. Actually at the bottom of Red Lion Street where it joins Waterside I could hear footsteps behind me and I do walk quite energetically so I crossed over to the right-hand side of Waterside and when I crossed the road I had to look behind me enough to make sure that the road was clear and all I saw was a woman wearing a red skirt a short way behind me. When I got home I realised that I'd left my rucksack pocket open which contained my money pouch which is very rare for me to do that.

The weather is awful at the moment and it's laughable considering it's the first day of July! I did enjoy the exercise and I did get quite warm coming back from the town and the trip seemed pretty normalish to me.

Jul 2 2016

11:22 The new neighbours just knocked on the door just at the point that I'd finished having a wash in the bathroom. I thought my mother was in and was going to answer the door but she's gone out somewhere. The new lady is Cat which I expect is short for Catherine, her little boy is Thomas who was happily enjoying his dummy and wondering who the hell I was and her husband who wasn't there is Simon. I have a feeling that I've seen her before somewhere.

Jul 3 2016

12:29 I've just made my ninth monthly £5 payment to Wright Hassall using the website.

I had a shower today.

Very personal information originally recorded here has been moved to my Very Personal Diary.

00:01 Midnight's just gone but I went out today and I want to record it now before I go to bed.

I walked along The Backs and a 30 something couple with a pram and a small child were returning from the town and they stopped and let me through a tight section of the path and I thanked them -- nobody else was along there. I walked down Station Road and into the High Street and up to Sainsbury's Chesham and there was one security guard at the security desk by the main doors on entrance to the store who very obviously looked up at me from his monitor as I walked in the door to his right and then he looked back down at his monitor again. I bought some sweets as I didn't need anything else and I waited in the self-service till queue because it was busy and eventually the female member of staff there pointed me to the next available till which was a couple of tills along on the right. I paid for my items (receipt says 15:26) and left the store and again the security guard at the security desk by the main doors very obviously looked at me as I passed. His looking at me today just felt overacted.

I returned down the High Street, Red Lion Street, Waterside, Gordon Road and Springfield Road and it was quiet with just a few people about. The weather is currently very unpredictable so I wore a thin fleece and I did get a bit warm when the sun came out but it's a bit cool and windy when it clouds over.

Jul 5 2016

16:38 I had a shower today.

Very personal information originally recorded here has been moved to my Very Personal Diary.

A police helicopter came over about 16:30 and hovered about for several minutes. I initially wasn't interested but after a while I thought I'd take a look on the flightradar24 website and it didn't show up so I went out into the back garden and I eventually saw the blue and yellow markings of a police helicopter. I couldn't see it at first because it was very low and then it climbed and it was around the top of Springfield Road and it flew off in the direction of Amersham. I did hear a police car as well so something was going on and the police helicopter was reconnoitring the scene I guess before the police car arrived.

23:22 I've still got my trip out yesterday to document so I'll do it now:

Monday Jul 4 2016:
I walked along The Backs and I think I passed just one person returning from the town and that was a smartly dressed woman. I walked down Station Road and into the High Street and there were a lot of children making a lot of noise somewhere over the opposite side of the street outside M&Co but I didn't see them because I'm looking high as I walk. I was going to check my bank balance using my bank's cashpoint machine but I forgot. I walked up to Sainsbury's Chesham and passed what were probably a couple of teenage lads near the mirrored windows and I used the cashpoint outside the store.

I entered Sainsbury's Chesham and I saw out of my peripheral vision one security guard at the security desk by the main doors but he was chatting away to I think a second guard that I didn't detect. I bought a few items and queued at the self-service tills and the female member of staff there directed me to the next available till which was the second nearest the security desk and I think the woman occupying the till on my left was wearing black leggings/jogging trousers but I didn't detect anything suspicious about the situation. I paid for my items (receipt says 13:43) and left the store and there were no security guards to be seen on exit. I passed the teenagers who were still hanging around silently next to the mirrored windows and I walked down the High Street which was now quiet, Red Lion Street, Waterside, Gordon Road and Springfield Road and the return trip was just as quiet as it normally is.

Jul 7 2016


Notes:

The following was written on Nov 7 2016:

I struggled at the time to keep this diary up-to-date but I kept notes for this and so I'm inserting this here now in the correct place to maintain the flow.

The Backs, one older lady beige skirt stripy top, no security guard on Sainsbury's Chesham entrance, mostly empty tills, one security guard on exit, quite busy about, police car lower Red Lion Street, uneventful.

Sainsbury's Chesham receipt says 14:14.


Jul 9 2016


Notes:

The following was written on Nov 7 2016:

I struggled at the time to keep this diary up-to-date but I kept notes for this and so I'm inserting this here now in the correct place to maintain the flow.

I had a shower on this day.

Very personal information originally recorded here has been moved to my Very Personal Diary.

A helicopter flew over and hovered about at around 01:09.


Jul 12 2016


Notes:

The following was written on Nov 7 2016:

I struggled at the time to keep this diary up-to-date but I kept notes for this and so I'm inserting this here now in the correct place to maintain the flow.

I had a shower on this day.

Very personal information originally recorded here has been moved to my Very Personal Diary.

The previous evening of Monday Jul 11 2016 two police cars with flashing lights came up the hill at speed with many minutes between them.


Jul 13 2016


Notes:

The following was written on Nov 7 2016:

I struggled at the time to keep this diary up-to-date but I kept notes for this and so I'm inserting this here now in the correct place to maintain the flow.

The Backs, followed man for most of the way, passed woman and child Springfield Road steps, one or two other unnoteworthy people, kid asking for money approaching train station, bottom of Station Road a police car passed, bank cashpoint to check balance, Sainsbury's Chesham, one security guard and a few staff at entrance, one female staff looked as though she was looking out for somebody, paid at empty till between two guys that I chose, one security guard on exit, police car with siren passed at bottom of Red Lion Street, little beep of horn when car ahead was already pulling over which seemed pointless and was barely audible for a pedestrian.

Sainsbury's Chesham receipt says 14:00.


Jul 14 2016


Notes:

The following was written on Nov 7 2016:

I struggled at the time to keep this diary up-to-date but I kept notes for this and so I'm inserting this here now in the correct place to maintain the flow.

The Backs, several young men hanging around and sitting on the wall the other side of Springfield Road near the flats, saw one woman returning from the town and later a man near the top of Punch Bowl Lane. Deposited money in my account, Sainsbury's Chesham one security guard on entrance, queued and female staff pointed me to vacant till on right at end next to man, left store and no guard, turned into High Street looking high and on my right were one or more men in dark clothes possibly uniforms coming towards me but I was looking so high that I couldn't detect much and I passed them.

Sainsbury's Chesham receipt says 13:29.


Jul 15 2016


Notes:

The following was written on Nov 7 2016:

I struggled at the time to keep this diary up-to-date but I kept notes for this and so I'm inserting this here now in the correct place to maintain the flow.

The Backs, jogged some of the first section, a few people returning from the town but nobody noteworthy, emergency siren coming down Amersham Hill, looked down Punch Bowl Lane as I thought I might see it pass, walked up to Waitrose and then down the side alley to Sainsbury's Chesham, one guard on entrance, queued at self-service tills, female staff member walked off as I got there but there was an empty till in front of me rightmost at the end which I felt safe using and there was a woman using the till to the left, part way through a young girl of school age I would've thought joined the woman and they finished and paid and walked off before me.

Sainsbury's Chesham receipt says 12:50.


Jul 17 2016


Notes:

The following was written on Nov 7 2016:

I struggled at the time to keep this diary up-to-date but I kept notes for this and so I'm inserting this here now in the correct place to maintain the flow.

I had a shower on this day.

Very personal information originally recorded here has been moved to my Very Personal Diary.

Bicycle, Moor Road, Amy Lane, Germain St, High Street, Sainsbury's Chesham no guards on entry, couple of items, queued at busy self-service tills, female staff member pointed me to vacant till, paid and left and one guard now at desk, High Street, Germain St, Pednor, Hyde Heath (looked up whilst cycling and gaze fell upon woman wearing almost "Daisy Dukes" walking dog), Copperkins Lane, Amersham-on-the-Hill, Tesco's Express Amersham, bought water, queued in very long queue, got near front and scanned left at shelves for small cheap packets of sweets and small girl walked out into isle so I stopped looking in that direction, she went back behind me so I resumed looking for sweets and she again came out into the isle so I gave up. Paid and left store and unlocked bicycle and cut finger on sharp wheel reflector and whilst attending to it I noticed a vehicle parked on the road nearby contained a man who was watching me but I didn't think much of it -- maybe he saw me cut my finger and was just curious -- but a short while later he just drove off and I didn't notice anyone get into his car and later in the evening the small girl and the man in the car came together in my mind without any effort and I do wonder if they were agents/detectives. Down Amersham Hill (Chesham Hill), Waterside, Trapps Lane. Thoroughly enjoyed the exercise and I really pushed hard.

Sainsbury's Chesham receipt says 15:35. Tesco's Express Amersham receipt says 16:35.


Jul 18 2016


Notes:

The following was written on Nov 7 2016:

I struggled at the time to keep this diary up-to-date but I kept notes for this and so I'm inserting this here now in the correct place to maintain the flow.

Bicycle, Moor Road, Amy Lane, across Germain St to Pednor (woman driver stopped some way behind me so I stopped and waved her past and she said "I didn't want you to stop") and came back the same way, into High Street, withdrew money from cashpoint, turned around and saw police van OU11GVG so I let it pass as I was going across the road to Boots and driver waved and acknowledged me, Boots for clotrimazole cream, up to Sainsbury's Chesham one guard on entrance, paid at normal checkout that was empty with lady staff member, left store and woman wearing black leggings/jogging trousers exited self-service area as I approached, one guard on exit, East St exit by Bulldog newsagents silver police community car exited and went south.

Boots Chesham receipt says 14:02. Sainsbury's Chesham receipt says 14:10.


Jul 19 2016

02:56 There's been a plane flying around for ages and it's G-MIND REV4ND Reconnaissance Ventures Cessna 404 Titan and it must be mapping the area from Windsor to London and then up a little and back again and so forth and now it's up to Amersham and Cheshunt.

I had a shower today.

Very personal information originally recorded here has been moved to my Very Personal Diary.


Jul 20 2016

14:11 I currently weigh 10 stone which is half a stone more than I would like so this morning I inflated my outdoor airbed and did some press-ups which I will continue to do daily. I went out for a bicycle ride today doing a lap of Pednor and I shall do this regularly as well. I rode down Pheasant Rise, Moor Road, Amy Lane, across Germain Street and Missenden Road and into Pednor and rode along the bottom and up and back along the top. Once I'd finished I rode across Missenden Road and into what I believe is Water Meadow car park in the corner of St Mary's Way and then rode up to Sainsbury's Chesham. On entry to the store there were no security guards to be seen and I bought a few items and walked along the regular checkouts but they were all full so I continued on to the self-service tills which were busy and the female member of staff was also busy helping customers and I chose a vacant till between a couple of men. I paid for my items (receipt says 13:44) and exited the store and there was one security guard at the security desk by the main doors who was already in place before I'd reached the self-service tills. I returned down St Mary's Way, Red Lion Street, Waterside and up Trapps Lane. I detected nothing odd today although after my Pednor ride when I crossed Missenden Road there was a woman wearing grey flared shorts on her mobile phone with her back to me down the side of the pub by the river but I don't know if she was suspicious or not.

Yesterday and last night were unbearably hot and I drank lots of water because I was sitting on my bed playing on my PS3 and dripping with sweat and I kept soaking my head and hair with cold water but the benefits of that were short lived. Today there's a good breeze and the day started off cloudy and it's bearable so far.

Jul 21 2016

14:51 I went out on my bicycle today down Pheasant Rise, Moor Road, Amy Lane, across Germain Street and Missenden Road and into Pednor and rode along the bottom and up and back along the top and it took me 29 minutes to do the loop. Afterwards I rode across Missenden Road and into Water Meadow car park and across the road into the High Street and up to Sainsbury's Chesham and there was one security guard at the security desk by the main doors on entrance to the store. I bought some milk and some tuna and paid at a regular checkout that was empty (receipt says 14:11) and left the store and there was one security guard at the security desk by the main doors on exit. I returned down St Mary's Way, Red Lion Street, Waterside and up Trapps Lane. I detected nothing odd today.

Jul 22 2016

16:51 My parents have gone away today for a week's holiday in the New Forest. I went out on my bicycle earlier down Pheasant Rise, Moor Road, Amy Lane, across Germain Street and Missenden Road and into Pednor and rode along the bottom and up and back along the top and it took me 27 minutes 54 seconds to do the loop. I shaved a minute off of yesterday's ride but I would've thought that the extra effort I put in would've reduced the time further than that. Afterwards I rode across Missenden Road and into Water Meadow car park and across the road into the High Street and up to Sainsbury's Chesham and there were no security guards to be seen on entrance to the store. I bought a few salad vegetables and I treated myself to a beer for tonight which I shall chill and enjoy. When I turned around in the beer isle I noticed in my peripheral vision that there was somebody (a young woman or a girl) bending down into the bottom of the opposite shelves wearing black leggings/jogging trousers but I look high now when I'm not looking directly at a shelf and I do so before I've turned fully around. I don't know if she was suspicious or not; I haven't particularly detected anything obviously odd during the past week. I paid at a regular checkout where a woman had almost finished her shop (receipt says 14:27) and left the store and there was one security guard at the security desk by the main doors on exit who did look up from his monitor in my direction as I approached and possibly just looked generally around before looking back down at his monitor again. I returned down St Mary's Way, Red Lion Street, Waterside and up Trapps Lane.

I did see a couple of joggers today around Pednor and also yesterday that I forgot to mention but Wednesday and Monday were quiet. Today there was a very tall man jogging along the bottom in the same direction as me and a woman jogging and loudly talking into her mobile phone coming towards me along the top. Yesterday I think that there was a woman jogging towards me along the bottom and a woman wearing grey shorts jogging in the same direction as me along the top. I don't think that they are suspicious but who knows. I think that I should document the people that I pass around Pednor in the same way that I do when I walk along The Backs.

17:56 I've just come in from having a cigarette in the back garden and I was thinking that I'm pretty sure that I spoke loudly to myself earlier today that I was going to treat myself to a beer and although I do walk down the beer isle I haven't bought anything from there since mid 2012 or mid 2011 so I did something unusual today and my attackers would've listened to me stating that I'm going to purchase a beer so it's possible that the young woman/girl bending down into the bottom of the opposite shelves wearing black leggings/jogging trousers could've been put there by my attackers. Maybe they're attempting to dissuade me from buying alcohol.

Jul 23 2016

I had a shower today.

Very personal information originally recorded here has been moved to my Very Personal Diary.

Jul 24 2016


Notes:

The following was written on Nov 7 2016:

I struggled at the time to keep this diary up-to-date but I kept notes for this and so I'm inserting this here now in the correct place to maintain the flow.

Bike ride, Sainsbury's Chesham, no security guards in or out (receipt says 15:02), Amersham Hill, Amersham-on-the-Hill, Station Road, King George V Avenue, Orchard lane, Green Lane, across Grimsdell's lane and through to Bois Lane, across to Amersham Hill and back down, Waterside to home.


Jul 25 2016


Notes:

The following was written on Nov 7 2016:

I struggled at the time to keep this diary up-to-date but I kept notes for this and so I'm inserting this here now in the correct place to maintain the flow.

Bike ride, down Pheasant Rise, a couple of girls I think clapped and said "Well done" as I turned into Lords Mill, Moor Road, usual route to Pednor, passed male cyclist along bottom, then male jogger wearing dark blue, tall male topless along top, old man walking dog along top near end house, Sainsbury's Chesham, security guard on entrance and exit (receipt says 14:35), usual route home.


Jul 26 2016


Notes:

The following was written on Nov 9 2016:

I struggled at the time to keep this diary up-to-date but I kept notes for this and so I'm inserting this here now in the correct place to maintain the flow.

I had a shower on this day.

Very personal information originally recorded here has been moved to my Very Personal Diary.

Trimmed body hair.

Watched Youtube videos from midnight to early morning, motorcycle fails and motorcycle events in America, Daytona bike show had usual scantily clad ladies and about 01:30 a police car came up the hill at speed with flashing lights, then quite a bit of car activity up and down the hill for a while afterwards.


Jul 27 2016


Notes:

The following was written on Nov 9 2016:

I struggled at the time to keep this diary up-to-date but I kept notes for this and so I'm inserting this here now in the correct place to maintain the flow.

Bike ride, usual route to and around Pednor, passed two female joggers coming towards me at hill at far end, I was putting a lot of effort into riding up the hill and was looking down at the handlebars, one jogger went past, second jogger followed and it sounded like (foot on road sound change) the second one turned around to look at me, passed girl on bicycle followed by her mother coming towards me, rode into town to check bank balance, rode to Sainsbury's Chesham car park, entered store and almost bumped into Community Support Police Officer walking around inside main doors, one or maybe more guards on entrance, paid at empty regular checkout (receipt says 14:18), I don't think any guards on exit, got home, police helicopter flew over towards Hyde Heath at 15:20 when I was making lunch.


Jul 28 2016

18:45 I went out on my bicycle earlier. I went down Pheasant Rise, Moor Road, Amy Lane and up Germain Street and crossed the main road at the Red Lion pub and walked up the High Street and checked my bank balance using my bank's cashpoint machine. I then walked up to Sainsbury's Chesham and there were no security guards to be seen on entrance to the store. I bought a few items and all of the regular checkouts were occupied so I made my way to the self-service tills and stood at the head of the queue and the female member of staff directed me to a vacant till just in front of me opposite the security desk and I did notice that a woman wearing black leggings/jogging trousers was already occupying the till to my far right which was the end till. I paid for my items (receipt says 14:17) and looked high before turning to my right to leave and the woman wearing black leggings/jogging trousers was still scanning through her items and I turned to my right slightly away from her to navigate around her and through the self-service area exit and it was very tight and I detected out of my peripheral vision that there were some baskets on the floor which made it even more difficult to traverse. I'm guessing that she was an agent/detective and was intentionally squeezing me through the self-service area exit because I felt as though the route was being restricted.

I left the store and there were no security guards to be seen on exit and I walked down the High Street and crossed the road opposite the Red Lion pub and took the usual route to Pednor and I did it this way around because the weather was cloudy and unpredictable and I thought that it might rain so the shopping was more important to get first. Around Pednor bottom I overtook a man wearing dark blue on a bicycle and a child standing at the side of the road whom I didn't detect until the last second with his/her mother up ahead. Around Pednor top I passed a couple of female joggers (they were dressed as such) who were walking towards me on the left. I returned the usual way but went down Amy Lane and Moor Road because I didn't need to go back into town.

Jul 29 2016

23:43 Last midnight a helicopter came over my house but it didn't hover about. It sounded as though it could've been a police helicopter and you don't get much else flying around at that hour -- am I being sent a message?

I went out today but I walked and I went out later than normal because it rained when I initially wanted to go out on my bicycle. I wasn't going to go out but I won't be going out tomorrow and I thought that I'd better stock-up on a few things. I walked along The Backs and passed a mother and daughter just before the bridge and that was about it I think. I walked down Station Road and into the High Street and up to Sainsbury's Chesham and there was one security guard at the security desk by the main doors on entrance to the store. I bought mostly salad vegetables and some sweets and paid at a regular checkout behind an older man (receipt says 15:38) and then I left the store and there was one security guard at the security desk by the main doors on exit. I returned back down the High Street, Red Lion Street, Waterside, Gordon Road and Springield Road and the return trip was quiet. I didn't detect anything at all today but it does appear to be quiet and at home too.

Jul 30 2016

I had a shower today.

Very personal information originally recorded here has been moved to my Very Personal Diary.

Jul 31 2016

I went out on my bicycle down Pheasant Rise, Moor Road, Amy Lane, Germain Street and then crossed the road opposite the Red Lion pub and walked up the High Street to Sainsbury's Chesham and there were no security guards to be seen on entrance to the store. I bought a few items and paid at a regular checkout behind a man (receipt says 15:38). I left the store and there were no security guards to be seen on exit from the store. I walked down the High Street and rode up Amersham Hill and the weather was a bit cloudy and cool and I didn't particulary feel like going too mad with the exercise and I reached Amersham-on-the-Hill and bought a Snickers bar in Tesco's Express Amersham (receipt says 16:05) and then casually strolled up the street and looked in the shops whilst eating my Snickers bar. I then rode down the side of the garage on Woodside road and along a residential road (Parkfield Avenue), across Bois Lane, into Glebe Way and along North Road to Amersham Road.

I didn't have a plan as to where I was going and I could've continued going down Amersham Hill and called it a day but the cloud cover was opening up and the sun was starting to shine through and I decided to ride to Hyde Heath via Bois Avenue and Copperkins Lane. After Hyde Heath I decided to ride down Missenden Road for a change which is a fast drop and I really enjoyed it and the view of the rolling hills is very pleasant. Once I'd reached Chesham I turned into Wey Lane and cut down the side of the pub as usual to Germain Street and crossed the road opposite the Red Lion pub and walked a little way down and then rode my bicycle down Waterside and approached the bottom of Trapps Lane to ride up it to reach home as I normally do and I noticed that a boy standing bottom right looked as though he was holding up a phone as though he was taking a picture up the hill and I did wonder at that point what could possibly be there worth photographing. As I turned up Trapps Lane there was an older man bottom left by the church steps not looking in my direction, a car parked just above him which is quite normal, a tall woman possibly wearing light grey leggings/jogging trousers with a dog just above the car who looked as though she was holding up a phone in my direction and then a man walked down just up from her and said something that I couldn't understand but there was no response from the woman. I continued to ride up the hill and possibly half way up I cold hear footsteps behind me and a younger man wearing blue jeans, a white top and a baseball cap walked speedily past me and up the hill and I don't know where he came from -- the church possibly.

At home I thought that I'd had an event free trip but then I quickly had a feeling that those people at the bottom of Trapps Lane were waiting for me to arrive and were told that I was approaching and were told to hold up mobile phones and point them in my direction as I passed. I've experienced this many times before and I think that my attackers do it to make me feel ostracised and unwelcome. Whether or not those people were regular citizens or in the employ of my attackers I couldn't exactly tell you but I would guess that the entire event including the younger man walking past me up the hill was scripted and that I was on a stage as normal and that they were all either agents/detectives and/or in the employ of my attackers. I reached home about 16:55 and I'm guessing that there was a Sunday service at the church at that time and my attackers knew this which is why the event was put together. It does go hand in hand with the obvious quietness around my house at the moment.

August

Aug 1 2016

14:45 It's been raining and I'm not going out to exercise on my bicycle today but I need a few things to last me until Wednesday so I'm off out now. Anything could happen when I'm out today but I need to go out.

18:47 Well it was an uneventful trip out I think. I walked down the steps towards Springfield Road and saw Robert from next door coming towards me and in the far distance were two small girls with one taller than the other over the other side of Springfield Road walking along The Backs towards the flats. I stopped and spoke to Robert for a short while and asked him how he was doing and we talked about his travelling abroad and we said goodbye and I started off again towards Springfield Road and the two small girls were just going down between the flats towards Gordon Road and the only thought I put into them at the time was to be careful not to follow them in the direction that they were going because I am assuming that they were suspicious since the area appears to be evacuated again and I'm getting the mobile phone pointing treatment...


Notes:

The following was written on Nov 9 2016:

I'd never finished the above text off and all I further noted was "police car Red Lion pub" meaning a police car drove past me by the Red Lion pub Red Lion Street. I don't remember the remainder of the trip out at all but I have the Sainsbury's Chesham receipt and it says 15:12.


Aug 2 2016

I had a shower today.

Very personal information originally recorded here has been moved to my Very Personal Diary.

Aug 3 2016


Notes:

The following was written on Nov 9 2016:

I struggled at the time to keep this diary up-to-date but I kept notes for this and so I'm inserting this here now in the correct place to maintain the flow.

Pheasant Rise, Moor Road, Amy Lane, Germain Street, High Street, bank deposit, Sainsbury's Chesham, one guard on entrance, few items, paid at regular checkout (receipt says 13:54), one guard on exit, rode St Mary's Way to Water Meadow car park and into Pednor, passed woman and child along bottom, two women dressed for exercise along top coming towards me, woman jogger walking in same direction as me at ride end, returned Wey Lane, Amy Lane, Moor Road, Trapps Lane, very uneventful and very enjoyable and very stress free as a result making me feel very well and healthy.


Aug 4 2016

12:15 I've just made my tenth monthly £5 payment to Wright Hassall using the website.

Aug 5 2016

20:21 I rode down Pheasant Rise, Moor Road, Amy Lane and across Germain Street into Wey Lane (the usual route) and around Pednor and along the bottom was a woman on a bicycle with her daughter on a bicycle riding towards me, two female joggers wearing black leggings/jogging trousers with long baggy T-shirts walking towards me, a middle aged couple were walking towards me near the top of the hill at the end and a male on a bicycle was riding towards me near the end of the loop. I rode back to Wey Lane to take the little path through to Water Meadow car park and an elderly woman was walking ahead just across the little footbridge so I got off my bicycle and walked and she reached a little further to where the river disappears under a fence and then she came back. I walked a little further and a large woman was walking towards me and she stopped as though she was giving way because of an obstacle such as overgrown vegetation but it looked pretty clear to me and I got on my bicycle at that point and rode on the grass and then she started walking again. Just past her were a few women in a group on the right of the path but I didn't pass them because my exit to the car park was on my left. Was something going on there? There were a lot of women there for some reason with two of them engaged in odd movements. Is it some more ostracism?

I crossed St Mary's Way and walked up the High Street and locked my bicycle against a sign post outside Boots and walked in and picked up some coal tar soap and went to a till where there was a female member of staff writing something into a book and I asked her if she was serving and she looked up slowly from her book and said "No" and that was it. I said "OK" and walked across to the perfume counter and waited behind an elderly couple and the male member of staff served me (receipt says 14:54) and he seemed wide eyed and there was no happiness in his face at any point -- I'm wondering if some more ostracism was going on in there as well.

I left my bicycle locked to the sign post and walked across to my bank's cashpoint machine to check my balance. I then walked up to Sainsbury's Chesham and there were no security guards to be seen on entrance to the store. I bought some Savlon and a couple of other items and paid at a regular checkout behind a woman (receipt says 15:04) and left the store and there were no security guards to be seen on exit. I returned to my bicycle, walked down the High Street and part of Red Lion Street and then rode home along Waterside and up Trapps Lane.

I enjoyed the ride and I'm putting a lot of effort into it because I'm trying to regain the level of fitness that makes me healthy.

Aug 6 2016

11:34 The window cleaner came this morning around 9:30.

I had a shower today.

Very personal information originally recorded here has been moved to my Very Personal Diary.

Aug 7 2016


Notes:

The following was written on Nov 9 2016:

I struggled at the time to keep this diary up-to-date but I kept notes for this and so I'm inserting this here now in the correct place to maintain the flow.

Sainsbury's Chesham, one guard on entrance, one on exit, Amersham, Tesco's for Snickers. walked around Amersham, Chesham Bois to Copperkins Lane, Hyde Heath, Pednor, went clockwise for a change, lots of people everywhere today, totally uneventful as far as I could tell.

Sainsbury's Chesham receipt says 15:44. Tesco's Express Amersham receipt says 16:09.


Aug 8 2016

18:57 Having had such an event free ride out yesterday I was rather expecting the same today but the females in black leggings/jogging trousers were out in full force today. I rode down Pheasant Rise, Moor Road, Amy Lane, across Germain Street and along the empty path by the river to Wey Lane and into Pednor (the usual route) and I passed somebody wearing shorts coming towards me along the bottom but I was peddling hard and looking down and I can't describe them amy more than that. I passed a tall man jogging who was coming towards me along the bottom somewhere and the top part was empty apart from a car exiting a house that I followed for a short distance. I rode back to Wey Lane and took the path by the river and there was a man walking a dog on the grass and I continued into Water Meadow car park where I stopped and cleaned my glasses as I always do.

I then walked across St Mary's Way and up the High Street and not too far along there was a group of young women or even girls numbering possibly four walking down the High Street towards me on the left and they were widely spaced apart in a line and possibly wearing black leggings/jogging trousers but I was looking high up to the right so I passed them on their right and I can't describe them any more than that -- they were silent though which is common for people in the employ of my attackers. I reached Sainsbury's Chesham and the cycle rack was full so I locked my bicycle against a railing on the side of the trolley point and walked in through the main door on the car park side rather than the High Street side and there was one security guard at the security desk by the main doors on entrance to the store. I walked into the vegetable isle and there were a few people about and they cleared a little leaving a young woman or even a girl with her back to me wearing black leggings/jogging trousers but I look high when I'm in there so I only see people through my peripheral vision and I took a route through the isle to the left so that I didn't follow her. I bought a couple of items and The Telegraph for my mother and paid for everything at the cigarette counter (receipt says 14:52) and left the store and there was one security guard at the security desk by the main doors on exit. I exited through the main door on the car park side and immediately in front of me was a tall young woman or girl even wearing black leggings/jogging trousers with her back to me which could've been the same one from inside the store but I'm only guessing. I was packing my rucksack at that point and I noticed her through my peripheral vision and then looked up high and to my left away from her and then I returned to my bicycle and walked down the High Street and down Red Lion Street and got on my bicycle at the start of Waterside because I had a carrier bag on my handlebars and I fancied a longer walk than normal. I reached Trapps Lane and walked up because the carrier bag was swaying about and hitting my front tyre.

I want to note something important about these people: if my attackers were using men in red jackets then I'd reach home and think through the events of the day and these men in red jackets would be occupying my thoughts and I'd become sensitive to them except my attackers are using females in black leggings/jogging trousers.

Aug 9 2016

I had a shower today.

Very personal information originally recorded here has been moved to my Very Personal Diary.

Aug 10 2016

14:57 I went out for a bicycle ride today as usual. I rode down Pheasant Rise, Moor Road, Amy Lane, across Germain Street and along the empty path by the river to Wey Lane and into Pednor and there were a couple of lady dog walkers and a man walking further along near the start, an adult riding a bicycle towards me along the bottom, a male riding a bicycle towards me at the top left corner wearing a fluorescent jacket, a group of women with one pushing a pram and one [that I detected from a distance and through my peripheral vision] wearing black leggings/jogging trousers along the top just beyond the house that you drive through and the woman with the pram thanked me because I rang my bell to warn them that I was approaching. At the end of the top section it got quite busy and all of the following people were walking towards me: a man with walking poles and possibly a dog, two women joggers walking with at least one wearing black leggings/jogging trousers and one of them said "Thanks for ringing your bell" in a nice happy manner because I rang my bell in advance and I replied "Cheers" and there were a couple of males a distance apart on opposite sides of the road.

After Pednor I took the path from Wey Lane to Water Meadow car park which was empty apart from a cyclist riding in which could've been a male kid. I rode up St Mary's Way to the High Street and withdrew some money from my bank's cashpoint machine and then rode to Sainsbury's Chesham through their car park and there were no security guards to be seen on entrance to the store. There were no baskets at all in the foyer so I grabbed a couple of items that I needed and then paid at the cigarette counter because I needed some tobacco (receipt says 14:33). I left the store and there were no security guards to be seen on exit. I rode through the car park (the market was on today and manoeuvring a bicycle through the High Street today would've been tiresome) and returned down St Mary's Way, Red Lion Street, Waterside and up Trapps Lane.

Nothing odd detected today and some people were even pleasant! It was a bit cool when I started out but I soon warmed up and the sun was out for a while and I enjoyed the ride.

Aug 11 2016

15:19 I've just returned from a walk into town and something could've been going on today. I didn't venture out on my bicycle because I had a couple of jobs to do and so I went for a walk to get some shopping. I walked along The Backs which was empty until I approached the Underground station and in the distance were a group of girls who were walking slowly and in a line across the path and I caught up with them by the side of the station and said "Excuse me, can I get through please" and they moved over to the left and they were chatting before I spoke to them and they went silent as I passed. Possibly all of them were wearing black leggings/jogging trousers but I didn't look at them directly, I kept my gaze up high to the left or to the right but I detected that the one on the right that I passed was wearing black leggings/jogging trousers and possibly the one in the middle too and black appeared to be the colour of the lower part of their bodies for all.

I walked down Station Road and up the High Street to Sainsbury's Chesham and there was one security guard at the security desk by the main doors on entrance to the store. I bought a few items that I needed and all of the regular checkouts were busy so I went to the self-service tills and stood at the head of the queue and waited for the female member of staff to direct me to the next available till but the one in front of me to my right was empty so I took it. There was a person occupying the till to my left but I thought it was a man initially and then an African woman so the person could've changed whilst I was scanning my items. I paid (receipt says 14:59) and left the store and the security desk by the main doors was now empty so the guard that was there had gone. I walked down the High Street and once I'd reached the bottom opposite the Red Lion pub a police van registration OU11GVG drove past me going south. I returned down Red Lion Street, Waterside, Gordon Road and Springfield Road. I passed a woman and her teenage daughter coming towards me along the street on approach to my house.

It definitely has the hallmarks of being eventful -- nothing happened to me yesterday that I need to concern myself about in case this is some sort of response to something that I did. Possibly the only thing that I can think of from yesterday was when I got home after my hot and sweaty bicycle ride I stood in front of my bedroom mirror and pulled my T-shirt out of my shorts/pants to empty it of any bugs that quite often get scooped up and I dropped my shorts and pants and repackaged myself (I tuck my T-shirt/vest into my pants) because the sweat makes everything stick to me. I don't record when I do this but it's not unusual and I possibly do it more in the bathroom after I've been to the toilet. I could've just not written this but I feel that I'm being gradually set-up for the long term so if it helps to negate something then I should document it and it makes me feel better doing so. I have also experienced some discomfort in my prostate gland following the last two or three rides which I should note but it's not something that lasts very long, maybe a little way into the evening but I can't say that I'm aware of it at all after that. I start to feel it part way through my ride and I deal with it by shuffling about on the seat and it's there when I get home and then it disappears without thinking about it.


Notes:

The following was written on Nov 9 2016:

I wrote the following note to expand upon later -- "[DOCUMENT SLIGHT BLADDER IRRITATION THAT I FLUSHED OUT DURING THE EVENING]" and I don't remember it now but it's self explanatory.


Aug 12 2016

23:39 I went out today and I thought that it was uneventful until later in the evening when I'd had enough time to subconsciously process everything. I went out on my bicycle and took the same route as I normally do down Pheasant Rise, Moor Road, Amy Lane, across Germain Street and along the path by the river (a couple of adults walking through towards me -- the first I think was an older person walking a dog and the second was a male wearing a shirt and trousers) to Wey Lane and into Pednor and I believe the first thing I came across was two vehicles stopped on the road with one facing into Pednor (a blue people carrier) and one facing out (a red estate) and it looked as though they were chatting to one another and there wasn't a usable gap between the vehicles so I stopped and waited for one of the vehicles to move and after a short period of time the driver of the red estate started up his engine and waved at me and drove forwards so that I could pass. Firstly I knew the man from a long time ago and possibly he recognised me but possibly not as I was wearing sunglasses and strangely he had to start his engine to move forward. I didn't think anything of this road blockage at the time; to me it was just two locals stopping for a chat on a quiet country lane so I didn't intentionally take notes about the blue people carrier but I don't remember the engine running on that either as I passed closely and slowly. Also it's possible that this vehicle was the same one in which a woman said "I didn't want you to stop" on Monday Jul 18 2016 when I pulled over on a hill to let her pass. Not far along the road after this I could see briefly in the far distance on the road a couple of kids with both possibly wearing white clothes and then they disappeared and I passed them eventually and they were messing about outside the gates of a house. As my attackers have used white clothes many times in the past I did eventually wonder if the road blockage was intentional and the kids in white clothes were waiting for me to ride along the road and they darted into their drive as soon as they could see me and that this was meant to send me a message or to assist in making sure that the road blockage sinks in later in the day just in case I didn't get it.

I rode up the hill at the end of Pednor and the blue people carrier passed me from behind. Further along the top I passed a couple of women joggers who were walking towards me on the right. At the end of the ride I overtook a man on a Raleigh Chopper which I found quite amusing. I rode to Wey Lane and took the path to Water meadow car park and then crossed St Mary's Way and walked up the High Street to Sainsbury's Chesham and there were no security guards to be seen on entrance to the store. I bought a couple of items and paid at a regular checkout behind an older lady and another woman eventually appeared behind me (receipt says 14:32). I left the store and no security guards were to be seen on exit. I walked back down the High Street and returned along Red Lion Street, Waterside and up Trapps Lane.

Aug 13 2016

I had a shower today.

Very personal information originally recorded here has been moved to my Very Personal Diary.

Aug 14 2016

17:17 I went out on my bicycle today. I've been wanting to buy a game for my PS3 from Argos and the stock in the various stores changes regularly but today Argos Apsley was showing one in stock on their website so I headed for there. I rode down Pheasant Rise, Latimer Road, up to Flaunden and continued on towards the main Chipperfield Road and crossed that and dropped down to Apsley.

I rode to Argos Apsley and purchased PS3 Battlefield 4 for a very reasonable £3.99 (receipt says 14:46) (PS3 games from a few years ago are quite cheap now) and stood near the collection point and listened to the numbers being announced. I was standing over the left-hand side of the collection point back from the counter and looking over to the left at some items on display and I looked ahead at the counter and a young woman wearing black leggings/jogging trousers had appeared over to my right nearer to the counter. I looked left again and had a look at a DVD that was on display called Legend about the Kray twins and I was wondering why bother making that when the Kemp brothers did such a good job on their film. I then walked over to the right-hand side of the collection point and stood and looked up at the display of order numbers to monitor my number and not long afterwards the young woman in black leggings/jogging trousers walked across in front of me and there was another person as well and presumably they'd got what they wanted and disappeared. My order number was next so I returned to the left-hand side of the collection point and stood at the counter with my receipt and a young male member of staff looked at my receipt and I said "It's not here yet" and he looked around and then walked off to the left and I don't know what he did or where he went. A few more order numbers were being called out which were later than mine and then a male member of staff wearing a suit came out of a door behind the collection point counter and said something about being sorry for the delay for my game and that it was coming. I said "No problem" and it wasn't a problem to me, I wasn't expecting to require any special attention and I hadn't seen this man before and yet he came out of a door and spoke to me as though he was aware of me. I did wonder if that young woman wearing black leggings/jogging trousers was suspicious and that my order was being intentionally delayed which is why the besuited male member of staff talked to me as though he knew of me but I stood at the collection point counter at the correct time and the young woman wearing black leggings/jogging trousers had already gone by then so who knows.

I rode the short distance to Sainsbury's Apsley and bought a few items and paid at a regular checkout (receipt says 15:05) and I wasn't even in paranoid mode so I didn't take any notice of security guards and security desks and I didn't see any guards either so that was refreshingly uneventful and pleasant.

I ate a Cadbury's Fudge whilst pushing my bicycle through Apsley and then rode into Hemel Hempstead and locked my bicycle against a lamp post because some work has been going on there and I couldn't find the bicycle rack that I normally use. I went into Poundland and bought a few items (receipt says 15:28) and returned to my bicycle and rode down the side of Primark and out to the main road and onto Boxmoor. Whilst cycling along the road I noticed a police car on the nearby dual carriageway going in the same direction as me with lights and sirens activated. I rode up the lane that goes to Bovingdon airfield and around the public footpath (a dirt track around the edge of the fields) and down the side of the prison and out onto the main road to Ley Hill. I rode through Ley Hill (there was a local event happening on the common) and I rode down Broomstick Lane to Bottom Lane and down the top end of Trapps Lane to home. It's been a while since I've used that route but once you're in Ley Hill it's pointless going down into Chesham on the main road only to have to ride up hill again.

I went to bed last night with about as little heat as I could wish for coming from my groin area (chronic prostratitis) and this morning there was more heat and it seems cooler now as I'm writing this and that's just the way it is. I've drunk a lot of water since I've returned home and I'll flush my bladder through during the evening and I expect when I go to bed at midnight it'll return to quite cool again. I had a good long bicycle ride today and I don't feel as though there's any discomfort in the prostate gland region so that's good.

So, something could've been going on today but then again when isn't it; it's all documented anyway.

23:57 I'm want to continue recording the heat coming from my bladder/groin area because I think that it's important and it requires more documenting than what I've been doing in the past. Currently my genitalia is cool and my bladder is a little warmer which is what I was expecting after I'd flushed it through with a few 500ml bottles of water.


Notes:

The following was written on Nov 17 2016:

I wrote the following note to expand upon later -- "[DOCUMENT MASSIVE SHOCK AND FLUSH]" and I remember this well and I shall document it now:

In Argos Apsley when I looked from the left to ahead at the counter and the young woman wearing black leggings/jogging trousers had appeared over to my right nearer to the counter -- at that point I experienced a massive shock to my system and flush to my entire groin area and it was extremely hot so much so that I could feel my penis (limp) burning against my leg. The shock comes from realising that somebody that you're continually being harrased/intimidated by has suddenly appeared in front of you. The flush to my entire groin area and the heat -- there was absolutely nothing consciously sexual from me to cause that. This is what I mean when I've previously stated that I'm being sensitised to females wearing black leggings/jogging trousers. I did state that I was experiencing some inflammation in my groin area from ejaculating the previous day and I've yet to discover why exactly this happens (age related, worn out sexual mechanics, a gladular issue) so my groin area was in a sensitive/tender state and even though I didn't feel sexual (it's inflamed and sore; it hurts) my attackers manipulate it and make it worse.


Aug 15 2016

10:13 I need to document the temperature of my groin area every day now multiple times a day: this morning it's warm but not too warm nor uncomfortable. I'm sorry, I don't personally have a thermal imaging camera pointing at my groin so you're just going to have to make do with adjectives rather than exact measurements.

23:35 I went out today on my bicycle. I rode down Pheasant Rise, Moor Road, Amy Lane, across Germain Street and along the path by the river and I had to get off my bicycle because there was a pedestrian and I think it was a man walking a dog but I can't remember and I wasn't really paying much attention either. There were a couple of people chatting in the middle by the fence and I think that they were both women and I rode around them on the grass and a man walking towards me further along. I exited the path at Wey Lane as usual and rode to Pednor and I passed a man jogging coming towards me along the bottom and the rest of the journey was quiet. I rode from Pendor to Wey Lane and along the path to Water Meadow car park and continued up St Mary's Way to Sainsbury's Chesham through their car park.

On entry to Sainsbury's Chesham there was one security guard at the security desk by the main doors. I bought a few items and paid at a regular checkout (receipt says 14:12) behind an older woman and another older woman came in behind me. On exit from the store there was one security guard at the security desk by the main doors. I returned down the High Street, Red Lion Street, Waterside and up Trapps Lane.

When I got home after my bicycle ride my groin area was warm and there was a little discomfort in my prostate gland area but I drank lots of water and my groin area has been cool for the rest of the afternoon and all this evening which is great.

I didn't detect anything odd today when I went out and I think that it's because there's minimal heat coming from my groin area.

Aug 16 2016

11:55 At the moment my groin area is a little warm.

14:44 I've just had a shower as today is my personal grooming/body maintenance day and I took four Ibuprofen tablets earlier and I've drunk lots of water and my groin area is currently at body temperature which is cooler than it was ealier.

Very personal information originally recorded here has been moved to my Very Personal Diary.

16:55 My groin area is currently cool.

23:03 My groin area is currently body temperature to cool so let's hope it continues into tomorrow.

Aug 17 2016

09:39 My groin area is currently body temperature.

13:46 My groin area is currently body temperature to warm. I took four Ibuprofen tablets earlier and I've also drunk lots of water and it's a hot day.

15:15 I've just returned from a bicycle ride. I rode down Pheasant Rise, Moor Road, Amy Lane, across Germain Street and along the path by the river which was empty. I exited the path at Wey Lane as usual and rode to Pednor and I passed a woman pushing a pram going in the same direction as me along the bottom. Further along I passed a man wearing blue shorts and a light blue T-shirt I think coming towards me. Along the top I passed a couple of women wearing dark blue short tracksuit bottoms who were walking towards me, there was a man walking going in the same direction as me towards the end and then a couple with the man topless going down the hill in the same direction as me.

I rode from Pendor to Wey Lane and along the path to Water Meadow car park and continued up St Mary's Way to Sainsbury's Chesham through their car park. On entrance to the store I noticed a security guard walk from the foyer to the security desk by the main doors and he looked at me as I passed him. I bought a few items including some Ibuprofen tablets which I'm consuming a lot of and paid at a regular checkout (receipt says 14:53) and an Indian lady told me to go in front of her because she had a lot of items and she also went off to get something else. I left the store and there was one security guard at the security desk by the main doors but I didn't notice him paying any obvious attention to me as I passed him.

When I returned to the cycle point there were two tall slim young women or even girls manoeuvring their bicycles from the bike racks to leave and I detected through my peripheral vision (I was looking up high as usual) that they were both wearing very short skin tight shorts of a dark or polka dot design and one of them was actually leaning on a bike rack facing into the foyer when I arrived. I said "Excuse me" because their bicycles were blocking entry to the bike racks and one of them said "Sorry" and there was a person possibly male at the rightmost rack leaning on the wall playing with a mobile phone who started to fiddle with a bicycle as I was leaving. I'm recording this because I think it's odd especially with the security guard's behaviour at the start.

I returned home through Sainsbury's Chesham car park, St Mary's Way, Red Lion Street, Waterside and up Trapps Lane. When I got home I checked the temperature of my groin area and it is body temperature. I've had another four Ibuprofen tablets and 500ml of water and my groin area is still body temperature as I'm finishing writing this. I'm currently experiencing a little discomfort from my prostate gland area because of the cycle ride but it'll disappear soon.

17:25 I'm just going out for a cigarette. My groin area is currently body temperature to cool which could be because I've just flushed it through by urinating the water that I've been comsuming this afternoon.

18:28 I want to note that the young woman leaning on the bike rack facing into the foyer could've been there a few days ago except I can't remember when it was. On that day too a man was leaning on my bike rack with his back to me and I had to ask him to move so that I could get my bicycle out. I think that that bicycle rack is starting to get a bit dangerous.

19:48 I've just urinated and my groin area is currently cool and my urine flow is very good for a change.

22:30 My groin area is currently cool.

Aug 18 2016

11:37 I took four Ibuprofen tablets a while ago and I've drunk 500ml of water so far. My groin area is currently body temperature to warm -- it's not uncomfortably warm, it's just an elevated temperature. I think it's just the remnants of waking up with a full bladder and nocturnal penile tumescence (morning glory).

13:46 My groin area is currently almost at body temperature, just slightly above it I'd say.

16:09 My groin area is currently body temperature. I have been out and I have experienced a little discomfort in my prostate gland area but I can't say that I feel anything now.

16:50 My groin area is currently cool.

00:11 It's into the next morning now but I should write this here to keep it together. I went out on my bicycle today down Pheasant Rise, Moor Road and up Red Lion Street to Water Meadow Surgery to make an appointment to see my doctor about my chronic prostatitis and in particular to deal with the bladder irritation/inflamation and I locked my bicycle outside and entered and stood at the reception desk inside the door and there were two receptionists sitting down behind the counter and one in between them bending low as though she was talking to them both and I detected that she looked at me whilst I stood there waiting for somebody to say "Can I help you". The receptionist on the left dealt with me and I didn't detect any eye contact from her during the entire process. It's been a while since I've been in there and it was for a dog nip/bite which was due to my attackers and they warned the doctor's surgery about me before I got there and I think I may have detected something in there today too. Visiting the surgery today was something that I was thinking about over the previous evening and nobody would've know that I was going there but there's plenty of time for my attackers to phone the surgery whilst I'm riding into their car park and parking and locking my bicycle. It feels as though I'd just got inside and the woman in the middle had just been warned about me on the phone and was bending down low and having a quick quiet word with the two receiptionists about me and then there was no eye contact.

After the surgery visit I walked up the High Street to Sainsbury's Chesham and there was one security guard at the security desk by the main doors on entrance to the store. I bought a few items and paid at a regular checkout (receipt says 14:25) behind a lady who left her keys at the end and I picked them up and passed them to her. I left the store and the security guard at the security desk by the main doors had gone by that time. I walked down the High Street and crossed Red Lion Street and rode into Water Meadow car park and along the path to Wey Lane and into Pednor and along the bottom I passed an adult on a bicycle coming towards me and further along there was possibly a family with the adults at the front and their teenage children following behind coming towards me. I think the top section was clear because all I can currently recall was an older man watering his garden at the end before the hill drops down.

I returned via the path from Wey Lane to Germain Street and then rode down Amy Lane and Moor Road as I'd already been into town and then up Trapps Lane. The day started out warm but cloudy and the sun came out whilst I was out which was nice.

At the moment my groin area is cool and it has been like that since I last recorded it at 16:50.

Aug 19 2016

11:49 I got up this morning and urinated about 08:00 and I thought that the temperature of my groin area was fine considering that I had a full bladder and I went to the toilet about 10:30 to pass a stool and that puts a lot of pressure on my prostate gland and my groin area feels a bit warm at the moment. The weather is a bit damp out there today so I'm not currently intending to go for a bicycle ride. I've had four Ibuprofen tablets and I'm drinking lots of water so that should help matters if I decide to go for a walk into town.

16:02 My groin area is currently body temperature and a little bit cooler in places which is quite interesting. I did some sit-ups earlier and some weights and I've urinated a couple of times to relieve myself of the possible litre and a half of tap water that I've consumed and that's cooled everything down.

23:38 My groin area is currently body temperature to cool. Since 16:02 I've drunk a lot of fluids and my groin area temperature has fluctuated and sometimes I've urinated and it's felt relatively free and others it's felt restricted and that's just how it is.

00:06 I've just been to the bathroom and cleaned my teeth and applied clotrimazole to my eczema and urinated and the flow was relatively free and my groin area is currently body temperature to cool and that's it for today and tomorrow we'll do it all again.

Aug 20 2016

10:11 I got up half an hour ago and urinated, took four Ibuprofen tablets and drank some water and my groin area is currently body temperature.

11:21 I've just got out of the shower -- I didn't go out yesterday and I want to go out today.

14:20 I could've drunk about three 500ml bottles of water already today and I've urinated a couple of times this afternoon and my groin area is currently slightly warmer than body temperature but not uncomfortably warm, it's not burning or anything. I'm just off out for a walk into town and it'll likely do me some good becuase it is recognised as being beneficial to chronic prostatitis sufferers.

16:50 My groin area is currently body temperature to warm which is the same as it was earlier today so there's some mild inflammation there that isn't currently shifting.

19:12 My groin area temperature has come down now: it's body temperature and cool in places and I don't know why it just decides to do that but I felt it drop after my last urination.

00:17 It's just gone midnight but I want to record my last trip out. I don't normally go out on a Saturday but I had a shower in the morning and I didn't go out yesterday and I wanted a walk. I walked along The Backs and passed a young man on the bridge over the railway and a young woman on the same bridge further along as though they were together and they were returning from the town. Shortly afterwards I passed a lady with some flowers who was also coming towards me. It was clear then until the top of Station Road which I walked down into the High Street and up to Sainsbury's Chesham where there was one security guard at the security desk by the main doors on entrance to the store. I bought a few items and paid at a regular checkout behind a lady. Once it was my time to be served I said "Hi mate" or "Alright mate" to the tattooed male member of staff and he did reply but in a sort of gruff manner and he kept looking behind me as though he was focusing on something else and when I paid I gave him £5 and he gave me my receipt (receipt says 14:56) and he forgot to give me my change and then I had to remind him of how much I gave him so he was just completely somewhere else and he did apologise and say that he was not quite with it. There was one security guard at the security desk by the main doors on exit from the store.

I returned down the High Street, Red Lion Street, Waterside and Gordon Road. I'm wondering if some ostracism was going on in Sainsbury's Chesham which may have affected the male member of staff who served me but then again I don't really think that he was the happy chatty people-person type and possibly he was just bored and entering a robotic state.

00:51 My groin area is currently body temperature to cool and I'm getting into bed now.

Aug 21 2016

15:24 I'm just off out for a bicycle ride as it's currently sunny but a bit windy. My groin area has been around body temperature to a little over so far today and it's slightly warm as I'm writing this.

16:58 My groin area is currently body temperature and cool in places and I've just returned from a bicycle ride and a very interesting shopping experience courtesy of my attackers.

The weather is a bit unpredictable at the moment and a bit cool for wearing shorts on a long trip so I wore my tracksuit bottoms and a vest underneath my T-shirt and rode down Pheasant Rise, Moor Road, Red Lion Street and walked up the High Street to Sainsbury's Chesham and locked my bicycle against the railing on the side of the trolley point (the cycle point is about as dangerous as using the self-service tills) and I walked into the store and there were no security guards to be seen on entry. I only really wanted to buy liquorice catherine wheels so I collected those and couldn't think of anything else I needed and made my way to the regular checkouts and the first one I chose was occupied by one man with a few items but the male member of staff told me that he was sorry but the checkout is closing (there was no sign saying so) so I went to one a few checkouts along where there was one Jamaican man with dreadlocks with several items and he told me to go in front of him with my one item and I thanked him. I paid (receipt says 15:44) and looked at the Jamaican man and thanked him again whilst putting my rucksack on my shoulder and moving off and I span around to take the route to the exit and right in front of me was a woman wearing grey leggings/jogging trousers bending over her trolley so that her back was towards me and my gaze was about mid height and I saw her for a fraction of a second in a blur as I span around and I didn't get any clear detail of her but she was possibly wearing a white top and I can't picture anything in her trolley and I think it was empty.

I continued toward the exit and there was now one security guard at the security desk by the main doors and he looked up at me from his monitor as I passed. I returned to my bicycle and rode out through the car park and into the High Street and walked down the street and got on my bicycle and rode along Red Lion Street and up Amersham Hill to Tesco's Express Amersham. As I entered the store there was one young male member of staff who was looking out through the doors as though he was looking for somebody and I entered and walked past him to get a Snickers bar and I detected that he kept looking at me and I picked up a Snickers bar and turned around and looked directly at him in the eyes and his eyes were wide open and staring intensely out of the store as though he knew that I was looking at him. I paid for my item at a self-service till (receipt says 16:07) and returned to my bicycle and walked through Amersham whilst eating my Snickers bar. I got on my bicycle and rode down Plantation Road and I didn't want to go too far but I wanted a decent ride so I decided to ride along Raans Road and I took the dirt track to Bell Lane and returned along Latimer Road and up Chessmount Rise.

I'll describe what was happening now: the woman wearing grey leggings/jogging trousers in Sainsbury's Chesham was put there to attempt to generate a shock involuntary subconcious sexual reaction measurable as an increase in inflammatory heat coming from my groin area due to my chronic prostatitis -- that's the best way that I can describe it and I wasn't shocked at all possibly because I'd just finished talking to the Jamaican man and I was thinking about him. The male member of staff in Tesco's Express Amersham was looking out for me because they'd been told that I was approaching.

19:32 My groin area is currently warm but not too warm. I've just urinated and my urine was a bit dark and I must've drunk two bottles of 500ml tap water plus a couple of mugs as soon as I'd entered the kitchen so I don't why it's dark. I'll drink some more water and see if I can flush it through and cool it down.

21:30 My last urination was quite clear and my groin temperature is currently body temperature.

22:52 My groin area is currently body temperature and a little cooler in places so I'm ending the day better than I was this morning.

Roll on my doctors appointment!

00:04 Time for bed; my groin area is currently body temperature to cool.

Aug 22 2016

11:35 Because of my approaching doctor's appointment I had a shower this morning (it would normally be tomorrow) and I'll have a shave later today and my groin area is currently body temperature. I've consumed four Ibuprofen tablets and two 500ml bottles of tap water so far.

14:20 I'm just off out for a bicycle ride. My groin area is a little warm but not uncomfortably warm. My heart hurt this morning and I've had a few weird thumping heartbeats but it's fine at the moment.

16:40 My groin area is currently slightly warmer than body temperature.

19:42 My groin area is currently slightly warmer than body temperature.

22:15 My groin area is currently cool -- I don't know why. It was quite humid earlier on and there's a cool breeze coming in now.

22:50 Actually I ate a whole head of broccoli today with a little butter and a few tortilas and that has anti-inflammatory properties so I'm wondering if that helped.

When I left the store there was one security guard at the security desk by the main doors and I entered the foyer looking up high as I do and a white shirted man with possibly his hands behind his back strolled past me closely and I did change direction from leaving via the car park door to the High Street door because I thought I might get a better identification of him but he went behind me. I'm pretty sure he was a security guard and the other one was wearing a white shirt too. So was the tall young man abruptly changing direction behind me an agent/detective following me? Was the security guard meant to be intimidating? I think so.

I rode through Sainsbury's Chesham car park and down St Mary's Way and through Water Meadow car park out to Wey Lane and around Pednor and the only people I came across were an adult couple wearing tracksuit bottoms walking towards me along the bottom and the rest was empty except for a couple of cars coming towards me.

I had a cigarette in the back garden with my mother after 17:30 and she said that when she visited Sainsbury's Chesham today that it was empty and that there were a few vacant regular checkouts and I told her that it seemed normal to me when I visited. I got her to have a look at her receipt and she was there at 13:50 when I was there at 14:40 and I thought that was quite interesting and worth noting. She also said that it was nice because there weren't any little screaming kids about and I don't think that there were any kids inside nor hanging around outside when I visited. There was definitely something weird going on with that store today.

00:14 I'm getting into bed now. My groin area is currently cool and I'll get some more broccoli tomorrow and see if I can replicate this.

Aug 23 2016

12:58 My groin area is currently a little warmer than body temperature.

I visited my doctor today and we had a chat about my prostate and I told her that I had an examination in the late 1990s and we talked about how I deal with the inflammation and she took a urine sample which she said looked fine and she felt my prostate gland and I've got to return for a blood test in a few days time. I told her that the prostate fluid is causing a lot of inflammation and heat and we've got to wait for the results of the blood test to find out how to proceed (PSA test which measures the prostate-specific antigen in the blood which is elevated for men with inflammation/enlargement of the prostate and prostate cancer). She said that it was a good thing that I went to see her about this problem.

I met Lee-Anne Saunders from across the street in the doctors -- I saw her when her name was called out and she was sitting over the other side of the waiting area. We exchanged pleasantries and again when I passed her outside getting into her daughters car I think.

After the doctor's I walked up the High Street to Sainsbury's Chesham and there were no security guards to be seen on entrance to the store. I bought some more broccoli, chocolate and Ibuprofen tablets and paid (receipt says 09:22) at a regular checkout behind a woman and a man came in behind me. I left the store and there were no security guards to be seen on exit from the store either. I returned down the High Street, Red Lion Street, Punch Bowl Lane and The Backs because I wanted to smoke a cigarette that I pre-rolled before I left my house.

So I didn't detect anything weird in the doctor's nor Sainsbury's Chesham today.

23:56 My groin area is currently cool. I forgot to document it for the time up until now but I have been regularly checking it and it's just got better as the day progressed. I have felt some soreness in my bladder and urethra ever since I returned from the doctor but it hasn't resulted in any heat increase. The doctor did push down on my bladder examining it and the prostate gland test may have resulted in the soreness, I don't know.

I did eat a head of broccoli again today which could be benefitting my waterworks.

Aug 24 2016

12:30 I had a shower earlier because yesterday and last night were incredibly hot and so is today. My groin area is currently slightly above body temperature but it's not uncomfortable. I do now have quite a restriction when urinating especially when I first go in the morning. This morning I had to get up earlier than I normally do to urinate and then I didn't fully empty my bladder and I had to go again later before I got in the shower. The reason for this is because my prostate gland is filling up with fluid and I haven't been releasing it. The trouble is my prostate fluid now appears to be an irritant so when I do release it it causes some really serious inflammation and I'm hoping that I can get that fixed.

14:03 It's so hot here! I'm not currently planning on going out for a bicycle ride because it's far too hot to go mad for 30 minutes exercising. I could go for a walk but I don't need anything until tomorrow and the heat doesn't exactly make you want to do anything.

I've just urinated and the flow was fine actually and my groin area is currently slightly above body temperature.

16:31 I've been out which I'll document in a while. It's very hot, too hot even to walk down the town but I realised I needed some milk.

My groin area is currently body temperature and cool in places.

19:52 My groin area is currently body temperature.

I went out today for a walk down to the town because I needed some milk. I walked along The Backs and passed a man with a can of beer coming up the steps towards me on approach to Springfield Road. Further along I passed an older lady coming towards me and that was it. I walked down Station Road and into the High Street and I noticed a man jogging through the town in my direction completely wearing white. As I approached WH Smith there were a group of people chatting with one being a woman completely wearing white and she started off making her way to Sainsbury's Chesham as I approached her and I sped up to get inside the store before her and I picked up a basket and she then overtook me and walked across my path as I made my way up the vegetable isle towards the milk. I bought milk and bananas and found a regular checkout which I initially decided to take but there were a lot of items on the belt so I took the checkout next to it that wasn't so full behind a rather large woman wearing black leggings. After a while an elderly lady came in behind me with I think somebody in a wheelchair. I paid for my items (receipt says 15:43) and left the store and there was one security guard at the security desk by the main doors (I forgot to mention that there was one there when I went in as well). The one on exit looked at me as I passed.

I returned down the High Street and on approach to the clock tower I was behind a woman pushing a pram and a woman wearing white shorts and a flowery blouse came in from my right and I sped up to get through the narrowing gap between them. I continued along Red Lion Street, Waterside, Gordon Road and Springfield Road. It was so hot that I had to keep wiping my brow because it was dripping.

I didn't detect anything obvious today -- I don't know if any of the people that I've mentioned were up to anything or are meant to mean anything.

00:05 My groin area is currently body temperature. I do have a pain that I would say is coming from my prostate gland being tight around my urethra and it does hurt and I have been aware of it over this evening. Sitting here now in front of my desk writing this I can feel it and it's quite an intense pain.

Aug 25 2016

08:51 Last evening I didn't have a cup of coffee at 21:00 nor a herbal tea at 22:30 because the weather was far too hot for that but I was drinking plenty of water and I reduced my consumption of it after 21:00. At 04:30 I had to get up and urinate and my prostate gland is really clamped around my urethra and it hurts. I woke up about 07:44 and had to urinate again at 08:00. This expansion of my prostate gland and increase in urination frequency is because I haven't been letting my prostate fluid and I haven't been doing that because my prostate fluid is an irritant and causes terrible bladder and urethra inflammation which my attackers exploit for their benefit.

My groin area is currently a range of temperatures: my scrotum is cool and my bladder and penis feel warmer which is probably due to waking up with nocturnal penile tumescence (morning glory) and having a full bladder and not voiding all of it because of a restriction.

10:32 I've just exited the bathroom and I had to pass a stool and there was a release of prostate fluid which is what a swollen prostate gland does and it would and can be a good thing as long as it doesn't irritate. My groin area is now uniformly at body temperature which is good. I'm currently having a problem shutting off my urine flow completely and it's taking me a while to finish and I get little bits left that dribble a short while later. All of these problems that I'm currently suffering are a result of not periodically letting my prostate fluid via ejaculation.

10:44 I haven't had Ibuprofen tablets yet nor lots of water as I'm off to the doctor's in a moment for a blood test and then I think that I should take my bicycle ride before the weather gets too hot.

14:11 I've been to the doctor's and Sainsbury's Chesham which I'll document later. I want to go out to get exercise now and my groin area is currently warm. I have drunk a litre of water and taken some Ibuprofen tablets since I visited the doctor's.

15:33 I've just got back from a bicycle ride and I visited Sainsbury's again because I wanted some other items that I couldn't all fit in my rucksack earlier. I think something was going on today and I'll write everything in detail and explain what I think was happening.

I have just checked my groin area temperature and it is currently body temperature to cool which is interesting because it was warm when I went out. Just before I started writing this I did experience some fluid leaking from my penis which I thought might be a little dribble of urine but it was prostate fluid which is unsurprising because I've just ridden my bicycle hard for 30 minutes and my prostate gland is swollen and painful so maybe that will help take some pressure off. So the Ibuprofen that I had before I went out, the water, the exercise, the dribble of prostate fluid, something has reduced the overall temperature of my groin area.

21:06 The interesting day starts with my record of my penis and bladder being warmer than my scrotum and after my 08:00 urination I did experience some minor sexual feeling which came from nothing that I'm aware of or anything that I did, it was just there accompanying my morning glory after urinating and as soon as I'd dressed myself it went. I mention this because my attackers were monitoring that heat difference whilst I was in my bedroom and they warned people about me everywhere I went today.

I rode my bicycle (I noted that my groin area was uniformly at body temperature before I left the house) down Pheasant Rise, Moor Road and up Red Lion Street to the Water Meadow Surgery for my 11:15 blood test appointment, checked in and went upstairs and I was the only person in the waiting room. The woman came in to get me and I sat down and we briefly chatted and I don't know if I needed to explain to her what the test was for and what she was looking for but I did just to make conversation and so that she knew why I was there and she didn't make eye contact with me, she either looked at paperwork on her desk or at her computer screen. She took my blood and I was talking to her about my prostate gland and the fact that my prostate fluid appears to be an irritant and we chatted a little bit more and eventually she looked at me in the eyes and there was an expression on her face that would suggest that she's trying to make me out. I did mistakenly believe that she would be testing the blood (I'm not familiar with the system) so my discussion with her was unnecessary and now that I've realised that my attackers said something to her before I'd arrived the odd expression on her face now makes sense!

Following my blood test I walked up through the High Street and it was very busy everywhere I went today. Just past the clock tower on my right were a group of chatty girls walking in the same direction as me and there was a tall slim young woman or girl even at least as tall as my 5 foot 10 inches (I was looking up high as usual and detecting things through my peripheral vision) and she was wearing very short shorts possibly orange or maybe they were beige, I don't know, I just like to make sure that I'm aware enough of what's going on around me just in case I need to document it and it could well be that this group were suspicious. There were other noisy girls in the High Street but I didn't detect them in any way other than hearing them. I reached Sainsbury's Chesham and locked my bicycle against the side of the trolley point and as I walked into the foyer a security guard who must've been somewhere nearby walked in front of me so that I was very close behind him as I entered which can be a normal event but I think that it was meant to be intimidating. I don't know if there was a security guard at the security desk by the main doors on entrance possibly because I didn't bother detecting it since I had one right in front of anyway. I bought a few items that I needed and two of them were big (granola and broccoli) so they filled my rucksack and I did have some other items on my mind that weren't particularly important that could wait for another visit and I paid at a regular checkout and I can't remember who was in front of me (a woman I expect since there were a lot of items on the belt) and a man came in behind me and I paid (receipt says 11:28) and left the store and there were no security guards to be seen on exit. I walked down the High Street and continued walking down Red Lion Street to the bottom of Punch Bowl Lane because there are temporary traffic lights there at the moment and there was a queue of stationary vehicles and walking past it made more sense. I got on my bicycle and the queued traffic was coming through so I waited for it all to pass and then I saw a police van getting held at the changing traffic lights and I did just about make out the start of the number plate and it looked like OU11 and I expect that it was OU11 GVG which is what I see quite regularly. I rode down Waterside and up Trapp's Lane and I never saw the van again.

At 14:11 I noted that my groin area was warm and that I wanted to go out and exercise on my bicycle so I rode down Pheasant Rise, Moor Road, Amy Lane, across Germain Street and along the path by the river which was empty until I exited at the end of Wey Lane whereby I got off my bicycle because there was a large group of girls walking dogs coming towards me and one or two of them did thank me for that but it's a footpath anyway and I only ride on it when there's nobody else around. I rode around Pednor and I passed an adult couple walking towards me on the right-hand side of the road along the bottom and I didn't detect much information about them so they may have been two females but the one nearest to me was wearing black leggings/jogging trousers and a long baggy T-shirt possibly blue. Further along the bottom there was a person on an adult sized bicycle and I didn't detect anything about this person because like the previous people I was riding hard with my head down and I don't want to see them but this person was stationary on the right on a passing point. When I reached the end of the bottom section just before the hill this person rode past me from behind with some speed and then turned around and rode back behind me and I don't react to that attention grabbing mechanism any more and I was busy focusing on my riding and getting ready for the hill and all the information that I got was light blue shorts and possibly a white top and I think that the bike was white and the bike design looked like the one that I'd passed earlier so that's why I'm assuming that it was the same person as though they were waiting for me to ride past and followed me along the bottom and intentionally passed me at the end before turning back to send me a message. I don't know if it was a man or woman but I have previously documented a man in blue shorts riding around there. I think that there were some more people along the top section but I can't remember now and I was focusing on my riding and I was aware that it was a lot busier than it usually is.

After Pednor I rode to Wey Lane and along the path by the river to Water Meadow car park and I continued up St Mary's Way to Sainsbury's Chesham through their car park. Whilst I was out at this time I had thought about my previous trip out and I'd realised that something was going on and that the security guard who'd walked in front of me as I entered the store earlier in the day did it intentionally and so I decided to visit Sainsbury's Chesham again to buy the additional items that I wanted and to push back against their intimidation (you have to push back otherwise it makes you ill like not standing up to bullies). When I got to the trolley point there was one security guard wearing a white shirt standing with somebody else who was shorter and slighter than him and possibly wearing a dark top and there was this bizarre cloud of thick smoke around the white shirted security guard's middle and I thought that they were smoking and I did think to myself wow, what is he smoking because it was so thick but then I saw what I thought might be a can of deodorant with a white nozzle upside down in his right hand near his hip and I thought this because I didn't know what else it could be and deodorant was the thing that came to mind but I didn't detect any odor when I passed him. I did have to ask the white shirted security guard to let me through to lock my bicycle because it's very narrow there and he was polite in his response and they walked off after that. I didn't know it at the time but he/they were there intentionally to be intimidating because I was approaching and I'd really like to know what that canister was in his hand that emitted such a thick white odorless substance. What did I inhale?

I entered Sainsbury's Chesham and there were no security guards to be seen on entrance to the store. I bought a big bag of tortillas and some sesame snaps and paid at a regular checkout and I can't remember anything about the people who were there but I remember the lady who served me who was nice and pleasant and had a nice smile. I paid for my items (receipt says 15:03) and left the store and there was a white shirted security guard at the security desk by the main doors and he looked at me as I passed him and when I entered the foyer I laughed at that because he did it right at the last moment and I detected it.

I walked down the High Street and possibly just before Nat West Bank on my left (I was looking up high as usual) I detected a middle-aged man wearing dark trousers and a colourful smart shirt with folded arms watch me as I passed and he was rather close on my left and his head followed me. I don't know who he was but it just goes with everything else that went on today. I rode down Red Lion Street this time because the traffic was already stopped and I slipped down the side of the vehicles and then the lights changed and I continued along Waterside and up Trapp's Lane.

So there you go, all of that for some minor sexual feeling accompanying my morning glory after urination that disappeared as quickly as it appeared and I do wonder if something may have been programmed into me on the previous day, something subliminal. Yesterday evening which was very hot I spent much of the latter part of it watching music documentaries and interviews and a few Graham Norton show clips but there was nothing titillating, just mostly males like John Lydon and Depeche Mode. I didn't have any sexual thoughts whilst in bed nor wake up feeling sexy so maybe that's just the way it is, something that I can't explain that my attackers used as an excuse to mount a huge assault. I just feel as though they're operating in an extreme prejudice mode whereby they take anything that they can use against me and blow it up massively so that to me it appears completely irrational and unreasonable but what I think doesn't matter because they're not expecting anybody to find out or believe me. I also feel as though they're trying to make my life impossible to live.

It's now 00:02 so I've spent many hours documenting this today, more than I was outside the house. My groin area is currently cool and it's been pretty much like that ever since I returned home from my last trip out and I'm really happy about that because there may have been attempts to sexualise me today.

Aug 26 2016

09:17 This morning again I got up early to urinate somewhere around 06:40 and then again at about 08:40 and now I'm up and washed and groomed and I'm going to go down to the kitchen and make some bread. My groin area is currently warm and possibly a little bit less than that but it's in that area. I'm just drinking some water and I'm going to take some Ibuprofen tablets so it'll come down and fluctuate throughout the rest of the day as it normally does.

10:50 Because it's so hot I was intending to have a shower this morning but I made some bread and forgot so I've just used the shower to wash my lower body and applied Savlon to my groin area and put clean underwear on. I would normally do that before I get into bed at midnight because otherwise if I do it in the morning and the washing and application of Savlon to my groin area results in the minutest amount of firming then my attackers will use that as an excuse to warn everybody about me when I got out. I just wanted to record that my routine changed and that there was no firming.

12:09 My groin area is currently warm. It appears to be fluctuating between warm and a little bit less towards body temperature.

13:40 My groin area is currently body temperature to warm. My prostate is hurting quite a bit and I am aware of that but the heat isn't nagging me.

14:03 I've just had a shave and I'm off out in a little while and my groin area is currently slightly warmer than body temperature so it's come down and I've drunk a lot of water and urinated several times already today.

15:35 I've been home for about 15 minutes and my groin area was just above body temperature but I've just checked it again and it feels a bit warm again so it's fluctuating. I've just had some Ibuprofen and lots of water so I can't do any more than that.

17:10 I've just eaten an entire head of broccoli and my groin area is currently cool.

19:29 My groin area is currently cool. My prostate really hurts and I'm really aware of it and I could do with letting it tomorrow. I was thinking wow, what happened to my freedom to do that.

21:02 I've just urinated and my flow was good for a change. My groin area is currently at body temperature.

As I've already mentioned I've been out on my bicycle. I rode down Pheasant Rise, Moor Road, Amy Lane and then I crossed St Mary's Way and walked up the High Street to Sainsbury's Chesham and I locked my bicycle against the side of the trolley point as I normally and safely do now. I walked a little way along the route that runs across the top of the checkouts and entered the medicinal isle and picked up some mouthwash and I was aware that there was a woman wearing black leggings/jogging trousers squatting down facing the same side of the isle further up studying an item from the shelf (I walk around looking high especially when turning into isles so I detected her in my peripheral vision) and I wanted to get some Ibuprofen tablets and they were located in her viscinity and I hesitated about doing that because I thought that there's a possibility that she was put there by my attackers so I walked back around the corner of the isle in the direction that I'd just come from. I visited the cigarette counter and bought some cigarette papers and paid for my items there (receipt says 14:32) and left the store and there were no security guards to be seen on entrance nor exit.

I rode out of Sainsbury's Chesham car park and down St Mary's Way and into Water Meadow car park and along the path by the river to Wey Lane and into Pednor. Along the bottom I passed a man jogging about half way along and I'm sure that there was somebody else somewhere along there but I can't remember now so they weren't noteworthy. Along the top part on approach to the house that you drive through there were a couple of middle-aged people coming towards me and the woman was wearing a colourful swimsuit with an additional item of clothing on the top which I thought was a rather interesting attire for a country lane. I saw them in the distance and then looked down at my front wheel whilst peddling hard as I passed them. I can't remember anybody else being along there so the remainder of the ride was quiet. I returned through Wey Lane and the path by the river into Water Meadow car park and down Red Lion Street, Waterside and up Trapp's Lane.

I did wonder if my attackers were trying to stop me from purchasing Ibuprofen anti-inflammatory tablets by putting a squatting woman wearing black leggings/jogging trousers near the tablets. I'm doing pretty well keeping my prostate related problems under control at the moment and I think that they would rather that my groin area was red raw because it benefits them.

Aug 27 2016

11:37 I've just got out of the shower and my groin area is currently body temperature. I haven't had any Ibuprofen tablets or water yet but that's what I will be doing next.

14:15 My groin area is currently a little bit warm but it's not uncomfortable and I don't have that nagging pain from my prostate clamping around my urethra at the moment.

15:02 I'm off out now for a bicycle ride and my groin area is currently a little bit warm but it will get better.

17:38 I'm just going out for a cigarette in the back garden and my groin area is currently body temperature and cool in places.

17:53 I've just urinated and my groin area is currently body temperature to warm -- it's fluctuating.

21:20 As I mentioned earlier I went out on my bicycle today but I only went down the town because the weather was overcast all day and there were a few spots of rain and it looked like it was going to rain hard as I left the house. Also once I was out I didn't really feel as though I had the energy to go mad for 30 minutes but I've been like that before and I was alright once I'd got into the rhythm.

I rode down Pheasant Rise, Moor Road, Red Lion Street, St Mary's Way and into Sainsbury's Chesham car park and a police car was pulling out of the exit nearest the library as I passed with two young constables inside and I wanted to record the number plate but it'd gone behind me. I locked my bicycle to the side of the trolley point and entered the store and there was at least one security guard at the security desk by the main doors and I say that because one of them was chatting and I got the impression that another was standing to his left out of view. I got some more broccoli which I like and which could be very well helping me with its anti-inflammatory properties and some Ibuprofen tablets and I paid at a regular checkout (receipt says 15:30) behind a lady and another lady came in behind me. I left the store and there was one security guard at the security desk by the main doors on exit. I collected my bicycle from the side of the trolley point and walked through the High Street and got on my bike at the bottom and rode down Red Lion Street, Waterside and up Trapp's Lane and it was uneventful, I didn't detect any weirdness or looks or heads following me.

21:33 My groin area is currently cool. My last urination felt quite free and I can't feel any restriction on my urethra from my prostate gland at the moment and I don't know why that is but it's welcome.

23:50 I'm getting into bed in a moment and I've just urinated and I was bursting and I stood at the toilet and bent over because the flow was very restricted and I felt as though I'd passed much less than I was expecting. I'm not feeling a pain from my prostate gland as I've already mentioned and interestingly after I'd urinated my groin area was warm and now 5 minutes later it's body temperature to cool.

Aug 28 2016

09:30 I've just got a coffee and some toast. I got up about 08:00 to urinate and I was bursting and it was really restricted and I didn't get rid of much fluid and I was bending right over the toilet to try and get an angle that my urethra was happy with but it didn't make any difference. I urinated again just before I went down to the kitchen and that wasn't much better but at least I must've passed most of the fluid by now. This is causing some really noticeable morning glory at the moment and I have mentally noted this before. It's a combination of morning glory and the firming you get when you need to go for a wee and they combine in an extreme way and between my first urination at 08:00 and my second at around 09:15 it never completely dissipated and all I was doing was watching technology and science videos on YouTube and playing Battlefield 4 on my PS3. After the second urination and getting some breakfast it went down. I was really aware of this this morning because of the surveillance and especially in front of my bedroom window and I kept my back to it when I got dressed and when I went into the kitchen I walked in backwards and closed the curtain on the back door and then when I returned to my bedroom I walked in backwards with my coffee in one hand and plate with toast in the other.

My groin area is currently warm, uniformly warm but there's no discomfort or pain at the moment.

09:48 It's pouring down with rain now so I don't think I'll be doing much with this day.

11:17 I've just come out of the bathroom having groomed myself and I didn't have a shower because I've got eczema and too much showering strips my skin but I washed my groin area with the shower head and directed it there for quite a while and it had a rather soothing effect and I could periodically feel little bursts of urine up my urethra so I think it has a relaxing capability and my groin area is currently body temperature having been warm earlier -- it's worth remembering this and my routine would currently benefit doing it this way around rather than strip washing my groin area before I go to bed.

11:34 And now I start the routine of Iboprofen and litres of water all over again...

13:21 It's been raining really hard today and it's looks unpredictable outside so I'm just off for a walk into town and I'll buy a couple of items. My groin area is currently warm.

19:50 My groin area is currently body temperature. I had some Ibuprofen tablets and some water a couple of hours ago now and I haven't been drinking so much water but I've eaten a head of broccoli today.

22:39 I went out today which I need to document. I walked along The Backs and passed an Indian man coming towards me up the steps towards Springfield Road who said "Thank you sir" for letting him pass through overgrown vegetation. I think it was on approach to the bridge that a man passed me coming towards me and then on approach to the top of Punch Bowl Lane a man was walking towards me and went down the lane quite speedily and because it's a bit of a corner there I'm unable to describe him. The remainder was clear and I walked down Station Road and into the High Street and up to Sainsbury's Chesham and bought some liquorice and some Ibuprofen tablets and paid at a regular checkout (receipt says 13:44) behind a woman and another woman came in behind me. There were no security guards to be seen anywhere during my visit. I returned down the High Street, Red Lion Street, Waterside, Gordon Road and Springfield Road and I didn't detect anything weird or odd at all so it was uneventful.

00:12 I'm getting into bed now and my groin area is currently a little warmer than body temperature. I didn't drink so much water over the evening so maybe I won't get up so early bursting.

Aug 29 2016

10:37 I'd managed to make it until 08:40 this morning before I needed to urinate which is because I didn't drink so much water yesterday evening. I've just finished washing in the bathroom and my groin area is currently body temperature to warm. There's no noticeable pain or irritation from anywhere yet, it just all feels fine.

11:34 I'm just going out for a cigarette and my groin area is currently warm and there's no discomfort.

15:25 I'm just off out on my bicycle. My groin area is currently just a little above body temperature.

16:49 I've just returned from a bicycle ride and my groin area is currently body temperature and I'm not feeling any discomfort. It's been a nice sunny day and I'll document it in a little while as I just want to put my feet up and play some GTA Online and probably nod off.

21:43 My groin area is currently body temperature. I've been drinking water but not huge quantities of it as it's getting annoying.

00:13 I need to document my trip out:


Notes:

The following was written on Nov 17 2016:

I didn't get around to documenting this but I remember it generally and I have the receipts: it was a bank holiday and I rode my bicycle to Sainsbury's Chesham (receipt says 15:41) and up to Tesco's Express Amersham (receipt says 16:06) and I rode back to Chesham through Hyde Heath and Pednor and there were lots of people about walking, cycling and horse riding and it was a normal trip out and very enjoyable.


Aug 30 2016

10:05 My groin area is currently a little warmer than body temperature.

14:19 I'm just off out down the town and to the doctor's to make another appointment about my blood test. My groin area is currently warm and there's no obvious discomfort.

15:08 I've just got back home. My groin area is currently body temperature. I rode down Pheasant Rise, Moor Road, Red Lion Street and into Water Meadow Surgery and asked to make a follow-up appointment and the receptionist said that she didn't have anything available at the moment and that I should ring back tomorrow at 08:30 to see if there's a reserved slot that I can fill for Friday.

I left the surgery and rode up Red Lion Steet and entered the High Street and walked up to Sainsbury's Chesham and there were no security guards to be seen on entrance to the store. I bought some milk and some liquorice and paid at a regular checkout (receipt says 14:50) behind an elderly lady with a lot of items who herself was behind somebody with a lot of items and a woman with two boys joined behind me. The guy on the till was quite chatty and was interested in if I jogged and I said that I do occasionally and he said that he lives in Aylesbury and jogs over there in mini-triathlons which is interesting. I left the store and there were no security guards to be seen one exit.

An event free day with plenty of sunshine and a pleasant social interaction. I wasn't particularly interested in a ride around Pednor because I'd run out of time really and I can do it tomorrow. I washed some laundry earlier and I went to the doctor's and got some shopping and I rode down the town and up Trapp's Lane so I've done enough.

16:59 My groin area is currently body temperature and cool in places.

19:46 My groin area is currently cool.

Aug 31 2016

16:22 My groin area is currently body temperature. I made some bread and forgot to put the yeast in and then had to wait an additional hour and a half and I ran out of time to go out today. The sun's out now but it's been overcast, cool and windy for most of the day so it's not particularly enticing anyway.

23:54 My groin area is currently slightly warmer than body temperature and it's been pretty much like that all day. I've not got any noticeable discomfort and my urine flow has been pretty good today. I took Ibuprofen tablets this morning as I normally do but I didn't bother this afternoon partly because the day zoomed past and when I did think about it I didn't feel as though I needed any. I still drank quite a lot of fluids though but not a huge amount because I didn't go out cycling and didn't generate a big thirst.

I'm really looking forward to speaking with my doctor! I want to discuss something else with her but I'm not writing about it here for the moment.

September

Sep 1 2016

11:28 I had a full shower this morning rather than the mini ones I've been having this week. My groin area is currently body temperature to warm and I'm not experiencing any noticeable discomfort. I've just taken some Ibuprofen tablets and water.

13:28 My second from last urination was restricted and I went again a moment ago because I'm off out now for a bicycle ride. My groin area is currently body temperature to warm.

15:25 I've been out for a ride and I'm just making something to eat (broccoli). I rode down Pheasant Rise, Moor Road, Amy Lane, across Germain Street and through the path by the river which was empty of pedestrians but there was a car parked on the path near the initial house and further along there was a small white works van. I exited at Wey Lane and rode around Pednor.

Along Pednor bottom I first passed a lady walking towards me and further along there was a woman jogging towards me with black leggings/jogging trousers and possibly a black top and then a man jogging with an orange top who was coming towards me. It was quiet along the top other than a blue people carrier backing out of an entrance to a field and I recognised this vehicle as the one with the lady who said "I didn't want you to stop" on Monday Jul 18 2016 and the one blocking the road on Friday Aug 12 2016 because I remembered that the registration started with RV and the registration is RV57 XKA although the last part might be KXA. I had to be careful as I passed her today because the road was narrow at that point and I slowed down and noted the registration number and I also saw her at the steering wheel as she drove off past me in the direction that I'd just come from and she has long white or bleached blond hair.

After Pednor I entered the path by the river at the start of Wey Lane and it was empty of everyone by this time and I rode into Water Meadow car park and stopped and cleaned my sunglasses and wiped my brow of sweat as I always do. I rode up St Mary's Way and into Sainsbury's Chesham car park and locked my bicycle against the side of the trolley point and entered the store and there was a security guard at the security desk by the main doors who was chatting with somebody on his left which could've been another security guard. I made my way to the medicinal isle and stood in front of the tablets and I heard a walkie-talkie radio emitting somebody's voice and what I thought was a short female member of staff coming around the bottom corner of the isle where the checkouts are and then she turned around as quickly as she had entered and walked back the same way that she'd come from so I don't know what to make of that but I do wonder if it had something to do with me because I felt as seeing me amde her change direction.

I wanted some chicken curry and couldn't locate the section of the isle that they were supposed to be on and so I asked a couple of female members of staff who were by the cake display cabinet and I was told to go to isle 10 which I'd already looked through and I eventually found it right at the end on the other side of the isle. I took my items to the cigarette counter because I also wanted some tobacco and I paid for everything there (receipt says 14:20) and left the store through the leftmost door and I didn't take any notice of the security desk as I was a little way away from it and so I don't know if there were any security guards there or not.

I returned down the High Street and got on my bicycle at Red Lion Street and rode down Waterside and up Trapp's Lane. I didn't detect anything today other than the Sainsbury's Chesham short female member of staff with her walkie-talkie and odd direction change.

17:03 My groin area is currently body temperature to warm at about the same level as it was before I went out and I did experience today some discomfort in my underneath area from my bicycle saddle which was noticeable by the time I'd exited Pednor as is normally the case but it's not so severe now.

17:33 Actually I don't think that my discomfort in my underneath area has lessened so much because I've just come in from having a cigarette in the back garden and it's quite painful and I was quite aware of it. It feels as though it's located in the base of my urethra so I suspect that my prostate gland is hurting in that area. I've just has some more Ibuprofen tablets and I'm drinking plenty of water.

18:57 My groin area is currently body temperature and cool in places so I've done something right -- Ibuprofen, broccoli, water.

22:01 I want to get this written here now otherwise I might forget and I don't want to have to remember it: MY ATTACKERS HAVE BEEN GRADUALLY HYPERSEXUALISING ME! That's what the pneumatic women in black leggings/jogging trousers are for. I've stated before that my attackers have been sensitising me/programming me but I missed out the important component -- it's sexual sensitising, the gradual elevation of sexual sensitivity. This doesn't even originate at the beginning of this document, it's actually been going on for years before we even got to the point when they showed themselves.

Sep 2 2016

11:37 I've been to the doctor's this morning which was very interesting and I had to discuss with her what's been happening to me which I didn't particularly intend to do although I did realise that I might have to and I'm glad that I did and I hope being in her position that she understood it.

My blood test results were normal (prostate-specific antigen PSA 0.57) and in fact were better than expected in some areas and she said that my cycling could be the cause of the restriction in my urethra. I wasn't expecting that at all and it doesn't explain why my prostate gland fluid is lumpy or why I can get severe inflammation to my entire groin area at some point after ejaculation and why my groin area heat is fluctuating throughout the day.

I talked to her about my sexual sensitivity and I said that it's redundant and a liability and that I want it disabled and she is making an appointment for me to see somebody and I will be notified of this via a letter through the post. She asked me why I don't [currently] masturbate as it's completely normal and I said because it will cause me inflammation and my attackers will exploit it and ostracise me. I told her that my attackers are elevating my sexual sensitivity for their benefit which is why I want rid of it.

After the doctor's I walked up to Sainsbury's Chesham and bought some broccoli and liquorice and paid at the self-service tills (receipt says 09:59) because all of the regular checkouts were full. There was a security guard at the security desk by the main doors on entrance to the store and possibly the same guy was there on exit (small slight man wearing a dark grey jumper).

I returned down the High Street, Red Lion Street and up Punch Bowl Lane and along The Backs as I wanted to smoke a cigarette that I made before I left the house. I forgot to mention it but I went out along The Backs too and down Punch Bowl Lane so I took the same route both ways today.

12:49 My groin area is currently warm but not too warm; it's at the level that it normally starts the day at. I'm really confused now with my blood test results. It doesn't answer everything and now I'm puzzled.

00:05 My groin area is currently body temperature and a tiny fraction warmer. I didn't go out on my bicycle today after what my doctor said and of course I didn't experience the usual discomfort that I quite often do from the saddle and I've had good urine flow tonight on two occasions that I noted. I do enjoy cycling because it keeps me fit so I'm going to have to find a special saddle to accommodate my tender parts.

Sep 3 2016

14:42 I had a full shower earlier. My groin area was warm and then I did some sit-ups and some weights and it's currently body temperature to warm. The weather is dull today and it's rained a little and I want to give my cycling a rest for a while and I might jog down the town but I'm currently undecided about that.

15:06 I'm just off out and I don't really need anything in Sainsbury's Chesham but there is something that I'd like to stock-up on from somewhere so I'll have a jog along The Backs to get some exercise. I've just heard a police car going into town with sirens blaring as I was preparing to go out -- I'm just noting it because it is quite common. My groin area is currently body temperature to warm and my urine flow was fine when I last went a few minutes ago.

15:20 Oh well, it rained as I opened the front door so trip out cancelled.

I've just made my eleventh monthly £5 payment to Wright Hassall using the website.

20:58 Today at about 16:00 I actually felt like masturbating and I did so and I enjoyed it for a change rather than doing it solely in an attempt to maintain an equilibrium in my system which doesn't appear to be working anywhere near as well as it used to. I've got this warmth in my groin area and I was interested to see what effect it would have on that and I wanted to see what state my prostate fluid was in and my prostate fluid was fine and it didn't feel as though there was any obstruction. Not long afterwards I felt like I could go again as though once wasn't enough so I did it again at about 18:30 and it was quite restricted on this occasion but I realised that doing it the second time had done the trick. I've had good urine flow but the warmth is still present in my groin area and I would really like to know what that is. To me this enjoyable relief and experiment today was good but it's certainly not easy when you know that you're being watched and god knows what I'll be subjected to tomorrow if I go out.

00:05 As usual my groin area temperature is fluctuating but it was quite cool possibly around 22:30 but it's currently body temperature to warm. It'll be interesting to see if I have a massive inflammation tomorrow.

Sep 4 2016

11:03 I've just finished grooming in the bathroom and I had a half shower. My groin area is currently body temperature to warm (a thermometer would be more scientific but where would I put it) and that's good I think because I haven't experienced the severe inflammation to my entire groin area after the events of yesterday.

13:12 I'm just getting ready to go out and the weather is overcast, cool and windy so it'll just be a walk into town. Funny, I was thinking that I haven't heard emergency vehicle sirens yet and then I just heard one going into town.

My groin area is currently warm.

19:17 I've had a tightness or a soreness in my urethra today and I still have it now after having just urinated but my groin area is currently body temperature so I'm not currently experiencing any severe inflammation. I did go out today which I've yet to document and I recorded that my groin area was warm before I left the house and it was the same when I got home and it remained that way and then I fell asleep in my bed watching an ancient Egypt documentary and when I awoke it'd reduced to body temperature. I took some Ibuprofen tablets this morning and plenty of water but I've not taken any more since then.

19:36 I've just come in from having a cigarette and the soreness in my urethra was quite apparent and I am starting to get a bit of a headache so I took some more Ibuprofen tablets.

22:33 My groin area is currently body temperature and I'm not feeling any discomfort. I'm really paranoid at the moment about facing out of the house so that my attackers can see me with their thermal imaging cameras especially before going to the toilet and immediately afterwards. I did report on Sunday Aug 28 2016 that I was walking backwards into rooms so that I don't face the windows and I did it yesterday and I've continued doing it today and it does make me feel more relaxed. I spend so much time wondering if my groin area is too warm or if the blood flow in my penis is too high (I can't quantify "too") for my attackers to use it against me when I next venture out. There is another and possibly the best reason to totally obscure my groin area within the house which would be worth investigating: it would dramatically reduce the amount of time spent thinking about my penis which I do think is a psychological trick of my attackers. They constantly want me to be thinking about my penis; I don't want to be constantly thinking about my penis!

23:47 I need to document my trip out: I walked along The Backs and I passed a hooded young man coming towards me just past Springfield Road and a couple of boys coming towards me further along and a young couple coming towards me going over the bridge. I walked down Punch Bowl Lane because I wanted to deposit some waste paper and card into the recycle centre but again I forgot until I'd reached the centre of the town and I had to walk back down through the car parks.

After depositing the waste paper and card I walked up to Sainsbury's Chesham through their car park and entered the store and there were no security guards to be seen on entrance. Firstly I got a can of Basics chicken curry which is basically a can of vegetable curry with a couple of tiny pieces of reformed chicken and I got a bar of white chocolate and I walked over towards the cigarette counter because I wanted some cigarette papers and as I walked across the store entrance a tall large man wearing a white shirt walked across my path very closely from right to left and I'm pretty sure that it was a security guard but it was a very brief moment so I can't be certain. I'm guessing that he was meant to be intimidatory and if that was the case then I didn't feel that. I paid for my items at the cigarette counter (receipt says 13:46) and left the store and I didn't see anybody at the security desk on exit. The store was very busy with all ages of people and I'd already noticed a couple of stalls in the High Street and some musical event was going on in Lowndes Park and outside Sainsbury's Chesham next to the mirrored windows were a group of kids and a girl side-on wearing black leggings that I detected in my peripheral vision as I left the store so it could very well be the case that that group were put there by my attackers and I am expecting that they were.

I returned down the High Street, Red Lion Street, Waterside, Gordon Road and Springfield Road. When I got home a noisy civilian helicopter flew over the house as I entered the front door and my mother mentioned it and I said that it's not a police helicopter because I make jokes about it and it amuses both of us but obviously it means more to me than it does her. At some point in the afternoon towards the early evening when I was sitting on my bed playing GTA Online on my PS3 I heard a helicopter approach that sounded like the model that the police use and it hung about briefly and then went away -- it did go through my mind that maybe it was there for me but I'm just recording thoughts and how I feel.

00:40 My groin area is currently body temperature and I'm getting into bed.

Sep 5 2016

11:23 I had a half shower this morning. I've got some laundry in the washing machine and I've some bread dough and it's currently proving. My groin area is currently just above body temperature and when I got out of the shower earlier it was a little cooler than body temperature and I don't have the water hot because I've got eczema so there's definitely a relaxing and calming effect of the warm shower water that benefits my waterworks. It's a shame we don't have a bath anymore as it was removed to install a wet room because I don't need to explain that soaking in a warm bath really makes you feel well.

As I'd just started to write the above an emergency vehicle came flying up the hill with sirens blaring and then a little while afterwards I could hear another one down in the town somewhere.

12:03 For the record after I'd showered I applied some Savlon to my groin area for my eczema and I had the mildest of firming when doing so and it was very minor and I don't feel sexual and from previous experience my attackers use this against me when I go out and I am currently wondering if the emergency vehicle with sirens flying up the hill was meant to terrorise me into not going out. I am going out after my bread has been baked because I need some supplies so we'll see what happens.

13:32 My groin area is currently body temperature to warm. I recently urinated and it was a little darker than normal and it did leave me with a little irritation as a result but otherwise everything's fine. I'm off out now and I'm really interested to see what I'll experience.

16:45 Well my trip out was rather interesting and it could be that my attackers have warned every possible shop that I might visit!

I walked along The Backs and passed a large woman who could've been wearing a nurses top who was coming towards me on approach to the bridge. Futher along I passed a man wearing a smart blue shirt carrying a carrier bag coming towards me and after him was a man wearing a suit also carrying a carrier bag. I walked down Station Road and checked my bank balance using my bank's cashpoint machine and then continued up to Sainsbury's Chesham and a Pakistani/Indian man shorter than me came through the foyer across my path and was muttering something but there was nobody else with him and he wasn't noticeably using a mobile phone. There was no security guard at the security desk by the main doors on entrance and I bought some milk, crisps, nuts and raisins and sweetcorn and made my way down the alcohol isle so that I would come out near the rightmost regular checkout and then I could walk along and find a suitable checkout and I didn't have to travel very far because there was one with somebody who was almost finished and I could see that a few checkouts along there was a group of blue Sainsbury's uniform wearing women standing at the end of an isle facing the checkouts. The regular checkout that I chose was occupied by an older man and a large lady was serving and a woman came in behind me after a while and I paid for my items (receipt says 14:01) and made my way to the exit and there was now a security guard at the security desk by the main doors and he was standing behind his monitor but was just looking around and he looked at me as I passed him.

From Sainsbury's Chesham I walked down the High Street and into Boots and immediately in front of me up an isle were two women possibly wearing black leggings/jogging trousers facing towards the right at the shelf but at the time I didn't think anything of them but I did notice that they were quiet and not moving. I picked up some Wright's Coal Tar Soap and made my way towards the front of the shop and the only person who looked as though he might be serving was a man at the perfume counter messing about with a collection of stuff on the counter top and I said "Can I pay for this here?" and he said "You may" rather slowly and drawn out. There wasn't anything particularly bad about the way he served me it was just that he seemed to be rather nonchalant. I paid for my item (receipt says 14:05) and I left the store and walked down the High Street, Red Lion Street, Waterside, Gordon Road and Springfield Road.

So let's list the odd things and then you can see why I think that both Sainsbury's Chesham and Boots Chesham were both ready for my arrival: muttering Pakistani/Indian man crossing my path in Sainsbury's Chesham foyer as I entered who was dressed as though he could've been a security guard (dark grey top) who could've been saying something to somebody else about my arrival, group of female staff members standing at the head of the regular checkouts possibly half way along, security guard at the security desk by the main doors looking at me as I passed, two still and quiet black leggings/jogging trousers wearing women in Boots Chesham, nonchalant behaviour from the man at the till. I should point out that the Boots Chesham visit was a random passing visit and there was no way that my attackers could've known that I was going there which means that every shop that I normally visit could've been awaiting my possible arrival and may have agents/detectives located within them.

So why would my attackers do this? Because I'm walking around my house so that I don't face out of it preventing them from getting surveillance using their thermal imaging equipment pointed at my groin.

I've only got to wait now until I see the specialist that my doctor is sending me to see.

19:17 I've just urinated and the flow is good and my groin area is currently body temperature to warm.

I forgot to mention that the emergency vehicle with sirens blaring that I noted this morning was meant to send me a message about what I should expect today.

22:41 An emergency vehicle with flashing lights came up the hill at speed at 22:39 which sounded like a car and another with flashing lights at 22:41 which sounded like a van -- no sirens. I'm taking it to be a messsage to me but I've no idea what it means -- I've not done anything today that I need concern myself about.

22:54 I did mention that my attackers were out in force today because in my opinion they aren't particularly thrilled with my home window avoidance but I did actually state this morning that I had "the mildest of firming" in my groin area when I applied Savlon after showering and I ignored it as a reason for their behaviour because it's just so incredibly insignificant and petit but it could be that that's why the women in black leggings/jogging trousers were in Boots Chesham. I didn't notice anybody like that in Sainsbury's Chesham but there could've been and I simply didn't detect them. I am currently wondering if my attackers regularly lie in wait for me in other stores that I frequent and because I didn't go in them I've never discovered this before.

00:00 Well that's the end of another exciting day and I look forward to the next one. My groin area is currently body temperature and my urine flow was good when I went a short while ago.

Sep 6 2016

11:37 I didn't have any type of shower today because if I go out then I'll be interested to see what happens -- I want to remove the mildest of firming element when applying Savlon to my groin area to see how that changes things.

My groin area is currently body temperature to warm. I've just urinated and the flow was fine but this morning I had to get up after 04:00 and it was very restricted and then I went again somewhere after 08:00 which was better. I haven't ridden my bicycle since Thursday Sep 1 2016 and I don't sit on a chair at home (I recline on my bed) and something is irritating my urethra/bladder/waterworks. The temperature of my groin area fluctuates and the flow of my waterworks fluctuates.

13:59 I'm off out for a walk into town. My groin area is currently body temperature to warm.

17:26 I've got to document my trip out yet but my groin area is currently body temperature to warm so it hasn't changed for a while and my last urine flow was pretty good.

19:02 I've just urinated and the flow is good and my groin area is currently body temperature and a little bit cooler in fact.

23:32 I went out today for a walk into town to get some exercise and to get some Savlon. I walked along the end of our street and a young man walked right between some houses and a young woman with a dog continued on ahead in the same direction as me (I got the impression that they were together and that they seperated). I caught up with the young woman who was wearing blue jean shorts and her dog was muzzled and she let me pass because she heard me approaching as I was being noisy with my shoes so that she knew that I was there. I passed her and said "Thank you" and just a little way ahead were a couple of women wearing what looked like nurses tops and maybe they were carers or something. I followed them down the steps to Springfield Road and they went down the hill and I went across it into The Backs. On approach to Hospital Hill I could see in the distance a young woman shorter than me with something like a bag or jumper or jacket around her waist and I caught up with her just after Hospital Hill and I said "Excuse me, can I squeeze through there please as I'm in a hurry" and she let me pass and I said "Thank you" and she said "Thanks" shortly after -- when I passed her I felt as though she was older than I initially thought. I passed some more people along there who were all coming towards me but I can't remember anything about them or how many there were as I was smoking a cigarette and walking fast and looking down and in thought. There were a lot of people along there though right from the end of my street and that is extremely rare.

I walked down Station Road and into the High Street and I withdrew some money from my bank account using my bank's cashpoint machine and then I continued up and a man with a fluorescent jacket was heading into Sainsbury's Chesham ahead of me and I'm pretty sure that I'd already seen someone wearing a fluorescent jacket in the town and I very briefly heard a guy on my right in the High Street say something to somebody about "security". As I approached Sainsbury's Chesham with the man in fluorescent jacket already in the foyer I noticed that there was an African man wearing a fluorescent jacket sitting on a concrete pillar outside the main door that serves the car park and I took him to be a security guard. On entrance to the store there were no security guards to be seen and I went straight to the medicinal isle and there wasn't any Savlon in the big 100g tube but I needed to stock-up on some Ibuprofen tablets so I picked up a couple of packets of those and then made my way back down the isle towards the checkouts and there wasn't any obvious regular checkout that I could walk straight into and I could see that the self-service area wasn't busy so I went there and there were a couple of women with small children occupying tills on either side and I think there was a man a couple of tills further along at the end from the till that I chose. I paid for my items (receipt says 14:21) and left the store and there were no security guards to be seen on exit and the African man wearing a fluorescent jacket was still sitting on the concrete pillar and he looked in my direction as I passed but I'd say not exclusively at me but rather around which included me and I passed him slowly to see if I could detect anything else but I didn't. I don't look at people directly and I detect everything through my peripheral vision and I did get the impression that the store was full of people of all ages today.

I returned down the High Street, Red Lion Street, Waterside, Gordon Road and Springfield Road and there were quite a lot of people about on the return trip. An interesting day, interesting fluorescent jackets and an interesting amount of people -- not much else I can say.

Sep 7 2016

11:09 My groin area is currently body temperature at the most. I had a full shower this morning and I didn't apply Savlon to my groin area because I didn't want to risk causing the mildest of firming in my penis otherwise my attackers will be all over me and warning the entire area of things that could be. Now, I have just experienced a small amount of prostate fluid leaking out and I put that down to the large stool that I passed prior to entering the shower and simply the relaxing stress reducing warm water from the shower. It's not the result of anything sexual, I don't feel like that.

It's currently really hot and humid and overcast and I'd really like to be able to wash my bedding. I would actually like a bicycle ride today so I may do that and I need some supplies from Sainsbury's Chesham.

On the events of yesterday with the fluorescent jacketed men around Sainsbury's Chesham and the High Street: I feel as though this is another of those experiences whereby my attackers subject me to some devilishly wicked things and then say look everybody, that man could explode and then that's why I detect these things. I've mentioned this many times before: they're trying to make me explode and I keep being reminded of that. I won't ever explode, it's just not me, I offload everything through writing and exercise and by the time the day is over I'm finished with it and it's been dealt with and the next day starts afresh. I also feel as though they're trying to stop me from going out, trying to imprison me in my home by making it uncomfortable for me to leave it. They're getting at me indirectly by getting at people around me.

13:04 My groin area is currently body temperature to warm and I'm off out on my bicycle to experience another interesting day.

14:37 I've been out and been back for a while now and it was interesting and I'll document it later. My groin area is currently body temperature and cool in places and I do have some discomfort in my underneath area at the moment which is common and I am aware of it.

14:50 I've just come in from having a cigarette in the back garden and the pain I'm experiencing is somewhere at the base of the penis underneath and it's nagging at the moment. I've just taken some Ibuprofen tablets and plenty of water.

16:48 My groin area is currently body temperature to cool and I still have that nagging pain from my bicycle saddle.

17:54 My trip out then: I rode down Pheasant Rise, Moor Road, Amy Lane, Germain Street, St Mary's Way and into Sainsbury's Chesham car park and locked my bicycle against the side of the trolley point. I walked into the store and there were no security guards to be seen on entrance. I walked directly to the isle containing shampoo as I ran out a couple of days ago and I forgot to get some and I turned into the bottom of the isle and there were two shorter than me female members of staff chatting and behind them was a tall big woman wearing black leggings/jogging trousers (I'm guessing by her waist height) bending over in my direction into the shelves on the right of the isle and as usual I look up and high so I detected all of this through my peripheral vision and it's a good thing that I do that because the entire situation there was suspicious.

I said to the female members of staff "Excuse me, can I squeeze through there please" and the one on the left said something like "Certainly" or "Yeah sure" and I passed the leftmost one on the left up against the side of the isle and I was immediately confronted by an empty shopping trolley blocking the route and the available routes were to the right past the woman bending over (not an option!) and to the left of the shopping trolley through an almost nonexistent gap so I wisely chose the left and moved the shopping trolley rightwards a fraction and squeezed through. I reached the shampoo and the one that I wanted I'd passed so I walked backwards until I'd reached it and I picked it up and I was going to see if they've now got some 100g Savlon on the right of the isle (I'd realised that it was the the same isle with the Savlon and Ibuprofen tablets) but I chose not too because I'd say that the woman bending over was sort of just down from where the Savlon would be possibly where the Ibuprofen tablets are located so I walked through and out of the isle and went to get some liquorice and that's all I wanted. I can't remember which isle I walked down to reach the checkouts but I think I just walked directly down from the confectionery isle and there was a regular checkout with somebody that had almost finished and I stood there and then it was closed as the lady member of staff was leaving the checkout. I paid for my items (13:26) and walked towards the exit and a security guard wearing a dark grey jumper was now stationed at the security desk by the main doors and he was leaning with arms out over the monitor and looking around in the direction that I was coming from and other places.

I'll explain now what was going on: that isle blocking and woman bending over situation was staged and they were attempting to channel me through a gap between a shopping trolley and a woman bending over in black leggings/jogging trousers and I wisely took a different safe route. The security guard appearing at the security desk by the main doors and casually leaning over his monitor and looking in my direction was done deliberately so there was a staged event in Sainsbury's Chesham today.

I rode my bicycle out of the car park and down St Mary's Way and into Water Meadow car park to the path by the river and out to Wey Lane and into Pednor. Along the bottom I passed a tall man jogging coming towards me wearing white trainers and a green top and I think that was it. Along the top there were more people and I think the first was a tall man and a shorter woman walking on the right in the same direction that I was travelling, there were then a couple of women dressed suitably for jogging or walking coming towards me on the left and I think that there was another couple of women coming towards me that were older and normally dressed but I can't remembr exactly and I look down at my front wheel as I pass people so that most of them is blocked out of my vision. There was one more person which was a woman wearing black with what seemed to be a jacket possibly around her waist chatting on a mobile phone coming towards me on the left and I saw her in the distance so I can describe her better, the others I think were obscured by winding roads.

I returned down Wey Lane, the path by the river, across Germain Street, Amy Lane, Moor Road and up Trapp's Lane. It was overcast when I went out and humid and now the Sun's been out for a few hours it's extremely warm in my room as I'm writing this -- I had to go and wet my hair to help me cool down. So, another interesting day documented until tomorrow.

I just want to note something that I did in my room this morning after showering: I have developed now a patch of dry skin at the top of what Morrissey amusingly calls my "rear cleavage" so I applied some clotrimazole cream to it to prevent it from getting worse and it does successfully work and I quite often apply Savlon just because it's not necessary to use clotrimazole all of the time. I just wanted to note that just in case it was important. I will do it again tomorrow and note what happens in Sainsbury's Chesham to see if it has an effect.

20:08 My underneath is really hurting still. My groin area is currently body temperature to warm.

00:17 I want to note about the Sainsbury's Chesham event that I experienced today (actually yesterday now) that the two female members of staff were obscuring the woman in black leggings/jogging trousers because my attackers know that I could've and possibly would've turned around and left if I'd have detected her on her own. Maybe they weren't real members of staff but were in fact agents/detectives dressed in Sainsbury's uniforms.

My groin area is currently body temperature to cool and the pain that I was experiencing has gone now. Until I get a more suitable bicycle saddle I'll alternate between cycling and walking/jogging.

OK, another exciting day over and recorded, roll on tomorrow. I must remember to duplicate what I did this morning to see if I can invoke the bending over woman in black leggings/jogging trousers.

Sep 8 2016

11:07 OK, operation duplicate yesterday. I went to the toilet and passed a stool which was a reduced quantity to that of yesterday. I took a full shower which I wouldn't normally do on consecutive days but I want to duplicate my routine from yesterday. I did the same thing in the shower as I did yesterday and which I have done several times recently in that I hold the shower head against my bladder and enjoy the relaxing soothing effects of the warm water and as I have mentioned before, it can result in a little dribble of urine which is good because it tells me that I'm freeing up a little. I got out of the shower and didn't apply Savlon to my groin area because I didn't want to develop the mildest of firming in my penis. In my bedroom I first did some stretching exercises such as reaching up to the ceiling which I can sometimes reach and bending over and touching the floor. I then applied some clotrimazole to the eczema patch towards the top of my rear cleavage. Yesterday I mentioned that I experienced a small amount of prostate fluid leaking out at this point and I did today but it was much smaller, just a tiny blob and I could guess that it's because the stool that I passed was reduced in quantity to that of yesterday. Just like yesterday I don't feel sexual. My groin area is currently a fraction warmer than body temperature.

I am now primed ready for a trip to Sainsbury's Chesham and I shall take the same route through the store as I did yesterday. Isn't this fun! I'm currently washing my bedding and I want to get that out on the line.

13:02 My groin area is currently a fraction warmer than body temperature and I'm preparing to go out.

14:00 I've been out and been back for a short while. My groin area is currently slightly cooler than body temperature.

16:51 My groin area is currently body temperature. I've just urinated and it was a little irritating for some reason and it's currently made my urethra a bit sore but I'll drink some more water and flush it through. I usually have some more Ibuprofen tablets in the late afternoon and I haven't taken them yet and actually I haven't drunk so much water as I normally do either.

00:05 I should document my mildly interesting trip out before I go to bed: I rode down Pheasant Rise, Moor Road, Amy Lane, Germain Street and up St Mary's Way and into Sainsbury's Chesham car park and I locked my bicycle against the side of the trolley point, the exact same route as I took yesterday and at almost the same time. As I walked into the foyer a security guard in white shirt came in behind me from outside the store to the left of the doors possibly somewhere near the cashpoint machine. I picked up a basket from inside the foyer and I took my time so that the security guard would pass me and he stood in the left of the doorway next to the security desk and another security guard who was manning the security desk spoke to him.

I walked directly to the medicinal isle just like yesterday and it was empty and I continued up to the confectionery isle which I can't remember much about so it was unnoteworthy and I didn't want anything from either of those isles, I wanted some granola which is up and to the right of the confectionery isle. The granola that I normally buy had run out so I chose another one for a change and I walked back down the confectionery isle and straight down towards the checkouts and on my way I saw the white shirted security guard talking with a male member of staff and they both looked in my direction as I approached and paused with their chatting and then resumed. The route that I took through the store was exactly the same as yesterday except that today I picked up some granola and I wanted some tobacco so I didn't visit a regular checkout, I walked past the checkouts and joined the queue at the cigarette counter. I bought some tobacco and paid for everything there (receipt says 13:24, just two minutes earlier than yesterday) and I asked the female member of staff for a receipt which she gave me and then I heard a woman behind me say "Got your receipt" and I turned to my right to exit from that location and I got a glimpse of the woman in the corner of my right eye and she was tall and big and wearing a colourful top and possibly wearing shorts and they weren't a dark colour. The cigarette counter is also the customer services counter but there was another female member of staff on the right that looked as though she was dealing with that sort of thing so the woman saying "Got your receipt" could've been talking to somebody next to her. I personally get a receipt because it's a timestamped record of my visit and I sit here at my desk writing this material and the receipt closes the record for the day -- it's put on a pile and it's done with so that woman could've been an agent/detective and in fact could've been the big tall woman herself and she may have been mocking me. If she was an agent/detective then perhaps something was going on in the store and I missed it or maybe they weren't expecting me to visit the cigarette counter and had planned something for a regular checkout. I exited the store from the cigarette counter and I couldn't detect anybody at the security desk by the main doors because of the angle. I returned to my bicycle and an older woman shorter than me wearing jeans and maybe a red/black top walked in front of me from my left and she walked past my bicycle and she was playing around with a mobile phone. That's the first time that I've experienced somebody walking through that location since I've been locking my bicycle there.

I walked down the High Street and got on my bicycle at Red Lion Street and rode down Red Lion Street, Waterside and up Trapp's Lane.

Sep 9 2016

12:54 My groin area is currently warm. Earlier today I didn't shower, I first passed a stool and then I washed my hair in the sink and I strip washed my groin area but I didn't apply Savlon because I didn't want to develop the mildest of firming in my penis. I then did some push-ups and again I experienced the tiniest of blobs of prostate fluid leaking from my penis which I put down to passing the stool -- it's not sexual related. There's nothing uncommon about this in my life but I've never been so aware of it or needed to document it. I then did some stretching exercises and some weights and I've made some bread and I'm doing some laundry.

13:04 I'm just preparing to take a walk into town -- I could do with some more 100g Savlon if I can find it.

17:49 My groin area is currently body temperature to warm.

19:30 My groin area is currently body temperature and I've just urinated and the flow was OK.

20:31 My trip out today was uneventful and actually quite useful because it'll help me to identify what it was that invoked the big tall woman in black legging/jogging trousers bending over situation in Sainsbury's Chesham on Wednesday Sep 7 2016 and the situation yesterday Thursday Sep 8 2016 with security all over me.

I walked along our street and passed a woman who was walking towards me. As I reached the end of our street a man came down the path on the right and went in the direction that I was heading so I didn't walk as fast as I normally do to enable him to walk ahead and to create a nice distance between us. As I walked down the steps towards Springfield Road I detected that somebody was waiting for me to pass the overgrown weeds and when I reached them I looked at their face and said "Thanks" and it was a woman dressed for jogging wearing headphones but she didn't look at me and likely didn't hear me either. I walked along The Backs and I don't remember seeing anybody else and the man that I'd mentioned was ahead of me and pulling away from me and I think that he went down Jacob's Ladder (I didn't see him go anywhere, he just disappeared between Punch Bowl Lane and Jacob's Ladder).

I walked down Station Road and into the High Street and into Nationwide to deposit some pocket money that my mother gave me today and there was a big queue so after half a minute I decided to leave and return later and I walked up to Sainsbury's Chesham and on entrance to the store's foyer I could see two security guards at the security desk by the main doors looking in my direction when normally they look into the store and can be seen side-on. I walked directly to the medicinal isle to see if there was any 100g Savlon and there wasn't so I picked up a packet of Ibuprofen tablets whilst I was there and then made my way to the biscuits and chocolate isle and got some chocolate. From there I walked all the way along the back of the store to the burgers and got a packet of those and then made my way directly to the cigarette counter to buy some more tobacco that my mother treated me to and I paid for everything there (receipt says 13:34). I exited the door by the security desk and I think that there was one security guard there but I can't exactly remember now, I just don't remember there being none.

I walked down the High Street and into Nationwide and there was only one person there so I made the right decision about coming back. I deposited my pocket money into my account (receipt says 13:37) and left the premises and walked across the road to Boots Chesham to buy some Savlon and I bought two 100g Savlon tubes with the second at half price which was a nice bargain. I paid at the perfume counter (receipt says 13:42 served by CHLOE) and left the store and walked down the High Street, Red Lion Street, Waterside, Gordon Road and Springfield Road.

So it was quite an uneventful day and other than the Sainsbury's Chesham security guards looking in my direction as I entered the store I didn't detect anything else from anywhere. I know what was different about today and I can test this some more but I think that I'll leave it until next week because I'm going to have a break over the weekend.

Sep 10 2016

10:04 I've just got out of the shower and I took a full shower today. Following that in my room I applied clotrimazole to the eczema patch on/in my rear cleavage. My groin area is currently body temperature. It's wet weather today and I'm not going out anyway. I'm just going down to get some breakfast.

10:30 Burger and an egg on toast -- lovely!

21:11 My groin area is currently warm to very warm and it's been like since I last wrote in here -- there's a reason for that and I'll record it later as I'm going to get some granola and a coffee.

22:28 My groin area temperature has now reduced to a much more comfortable body temperature to warm.

23:58 My groin area is currently body temperature to warm and it was actually cooler than that but I've just urinated, washed my groin area and applied Savlon and it's warmed a little since.

I'm now going to document what I did today: ...

Very personal information originally recorded here has been moved to my Very Personal Diary.

I haven't heard a peep from my attackers about what I've just documented above and I have thought about this this evening. I was think that what they've been subjecting me to is sex drive relief denial in combination with sex drive elevation. I used the term sex drive (libido) which is defined as a desire for sex but I don't desire it, I don't want it and I'd rather it wasn't there at all and so I prefer the term sexual sensitivity but I don't think that there's anything formal about that but it correctly describes my situation and my experience. Maybe my attackers have finished with their sexual sensitivity relief denial at least for the moment, who knows.

Sep 11 2016

12:41 My groin area is currently a fraction warmer than body temperature which is great. I washed my groin area and applied Savlon to it and my rear cleavage before I went to bed so I didn't do that in the bathroom this morning and therefore only needed to use the shower head to wash my hair. Afterwards I did some stretching exercises and made some breakfast and that's it so far today. The sun is currently shining and it's warmish but I don't know if I'll go out today yet, I might leave it until tomorrow.

13:31 I went out for a cigarette maybe 15 minutes ago and before that I passed a stool and I've just experienced a tiny blob of prostate fluid leakage which is common and I was wondering if it would happen today after releasing so much of it yesterday and it did. I'm not going to go out today as I don't want any residual sexual sensitivity to be manipulated by my attackers.

17:49 My groin area is currently body temperature. I've just urinated and the flow is a bit restricted.

20:32 My groin area is currently warm.

21:22 I took some Ibuprofen tablets this morning but I forgot to take them this afternoon which I would normally do and that was a mistake so I've just taken some.

23:06 Wow, my groin area is currently cool! It must've been the Ibuprofen tablets that I took an hour and a half ago that have done that.

00:08 I've just been to the bathroom before going to bed and I've washed my groin area and applied clotrimazole to the eczema patch on/in my rear cleavage and my groin area is currently body temperature. I'm looking forward to documenting what happens tomorrow because all I'll be doing when I get up is washing my hair.

Sep 12 2016

10:18 I've just finished in the bathroom and I washed my hair in the sink with the shower head. My groin area is currently body temperature to warm and I've taken some Ibuprofen tablets and I'm just going to make some breakfast.

11:55 I've just had a shave as I plan to go out today and I passed a stool and I haven't experienced any prostate fluid leakage as a result yet and my groin area is currently body temperature to warm.

12:43 I'm ready to go out for a walk into town now to get some milk and other things. I've just urinated to void my bladder as much as possible and it hurt a little bit somewhere down in my bladder and urethra. My groin area is currently warm.

16:35 My groin area is currently body temperature. I've just taken some more Ibuprofen tablets.

16:37 I went out today and I walked along The Backs and passed a group of Pakistani/Indian kids playing on bikes and scooters just after crossing Springfield Road. Further along I think I passed a woman who was coming towards me and then just before Punch Bowl Lane I passed a Pakistani/Indian man wearing a white shirt holding a carrier bag who was coming towards me and I think that I've seen him before when I waited for him to pass some overgrown vegetation near the steps on approach to Springfield Road and he said "Thank you sir" (Sunday Aug 28 2016). The remainder of The Backs was empty and I walked down Station Road and into the High Street and up to Sainsbury's Chesham and on entrance to the store there were no security guards to be seen. I walked directly to the medicinal isle and picked up some toothpaste at the start of the isle, got some milk for myself and then picked up The Telegraph for my mother and paid for everything at the cigarette counter (receipt says 13:07). I left the store and no security guards were to be seen on exit and I didn't notice them anywhere within the store at all.

I returned down the High Street, Red Lion Street, Waterside where the Pakistani/Indian kids that I'd seen earlier were now hanging around the path on the right of the road not too far up from the newsagent (I think they've got some time off for Eid because I think that there were some more in the town) and I walked up Gordon Road and Springfield Road which was quiet. I chatted to my old friend Colin's mother Christine who was mowing her lawn along the end of my street and she's doing well and she asked after my parents.

Nothing to report for today so I did something right. I did say that I wanted to resume my tests tomorrow and attempt to invoke the big tall woman bending over in her black leggings/jogging trousers but I don't know if I want to do that at this moment in time because I quite enjoyed the peace today and I'd like see if I can experience it tomorrow as well. I can tell you now what I think made her appear: I applied clotrimazole to the eczema patch on/in my rear cleavage in my bedroom after having a shower and I did it with my back facing out of my room and I would've been watched doing it (Wednesday Sep 7 2016 and Thursday Sep 8 2016). It's either that or the stretching exercises that I did because I did those before I'd got dressed so take your pick or choose both. I