Simon Constable of Chesham's Diary: Very Personal

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Conditioning, sensitising, manipulation, automatic attention grabbing by subliminal spatial cues, framing.

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Contents

2014

March

April

May

June

July

August

October

November

December

2015

January

February

March

May

June

July

August

September

October

November

December

2016

January

February

April

May

June

July

August

October

November

Last updated: Tue Jan 17 20:19:34 GMT 2017

The date format used throughout this document is MMM D YYYY with a couple of examples being "Feb 27 2013" and "May 5 2013".

2014

March

Mar 11 2014


Notes:

The following was written on Aug 10 2015:

WARNING: VERY PERSONAL
On a Tuesday my parents go to the stroke club so that's when I shower. I've got a dodgy prostate gland which swells and restricts my urethra and I masturbate on this day too. This has been my day for years, it's how I maintain my body and it fulfills my needs. I'm not in a position to have a sexual partner and I don't need one. My Tuesday personal grooming/body maintenance day suffices and I'm done with for the majority of the time until the next Tuesday comes around.


April

Apr 21 2014

WARNING: VERY PERSONAL
I've had prostate problems since Saturday Apr 19 2014 night which manifests itself as a build-up of fluid and a throbbing/pumping with a gradual release of fluid. The best way to deal with it is to masturbate but I know that I'm being continously watched so I mostly do it when I have a shower but I haven't showered for more than a week. I need to do it but I'm scared to because I know that everything I do is being monitored and my monitors will use it against me. I'm recording this because the throbbing/pumping can enlarge the penis and can be arousing which is easily detectable with the right equipment. It's now 01:26 and the more I think about the police helicopter Sunday Apr 20 2014 evening the more I think it might be linked to this: the only other thing I've been doing is playing GTA Online with the general public and I intentionally have no PS3 friends or engage in conversation with players other than minimal mission/game related short in-game texts, and I spent most of the day playing on my own in a Solo Session anyway.

WARNING: VERY PERSONAL
I had a shower today and masturbated to release the pressure and it doesn't take long to feel the benefits of this. It still doesn't feel quite right down there though as everything is burning including my bladder but it's getting better since I drank plenty of water. I've just been to the toilet to brush my teeth, put Savlon on my eczemous face and urinate and it's definitely much better now. I used to do this every Tuesday which was my shower day and this was good for me but I detected that my monitors were attempting to work this into a set-up so I had to completely mess about with my routine to protect myself. I still need to document this.

May

May 1 2014

WARNING: VERY PERSONAL
I had a shower Wednesday Apr 30 2014 just gone and masturbated. Everything down there feels the best that it has for a long time -- I've been drinking extra fluids.

May 8 2014

WARNING: VERY PERSONAL
I had a shower Wednesday May 7 2014 just gone and masturbated.

May 16 2014

WARNING: VERY PERSONAL
Thursday May 15 2014 just gone around 14:30 I trimmed my hair as I grew it over the cooler months and I also trimmed my body hair because I have eczema and it's getting a bit out of control in my groin and chest. At the moment I'm using Savlon but I have Clotrimazole anti-fungal cream for the worst bits which I mostly use on my face. After trimming my hair I had a shower around 15:30 and I masturbated. My scrotum is burning hot from a big red patch of eczemous skin which obviously I couldn't see before. In the past doing strenuous exercise like cycling benefited my skin because of the salt in the sweat but I'm hardly going out now.

May 23 2014

Tuesday May 20 2014:
WARNING: VERY PERSONAL
I had a shower around 13:00 and masturbated.

Thursday May 22 2014:
WARNING: VERY PERSONAL
I masturbated in the early part of the afternoon in the toilet. My bladder and prostate are in the best condition they have been for a long time. Because I've been cycling I've been drinking more water with squash on my return home which flushes the bladder through and it's a very good thing to do at least for me. I have recorded that I trimmed my body hair and my eczemous skin is also greatly improved so I've got no problems in my groin area at this time.

May 26 2014

Saturday May 24 2014:
WARNING: VERY PERSONAL
I had a strip wash around 14:00 and masturbated.

June

Jun 3 2014

Sunday Jun 1 2014:
WARNING: VERY PERSONAL
I had a shower in the early afternoon and masturbated. The ezcema on my chest had become quite bad but as usual I apply Savlon to my chest, back and groin after showering.

Jun 7 2014

Friday Jun 6 2014:
WARNING: VERY PERSONAL
I had a shower in the early afternoon and masturbated.

Jun 11 2014

Monday Jun 9 2014:
WARNING: VERY PERSONAL
I had a shower in the early afternoon and masturbated. I also trimmed by body hair (groin and stomach) and I'll do my chest next time which will help clear-up the infected ezcemous patches that haven't quite gone yet. With the warmer weather, my trimmed body hair and intense sweating from my very energetic cycling my skin condition will be as good as it gets for the year.

Jun 13 2014

WARNING: VERY PERSONAL
I woke up about 08:00 and read my book "Mathematics: The New Golden Age" and then kept nodding off. About 09:30 I masturbated and then got up and had a strip wash for a change because I don't need to shower too often as my skin gets too dry. I can't remember the last time I masturbated in bed! For other people who aren't under the level of surveillance I am it's nothing noteworthy but for me it was quite brave.

Jun 22 2014

Friday Jun 20 2014:
WARNING: VERY PERSONAL
I had a shower in the early afternoon and masturbated.

Jun 26 2014

WARNING: VERY PERSONAL
I had a shower at 13:20 and masturbated. I wasn't actually sure if I was going to shower today but I chose to so that I can shave tomorrow and the ezcema on my chest needed some attention anyway.

Jun 30 2014

WARNING: VERY PERSONAL
I did something yesterday Sunday Jun 29 2014 before I went out and the only reason I though about it was because I've been thinking about the level of surveillance I'm under -- I went to the toilet (number two) and then noticed that my penis could do with a freshen-up so I washed it in the sink using the anti-bacterial soap. I'm recording this because I strip wash if necessary as I shower possibly every five days this time of the year which is enough otherwise I'll strip my back and shoulders of oils (I have ezcema).

July

Jul 8 2014

WARNING: VERY PERSONAL
I washed my face and hair, strip washed my crotch area and I washed my feet as I'm an excessive sweater.

WARNING: VERY PERSONAL
Thursday Jun 26 2014 was the last time I showered and the last time I strip washed my crotch area was last Saturday Jul 5 2014 morning which interestingly was the first day Lee-Anne came round to use the washing machine followed by her daughter later on to collect the laundry. I would have a shower but I'm not very comfortable with that at the moment (I think it's the surveillance). I'm not suggesting there's a link between me strip washing and Lee-Anne visiting but it is amazing how coincidences like this occur and I and my mother are both perplexed as to why Lee-Anne is even using our washing machine as her friend Dianne is a couple of houses along so why isn't she going there instead?

Jul 15 2014

WARNING: VERY PERSONAL
I've just got out of the shower and I masturbated as well which is the first time for both since Thursday Jun 26 2014 because I was scared to go in there. My ezcema isn't that bad because I have applied Savlon to it on a couple of occasions but my plumbing has suffered somewhat: my semen composition isn't right because of my dodgy prostate gland which makes it appear off colour and lumpy but masturbating/ejaculating once a week is enough to fix this. My urethra has also been a bit constricted so I'm expecting as usual that everything should be freeing up and getting back to normal now. Around 1997 I did go to the genito urinary clinic in High Wycombe using a false name and had a prostate examination and they did recommend to keep the pressure off of it.

Jul 23 2014

WARNING: VERY PERSONAL
I awoke about 08:00 this morning with morning glory and I was aroused which I'm not complaining about!

WARNING: VERY PERSONAL
I was thinking about having a shower and masturbating today but I decided against it because I was aroused when I awoke and because of all the people walking behind the house. I was suspicious that the people attacking me were brewing up something and I didn't particularly want a police helicopter hovering over my house to let me know that I've been set-up again.

WARNING: VERY PERSONAL
Last Tuesday Jul 15 2014 was the last time I showered and masturbated so I'm wondering if they were expecting me to do it today and were up to something.

Jul 24 2014

WARNING: VERY PERSONAL
I washed my crotch area this morning about 09:30. About 13:50 I had a shave, trimmed the hair on my chest and applied plenty of Savlon because of my ezcema.

Jul 26 2014

WARNING: VERY PERSONAL
This morning about 09:30 I got up and had a wash and changed my underwear and washed my crotch area since I'm going to get hot and sweaty on my bicycle today.

August

Aug 2 2014

Thursday Jul 31 2014:
WARNING: VERY PERSONAL
I had a shower about 13:10. Tuesday Jul 15 2014 was the last time I masturbated and what's happening at the moment is I'm getting prostate fluid leakage into my underpants, not a lot but it leaves a mark. Other things are restricted urine flow and after having a pooh I feel like I want to wee again but it's actually prostate fluid. These things go away if I ejaculate once a week but I'm scared to do it at the moment -- I was scared even to go into the shower but my eczema was getting bad so I needed to blast off the dead skin.

Aug 5 2014

WARNING: VERY PERSONAL
I masturbated today about 13:15 in bed and it hurt in a few places -- prostate gland and base of the bladder -- but I can already feel the benefits from the pressure drop. The last time was Tuesday Jul 15 2014 and before that it was Thursday Jun 26 2014 but I really need to resume doing this more often. I didn't shower today, I washed my crotch area and I shaved my face.

Aug 15 2014

WARNING: VERY PERSONAL
About 12:50 I masturbated in bed because my bladder was hurting very much and it was especially noticeable this morning since I didn't get a lot of sleep and I was just lying there with a terrible pain. By 14:00 it's much better. The last time I masturbated was Tuesday Aug 5 2014.

Wednesday Aug 13 2014:
WARNING: VERY PERSONAL
I spent the day playing a GTA Online solo session (me on my own as there was no internet bandwidth) at my desk and I was having irritation problems with my penis/prostrate which I've noted here before whereby it moves around and pumps which can cause an erection and I'm wondering if the helicopter on Thursday morning was giving me a message about that! It's happened before so I'm pretty certain they're linked.

October

Oct 5 2014

WARNING: VERY PERSONAL
I urinated a couple of minutes ago.

Oct 6 2014

WARNING: VERY PERSONAL
Whilst urinating I noticed that my penis could do with a wash but I'm scared to wash my groin area in the sink because my monitors/attackers appear to be attempting to link it to some external influence so once I'd finished urinating I wiped my penis with toilet tissue.

Sunday Oct 5 2014:
WARNING: VERY PERSONAL
Yesterday Sunday Oct 5 2014 was a test. Last week I didn't masturbate and neither did I wash my groin area in the sink and I wanted to see what affect this had on my Watford visit.

Oct 13 2014

Tuesday Sep 23 2014:
WARNING: VERY PERSONAL
I masturbated in bed in the early afternoon and there was some very loud helicopter activity going over my house at the time. I then took a shower.

Tuesday Sep 16 2014 to Thursday Sep 18 2014:
WARNING: VERY PERSONAL
I would've masturbated in bed and then showered between these dates and I think it was Thursday Sep 18 2014.

Tuesday Sep 9 2014 to Friday Sep 12 2014:
WARNING: VERY PERSONAL
I masturbated on Friday Sep 12 2014 but I didn't shower during this week. We had a lot of visitors so it messed up my usual routine somewhat.

Oct 15 2014

WARNING: VERY PERSONAL
Just to clarify here the last time I masturbated was Tuesday Sep 23 2014. My plumbing and prostrate gland are fine at the moment and I'm not being nagged by any irritation in that area so I'm going to continue not ejaculating for the time being.

Oct 30 2014

WARNING: VERY PERSONAL
When I went to the toilet at 20:30 I held a piece of toilet paper on the end of my penis to get what's called the tuppence, the last drop that sometimes doesn't come out until you've put yourself away and I do this when I have a number two. I don't know if I always do it but I know that I do it regularly. Also because of my dodgy prostate gland I can sometimes get a little prostate fluid presumably because of the pressure on my gland from passing a stool but there was none of that tonight, just urine. This is incredibly personal but it needs to be recorded.

November

Nov 6 2014

WARNING: VERY PERSONAL
Towards the end of the shower I trimmed my toenails in the shower because it was nice and warm and normally I'd do it after showering which is why I'm mentioning it.

Nov 19 2014

WARNING: VERY PERSONAL
I masturbated in the shower today, the last time being Tuesday Sep 23 2014.

Nov 25 2014

WARNING: VERY PERSONAL
Last night it was a bit chilly and in bed I curled up and put my arms between my legs and had an erection as I drifted off (I wasn't thinking about anything, it just happened) and when the helicopter woke me at 08:55 I had morning glory so I'm guessing the helicopter is for that because this has happened before: I get an erection, a police helicopter hovers over my house.

December

Dec 15 2014

WARNING: VERY PERSONAL
On Thursday Dec 11 2014 I put on my thermal underwear for the first time this year and I know that on a few occasions during the end of this week I've experienced mild erections in bed that I'm assuming were a result of being stuffed into this extra tight thermal layer, the general uncomfortableness of the change and I'm wondering if my monitors/attackers were attempting to capitalise on this i.e. setting me up by forcing a squatting woman with open legs into my view and then claiming/engineering a link between the two. I shouldn't analyse it too much, it's tempting to but I do know it's better to just record this stuff and let somebody else form an opinion on it.

Dec 16 2014

WARNING: VERY PERSONAL
I masturbated in the shower today, the last time being Wednesday Nov 19 2014.

Dec 22 2014

Sunday Dec 21 2014:
WARNING: VERY PERSONAL
...that I masturbated the previous Tuesday Dec 16 2014. They're still even after all this time attempting to create/engineer a link between me masturbating and something outside the house and I think that this is the point of the set-up, simply to force a young woman into my view so that they've got an excuse to ostracise me some more at least -- who knows what the objective is.

Dec 25 2014

WARNING: VERY PERSONAL
I had morning glory when I awoke and I nodded off and reawoke a few times and it was still there but it had gone when I got up at 11:00. I have to record this because I'm being monitored.

Dec 29 2014

WARNING: VERY PERSONAL
I had morning glory when I awoke at 08:00; I was sort of half asleep until 09:00 and then it subsided. I have to record this because I'm being monitored.

Dec 30 2014

WARNING: VERY PERSONAL
I masturbated in the shower today, the last time being Tuesday Dec 16 2014.

2015

January

Jan 6 2015

WARNING: VERY PERSONAL
I masturbated in the shower today, the last time being Tuesday Dec 30 2014.

Jan 15 2015

WARNING: VERY PERSONAL
I masturbated in the shower today, the last time being Tuesday Jan 6 2015.

Jan 21 2015

WARNING: VERY PERSONAL
I masturbated in the shower today, the last time being Thursday Jan 15 2015.

Jan 28 2015

Tuesday Jan 27 2015:
WARNING: VERY PERSONAL
I'm pretty sure I had morning glory early morning but I fell asleep again and it was gone by the time I fully awoke. I masturbated in the shower on this day, the last time being Wednesday Jan 21 2015.

February

Feb 6 2015

Saturday Jan 31 2015:
WARNING: VERY PERSONAL
I had morning glory when I awoke.

Tuesday Feb 3 2015:
WARNING: VERY PERSONAL
I masturbated in the shower on this day.

Wednesday Feb 4 2015:
WARNING: VERY PERSONAL
I had morning glory when I awoke.

Feb 18 2015

Saturday Feb 7 2015:
WARNING: VERY PERSONAL
I possibly had morning glory when I awoke although I've been experiencing eczema/prostrate inflamation and irritation issues which I appear to have fixed (see note lower down).

Sunday Feb 8 2015:
WARNING: VERY PERSONAL
I possibly had morning glory when I awoke although I've been experiencing eczema/prostrate inflamation and irritation issues which I appear to have fixed (see note lower down).

Tuesday Feb 10 2015:
WARNING: VERY PERSONAL
I masturbated in the shower on this day.

Wednesday Feb 11 2015:
WARNING: VERY PERSONAL
I possibly had morning glory when I awoke although I've been experiencing eczema/prostrate inflamation and irritation issues which I appear to have fixed (see note lower down).

Tuesday Feb 17 2015:
WARNING: VERY PERSONAL
I masturbated in the shower on this day.

March

Mar 6 2015

Tuesday Feb 24 2015:
WARNING: VERY PERSONAL
I masturbated in the shower on this day.

Tuesday Mar 3 2015:
WARNING: VERY PERSONAL
I masturbated in bed for a change just before midday since the house was empty.

Mar 6 2015

WARNING: VERY PERSONAL
A note about recent eczema/prostrate issues:
A combination of shaping the cushion that I sit on at my desk with a ridge down the middle to reduce the pressure on my prostrate, being more active with walking and cycling instead of sitting on my backside all day and the [re]introduction of the Friday strip wash has currently fixed my eczema/prostrate issues.

Mar 9 2015

WARNING: VERY PERSONAL
Firstly I want to state that I'm no longer going to record my "morning glory" or as it's formally known "nocturnal penile tumescence" because it's perfectly normal.

Mar 11 2015

Tuesday Mar 10 2015:
WARNING: VERY PERSONAL
I masturbated in the shower on this day.

Mar 27 2015

WARNING: VERY PERSONAL
I was playing a solo session of GTA Online earlier today and on the front of my Valkyrie helicopter was some sexual imagery that I didn't notice before and I found it slightly arousing which is what sexual imagery can do. About 13:42 I heard a loud helicopter that sounded like the type the police use at the rear of my house which then disappeared as quickly as it had arrived and it was more than loud enough for me to hear it over the sound emanating from my PS3 speakers. I've experienced this a lot in the past which is why I'm recording it.

Mar 31 2015

WARNING: VERY PERSONAL
I masturbated in the shower today.

May

May 8 2015

Tuesday Apr 28 2015:
WARNING: VERY PERSONAL
I usually play a GameCube game in bed until 01:30 or thereabouts and then play some freecell on my handheld GP2X gaming device before going to sleep and additionally on this day I flicked through the TV channels and spent several minutes maybe flicking through the Freeview adult channels with the jiggly topless women on their phones. There was a point where I stopped looking at porn and in fact political websites too because of what was happening to me and I think it was Jul 31 2013 so I know that since then I've flicked through the Freeview adult channels at the most five times since. I'm recording this because I think it's important regarding the things that are happening to me in Sainsbury's Chesham from this day onwards although these events that I'm experiencing happen anyway, it's just that I feel my attackers are currently attempting to latch onto this with their set-ups. I masturbated in bed for a change on this day and for reasons of reducing the pressure from my problematic prostrate gland I did it again in the shower.

May 13 2015

WARNING: VERY PERSONAL
I masturbated in the shower today.

May 19 2015

WARNING: VERY PERSONAL
I masturbated in the shower today.

May 26 2015

WARNING: VERY PERSONAL
I masturbated in the shower today.

June

Jun 2 2015

WARNING: VERY PERSONAL
I masturbated in the shower today.

Jun 10 2015

Tuesday Jun 9 2015:
WARNING: VERY PERSONAL
I masturbated in the shower on this day.

Jun 17 2015

WARNING: VERY PERSONAL
I did not masturbate today.

Jun 20 2015

WARNING: VERY PERSONAL
I know now that my attackers are attempting to create links to something specific about my masturbating and I'd thought about it at least since the last time I'd experienced it but I'm certain I've sensed it before that and I know that I've kept it in my memory to detect again but it's been forgotten about: if I caress my bottom when I masturbate then the next time I go out my attackers attempt to insert a woman bending over into my view.

Jun 30 2015

Thursday Jun 25 2015:
WARNING: VERY PERSONAL
I did not masturbate on this day. I haven't been well and I'm still not well and I'm not interested.

July

Jul 7 2015

WARNING: VERY PERSONAL
I masturbated in the shower today.

Wednesday Jul 1 2015:
WARNING: VERY PERSONAL
I masturbated in the shower on this day.

Jul 14 2015

WARNING: VERY PERSONAL
I masturbated in the shower today.

Jul 22 2015

WARNING: VERY PERSONAL
I masturbated in the shower today.

Jul 29 2015

WARNING: VERY PERSONAL
I masturbated in the shower today.

August

Aug 4 2015

WARNING: VERY PERSONAL
I masturbated in the shower today.


Notes:

The following was written on Aug 19 2015:

WARNING: VERY PERSONAL
I intentionally didn't record this at the time because I wanted to rule out having it read from my computer: I caressed my bottom when I masturbated in the shower and my attackers knew this because of their set-up on Saturday Aug 8 2015. I was not in the view of the frosted glass bathroom window when I did this. The bathroom door was closed, the bedroom door the other end of the hallway was closed. My bedroom windows are 4/5ths covered with cardboard sunblinds. The question is what technology are they using that enables them to monitor me at this level.


Aug 7 2015

WARNING: VERY PERSONAL
I masturbated in the bathroom this morning.


Notes:

The following was written on Aug 19 2015:

WARNING: VERY PERSONAL
I intentionally didn't record this at the time because I wanted to rule out having it read from my computer: I caressed my bottom when I masturbated in the bathroom and my attackers knew this because of their set-up on Saturday Aug 8 2015. I was not in the view of the frosted glass bathroom window when I did this. The bathroom door was closed, the bedroom door the other end of the hallway was closed. My bedroom windows are 4/5ths covered with cardboard sunblinds. The question is what technology are they using that enables them to monitor me at this level.


Aug 14 2015

WARNING: VERY PERSONAL
I masturbated in the shower today.


Notes:

The following was written on Aug 19 2015:

WARNING: VERY PERSONAL
I was not in the view of the frosted glass bathroom window when I did this. The bathroom door was closed, the bedroom door the other end of the hallway was closed. My bedroom windows are 4/5ths covered with cardboard sunblinds.


Aug 21 2015

Thursday Aug 20 2015:
WARNING: VERY PERSONAL
I masturbated in the shower on this day. I was not in the view of the frosted glass bathroom window when I did this. The bathroom door was closed, the bedroom door the other end of the hallway was closed. My bedroom windows are 4/5ths covered with cardboard sunblinds.

Aug 28 2015

WARNING: VERY PERSONAL
I masturbated in the shower today. I was not in the view of the frosted glass bathroom window when I did this. The bathroom door was closed, the bedroom door the other end of the hallway was closed. My bedroom windows are 4/5ths covered with cardboard sunblinds.

September

Sep 10 2015

Monday Sep 7 2015:
WARNING: VERY PERSONAL
Regarding the suspicious combat attired woman: I think the previous night of Sunday Sep 6 2015 I had a mild erection when I was in bed all nice and comfy playing something on my GameBoy Advance SP and I'm wondering if that woman -- her backside in particular -- was meant to be inserted into my view, that she was there for that reason, that she was a police woman who was in the area and was alerted to me being outside the back gate so she just removed her obvious police clothing.

I don't appear to have had a shower (nor masturbated in the shower) since Friday Aug 28 2015, I haven't recorded it and neither can I remember having one. I seem to have lost a week and possibly it was because I had a shower on a Friday and it's messed up my routine.

WARNING: VERY PERSONAL
I masturbated in the shower today. I was not in the view of the frosted glass bathroom window when I did this. The bathroom door was closed, the bedroom door the other end of the hallway was closed. My bedroom windows are 4/5ths covered with cardboard sunblinds.

Sep 15 2015

WARNING: VERY PERSONAL
I masturbated in the shower today. I was not in the view of the frosted glass bathroom window when I did this. The bathroom door was closed, the bedroom door the other end of the hallway was closed. My bedroom windows are 4/5ths covered with cardboard sunblinds.

Sep 25 2015

WARNING: VERY PERSONAL
I masturbated in the shower today. I was not in the view of the frosted glass bathroom window when I did this. The bathroom door was closed, the bedroom door the other end of the hallway was closed. My bedroom windows are 4/5ths covered with cardboard sunblinds.

Sep 29 2015

WARNING: VERY PERSONAL
I masturbated in the shower today. I was not in the view of the frosted glass bathroom window when I did this. The bathroom door was closed, the bedroom door the other end of the hallway was closed. My bedroom windows are 4/5ths covered with cardboard sunblinds.

October

Oct 8 2015


Notes:

The following was written on May 12 2016:

WARNING: VERY PERSONAL
I masturbated in the shower today. I was not in the view of the frosted glass bathroom window when I did this. The bathroom door was closed, the bedroom door the other end of the hallway was closed. My bedroom windows are 4/5ths covered with cardboard sunblinds.


Oct 17 2015


Notes:

The following was written on May 12 2016:

WARNING: VERY PERSONAL
I masturbated in the shower today. I was not in the view of the frosted glass bathroom window when I did this. The bathroom door was closed, the bedroom door the other end of the hallway was closed. My bedroom windows are 4/5ths covered with cardboard sunblinds.


Oct 24 2015


Notes:

The following was written on May 12 2016:

WARNING: VERY PERSONAL
I masturbated in the shower today. I was not in the view of the frosted glass bathroom window when I did this. The bathroom door was closed, the bedroom door the other end of the hallway was closed. My bedroom windows are 4/5ths covered with cardboard sunblinds.


Oct 31 2015


Notes:

The following was written on May 12 2016:

WARNING: VERY PERSONAL
I masturbated in the shower today. I was not in the view of the frosted glass bathroom window when I did this. The bathroom door was closed, the bedroom door the other end of the hallway was closed. My bedroom windows are 4/5ths covered with cardboard sunblinds.


November

Nov 7 2015


Notes:

The following was written on May 12 2016:

WARNING: VERY PERSONAL
I masturbated in the shower today. I was not in the view of the frosted glass bathroom window when I did this. The bathroom door was closed, the bedroom door the other end of the hallway was closed. My bedroom windows are 4/5ths covered with cardboard sunblinds.


Nov 11 2015

WARNING: VERY PERSONAL
I masturbated in the shower today. I was not in the view of the frosted glass bathroom window when I did this. The bathroom door was closed, the bedroom door the other end of the hallway was closed. My bedroom windows are 4/5ths covered with cardboard sunblinds.

Since I've discovered that my attackers are setting me up when I go out with prostrate/eczema inflammation/irritation I'm going to shower and masturbate twice a week. I have been getting off colour and lumpy prostrate fluid (I've mentioned this before on Jul 15 2014, Thames Valley Police would have had access to this diary online, they would know this) but I didn't get this today and it would be because ejaculating once a week isn't enough and I've been sitting on two cushions folded over so that there's a gap in the middle to keep the pressure off of my prostrate gland. I've also been drinking a lot more water and I find it beneficial to urinate after showering and ejaculating presumably because it clears the pipes.

I'm not doing anything new here, this is what my life used to be like before my attackers started intimidating me with police helicopters when I got an erection or masturbated. It feels to me as though they know how I manage my system to make it better and that they've intentionally made my health worse so that the inflammation and irritation in my groin gets worse and more frequent which they then use against me by warning people about me everywhere I go and setting me up by hovering women and children around me. I feel massively manipulated -- I've said this all the way through this experience.

Nov 15 2015

Saturday Nov 14 2015:
WARNING: VERY PERSONAL
I masturbated in the shower on this day. I was not in the view of the frosted glass bathroom window when I did this. The bathroom door was closed, the bedroom door the other end of the hallway was closed. My bedroom windows are 4/5ths covered with cardboard sunblinds.

I want to note that the health of my my prostrate gland and eczema is about as good as it gets at the moment. I did still experience a little lumpy prostrate fluid initially but it was minor and it's wasn't off colour. The inflammation and irritation in my groin area is greatly reduced at this time.

Nov 22 2015

Saturday Nov 21 2015:
WARNING: VERY PERSONAL
I masturbated in the shower on this day. I was not in the view of the frosted glass bathroom window when I did this. The bathroom door was closed, the bedroom door the other end of the hallway was closed. My bedroom windows are 4/5ths covered with cardboard sunblinds.

I've got some heat coming from my groin today but it doesn't feel like there's any discomfort from that region. It would've been better to have masturbated/ejaculated midweek but I didn't, I just had a shower last Thursday Nov 19 2015. I'm wearing my thermals now because it's very cold and that warms everything up. I do need to go out and get some supplies but it doesn't have to be today and it's still frozen outside anyway. Now that I'm showering twice a week my eczema is a lot better.

Nov 28 2015

Thursday Nov 26 2015:
WARNING: VERY PERSONAL
I masturbated in the shower on this day. I was not in the view of the frosted glass bathroom window when I did this. The bathroom door was closed, the bedroom door the other end of the hallway was closed. My bedroom windows are 4/5ths covered with cardboard sunblinds.

When urinating at midnight before I went to bed it was possibly the most unobstructed freely flowing urination I've experienced in a long time. I also experienced this the following day on the Friday but you have to work at it, it doesn't stay like that. So at the moment the health of my my prostrate gland and eczema is about as good as it gets.

December

Dec 1 2015

Monday Nov 30 2015:
WARNING: VERY PERSONAL
I masturbated in the shower on this day. I was not in the view of the frosted glass bathroom window when I did this. The bathroom door was closed, the bedroom door the other end of the hallway was closed. My bedroom windows are 4/5ths covered with cardboard sunblinds.

My urine flow is great at the moment, I'd say that there wasn't any heat coming from my groin this morning when I awoke so the inflammation/heat originating from my prostrate gland is currently greatly reduced. My current routine appears to be the right one for my system.

Dec 7 2015

Friday Dec 4 2015:
WARNING: VERY PERSONAL
I masturbated in the shower on this day. I was not in the view of the frosted glass bathroom window when I did this. The bathroom door was closed, the bedroom door the other end of the hallway was closed. My bedroom windows are 4/5ths covered with cardboard sunblinds.

I had really great urine flow when I went to the toilet at midnight.

2016

January

Jan 8 2016

Tuesday Dec 8 2015:
WARNING: VERY PERSONAL
I masturbated in the shower on this day. I was not in the view of the frosted glass bathroom window when I did this. The bathroom door was closed, the bedroom door the other end of the hallway was closed. My bedroom windows are 4/5ths covered with cardboard sunblinds.

Monday Dec 14 2015:
WARNING: VERY PERSONAL
I masturbated in the shower on this day. I was not in the view of the frosted glass bathroom window when I did this. The bathroom door was closed, the bedroom door the other end of the hallway was closed. My bedroom windows are 4/5ths covered with cardboard sunblinds.

Friday Dec 18 2015:
WARNING: VERY PERSONAL
I masturbated in the shower on this day. I was not in the view of the frosted glass bathroom window when I did this. The bathroom door was closed, the bedroom door the other end of the hallway was closed. My bedroom windows are 4/5ths covered with cardboard sunblinds.

Jan 18 2016

Monday Dec 21 2015:
WARNING: VERY PERSONAL
I masturbated in the shower on this day. I was not in the view of the frosted glass bathroom window when I did this. The bathroom door was closed, the bedroom door the other end of the hallway was closed. My bedroom windows are 4/5ths covered with cardboard sunblinds.

Monday Dec 28 2015:
WARNING: VERY PERSONAL
I masturbated in the shower on this day. I was not in the view of the frosted glass bathroom window when I did this. The bathroom door was closed, the bedroom door the other end of the hallway was closed. My bedroom windows are 4/5ths covered with cardboard sunblinds.

Jan 28 2016

Thursday Dec 31 2015:
WARNING: VERY PERSONAL
I masturbated in the shower on this day. I was not in the view of the frosted glass bathroom window when I did this. The bathroom door was closed, the bedroom door the other end of the hallway was closed. My bedroom windows are 4/5ths covered with cardboard sunblinds.

Monday Jan 4 2016:
WARNING: VERY PERSONAL
I masturbated in the shower on this day. I was not in the view of the frosted glass bathroom window when I did this. The bathroom door was closed, the bedroom door the other end of the hallway was closed. My bedroom windows are 4/5ths covered with cardboard sunblinds.

Saturday Jan 9 2016:
WARNING: VERY PERSONAL
I masturbated in the shower on this day. I was not in the view of the frosted glass bathroom window when I did this. The bathroom door was closed, the bedroom door the other end of the hallway was closed. My bedroom windows are 4/5ths covered with cardboard sunblinds.

Jan 29 2016

Wednesday Jan 13 2016:
WARNING: VERY PERSONAL
I masturbated in the shower on this day. I was not in the view of the frosted glass bathroom window when I did this. The bathroom door was closed, the bedroom door the other end of the hallway was closed. My bedroom windows are 4/5ths covered with cardboard sunblinds.

February

Feb 1 2016

Monday Jan 18 2016:
WARNING: VERY PERSONAL
When I woke up on this day -- which I was expecting to be my personal grooming/body maintenance day -- I had some sexual thoughts about somebody that I'm not going to mention here (the IPCC can ask me and I'll tell them) and I had an erection. I want to make it clear that since I went out the previous day shopping in Harrow-on-the-Hill and Watford and interacted with a few people that it has nothing to do with them and since I've been under this attack I don't look at people otherwise. From this day onwards for about a period of a week I had quite a restricted urethra (swollen prostrate gland) and a lot of heat and irritation coming from my groin.

April

Apr 14 2016

Wednesday Jan 20 2016:
WARNING: VERY PERSONAL
I masturbated in the shower on this day. I was not in the view of the frosted glass bathroom window when I did this. The bathroom door was closed, the bedroom door the other end of the hallway was closed. My bedroom windows are 4/5ths covered with cardboard sunblinds.

Thursday Jan 28 2016:
WARNING: VERY PERSONAL
I masturbated in the shower on this day. I was not in the view of the frosted glass bathroom window when I did this. The bathroom door was closed, the bedroom door the other end of the hallway was closed. My bedroom windows are 4/5ths covered with cardboard sunblinds.

Apr 15 2016

Monday Feb 1 2016:
WARNING: VERY PERSONAL
I masturbated in the shower on this day. I was not in the view of the frosted glass bathroom window when I did this. The bathroom door was closed, the bedroom door the other end of the hallway was closed. My bedroom windows are 4/5ths covered with cardboard sunblinds.

Friday Feb 5 2016:
WARNING: VERY PERSONAL
I masturbated in the shower on this day. I was not in the view of the frosted glass bathroom window when I did this. The bathroom door was closed, the bedroom door the other end of the hallway was closed. My bedroom windows are 4/5ths covered with cardboard sunblinds.

Apr 20 2016

Tuesday Feb 9 2016:
WARNING: VERY PERSONAL
I masturbated in the shower on this day. I was not in the view of the frosted glass bathroom window when I did this. The bathroom door was closed, the bedroom door the other end of the hallway was closed. My bedroom windows are 4/5ths covered with cardboard sunblinds.

Saturday Feb 13 2016:
WARNING: VERY PERSONAL
I masturbated when I awoke in bed as I wasn't expecting my mother to go out and she didn't. I did my laundry and showered later in the day about 13:30 as normal.

Apr 22 2016

Tuesday Feb 16 2016:
WARNING: VERY PERSONAL
I masturbated in the shower on this day. I was not in the view of the frosted glass bathroom window when I did this. The bathroom door was closed, the bedroom door the other end of the hallway was closed. My bedroom windows are 4/5ths covered with cardboard sunblinds.

Tuesday Feb 23 2016:
WARNING: VERY PERSONAL
I masturbated in the shower on this day. I was not in the view of the frosted glass bathroom window when I did this. The bathroom door was closed, the bedroom door the other end of the hallway was closed. My bedroom windows are 4/5ths covered with cardboard sunblinds.

Saturday Feb 27 2016:
WARNING: VERY PERSONAL
I masturbated in the shower on this day. I was not in the view of the frosted glass bathroom window when I did this. The bathroom door was closed, the bedroom door the other end of the hallway was closed. My bedroom windows are 4/5ths covered with cardboard sunblinds.

Tuesday Mar 1 2016:
WARNING: VERY PERSONAL
I masturbated in the shower on this day. I was not in the view of the frosted glass bathroom window when I did this. The bathroom door was closed, the bedroom door the other end of the hallway was closed. My bedroom windows are 4/5ths covered with cardboard sunblinds.

Friday Mar 4 2016:
WARNING: VERY PERSONAL
I masturbated in the shower on this day. I was not in the view of the frosted glass bathroom window when I did this. The bathroom door was closed, the bedroom door the other end of the hallway was closed. My bedroom windows are 4/5ths covered with cardboard sunblinds.

Apr 27 2016

Tuesday Mar 8 2016:
WARNING: VERY PERSONAL
I masturbated in the shower on this day. I was not in the view of the frosted glass bathroom window when I did this. The bathroom door was closed, the bedroom door the other end of the hallway was closed. My bedroom windows are 4/5ths covered with cardboard sunblinds.

Saturday Mar 12 2016:
WARNING: VERY PERSONAL
I masturbated in the shower on this day. I was not in the view of the frosted glass bathroom window when I did this. The bathroom door was closed, the bedroom door the other end of the hallway was closed. My bedroom windows are 4/5ths covered with cardboard sunblinds.

Apr 28 2016

Tuesday Mar 15 2016:
WARNING: VERY PERSONAL
I masturbated in the shower on this day. I was not in the view of the frosted glass bathroom window when I did this. The bathroom door was closed, the bedroom door the other end of the hallway was closed. My bedroom windows are 4/5ths covered with cardboard sunblinds.

Saturday Mar 19 2016:
WARNING: VERY PERSONAL
I didn't masturbate in the shower on this day because I didn't like what was going on the previous day and I don't want my attackers to create links.

May

May 6 2016

Tuesday Mar 22 2016:
WARNING: VERY PERSONAL
I didn't masturbate in the shower on this day because I didn't have the house to myself.

Sunday Mar 27 2016:
WARNING: VERY PERSONAL
I didn't masturbate in the shower on this day. I decided to keep this going for a while because the police van on Friday Mar 18 2016 outside the train station ticking over with its doors open I took to be a threat that they were going to put me in it.

May 10 2016

Wednesday Mar 30 2016:
WARNING: VERY PERSONAL
I didn't masturbate in the shower on this day.

Sunday Apr 3 2016:
WARNING: VERY PERSONAL
I didn't masturbate in the shower on this day.

Tuesday Apr 5 2016:
WARNING: VERY PERSONAL
I masturbated in the shower on this day. I was not in the view of the frosted glass bathroom window when I did this. The bathroom door was closed, the bedroom door the other end of the hallway was closed. My bedroom windows are 4/5ths covered with cardboard sunblinds.

The last time I masturbated was Tuesday Mar 15 2016 (I didn't realise it was that long ago) and over that period my urethra was very restricted because of my prostrate gland and I've documented this many times before. I was getting up in the morning with intense morning glory that hurt and the majority of the time throughout the day my urine flow was very restricted -- I'm now putting an end to that misery and returning to my usual routine. I am interested to see if the white light aircraft returns tomorrow.

Friday Apr 8 2016:
WARNING: VERY PERSONAL
I masturbated in the shower on this day. I was not in the view of the frosted glass bathroom window when I did this. The bathroom door was closed, the bedroom door the other end of the hallway was closed. My bedroom windows are 4/5ths covered with cardboard sunblinds.

Wednesday Apr 13 2016:
WARNING: VERY PERSONAL
I masturbated in the shower on this day. I was not in the view of the frosted glass bathroom window when I did this. The bathroom door was closed, the bedroom door the other end of the hallway was closed. My bedroom windows are 4/5ths covered with cardboard sunblinds.

Friday Apr 15 2016:
WARNING: VERY PERSONAL
I masturbated in the shower on this day. I was not in the view of the frosted glass bathroom window when I did this. The bathroom door was closed, the bedroom door the other end of the hallway was closed. My bedroom windows are 4/5ths covered with cardboard sunblinds.

Tuesday Apr 19 2016:
WARNING: VERY PERSONAL
I masturbated in the shower on this day. I was not in the view of the frosted glass bathroom window when I did this. The bathroom door was closed, the bedroom door the other end of the hallway was closed. My bedroom windows are 4/5ths covered with cardboard sunblinds.

May 11 2016

Tuesday Apr 26 2016:
WARNING: VERY PERSONAL
I masturbated in the shower on this day. I was not in the view of the frosted glass bathroom window when I did this. The bathroom door was closed, the bedroom door the other end of the hallway was closed. My bedroom windows are 4/5ths covered with cardboard sunblinds.

Thursday Apr 28 2016:
WARNING: VERY PERSONAL
There is something that I completely overlooked that happened when I awoke which I need to record: I was dreaming that I was giving a woman wearing black knickers and black bra cunnilingus and it was a very brief dream and then I awoke with morning glory but I can't say that I was feeling sexual, I got up and went to the bathroom to go to the toilet and get washed as normal and that was the end of it. It meant so little that I forgot about it and it didn't mean anything to me. I can't remember the last time that happened, it's very rare and I don't know where it came from. I know that my attackers have super-sensitive surveillance equipment through a big thick sheet of carboard that I use as a sunblind blocking my window and I need to record this in case as I expect that they were monitoring it. I want to make it clear that it made absolutely no difference to the way that I conducted myself throughout the day. I suspect that my attackers are looking for things like this that they can work something into.

Sunday May 1 2016:
WARNING: VERY PERSONAL
I masturbated in the shower on this day. I was not in the view of the frosted glass bathroom window when I did this. The bathroom door was closed, the bedroom door the other end of the hallway was closed. My bedroom windows are 4/5ths covered with cardboard sunblinds.

Tuesday May 3 2016:
WARNING: VERY PERSONAL
I masturbated in the shower on this day. I was not in the view of the frosted glass bathroom window when I did this. The bathroom door was closed, the bedroom door the other end of the hallway was closed. My bedroom windows are 4/5ths covered with cardboard sunblinds.

Sunday May 8 2016:
WARNING: VERY PERSONAL
I didn't masturbate in the shower on this day because I went to Primark Wembley Park yesterday and I was probably at the centre of some big operation so I simply refrained from doing it to stop my attackers from creating links.

Wednesday May 11 2016:
WARNING: VERY PERSONAL
I masturbated in the shower on this day. I was not in the view of the frosted glass bathroom window when I did this. The bathroom door was closed, the bedroom door the other end of the hallway was closed. My bedroom windows are 4/5ths covered with cardboard sunblinds.

May 14 2016

WARNING: VERY PERSONAL
I masturbated in the shower on this day. I was not in the view of the frosted glass bathroom window when I did this. The bathroom door was closed, the bedroom door the other end of the hallway was closed. My bedroom windows are 4/5ths covered with cardboard sunblinds.

May 17 2016

WARNING: VERY PERSONAL
I masturbated in the shower on this day. I was not in the view of the frosted glass bathroom window when I did this. The bathroom door was closed, the bedroom door the other end of the hallway was closed. My bedroom windows are 4/5ths covered with cardboard sunblinds.

May 20 2016

WARNING: VERY PERSONAL
I didn't masturbate in the shower today because yesterday I detected a set-up.

May 24 2016

WARNING: VERY PERSONAL
I masturbated in the shower on this day. I was not in the view of the frosted glass bathroom window when I did this. The bathroom door was closed, the bedroom door the other end of the hallway was closed. My bedroom windows are 4/5ths covered with cardboard sunblinds.

May 29 2016

Saturday May 28 2016:
WARNING: VERY PERSONAL
I didn't masturbate in the shower today because I did want to go out but in the end I did my laundry and played Minecraft on my PS3.

June

Jun 1 2016

Tuesday May 31 2016:
WARNING: VERY PERSONAL
I didn't masturbate in the shower today because I didn't have the house to myself.

Jun 6 2016

Friday Jun 3 2016:
WARNING: VERY PERSONAL
I didn't masturbate in the shower today because I've detected set-ups this week and I don't want to give my attackers the opportunity to create links.

Jun 8 2016

WARNING: VERY PERSONAL
I masturbated in the shower on this day. I was not in the view of the frosted glass bathroom window when I did this. The bathroom door was closed, the bedroom door the other end of the hallway was closed. My bedroom windows are 4/5ths covered with cardboard sunblinds.

I didn't masturbate for any other reason than my urine flow is starting to decrease which is expected and as I've stated before this helps. Today is Wednesday and normally I shower on a Tuesday but I didn't have the house to myself yesterday and I knew that I would today.

Jun 11 2016

Friday Jun 10 2016:
WARNING: VERY PERSONAL
I didn't masturbate in the shower on this day because I took a shower in the morning and I wanted to go out.

Jun 14 2016

WARNING: VERY PERSONAL
I masturbated in the shower on this day. I was not in the view of the frosted glass bathroom window when I did this. The bathroom door was closed, the bedroom door the other end of the hallway was closed. My bedroom windows are 4/5ths covered with cardboard sunblinds.

What I mean by making adjustments to my personal grooming/body maintenance day is that I don't masturbate because the police vans passing me every time I go out are making me fearful that they are going to do something to me.

Jun 18 2016

WARNING: VERY PERSONAL
I masturbated in the shower on this day. I was not in the view of the frosted glass bathroom window when I did this. The bathroom door was closed, the bedroom door the other end of the hallway was closed. My bedroom windows are 4/5ths covered with cardboard sunblinds.

23:01 My prostrate fluid was lumpy today but my waterworks feel great now.

Jun 21 2016

WARNING: VERY PERSONAL
I masturbated in the shower on this day. I was not in the view of the frosted glass bathroom window when I did this. The bathroom door was closed, the bedroom door the other end of the hallway was closed. My bedroom windows are 4/5ths covered with cardboard sunblinds.

23:48 My prostrate fluid is still a bit weird but it'll sort itself out.

Jun 25 2016

WARNING: VERY PERSONAL
I masturbated in the shower on this day. I was not in the view of the frosted glass bathroom window when I did this. The bathroom door was closed, the bedroom door the other end of the hallway was closed. My bedroom windows are 4/5ths covered with cardboard sunblinds.

23:55 My prostrate fluid is still a bit weird but my bladder feels good and my urine flow is fine.

Jun 29 2016

WARNING: VERY PERSONAL
I didn't masturbate in the shower today because I didn't have the house to myself.

23:48 My bladder feels good at the moment and my urine flow is fine.

July

Jul 3 2016

WARNING: VERY PERSONAL
I didn't masturbate in the shower today. I usually have a shower on a Saturday but it was my dad's birthday yesterday and we had a meal together with wine so I left it until today and I do want to go out today.

12:31 My bladder feels great at the moment and my urine flow has been excellent for the last few days.

Jul 5 2016

WARNING: VERY PERSONAL
I masturbated in the shower on this day. I was not in the view of the frosted glass bathroom window when I did this. The bathroom door was closed, the bedroom door the other end of the hallway was closed. My bedroom windows are 4/5ths covered with cardboard sunblinds.

16:40 My prostrate fluid was lumpy today but my waterworks are in good condition.

Jul 9 2016


Notes:

The following was written on Nov 7 2016:

WARNING: VERY PERSONAL
I masturbated in the shower on this day. I was not in the view of the frosted glass bathroom window when I did this. The bathroom door was closed, the bedroom door the other end of the hallway was closed. My bedroom windows are 4/5ths covered with cardboard sunblinds.

I watched some porn videos the previous night of Friday Jul 8 2016 because I was getting fed up of just doing it quickly in the shower with the possibility of leaving me with inflammation and I wanted to prepare my mechanics properly so that my prostrate fluid letting exercise was more successful and complete like it used to be before my attackers started messing around with my life.


Jul 12 2016


Notes:

The following was written on Nov 7 2016:

WARNING: VERY PERSONAL
I masturbated in the shower on this day. I was not in the view of the frosted glass bathroom window when I did this. The bathroom door was closed, the bedroom door the other end of the hallway was closed. My bedroom windows are 4/5ths covered with cardboard sunblinds.


Jul 17 2016


Notes:

The following was written on Nov 7 2016:

WARNING: VERY PERSONAL
I didn't masturbate in the shower today.


Jul 19 2016

WARNING: VERY PERSONAL
I masturbated in the shower on this day. I was not in the view of the frosted glass bathroom window when I did this. The bathroom door was closed, the bedroom door the other end of the hallway was closed. My bedroom windows are 4/5ths covered with cardboard sunblinds.

Jul 23 2016

WARNING: VERY PERSONAL
I masturbated in the shower on this day. I was not in the view of the frosted glass bathroom window when I did this. The bathroom door was closed, the bedroom door the other end of the hallway was closed. My bedroom windows are 4/5ths covered with cardboard sunblinds.

Jul 26 2016


Notes:

The following was written on Nov 9 2016:

WARNING: VERY PERSONAL
I masturbated in the shower on this day. I was not in the view of the frosted glass bathroom window when I did this. The bathroom door was closed, the bedroom door the other end of the hallway was closed. My bedroom windows are 4/5ths covered with cardboard sunblinds.


Jul 30 2016

WARNING: VERY PERSONAL
I masturbated in the shower on this day. I was not in the view of the frosted glass bathroom window when I did this. The bathroom door was closed, the bedroom door the other end of the hallway was closed. My bedroom windows are 4/5ths covered with cardboard sunblinds.

August

Aug 2 2016

WARNING: VERY PERSONAL
I masturbated in the shower on this day. I was not in the view of the frosted glass bathroom window when I did this. The bathroom door was closed, the bedroom door the other end of the hallway was closed. My bedroom windows are 4/5ths covered with cardboard sunblinds.

Aug 6 2016

WARNING: VERY PERSONAL
I masturbated in the shower on this day. I was not in the view of the frosted glass bathroom window when I did this. The bathroom door was closed, the bedroom door the other end of the hallway was closed. My bedroom windows are 4/5ths covered with cardboard sunblinds.

Aug 9 2016

WARNING: VERY PERSONAL
I masturbated in the shower on this day. I was not in the view of the frosted glass bathroom window when I did this. The bathroom door was closed, the bedroom door the other end of the hallway was closed. My bedroom windows are 4/5ths covered with cardboard sunblinds.

Aug 13 2016

WARNING: VERY PERSONAL
I masturbated in the shower on this day. I was not in the view of the frosted glass bathroom window when I did this. The bathroom door was closed, the bedroom door the other end of the hallway was closed. My bedroom windows are 4/5ths covered with cardboard sunblinds.

Aug 16 2016

WARNING: VERY PERSONAL
I masturbated in the shower on this day. I was not in the view of the frosted glass bathroom window when I did this. The bathroom door was closed, the bedroom door the other end of the hallway was closed. My bedroom windows are 4/5ths covered with cardboard sunblinds.

Sep 10 2016

WARNING: VERY PERSONAL
Late last evening and a little past midnight I downloaded some porn videos using the Tor Browser, transferred them to a USB flash drive and watched them on my PS3 because I wasn't planning on going out today and I decided to ejaculate for the purposes of maintaining my body and I wanted to experiment with the heat that fluctuates throughout my groin area so that I could document it and assist with troubleshooting it. It wasn't easy to do this because if my attackers had detected that I was doing this then I could've experienced a police helicopter hovering around my house and police vehicles flying up my hill with flashing lights so I downloaded the material and transferred it without facing directly out of my room. I ejaculated at about 03:00 and again at about 09:00 and I noted at 10:04 after showering that my groin area was body temperature. I thought that I'd do it one more time to completely void myself and I did this in the early afternoon but I can't remember what time it was. Following this my groin area temperature rose to very warm and it stayed like this up until I'd documented it reducing at 22:28. During the afternoon and evening I felt quite down and it's because my attackers have made me feel really bad about doing this but to me it's just body maintenance and in this case it was additionally scientific and I just had to get on with it.

Sep 17 2016

WARNING: VERY PERSONAL
Late last evening I downloaded some porn videos using the Tor Browser, transferred them to a USB flash drive and watched them on my PS3 after midnight. I ejaculated about 02:00 and again somewhere around 09:00 to release prostate fluid for the purposes of maintaining my body and I haven't yet documented what my groin area temperature has been but it's pretty much been body temperature and if it has been warmer then it wasn't particularly noticeable. There was a little bit of discomfort earlier today obviously because I've stressed out my prostate gland but it's been fine for a long while now and I've been watching music concerts on YouTube for much of the day and I just haven't been nagged by my groin area at all so I haven't even been thinking about it which is rare and very welcome. Maybe this new routine is starting to benefit me and possibly the pumpkin seeds are doing something now.L

Sep 24 2016

WARNING: VERY PERSONAL
After midnight I downloaded some porn videos using the Tor Browser, transferred them to a USB flash drive and watched them on my PS3. I ejaculated about 03:00 and again somewhere around 09:00 to release prostate fluid for the purposes of maintaining my body.

October

Oct 1 2016

WARNING: VERY PERSONAL
After midnight I downloaded some porn videos using the Tor Browser, transferred them to a USB flash drive and watched them on my PS3. I ejaculated about 03:00 and again somewhere around 09:00 to release prostate fluid for the purposes of maintaining my body.

Oct 8 2016

WARNING: VERY PERSONAL
After midnight I downloaded some porn videos using the Tor Browser, transferred them to a USB flash drive but I didn't watch them as I was playing Minecraft and I was tired and I didn't want to ejaculate so they were there for the morning. There was a helicopter that sounded like a police helicopter flying about and I heard it on two occasions somewhere between 00:30 and 01:30 and I did look on the flightradar24 website and nothing was showing and police helicopters don't show up. I ejaculated about 10:00 and again before I got in the shower somewhere around 13:30 to release prostate fluid for the purposes of maintaining my body.

Oct 15 2016

WARNING: VERY PERSONAL
On this day I watched some previously downloaded porn videos that are on a USB flash drive inserted into my PS3 for the purpose of successfully letting my prostrate fluid to reduce the pressure within my prostrate gland and help provide an unrestricted as possible urine flow.

November

Nov 12 2016

WARNING: VERY PERSONAL
This morning at about 08:30 I decided to ejaculate today because my urine flow has been restricted recently which I've noted and I haven't ejaculated since Saturday Oct 15 2016 so I watched some porn videos that I still have on my USB flash drive inserted into my PS3 for the purpose of ejaculating and letting my prostrate fluid. I did experience restricted urine flow when I went to the toilet beforehand and my penis felt numb so I had to be careful to take my time and it didn't hurt when I ejaculated which minimises the inflammation that I can experience afterwards.

Nov 17 2016

WARNING: VERY PERSONAL
I watched some porn videos and ejaculated about 10:00 and then again about 12:30 and I trimmed my body hair because I've got an eczema patch in my groin area and then I took a full shower.